i spent the whole afternoon and evening cleaning the front of the house up, cleared out the next area to get in order and crashed late in the evening, and have been doing some loose ends over night. i have listened to most of the 14 cds i pulled out, and have pulled out ten more, for tomorrow or the next day:

80-90s warner/sire/elektra/atlantic for the historical lists:

ministry - psalm 69

cure - wish

tori amos - little earthquakes

mike oldfield - tubular bells III

ministry - land of rape and honey

jane's addiction - nothing's shocking

later time-warner reissue:

mbv - isn't anything (creation release)

others:

white stripes - elephant

i mother earth - earth, sky and everything in between

i mother earth - dig

those are the next ten for the lists.

there's a litter of kittens sleeping outside my window and i've caught the mother cat checking me out, but the mother cat doesn't seem to be that concerned about me. if anything, it may have been asking for food from me, but it was completely silent in it's interactions. it's twice the size of the previous cat, but is the same colour. is it possible that the cat came back, with kittens? there's a certain eye blinky thing that cats do when they appreciate and trust you, and it's understandable that it was doing that after i pulled it out of a vent. i think this cat might have come back here anyways. i'll need to figure this out in the next few days.

i took some pictures of the front space, which i'm call the library, this morning:

this is walking out of the studio into the hall towards the door (the library), where i've installed all of the shelving:

you can see the three cd shelves and the big book shelf. the white shelf on the other wall is going to be moved out of there and replaced with a second black book shelf. there's going to be a stationary bicycle in front of it, beside the couch, or on the other side (i might put a small table there, instead).

this is my current reference library, which i need to catalog and rebuild (it should be twice that size).

i was skeptical about these cubes for books, but as you can see they're just about perfect for library-style reference or text books, which i have a lot of and have long needed something like this for. this is an overdue solution. that system of ten cubes was $30 and i bought three of them. three of six rows are QA comp/math textbooks, but there's a cube full of law books and a row of history books, along with the various other topics i've dabbled in (physics, chemistry, biology, psychology, philosophy, engineering, music, economics, politics, anthropology, etc). it's very incomplete but is not a bad start and it's nice to get it all out of the boxes after way too long.

this is the (previously) broken cd shelf:

i got that big cd shelf on kijiji for $5 in the last basement. it was the perfect size, so i decided that it didn't matter that it was falling apart and crumbling, i'd just glue and tape it together. i was able to hold it together through two moves, but the young person that helped me move last time tried to prove his strength by lifting it straight up, which was dumb, and it caved in. so, it's been sitting in pieces for months. it took some effort to put it back together with glue, tape and finishing nails, but the thing about this shelving unit is that the back is extremely sturdy, so it will stay upright so long as you can get it connected to the sides. the bottom is really cosmetic. that will be full of cds soon enough.

next to that is the small cd shelf:

when i found this on the curb, i had to rebuild it with liquid wood, and i cut the shelves out of an older shelving unit, but it's held ever since. i was using this for books in the last basement. it will have cds down here. that's an old box of warped cassettes and dvds i've never played. don't buy me dvds...i never watch things....

this is a picture of the window on the bottom front side of the apartment, which i fixed the screen on, cleaned up, sealed for holes, realigned and put the curtain in for. 

that's an old curtain i've had for a long time and a new heavy duty curtain rod with rod holders that are screwed into a blind holder device that was already screwed into the wall.  so i didn't have to make new holes for the curtains because i could just screw them into the things for the blinds. there's some push pins in the walls that exist to get the curtains away from the window to let the sun in (good during the winter). there are some blinds i found here in a box in the back.

this is the main cd shelf, which i ordered from walmart, with a few more cds on it, in the wall perpendicular to the previous wall i was discussing.

i still need to build customized shelves for this. the height is ideal. there will be a 4th cd shelf placed right beside this one, where i currently have boxes of cds sitting.

this is the little bit of wall beside the main cd shelf:

it currently has cds that are on their way to the shelf (about 75% of total, with the other 25% in the other room) and shelving on it's way into the garage to get cut. i will eventually put a 4th (1st) cd shelf where those boxes are. the four shelves together should hold me for quite a while, if i can stay here.

this the second of two small shelves i brought in here and found outside:

