so, i think i'm better off trying something like this...

- i've been on odsp since 2013 for ptsd & sad.
- i'm going to try working, to see if i can handle it
- i'm going to not be able to handle it. at all.

that could help with the renewal when it comes up, too.

i'm not being dishonest, i'm just helping the process along. there's no value in forcing me to flip burgers when i could be making art.