the fact that i haven't said much about it reflects the fact that i've made some positive adjustments, except when i go out and come back in, for some reason. i don't know why, but leaving my apartment to do groceries or go to the doctor or whatever else seems to reduce the efficacy of the t-blockers for a few days when i get back in. and, the reduction of effectiveness only kicks in after i've been in for about 12 hours. it almost seems like somebody is poisoning my food or coffee or something. thankfully, it consistently starts working again after a few days. so, i don't understand that, but i wish i did so i could stop it.
but, the reason i haven't said much is that the following combination of things have largely undone the problems i was experiencing:
1) i'm eating more, and with better vitamins, and with specific food items (like flax) that have anti-androgenic effects.
2) i've stopped taking the pills with coffee.
3) i've started taking the pills with vitamin c.
together, these three things have brought back the efficacy of the testosterone suppression and have even led to some increased breast growth, but i know it's temporary and i know i need to get them taken out to really be done with testosterone production forever.
i have been trying to get them taken out for years and have concluded that my doctor (who is flamboyantly gay, and seems to think i'm straight, apparently because he's attracted to me) has been playing interference in trying to stop me from doing this. i have ministry funding to get this done, but finding a doctor to do it is more difficult. see, that's the hard part about being trans in canada - it's actually relatively easy to get the government to pay for it, but it's extremely difficult to find a doctor willing to do it.
after getting into a physical exchange at the local hospital in spetember, i finally got him to send a reference to a local doctor that agreed to do it. but, i haven't received a response.
with the end of the pandemic, i'm going to need to get more aggressive about this. whether these drugs work or not is secondary - i'm not supposed to be on them for more than ten years at a time, and the fact that they're wearing off is entirely predictable. i'm supposed to have this dealt with surgically within a few years, not be on high dosage androgen blockers for the rest of my life.