 

i was not able to save this one the way i saved the other, until this month. it's good, now; ii just need shelves. this unit, however, is going in the studio and will hold various electronic devices not being immediately used. i will put a second cube shelf for more textbooks here, and probably put a stationary bicycle there as well. this location is good for the bike because of the placement of the stereo dead ahead, in front of the couch, so i can listen to music while exercising on the stationary bike. the only piece of exercise equipment i need or want is a bike, but i may put some effort into looking into it.

this is a picture coming up on the front door.

i will prefer to use the side door to come in and out and use the garage internally and to take bikes in and out, so there will be little to no traffic in and out of here in the long run, but there is now until the side door gets fixed. i will not expect to worry about boots or shoes through here much. there will be a carpet on the other side of that door, and i may put one in here, too. it should be seen more as a hallway and less as an entrance. all of that area was aggressively caulked and sealed to plug holes and drafts..

i recently found this third small shelf on the curve, which is actually in good shape and just needed to be wiped down:

you can see the door on the side, one of my bicycles in the back (for now), the charging table in the cubby hole and the wired video doorbell system installed on the wall. i am using this new small shelf for now as temporary storage to hold items going in and out of the garage, but it may end up holding boxes of items intended to be used in the garage (bike tools, guitar tools).

this is the charging table:

i don't actually know what that table is supposed to be for. it might be a desk, it might be a changing table or it might have some unclear religious significance. it was here when i moved in. the bicycle will be moved behind the door soon, i just need to fix some things in the garage first. you can see the extension cord, with usb charging outlets, as well as some rechargeable batteries and a rechargeable power drill. coming in here soon will be usb a and c hubs connected to anything that charges (and isn't a bathroom item), from cell phones to cameras to vacuums. this area was also aggressively caulked and sealed for holes. there is enough space to put a chair in here, which is where i'll install the pc i bought as a video security system.

this is the new bottom of the door:

there is a 3 inch gap under the door which apparently leads into the insides of the house, allowing entry into the unit from in behind the wall, which i want to seek to avoid. this gap would be a source of cold air in the winter, bugs and potentially rodents, although i've seen no since of them there. i stuffed the gap up as best as i could with plastic packaging, crazy glued cardboard over it, covered over it with packing tape and sealed over it with weather proofing. this may appear to be borderline stupid at first glance, but the weatherproofing should keep the barrier sealed so long as there isn't a parade of winter boots, and there shouldn't be. any entry through the front door should actually leave boots and shoes upstairs and off the rugs, but almost all entry should be through the side. i need to be cognizant of what this is, but so long as i'm careful about it, it should hold and should act as a temperature and pest barrier.

some upgrades to the door itself:

i installed the door blocker, which is rated for 800 lbs, and half of the chain. the component on the door was actually already there, so i just screwed the other part into the frame.

what i'm doing today is installing the remaining shelving in a corner of the recording studio outside my bedroom and hopefully setting up the main stereo system in front of the couch. the only stereo i've had in here to this point is a small system in the kitchen intended for watching youtube and listening to standalone cds on. this was all cleaned up and caulked before i slept last night, left to dry.

my studio shelf (with cds and other media for studio use or from studio production) goes in the corner backing into the bedroom, a plastic organizer with cords in it goes on the far side of the outlet and that white bookshelf goes on the close side of it.

the studio shelf:

the cord organizer:

the white shelf, again:

while i'm at it, here is a picture of my couch, in front of the stereo system that is about to get set up. 

that clears out the bulk of the apartment and just leaves the studio and the side entrance.

i'm focusing on the large amount of shelving first because the majority of clutter i have had in here since i moved in is items that exist in boxes and will end up on shelves - cds, books, devices, effects, cords, computers, etc. when i get these last shelves in place, i'm going to pick a pile of boxes up off the ground and put them on the shelves. but i had to fix the walls before i could move the shelves into place, and i had to do various things in the bathroom and laundry before i could fix the walls in the main area. i think i have enough caulking to finish, now. i'm really almost done.

i didn't want the garage to be last, but it's going to be almost last, unfortunately. i do necessarily have to finish the garage before i can clean out the front because that's where most of it is going, and now i have to wait for the weather to dry out first.

i have a lot of little things to buy in these areas - tables, shelves, etc. i'm far from done. i've pointed these things out. but i'm getting much closer to a space that is installed and functional to work in, rather than this mess of boxes and clutter waiting to get organized.

