again: i'm not able to ejaculate, and i'm barely able to maintain an erection - it's a few seconds, at most, generally.

if i try really hard i can sometimes orgasm, but it's usually rather difficult, and i'm actually of the mindset that i'd prefer emancipation from sexuality. i don't have sex, and i don't masturbate very often, and it's all very much fully voluntary. it's like once a month, tops. really. i don't really like it...

i mean, just about the only thing that's going to get me off is imagining being penetrated. it's just not very satisfying, given the reality. so, i'd generally prefer to just avoid it.

i don't see any point in going to the cops because i can't prove anything. i mean, i guess i could ask for a dna sample. but, i know they're going to insist i did it myself - despite my insistence of the impossibility of it.

i'd have to get some camera footage before i could reasonably file charges....