03/15 is updated.

that's another brutal night for the smoke, here. bad enough that i'm getting chest pains...

the purpose of social assistance is to prevent revolt.

you want to take that away? well, then we'll have to revolt. and, it will be people like me that will lead those revolts.

hey, they always said i was a leader...

a homeless march on city hall sounds like fun.

i'm a political activist, as you can see here.

if i end up living in a shelter, you can be sure that i'm going to try and organize the people that live there.

and, i think it's obvious enough that we have a problem here that requires some activism.

and, it's not even an accident.

it's designed this way on purpose.

woah.

no matter what happens - accidents, catastrophes, unbudgeted expenses, etc - they always pay me the day before rent is due.

always.

every time.

so, i'd basically have to be a complete drug addict to not pay you. and i'm not.

so, even if i spend more than i wanted to partying in may, they'll always give me enough money on may 31st to pay rent for june 1st.

and, then, even if i need to go to the food bank for june, they'll always give me money on june 30th for rent on july 1st.

and, then, even if i need to take out a loan to pay for an unexpected expense in july, they'll always give me enough money on july 31st to pay rent for august 1st.

and, then, even if my identity gets stolen, and my bank account gets hacked, and my apartment gets broken into, they'll still give me enough money on august 31st to pay rent on september 1st.

and, then, even if i get abducted by aliens, and dropped off in a rainforest, and need to hitch home through central america, they'll still give me enough money on september 30th to pay rent on october 1st.

is my point clear?

fuck.

i'd draw a picture, but the platform doesn't allow for it.

maybe point form?

- 31st: +1151 into my account.
- 1st: -750 from my account, and into your account.
- 750<1151, so the money is always there - guaranteed.

every single month.

no exceptions.

until the rapture.

(no, i don't believe in the rapture)

the check is $1151, and it comes in on the last day of the month, every single month.

you're asking for $750 in rent, on the first day of the month.

750 < 1151.

what's the problem, here?

it's not complicated.

unless the banking system collapses, or the computer networks implode, there's not much chance that that cash isn't going to get you, the next day...

for all the bullshit i've dealt with over the last two years, i've never had a problem paying for rent.

and, why would i? i get a check on the last day of every month....

i go out for a few drinks in detroit, and people don't believe me when i tell them i'm too poor to hand out money.

but, i try and apply for an apartment in windsor, and people don't believe me when i tell them i can budget well enough to afford the place.

maybe i can get these people to call each other?

it's stupidity from every direction, in every conceivable way.

it's always bizarre to hear a homophobic slur in this day and age.

it's just like, "yeah. so? have you never seen one before, or what?".

it really feels like we've lost fifty years in the last six months. and it reminds you of how tentative social progress really is.

so, objects - like dresses - exist in an objective reality. light reflects off of these objects in specific wavelengths.

in order to determine what colour an object is, you measure the wavelength of the light reflecting off of it. this is not subjective - this is quantitative data. numbers. facts.

you can then compare what you experience to what the data says in order to determine if your eyes work right or not (preferably double-blind, to control for biases). if what you see is consistent with the data, congratulations - your eyes work right. if not, the mechanics of your eyes are malfunctioning and you are consequently interpreting the world through a flawed filter. you'd want to seek medical attention.

so, here are three things the ndp should be doing.

1) exploiting the refugee crisis to push for more subsidized housing.
2) exploiting the saudi over-reaction to bring back the wheat board.
3) getting vocally involved in the nafta negotiations, to prioritize policies that benefit canadian workers.

instead, they're piggy-backing on american media to parrot soft-left talking points from american democrats, that benefit bourgeois employers at the expense of all workers.

i'm not taking about tariffs, i'm talking about a bds-style movement - and asset seizure, very explicitly.

the rational deduction from this fiasco is that we don't want to allow them the leverage to destabilize the economy.

if the saudis are going to react like this, we should completely sever ties altogether, including seizing and nationalizing assets that they have in the country.

this is a good crisis to exploit in bringing back the wheat board. do western farmers really want to sell to a saudi run monopoly?

they have demonstrated that they are an unreliable trading partner, and a potential national security concern.

the tory press is actually standing up for the saudis.

lol.

welcome to the dark ages, canada.

where...

war is peace.
freedom is slavery.
ignorance is diversity, and diversity is strength.

if these morons wrote their own laws, i'd be guilty of harassment for standing up for my rights.

but, all the property owners in town think the same stupid way, so i can't just go elsewhere for sanity - i'm just getting more craziness, everywhere i turn.

it's like the fucking twilight zone.

the smoker doesn't understand what's wrong with her behaviour.

the property manager doesn't understand why she's negligent.

the property owner doesn't understand the law.

it's just a complete lack of understanding.

and, it's endemic. it's cultural.

i need out....

the only way i'm going to get the money she owes me is by not paying the rent.

she doesn't understand what she's done wrong.

it's a culture of abject stupidity.

frankly, i would rather put my things in storage tomorrow and be homeless immediately than stay here for another month.

but, my idiot landlady is not paying me the money she owes me, so it seems like the only way to recoup this is going to be to stay here until october 1st.

if she would write me the check, i would think strongly about getting out right away.

it has been clear since april that staying here is not a choice.

i can't stay here; it's not a habitable space. i'm not young anymore, i need to avoid carcinogens as much as possible.

this apartment will kill me. i must leave.

but, there's nowhere to go - or at least not in this city.

so, what do you want me to tell you? i can't stay here, and there's nowhere to go, so i need to find a way out of the city.

and, in order to do that, i'll need to put my things in storage and hit the road.

i don't have another choice.

and, so, was this a good gamble? well, anything is a better choice than sitting here and waiting for the cancer to consume me. any way out of here is preferable.

so, of course i made the right choice - there wasn't a choice to make. i had to do whatever was necessary to evacuate this space, as soon as i could.

02/15 updated....