i just have a huge amount of belongings and i need a large space to organize it all effectively. this is actually almost ideal for what i need, but it required a tremendous amount of work to fix up properly. i am getting much closer, and the next update will be even better.

i'm happy that we're getting some warmer weather here. the last few weeks have been too cold for me for this time of year. there's a really lush green that's taken hold here in the summer the last few seasons, due to a combination of the rain, heat and humidity. the vegetation looks so vibrant. it's very pleasant weather.

the book and cd cataloging is something i want to do but not at the expense of weeks of lost time.

let me get back to work a little, first.

i have enough cds to listen to as i sort through the rest of the things to do and can catalog them after.

it took a long time to get those debussy pieces entered, partly because i stopped to also add cover tracks and remasters to the chronology.

the two updated links are here:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/music-list.html   <---alphabetical

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/chronological-music-list.html  <---chronological

it should be clear where i'm going with this now after 40 additions, and the next thing to do should be to finish updating the list of lists and start cataloguing the books, but  have to put it down for a few days. i've been sitting here for too long, now. i need to get back to cleaning in the front and putting everything away again, and i need to get some more paneling up. i can get back to that after.

 should actually get the basic shape of this space in place finally within a day or two.

trump's approach towards the illegitimate nazi dictatorship in control of syria is instructive as to how he's going to actually approach iran. trump is not on the side of democracy, he's on the side of fascism. it makes the situation really worse than appeasement. he's worse than chamberlain; it's a nightmare scenario where an american nazi like henry ford was president on the eve of wwII. trump is not the stupid kind of working class nazi that waves flags and chants slogans and marches downtown and gets beat up by the pigs; trump is the kind of business class nazi that is all about cartelization and class hierarchy. the real winners in a fascist state are not the aryan race but the banking class.

so, i don't want to drop the front against fascism in syria. the islamic supremacist syrian nazis need to be fought everywhere they're found. they can be given no quarter. they must be eradicated by the civilized forces of the free world, as dark of a period as we may find ourselves in. nobody is coming to save us, we have to do it ourselves.

however, i may tentatively support the idea - and i think i'm talking to marco rubio here, as unpredictable an outcome as that might have been a few years ago. - of tying american aid to syria to coordination with israel in fighting hezbollah. stated crudely, i would support telling the syrians that they're going to get cut off if they don't work with israel to eliminate hezbollah. also tied to these aid packages would need to be a requirement that syria absorb lebanon's unwanted shia refugee population, which the indigenous christians in lebanon have grown fed up with and want gone, and which are actually almost entirely syrian in origin. the syrians may want to ship them to the east and that might be good for everybody. these kinds of population transfers are unheard of in europe but are normal in this area and have been since the assyrians. shipping the shias in lebanon, who are not indigenous but almost solely refugees, to the east of syria or west of iraq would transfer them somewhere where they have a like-minded culture and get them out of the hair of the indigenous christians and jews of the western mediterranean.

hezbollah pretends that it is protecting an indigenous population in the region, but this is absurd, much like absurd claims that palestinians are indigenous. what we call palestinians are about 70% converted hebrews and about 30% colonizing arabs that invaded not in the 7th century but in the modern era. both lebanon and palestine were 90%+ christian from the byzantine period until the 1700s, and lebanon retained that identity until the 20th century. the islamic colonization of lebanon and genocide of the christians there is barely a generation old; it's concurrent, it's ongoing. living people could and should be held accountable for these crimes against humanity. both hamas and hezbollah are at the front of foreign-financed shia colonizing movements, with the purposeful intent to change the demographics of the region from christian and jewish to shia and arab. this process has it's roots in the armenian genocide, which in truth is ongoing. that's what you're supporting when you wave these flags and attend these marches - the current incarnation of the evolution of the armenian genocide. uneducated fake leftists that simply don't understand what they're supporting should be embarrassed by their ignorance and malleability as useful idiots, but you have to educate them before they can understand their fallacies. 

hezbollah is not protecting an indigenous population, they are unwanted invaders that the nominally democratic state has condemned and that are aggressively colonizing the region with the explicit intent of chasing out the indigenous christian groups.

shipping out the shia refugees to iraq would have the profound effect of pulling support for hezbollah out from underneath it. hezbollah requires constant immigration, in fact almost entirely from syria, in order to maintain it's support level. trump might not fully understand it, but he is actually hitting on something profound, here.

