it's acne. it's gross, but i understand it and there's no utility in getting upset. it will wash off. they may have given me something that messed with my hormones with whatever they're drugging me with, or the acne may be a side effect; the only symptom is acne, once the headache has lifted. that's it.

the best way to stop the acne from building up like this is to lose the weight.

i'm currently at around 154, which is down from around 165. i need to fall to 153.x before the next meal, which i expect to be some time today. that will probably bounce up to around 158-9 when i'm done eating, then need to fall to 152 for the next meal, which will be for mondayish.

i'm not reducing portions, i'm pushing myself down through a systematic lowering process. it's not starvation. i ate last on wednesday evening and will eat again this afternoon or evening. my meals are planned to be extremely nutritious and have high calorie intakes, because i'm supposed to be doing a lot of cardio, which is the thing i haven't had time for. in fact, i should get an exercise bike in place within a week or two and that should reduce the gap. it's just extremely careful micromanagement, with no breaks and no compromises.

i'll have the 70 ounce bowl of chicken bacon caesar salad when i get to 153 in a few days and finish it probably on saturday,

a garden salad of the same size when i get to 152 on probably monday night,

another one on wednesday or thursday when i get to 151,

and a 70 ounce bowl of tomato bacon cheddar soup with crackers and toast on friday or saturday when i get to 150

we're keeping at this until i get to 130 and then easing up until it gets back to 140. 

the acne might even be partially from the weight loss, but the weight loss didn't cause the migraines and auras over the weekend.