it's the same pathetic loser doing the same disgusting drugs and it's making me sick in the same way - exhaustion, sore throat and brutal diarrhea. it is having little to no effect on my hormones. they may be intending to alter my hormones, but i can't file evidence if there isn't any because it didn't work. the minimal and easily removable hair growth suggests minimal to fleeting changes in hormones that i may barely pick up at all. this seems to be intentional - they want to change my appearance and they understand their behaviour is prohibited by canadian law so they're trying to avoid detection. it's very tricky, and it just makes me sound like a paranoid conspiracy theorist trying to correctly hold them accountable for it. i need to be careful, because the legal industry is full of wretchedly dishonest pieces of shit and the judges are frequently plucked from their ranks, by panels made of their own. but i'm pretty sure they got in here on sunday morning.
they need to just fuck off and go kill themselves. i have no patience, no interest, no tolerance. i just want to shoot them n the face and put their kids in foster homes. i'd support bunker busting them if they were in the rockies, but they live amongst us and are extremely difficult to deal with. we're going to need to rewrite laws and adjust legal approaches to prevent these people from harming us, but they try to operate undetected and they have tremendous amounts of wealth that they use to manipulate the media and attempt to confuse people. they frequently pose as minorities and victims, despite being the single most powerful lobby group on the planet. we have to realize and understand that they're here and comprehend what they're doing before we can address and reverse it and that might very well be the hardest part of this. they're going to target the trans, the queers and the liberal white women, who are going to need to build an alliance to protect themselves from attack.
i mostly lost yesterday after making a bowl of soup on saturday. i cleaned a little and did a bunch of reading about how to fix the vacuum and about how to get rid of the dust. the multimeter is here but i haven't used it yet and want to clean as much as i can without it. the shop vac was mostly for the laundry, which has been cleaned and fixed, and the garage, which is still to go. i shouldn't have been running a dirty shop vac in the apartment anyways. so once it's cleaned and i get a response from canadian tire (i'll call them after i do the mulitmeter testing and have data) i'll figure out what i'm doing to fix or replace that device. for now, i need to clean first without it. the smoke and ash was actually so thick on sunday morning - some time after i had disassembled the vacuum - that i had to throw out a glass of water sitting on the table, which was full of black soot. the fire alarm works, at least. the layer of filth is sitting on everything and is worst in the kitchen and the two entrances and least bad (almost not at all) in the bedroom and laundry, indicating the ceiling blockers are working. i'm going to get as much more up as i can as fast as i can.
what i'm going to do is the following.
(1) it's much cooler here now than it was. i'm going to take advantage of that by making it hot and humid inside and only opening the window a crack. it will be more humid in here than out there and that should push the dirty air out and flush the cold air in. i think it's working, but i need to watch out for loser neighbours smoking pot.
(2) this will make it worse at first, and in fact i may have noticed it on the ground because the shower pulled it out of the air. the humidity will make the dust heavier and gravity will act as an air filter. but i want to get it out of the air and out of my lungs first and foremost, and out of my smell buds second. the stench of herbs and incense is disgusting, and as bad as the stench of the drugs themselves.
(3) i do have nicer, fruity or citrusy smells to replace these pungent gross hippie/nigger smells with but i want to get as much as i can out of the air first.
(4) once the soot from the gross herbs and drugs and incense (same thing. whatever. yuck.) being burned is on the ground, or unfortunately on things, including walls, i can vacuum it up with a dust buster and wipe it down with disposable wipes and lysol. then i can try to correct the gross hippie smells with nicer clean smells.
(5) whether i can fix the shop vac or not, i'm going to buy a newer vac for inside and keep it inside. i need to create a separation between the dust and dirt left here, and the new dust and dirt created by the gross tenants, and dust and dirt i create myself, which i can better tolerate and deal with. the burning of drugs, incense and herbs is really not something i can tolerate or should be expected to tolerate, but canada is a failed state that is collapsing into a backwards, conservative society and i'm not going to reverse it by complaining. i need to adjust by protecting myself from the barbarians at the gates as best i can.
for now, i'm looking at getting the humidity up to 60%, letting it fall to 50%, repeat. i'll need to clean in between, until it's done.