there was a lot of easily deconstructed propaganda about assad in western media. i'm not going to get into that here because he's gone and the russians have bailed entirely, but one of the points pushed by the west was that assad was an empty proxy for iran. there was little to no truth to that. in fact, assad was a secularist at the opposite end of the muslim political spectrum to the irgc and the iranians hated him, but they had to tolerate him because syria and iran were both russian allies. they had to go to the same meetings and get the same memos. there was some moderate to trivial coordination when the russians demanded it, but no active collaboration. they were more like bitter enemies forced to get along by moscow. syria was hardly an iranian proxy. in fact, assad would still be there, if he was one.

however, the basic issue brought up in western media of syria acting as a transit point between lebanon and iran hasn't changed and still needs to be addressed. this should be tied to western funding.

the demands on syria to maintain us funding, short of being dismantled and overthrown, should consequently be the following

1) take your shia refugees back from lebanon. all of them. do what you will with them.

2) coordinate with lebanon and israel in building a common front to just get hezbollah the fuck out of there and figure it out after

3) that includes preventing the desert from acting as a caravan transit medium

4) respect lebanon's sovereignty as a christian state and israel's sovereignty as a jewish state.

those should be seen as necessary but not sufficient conditions to tolerate the syrian government, which still must be expected to hold elections immediately. but you have to work with shitheads in the darkness of war. this is no time for moral purity. a pragmatic syria policy should be welcomed, if it's actually pragmatic and actually advances western goals.

144.2.

i skipped meals at 146, 145. i actually need to stay on that a bit better. but the acne is peeling off, so it's working.

if my salad only gets me back up to 147ish, i could be into the soup in the next day or so, and then i'm looking at pulling things out of the fridge.

i posted the updated discogs link this morning that gets me up to 40 releases to start.

i've added a link to the pdf on my blogger list at the top, and cut it into a framey table. so i have the four lists now:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/music-list.html   <---alphabetical

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/chronological-music-list.html  <---chronologica

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1nNhi2Z4vRr0hEP5OiK-6xxZP1G_b9OBW/view  <---discogs pdf

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/label-list.html   <---labels

they're all at the top of the three blogger pages in a little framey table.

i only got three updated. i still need to update the debussy. but  need to eat. i'm pushing towards 153 and was supposed to eat at 156.

that means i might a little more this week to catch back up because i'm not skipping. today's meal is 156. the next is 155. the next is 154. if i eat more this week, it's because i need it.

i wanted to wait until i got done before i ate but i have to stop. the acne has also been absolutely brutal, but i expected that, it's a part of the process. i need to wash up first and then make a salad.

that means i'm shifting to catch up salads and canned soup the next few days and putting a grocery run off. i need to focus more on clearing out my fridge before i make another big run.

so, it's time to stop to eat. i am going to add the debussy after, and then get these extra lists into the list of lists before i get to the books.

donald trump wants peace in iran because he wants to do business in iran. 

the iranians don't want to do business with donald trump.

i don't even give a fuck. i want to tear the government down. i'm not interested in business, i'm interested in revolution. but what i've been trying to explain, and which i suspect people are starting to understand better, is that you can't do business with these people until you overthrow them.

you can do your business while i focus on my democracy, whatever, i don't really care. the problem is you don't actually like democracy, and backtracked, but that was fucking stupid. you're not getting anywhere with these idiots.

so here's the new link i'll be using.

use this instead of the direct link i posted before, i'll update that directly as i go:

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1nNhi2Z4vRr0hEP5OiK-6xxZP1G_b9OBW/view?usp=sharing

if i open it in google drive directly and zoom in to 200%, it opens links in new tabs natively without having to hit ctrl or anything.

the above link is what it's supposed to look like. look what at the shit discogs serves you instead and then won't let you post on the forum to provide useful suggestions to fix, it's a fucking mess:

https://www.discogs.com/user/deathtokoalas/collection/

i added four my cds off of my shelf tonight:

- sonic youth - sister (sst)

- swans - omniscience (sky) 

- debussy - la mer / nocturnes (phillips)

- holst - planets / ralph vaughn williams - fantasias (rca)

that gets me up to 40 releases to start, and i've got a few to listen to.

i'll take them in chunks of five at a time, moving forward.

i set up some more custom fields on the discogs site, and i'm realizing that the idiots made it so you can't post links to anybody except yourself. what's the point of that?

