Wednesday, January 31, 2024

my understanding is that unrwa is a major employer in gaza, which has an aid-reliant economy.

it's certainly shocking to hear that un workers were involved in the carnage, but i haven't seen any evidence that it was organized by unrwa management or any good argument to blame unrwa itself for what happened. if the concern is that it's been infiltrated by hamas, that is a broad concern that needs to be more coherently addressed; hamas needs to be destroyed, but unrwa is, on it's face, a secular aid organization and the kind of group that should be funded to counter islamicist influence. the american right has been keying on this group for decades and the fact that it isn't christian probably is a key part of that.

state funding in the levant should go strictly to secularist, non-faith groups in order to incentivize them to move away from their faith and the un is the right body to organize those groups.

Monday, January 29, 2024

the liberal party of canada doesn't believe in free speech and it's an increasingly worrying problem.

Sunday, January 28, 2024

the icj asked israel to try not to break the law.

ok.
my mother has to understand that i don't love her and don't want her in my life. i have no obligation to love or care for my mother, and my mother does not deserve reciprocal care, as she did not provide me any. she deserves to die alone in a homeless shelter.

she's a slow learner, apparently.

it's imperative that i'm as rude and hostile with her as i possibly can be to ensure that she never tries to contact me ever again.

Friday, January 26, 2024

the orchiectomy hasn't resulted in the outcome i desired, so i've made the decision to call around on monday about taking the next step, which is a vaginoplasty.

there's two reasons i intended to avoid a vaginoplasty. the first is that i wanted to live a life as a female and go out and have fun, not spend my life in therapy. i have no respect whatsoever for psychiatry; i think it's abject pseudoscience, total quackery. i consider therapy to be a stupid waste of time. yet, it's required to get surgery, and in fact a large amount of it is required, and it's quite deep. i am not looking forward to it. the second is that i'm generally risk averse. this is a substantive surgery and something might go wrong. i don't need it the way a person needs surgery to remove a tumour, for example.

i thought that just cutting my balls off would have the effect i wanted.

i think that the reason it hasn't worked is that i'm being drugged, but i'm nonetheless exasperated. i can't get people to leave me alone and i'm fed up. i need to just chop it off and be done with it and tell the retards to go bother somebody else.

Thursday, January 25, 2024

what's happening in the west bank with the settlements is a genocide in slow motion, but the israelis have been abundantly clear that they don't want settlements in gaza because it's outside of historical judaea. gaza is where the philistines, a greek tribe that settled in the region during the bronze age collapse and is the etymological source of the term palestine, were from. there weren't jews in gaza during the biblical period.

that sounds crazy and it certainly is but it's also the reality of it. israel is happy to pile bodies into gaza like a prison, but it doesn't want control of it. unfortunately, what they learned in october is that that isn't sustainable and that they're going to need to assert more control over the region to maintain security at the border. the operation in gaza is best described as a police action, not a war or a genocide,

the way you phrase these questions is imperative if you want a ruling in your favour and my interpretation is that south africa flubbed the prosecution by making it about gaza instead of the west bank. yet, this is really a political ploy intended for home role south africans, who have seen minimal increases in their quality of life since the end of white rule. it turns out south africa wasn't about race after all, it was about class. this is a distraction tactic intended for internal consumption.

i think they should convert the palestinians back to judaism, as a start, and those that insist on fighting israel to the death deserve to die. this is a culture with no future.

Wednesday, January 24, 2024

that's right, it was a fascist attack by thugs and bullies called police officers on the right to freedom of assembly with no justification whatsoever.

this is horrific, and i hope the whole council gets fired over it.

Monday, January 22, 2024

i think there were a lot of stupid things said about donald trump after 2016. particularly, i'm referring to the idea that trump is some kind of a scary dictator. you can say a lot of mean things about trump that are true, but it's rather objectively clear that he's not particularly authoritarian. trump is less authoritarian than most republicans and less likely to pass arcane laws trying to tell you what to do, but the problem lies in his broad level of disinterest in civil rights one way or another. trump might not care what you do or don't do, but he'll quickly negotiate civil rights for a financial interest. it was the supreme court that banned abortion at the state level, and even that required a negotiated trade from donald trump.

this is different than a bush-cheney type affair and more like the cluelessness of reagan. reagan was scary because he was stupid, not because he was evil. in fact, biden is the insider with the cia connections and the deep state roots. trump is certainly concerning, but he's concerning in his disinterest rather than his desire to control. he likely couldn't figure out how to hurt you if he wanted to. i'm not afraid of donald trump the way i was afraid of bush.

i would rather they run somebody else because i think biden is a catastrophe that needs to be removed from office and trump is no solution to that problem. i did not endorse a candidate in 2020 and will not endorse a candidate in a rematch. however, while i don't like any of these candidates, i might endorse haley to get rid of biden. i am a sickle-waving, card-carrying communist, i'm not a conservative or a republican, but i realize how scary biden is and would want to vote against him any responsible way i could. they all suck, but haley is a better choice than biden and a better choice than harris.

moderate republicans have a chance to take control, here, and they should.
nikki haley actually now has a serious path to the republican nomination.

