so, i'm just sitting here trying to read, and i can't - i end up coughing. having difficulty staying awake, difficulty focusing...

if there was somebody to talk to, i might have a different perspective.

but, i don't want to talk to anybody, right now. i'm not out - i'm at home. alone. trying to work. i want to read. or write. or create. and i can't do that. and it's frustrating.