when i went to ask a question or request a feature, the spam feature was so overwhelming that i couldn't post anything at all. i guess i need to post in retard twitter speak. full sentences is just spamming people nowadays.

we've become so useless and fucking stupid...

so, what i'm going to do is keep doing what i'm doing, which will create a jumbled link of unreadable shit on the site, and tell them to fucking fix it if they don't like it. then, i'm going to print the front page and post a link to the pdf, instead.

just make sure you zoom in a little and then open links in new tabs.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1nNhi2Z4vRr0hEP5OiK-6xxZP1G_b9OBW/view?usp=sharing

i stopped to sleep yesterday afternoon, woke up in the evening and wanted to get through a few things before i stopped to eat and clean. it's taken me all night to update and consolidate the first 36 releases at the two sites, together, in the different ways.

so, here is the discogs site, which will come up soon as one of the sites on the side, along with the koala oversight committee, deathtokoalas and this politics-oriented blog:

https://www.discogs.com/user/deathtokoalas/collection

it's important to note that i'm using discogs to be as specific as i can be about exact release information. so, for example, stone flower is listed as 1990, because it was remastered in 1990. my cd that i own is from 1990. but, the lp was first released in 1970 and it's listed as a 1970 release elsewhere. the discogs site is not a straight mirror, it contains precise release data for my exact cd collection.

most people will want to click on the album covers only toggle on the top right, but if you click the lists you'll see the detailed notes i've been preparing. so far, according to discogs, the total value of the 36 cds i've documented is $970 cdn. some of them are only worth $10-15 and some of them are worth around $150, to somebody, apparently. the cds are picked randomly out of my collection. i have at least 500 cds here. if that is a representative sample, my cd collection might be worth as much as $15,000. 

there are not a lot of items that were expensive for me to buy, and these aren't for sale. it's just that i have collected decades worth of obscure releases, and it's added up. many of the cds that i bought new for the normal price of a cd have gone out of print, but the fact that so many of them are notable and retain audiences means the prices have gone up.

the most valuable items in the list, both worth over $100 cdn, are a 1984 cd pressing of talking heads' remain in light (that i bought at a garage sale for nothing) and the out of print nine inch nails cd i special ordered in jan, 2002 directly from trent reznor, called still, halo 17b. they're not for sale. there's several more selling for over $50 cdn and a bunch selling for more than $30. it just adds up, because it's a collection full of obscure releases, all of which somebody somewhere would pay a lot for.

there is another link there to "lists". this contains lists to record labels on discogs.

i have three sites i've updated at the deathtokoalas blog:

chronological list: https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/chronological-music-list.html

label lists: https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/label-list.html

alphabetical list: https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/music-list.html

those three lists hyperlink to each other.

i have already fallen back to 147.0, which is good news. i will likely eat my last salad tomorrow morning and order some things soon. i need to stop to clean myself, as planned, which is overdue.

i also need to finish updating the following list before i put this down and build a skeleton for the books, and then get back to what i was doing in the front:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/list-of-old-music-lists.html

i got something to eat yesterday and it just pushed right out again. i never got over 152, which means i'm losing weight and keeping it off.

i have been gathering cd list information all night and i'm getting there. another day or two tops.

i set up a discogs site, which will mirror the list on this page and locally, for a few reasons:

1) i want to find precise pressings for each item

2) i will want to buy stuff and it's likely the best way

3) i could sell my own records via discogs, and might reach more people than through bandcamp

i'm going to be redesigning how i sell cds by using postgrid as a print option. it's the first cost-effective option i've ever seen. 

so the discogs site is here and i'll put it up on the side soon:

https://www.discogs.com/user/deathtokoalas/collection

cutting off funding was idiotic. it's going to embolden iran to launch more attacks and result in people losing their lives in the persian gulf.

somebody needs to drag chuck schumer out of the senate by his ear and put him in a home.

the problems are

1) the president is a retard

2) the united nations is more useless than the league of nations ever was

but with every sequential fascist behaviour, the iranians seal their own fate and cement their own death warrant.

i would still call on the icc to try khamenei for war crimes, posthumously.

there was yet another iranian terrorist attack on commercial vessels transiting through hormuz today.

appeasement of the terrorist death cult has failed. 

