stop.

there is a zero percent possibility i would have consented to have sex with any female in a sober state. i made that choice a long time ago and i've stuck to it. it's important to me.

there's some possibility i may have consented to sex with a male. it's remote, but non-zero.

and, if sex with a female did actually happen when i was drunk, i can assure you she didn't enjoy it very much, because i don't have the ability to be sexually aggressive. i can't, won't, don't fuck. like, i'm too sub to even be gay. i might take it in the ass, but i won't give it out. so, the process would have been something like me getting tackled and sitting there with my eyes closed, waiting for it to finished. rape is not a bad way to describe what it would have had to have been like.

the reality is that i'm completely abstinent via a fully conscious and very permanent decision.

deal with it.