i've pointed this out before: if i were to go back to school today on a serious basis, my interest would neither be in art nor in science but in financial markets. but, i wouldn't be looking to get a job in the industry, so much as i'd be looking to find a way to live off of a small investment - stocks, bonds, etc. and, i wouldn't be looking to actively trade to maximize profit, so much as i'd be looking for a way to properly finance my activities as an artist.

i never planned to end up on disability, but, once i ended up on it, i realized that it is, in fact, what i wanted - with the caveat that it could always be a little more. and, it could always be a little more. it's the nature of it.

at this stage in life, i would be looking towards the education system as a way to emulate my existing living situation, rather than to abolish it or transform it. where i am right now is a lot better than where i was, but my only real concern about living in low income housing is trying to avoid the second-hand smoke. but, see...i don't think this is limited to low-income housing, at least not in this city. buying a house probably wouldn't resolve the issue - i'd just end up with neighbours smoking on their porches.

if i had a larger nest egg, a modern condo in a newer building would be a way out. hopefully.

but, do i want to change my lifestyle? my thrust of existence? what i do? no. this is exactly what i want. i just need to catch up and get back on track - and hope the government doesn't ruin it.