there clearly needs to be some kind of international response to put an end to this nonsense by force. all that the nazis in tehran can see is that the recent senate vote in favour of isolationist us policy gives them a green light to attack. despite the reality that they've been completely obliterated, they think they've won a great victory, and are going to get worse as a result of it. the cult of death sees no form of logic and has no ability to reason. they can't see two steps ahead. america is left with it's dick in it's hand, like tom brady out in the cold.

appeasement merely emboldens nazis.

you have to fight the fascists everywhere they are.

they need to be destroyed. there is no alternative policy to regime change in iran.

i stopped to sleep yesterday afternoon at 148.6 and woke up in the 146 range, but i wanted to get done a few things before i stopped to eat, and have fallen below 146.0. i measured myself at 146.0 this morning and we'll stick with that. i never had a 147 measurement. it's actually a good sign to see my weight falling fast, as it means any drugs they put in my food are clearing out of my system.

i wanted to finish compiling the cd data into one list before i ate and did not succeed. i am stopping to eat some guac, which is a lower caloric meal in comparison to the massive salads i've been eating. it could clear back to the 145 range quickly, which would be good.

i did manage to update the bottom portion of the music list with multiple lists from 2006, 2004, 2003, 2002, 2001 and even one from 1999. the 1999 list explicitly uses the musiccat program and if it isn't the oldest list it's close to it. i also added links to an assortment of places where i did reviews and analysis from 2002-2026, including:

- the koala oversight committee (2026-)

- the np list (2022-2026)

- the dkdghfhjfdhfchlfa youtube site

- the concert review list

- the deathtokoalas blog

- the travel blog

- the deathtokoalas youtube account (since taken over by the koalas and archived at the deathtokoalas blog)

- the appspot site

- a facebook page for reviews (down, archived)

- peanutgalleries.org (down, archived)

- chat.carleton.ca/~jparent2 (down, archved)

- the original 2002 music web (long archived)

the pi-centered local music web archive will consolidate all of this into a single multimedia project focused around the list i am building.

i still need to get lists for the facebook page and for the peanut galleries archives before i move on, but i'm stopping to eat first.

there was so much data in this post that my chromebook was slowing down, so i split the post into two. there is the initial page and an overflow page:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/music-list.html

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2026/06/music-list-overflow-very-old-files.html

the peanut galleries review list will add a number of vinyl only releases that got inadvertently dropped from the list and are awaiting proper cd upgrades as well as some dad cds that got forgotten about. i have cleared out most of my vinyl. i don't listen to it; i find it sounds blurry. i don't like the analog distortion, probably because i've done production and understand it. i prefer clean, crisp digital audio. it would be nice to find a full list from about 2011 but i'm not sure i will. it was really review-centric.

the facebook archive contains reviews of new releases from about 2009-2012 and is quite extensive. 

i have music files and text documents dated all the way back to 1995 on storage discs.

it may take some effort, but i will get around to finding it, just probably not this week. i will search the physical media i have in front of me as best as i can and move on.

while i'm at it, i'm going to need to search through my years worth of school notes for as many outlines and syllabi as i can find. those will contain information about remaining missing texts (including online txts), but what i really want is that books.html file from c. september 2002, if i can find it.

i have this updated but i want to find a list dated to early 2002 before i sold a lot of stuff:

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/p/book-reviews.html

i have a url but i can't load it in the wayback machine:

http://chat.carleton.ca/~jparent2/books/books.html

i am going to start with my review list after all and it will merge into the library catalog over time.

i will mirror this locally in my own notes but for now it's here:

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/p/book-reviews.html

ok, i've found lots of old lists and will get some updates up soon. my utter nerdiness will soon be that much more apparent.

i'm also going to do this:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/chronological-music-list.html

i just want to note that i'm aware that emi is no longer a standalone major and was split up by the other big labels. however, this is of virtually no relevance to me because emi hasn't released anything new that i'd actually buy in decades. if i find myself with an emi-universal cd i'll take note of it, but that probably won't actually happen. in terms of my physical music collection, emi will likely continue to exist as a top tier category, with it's big sublabels of virgin and capitol.

i posted an update late on sunday night indicating i would need to eat, then clean in the front, reorganize in the middle and get back to building the insulation. how did i do?

i did eat early on monday morning and i was finished eating by the end of the day, but it made me extremely sick and i had to sleep it off. the flip side is my weight came down much faster than last week. it took almost a week to lose a pound last week. this week, it's barely 48 hours later, and i'm already back in the 148 range. i will probably eat again on wednesday. however, it's because i spent much of monday experiencing brutal diarrhea. it went in one hole and right out the other.

