Thursday, July 23, 2020

i slept all day, and there's a high chance i could sleep all night.

i've at least managed to get used to it (which is very sad, to me. i don't want to get used to it. i want to continue to react to air conditioning with revulsion and dread. i hate it. i don't want to coexist with it. i don't want to acclimatize to it.) enough to be able to avoid shivering with the following:

1) socks
2) shoes
3) a sweater
4) two blankets

that's what i needed to stop shivering in the air conditioning in my apartment, in july - in a unit that i've made repeated complaints about being cold in. worse, i know that all i will get back if i complain further are lies.

"it's just the fan."
"my thermostat says 23."

he's just pathologically dishonest, that way. and, there's no function of communicating with a liar. i'm not wasting my time debating with a liar.

so, it looks like i'm going to be spending the weekend struggling with my metabolism as much as anything else. when a person can barely generate enough heat to stop shivering in the cold, i guess they're going to end up very tired once they eventually do manage to adjust. and, that's the reality, here.

worse is that i'm hungry. that's the other thing about the heat - it suppresses your appetite, meaning you can waste less money on food. when it's cooler, you have to actually eat, and that's expensive. my budgeting relies heavily on cutting food-related expenses by up to 75% over the summer months, but i can't do that if i have to eat every day to generate enough heat to stave off hypothermia. i can normally only eat every 2-3 days in a nice, proper heat wave.

and, i'm not going to eat more, in the end - i'm just going to suffer myself through the cold.

it must be costing him a fortune, as well. i guess it's his priorities as to what he wants to spend his money on, but if i can't figure out something soon, i'm going have to file a t2 app over it to get out.

the last time, i could fix it by opening the windows. right now, this is actually worse than it was in the first basement :(.