Sunday, January 21, 2024

i think i'm officially in need of getting out of the house, as i'm experiencing something between synesthesia and second-hand meth psychosis, which is roughly described as hearing the various appliances make harmonic music with each other. it's quite odd, but strangely compelling in a post-eno manner.

post-eno.

i've spent most of my life denying i'm going crazy.

this time, however, the suggestion may be grounded.
this is long overdue, so why was it never a private member's bill?

i just want to clarify a point.

the people that moved in / hang out upstairs in my house are not my friends. in fact, they're objectively the biggest losers in town. there's something like five 30 or 40 somethings that want to start a club get fucked up on meth and listen to out of date 80s club music but there's no demographic for it so they rented a garage on my rental property instead and want to have house parties upstairs. it would seems as though i was supposed to like these people, but i don't want to hang out with them either and i actually think i may have strenuously avoided a couple of them at leland several years ago.

they keep yelling at me to "play skinny puppy", as though they rented my sound system. they did not rent my sound system and i will not take requests. however, i might play the cure or u2 instead of skinny puppy, just to piss them off.

i hope i don't have to run into these people again in real life. they're not people i'd want to be friends with. at all.

at the root cause of this problem is some immature 40+ year-old lesbians going through a midlife crisis that bought the house a few months ago. i don't care much for them, either.

i'm waiting the situation out, but these are not people i'd want to hang out with, remotely. these people are losers by every definition of the term. please don't think they're my friends, because they're not; i would find that embarrassing.
it sounds brash but the reality is that he's right and all informed observers know it: there will not be separate states, they will need to co-exist in one or perhaps even in a regional one.

i've been tripping out all over myself this evening thinking i'm hearing my own music playing in the washing machine or the fans, without being able to identify it or rule it out.

"there's a melody in everything. i'm trying to find a harmony but nothing seems to work. nothing seems to fit."

the truth is that it's reflective of how quiet it is in here, and how many appliances are running in a small space.

i'm lucky i haven't lost my mind yet.

Wednesday, January 17, 2024

"It would be unfair to forgive unpaid balances because in effect, you'd be penalizing the businesses that did what they needed to do to get those loans paid back,"

that may be true, but who cares? the government shouldn't be concerned with these childish visions of the economy as some kind of game with winners and losers. rather, it needs to look at the broader social consequences of potentially allowing thousands of businesses to default.

i don't have the data in front of me, but the government cannot allow a massive default to take place. stepping in might not be "fair" from some cutthroat perspective of competitive market capitalism, but it would be the responsible thing for a modern government to do in a modern economy. the government should behave responsibly in preventing default and tell the market advocates to fuck off.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/business/ceba-loan-not-extended-1.7085696

this is so utterly backwards.

tear the rotting dilapidated structures down and build affordable housing in their place.

Sunday, January 14, 2024

yemen is a backwater and the houthis are hopeless barbarians. they'll fight with whoever their neighbours are for the foreseeable future.

the situation with hezbollah in lebanon is more newsworthy.

that said, southern yemen would also be a strategic place for us central command to put a naval base, across from where the chinese are setting up. it may be beneficial to just wipe them out and set up.
the fake left's insistence on supporting these barbarian houthi groups is an example of the worst kind of performative posteuring. it's just an excuse to criticize the saudis, and while the saudis deserve criticism, this is more or less the worst possible way to criticize them; of all the horrible things the saudis are doing every day, their bombing campaign of a legitimate terrorist group ought to be of least concern.

the reality is that the framing here is inaccurate. the americans are not launching strikes against some kind of rebel groups, they're retaliating to protect their shipping interests and are probably taking out literal iranian weapons sites. it is inconceivable that the united states could look the other way and ignore it's commercial interests getting bombed.

the reality is that the people that live in this region have a very long history of attacking trade interests, going back into antiquity. these are literal barbarians, and they've been bombing caravans for centuries.

Thursday, January 11, 2024

i don't like the fact that i have to do this, but it's the reality of the situation. i have a stalker that is obsessed with me that is keying in on specific things that are not real and that is currently living upstairs. i would surmise that the individual has some kind of schizophrenia which, combined with "medicinal" drug use, has led her to be unable to process reality. i tell her the same things over and over and she isn't mentally capable of processing them if they don't align with her preconceptions. she may have an educational background in some kind of psychology, as well, which is not helpful in understanding reality as it's just pseudoscientific babble. however, her training in freudian or lacanian or whatever pseudoscience may have left her so confused that she can't process reality and it may be a substantive hindrance in getting facts and evidence through to her.

i am not getting anywhere communicating with this woman; she is utterly hopeless. i need to go over her head.

the woman is in search of the "real inri", which she believes is represented by this picture, which i had on the inri youtube site falling off the mock narrative:



further, the woman has apparently been confused by the narrative mechanism, in that she seems to think that this is a recent picture and i'm narrating recent events, despite the clear dates on the blog posts. she is apparently looking for a young man named inri that looks like i did in this picture and is confused that she can't find one here in the apartment.