i woke up, spent some time in the bathroom cleaning myself and decided to add a step to the cleaning process in the front of the space, about cataloging the media shelving i had just built. i'm deciding that cleaning the space includes a media cataloging step, as i have historically normally kept clear records of media lists, and i'm cognizant that i need to rebuild both archives to fill in a number of holes. i maintain impressive book and cd libraries that have been in boxes for too long, but it's now more due to rarity than breadth. i have some very obscure cds and some very out of print books. that's not a bad thing, exactly, but i have historically taken pride in breadth, as well. i went to university for 13 years, studied almost everything and have three degrees from it. my musical tastes are extremely broad. so, i need to rebuild that, and i can right now, so i will. further, i have old lists of both libraries that i can use to get me back to where i was previously, in terms of repurchasing items i sold, lost, had damaged or were stolen from me.

i indicated in a post a few weeks ago that i was going to be building my listening room soon, which includes setting up the raspberry pi. once i have that set up, i'll be moving to the listening project i mentioned, as i do a number of things (mostly exercising). there is a place set aside beside the couch to set my stationary back up. the pi will also be used to catalog the cds when it's set up, while the typing pc will be used for the writing processes. i have these things carefully segregated for a reason.

i have only been using three of the many devices i have in here since i moved in 

- a chromebook for email, blogging, vlogging and other general use in my bedroom. this is connected to my two main accounts and currently to the music device account as well.

- a temporary windows 7 laptop with word on my desk

- another chromebook in the kitchen, connected to the koala oversight committee youtube watch account, which will need to be redesigned so that it stops crashing (i think it's ram and i can fix it. that's the best choice.) and connected to the serious blog for youtube commentary and other typing when i'm eating, as well as the diet blog, and be able to make grocery purchases.

the pi will be device number four and will take over the responsibility for some of what i have open on this bedroom chromebook as well as anything else to do with music commentary. there will be a third chromebook in use in the studio as device #5, strictly for bandcamp and other music uploads, as well as the music journal. if i go with the mini pc for the zoom device, as it is looking like i will, i will probably also use it for general video editing and vlogging. i'm wondering if i shouldn't just fix the broken hp laptop and put linux on it, then. that will be device number six.

so, i decided to stop and organize the various profiles connected to the site in the process of rebuilding the media lists. before i move on, i will want to:

1) isolate a subset of the lists on the side bar that are set up for use on machines that are installed (the two chromebooks and the pi) and make a plan for designing devices to use the other profiles with.

2) finish cataloging cds and books, as i finish organizing them on the shelf

3) plug holes left in the collection

i started this off by rebuilding my music media list, which is now here:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/music-list.html

note that some of the labels are clickable, but i'm avoiding making lists for major labels unless the catalog numbers are clearly linear-chronological. the catalog numbers for emi and universal are often all over the place and don't generate any kind of narrative, the way the numbers for smaller labels do. the numbers for warner are a bit more manageable, and i'm figuring it out. i may have some sublists for universal, but the emi/virgin releases are not coherently organizable in this sense.

the label list is here:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/p/label-list.html

that list will update as i listen to cds in the boxes and put them on the shelf. the process will be that i'll take the items from the bottom list and move them to the top. anything left in the bottom list will need to be immediately repurchased. i'll also try to find other old cd lists to make sure any holes get plugged. i can order things on ebay and should just do it all at once. the missing items are mostly major label items, which isn't an accident; when i needed to sell cds, i sold easy to re find cds by popular bands like nine inch nails or radiohead and not obscure independently released cds. i have repurchased things in spurts but i know i'm missing piles of popular 90s cds. it shouldn't be hard to do a big roundup on ebay or discogs for relatively cheap. the next cd to listen to is autechre's ep7, when i get something to eat overnight or in the morning.

tonight, i will be getting a start on building a similar catalog for my books that will be organized by loc and doing a similar round up of missing, damaged or stolen items. i thought i had a book list uploaded but i guess i don't. i have a book review list but that's not what i want. the list for the book catalog or library index will be posted once i locate on old book list to upload to use as a base list.

it's now wednesday morning. my next check should clear on friday or saturday, and another will clear midweek.

