i wanted to go out to buy some produce this morning, but it seems as though the despicably disgusting perverted gay retard that's been stalking me, and won't accept that i'm not a homosexual and not remotely attracted to or interested in gay men and have never had a gay friend or spent more than five minutes in total aggregate ever talking to all gay men i've ever met in my life, is upstairs. as such, i'm going to have to lock myself inside until i'm sure he's gone, and past experiences suggest to me that this might take several months or even longer.
right now, i'm looking at maybe going outside again some time in the spring. the drug addicts upstairs haven't been evicted yet and i'm starting to draw uncomfortable conclusions about it. the world is a sick place full of dishonest, worthless losers. i'll know they're gone when the heat turns on, as they always turn the heat off when they come in, but i'm concluding they're again getting in with the aid of management, and it won't mean anything if they leave for a few days. i'm going to have to order that produce.
as mentioned, i don't know what this worthless, disgusting, faggot piece of shit wants, but they insist on following me around, drugging my food and talking to me when i'm sleeping in an utterly idiotic attempt to brainwash me into being gay, which i'm not interested in and is not going to work (i would never make the free choice to engage in any kind of homosexual behaviour, which is what being gay is, a harmless personal choice that affects nobody except the gays themselves, and how the law should interpret homosexual decision-making) and apparently expects to move into the apartment and become my boyfriend, despite the fact that i've yelled at him over and over again to go kill himself and explained to him repeatedly that i'm not gay and am in fact not very socially liberal and barely tolerant of faggotry at all. i basically don't care about the fags so long as i don't have to have anything to do with them. the moment that the gays try to interfere with my life, or bother me at all, i essentially believe i'm entitled to stab them in the face and feed them to the rats, because i don't really accept the idea of gay rights in any meaningful sense. if this despicable queer ever identifies himself and tries to talk to me, as i expect he intends to do, i am going to immediately murder him, and i'm telling the world that because i want the outcome to be predictable and expected. i am a transgendered female and consider myself to be heterosexual woman. i don't respect men that choose to be gay, against all biological evidence that insists that homosexuality does not exist, and i don't want to tolerate them. i certainly don't want to be their friends, to have sex with them or to enter into any kind of relationship with them, and the only outcome of this process is consequently necessarily tragic. in what might be a stupid attempt by abject retards to try to prove that trans people don't exist, these faggot idiots are trying to brainwash me into being gay using freudian pseudoscience, because they can't accept what the actual truth is, which is that the science is clear that trans people do exist as a complex result of social conditioning and hormonal genetics, and that gay people don't exist at all, but that engaging in homosexual behaviour is a personal choice and a lifestyle decision that some heterosexual men decide to make. i've done everything i can to prevent the inevitable outcome that i'm going to have no choice but to kill this person, i want it to be described as a hate crime when it happens (as that is the correct analysis), despite also being self-defence, and i am essentially waiting for the moment in which i have the opportunity to kill them. there's no other possible outcome at this point.
right now, my focus is on securing the entry points, making sure they can't get in and locking the place down to keep them out.