i mean, i think i've been pretty clear in this space that i don't really want to smoke anymore, except when i'm in specific social scenarios, and i suspect that that itself may fade a little in a reality where i have easier access to pot and kind of don't have to buzz around the edges of social groups anymore. 

i think i've been pretty clear that i don't want to habituate back into the smoking of anything, and that the chances of that happening are precisely zero.

so, when i tell you i'm looking forward to getting past the delivery mechanism, i think it should be clear that i'm really actually feeling that. like, i legit don't want to. but, i also legit want to get baked once in a while....

i'll admit this snuck up on me, and i didn't actually expect it. that's fine; i'll get through it.

the weather forecast for august is petty uninspiring, so it seems like the hot part of the summer is more or less over. don't misunderstand me: getting stoned in sweaty, hot weather is one of my favourite things in the world to do, and i don't regret it. but, it's been six weeks now of smoking more days than not, and i'm reminding myself why i quit.

if the edibles are a shitty buzz or whatever else, in the end, then i'll need to go back to the headcave model - twice a year, in binges. but, if they actually work, i may be within a few weeks of the last time i smoke any tobacco, ever.