the narrative tells the story of my music production beginnings from my perspective as a young person, in the 90s. the picture on the web site is zoomed in of my face. i have zoomed the picture out to make it clear that the picture is not recent (and would not be expected to be, as it is representative of a young person telling a story that took place in the 90s, from their perspective), which you can tell by the clothes and the cars. the picture was taken outside of frank ryan middle school in ottawa in june, 1995 at my grade 8 graduation ceremony. the man in the di meola glasses holding my shoulders is my father, who was 38 years old at the time. i will turn 43 years old this week. my father died in 2013.

my father was actually an austrian celt according to the dna tests, but he had recent ancestry in northern italy. he also had some quebecois and some mikmaq ancestry and he seems to have had a secret russian ancestor that has been hard to trace. he did not have jewish or middle eastern ancestry, but my mother does.

as this was a formal event, and i was a young child, i am wearing the clothes i was told to wear. the shirt, tie and pants all belonged to my father.

this is consequently a picture of a little boy in his father's clothes graduating from the eighth grade. it is not a picture of a sexy man. however, the fact that what appears to be a lesbian think it is a sexy man demonstrates a fundamental truth about lesbians: lesbians are in truth actually frequently straight female pedophiles. they're actually into little boys because they suffer from arrested development, which is why they spend time with women that act and look like little boys. what they really want is their little boy grade school crush back, because they haven't emotionally progressed beyond that point, and they go for boyish women as substitutes for their broken little girl hearts. what most lesbian women really need is a strong man that will help them emotionally grow out of girlhood and into womanhood. lesbianism is really just an expression of immaturity.

for myself, i did not really go through puberty at all, but i went through a sort of partial puberty that made me look less boyish, until i went on hormones in my early 20s, which undid that. in this picture, at the age of 14, i truly hadn't started puberty at all and that is the reason i have boyish features that make me look "cute". it is very literally a picture of a little boy that hasn't hit puberty yet, and who has been dressed up in his father's clothes for a special event.

my father in that picture is younger than i am today, if you want a reality check as to what i would look like if i was a male. i would not be happy with that appearance. at all. at 43 years old, i certainly would not look much like i did as a 14 year old boy that had yet to go through puberty. the picture on the side is a little out of date because i had to shave my head in march, but is certainly closer to what i actually look like, due to years of estrogen therapy and a recent physical castration. i am still contemplating the value of vaginoplasty.

yet, the reality is that i really never looked much like my italian father, but rather always looked more like my irish-finnish grandmother or my jewish-swedish grandfather. it is unlikely that i'd actually look much like the man in that picture at all, regardless.

this woman upstairs is severely mentally ill and i want her removed from my existence. i will need to appeal to outside voices to do so, as she is incapable of learning new things or reacting to evidence and appears to be suffering from brain damage due to heavy drug use.

Wednesday, January 10, 2024

the right has a tendency to skew issues that are not about speech into speech issues by misunderstanding what free speech actually is. being asked not to speak on private property, for example, is not a free speech issue.

this is a free speech issue, and it is a part of a pattern of behaviour by the sitting government, which has made it apparent that it does not believe in free speech. freeland's nazi family background in very unfree ukraine, which has no history of democracy and no cultural history of support for human rights, make her proximity to power that much more concerning. this is the kind of thuggery that you expect from public officials in a backwards country like ukraine, not from the deputy prime minister of canada.

i have refrained from voting for trudeau, but i have not voted against him. i would vote against chrystia freeland. this behaviour is beneath the office that she holds; she has no business in government.


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trudeau has extremely close family ties to the aga khan, and he may even be his actual father. remember those pictures of trudeau beside the afghan comic? now, look up pictures of a young aga khan, the resemblance is much greater than to the elder trudeau and is actually uncanny. his mother was apparently all over him and had to settle for the prime minister on her father's insistence, but you'll note that trudeau retains a close allegiance to the aga khan and his religious group, which is iranian. this should be an overdue no-brainer, as the irgc fits every possible definition of a brutal terrorist group, but it may require a change of government, unfortunately.

Wednesday, January 3, 2024

it's easy to project your own aspirations on to what you want to believe are freedom fighters, but the reality of what these monsters are needs to continually be gotten across.

i'd like to support leftist rebels fighting global capitalism, too.

unfortunately, reality sucks.

i would be highly uncomfortable with this policy.

it is once again easy to hide behind language of humanitarianism, but the reality is that nobody would live in gaza nowadays unless they had sympathy with hamas. normal people have had almost twenty years to get out and the reality is that almost all of them already have; if you're still there, it's because you're a lifer, you're hardcore - you're a terrorist. 

all of the evidence coming out of gaza supports this position; the unfortunate fact on the ground is that what is left of the population there is strongly in support of hamas' brand of islamic fascism and that this fact asserts itself daily.

the reality is consequently that any program designed to "help gazan civilians" is just going to be a backdoor to bring islamicists, fundamentalists and terrorists into canada.

rather, i'd like to see a stronger rcmp and csisi reaction and more proactive investigations into the behaviour of relatives of hamas terrorists that are living in canada.

i'd like to see less bombing of civilians and more targeted assassinations, not just in lebanon but across the middle east.

let us channel cato the elder: hamas must be destroyed.