what i started to figure out as the saga unfolded was that the reason she was angry with me was that i just wanted to be friends.

she didn't like being friendzoned, basically, and rejected me, instead - if i wasn't going to be a man, she didn't have time for me.

meaning, the whole rejecting me thing was some kind of reverse psychology, because she herself felt rejected by my decision to go back on hormones.

and, what that exposed was that she was holding on to feelings for me the whole time, when i thought we were just friends.

again: i'm not going to pretend that this was totally unrealized, or even completely unreciprocated. i had some idea. but, i'm still kind of surprised by the fact that she wouldn't let it blow over.