so, after a couple of days of nonsense, iran is once again threatening to shoot ships trying to get out of the persian gulf, but the americans are allowing iran to move freely through the area. 

further, hezbollah is continuing to operate illegally in lebanon.

clearly, iran is not abiding by the terms of the agreement, as absurdly worded as it was. and that was predictable and obvious.

if trump (or vance as it may be) were capable of learning, they would conclude that iran is not negotiating in good faith, cannot be trusted and is not a valid negotiating partner. this process is an empty charade and a sham and the outcome has no meaning or value.

i've been quiet for a few days. i've made a lot of progress in here. the basic shape of the apartment will finally be in place in the next 24-48 hours and the remaining work to do will be related to organizing and installing, rather than cleaning and renovating. i'm almost done, really.

the caulk and some of the kitchen items came in on thursday. some more of the kitchen items came in on friday. i'm expecting the rest of it this week, and the pohb should be in on friday or saturday, which i will probably spend on groceries. i should get almost all of the remaining kitchen items in with the remaining amount, or the odsp amount on the 30th.

i last ate on wednesday/thursday. it only maxed out at 157 after the meal, which is progress, but it was very stubborn in coming down. i was up all night last night and it just wouldn't come down past 150. then, i woke up this evening and it was at 148.2. i once again lost several pounds sleeping. my schedule flipped over due to an issue in the unit and i functionally lost a day; i'm awake now. so, the first thing i need to do this evening is clean myself up and get something to eat and i should be able to finish things up after that.

i was waiting for the caulk to come in before i could get to work as the first thing to do was rebuilding the wall in the front, which had a lot of holes and cracks. i got the first round of caulking and vacuuming and scrubbing finished on thursday night / friday morning, including swapping some curtains out around the front side window, and went to put the curtains in the laundry when i realized there was a large amount of water running in from upstairs, plausibly from the upstairs toilet. so, i cut the water (i can control the water, the furnace, the hot water, the electrical, etc for the whole house from the basement. i don't want to abuse that. but it means i can cut the water if i have to, i don't have to watch the basement flood.) and it stopped flowing. it seemed to dry up so i tried it again and it started leaking again. while i couldn't get a clear understanding of where the water was coming from because i couldn't see into the area it was coming from, it was clearly coming from the pipes upstairs. it was falling like a waterfall, indicating it was coming from high up in the unit and via a steady stream. i had a few hypotheses that included a rat chewing through something, a burst pipe or a tap left on. so, i cut the water and txted the landlord. after cleaning the water leak up the best i could and letting it sit to dry, i found myself tired, so i went to sleep, to wait for the day's package to arrive in the afternoon.

the local manager (not the landlord, who lives in toronto) showed up after 10:00 and we were not able to recreate the leak, indicating there must have been a tap or something else left running that had since been turned off. he indicated the cause of the leak was a "cultural activity" and tried to yell at me for interrupting it, but i was not having any of that kind of bullshit and yelled at him right back. if some stupid idiots want to engage in some pointless ritual in their unit, that's not my concern and i don't give a fuck, so long as their lunacy doesn't affect me. however, as soon as their behaviour begins to interfere in my enjoyment of the unit, i'm going to respond to protect my space, and their culture becomes utterly irrelevant. i care about the water damage. i don't care about their culture. they can have their culture so long as it doesn't affect anybody else, but as soon as it infringes on the right of others, their culture goes in the dung heap, where it really belongs. i'm not going to accommodate them at the expense of my own enjoyment of the space. if they're going to try to enforce their culture on me, i'm going to respond by enforcing my own culture, which is a very british form of atheistic secular liberalism, on them.

so, we yelled at each other and he left.

i'm not going to be pushed around by religionists and i'm not going to adhere to or participate in their religion. they can go fuck themselves. we'll see what happens, but what i'm concerned about right now is potentially filing a t6, once i get the unit cleaned up. there are several places where the water damage needs to be addressed. i have suggested to the landlord that he should be evicting the tenants above me for the property damage caused by their cultural activities, and that the manager is a right-wing retard and a loser for concerning himself with the sanctity of their culture instead of the damage they are causing to the property. the landlord is more reasonable than the manager, but it's the gross idiot manager i have to deal with on a daily basis.

as this disrupted my sleeping schedule, i slept on friday afternoon once the package came in and woke up in the evening, checked the news and got back to what i was doing, which was cleaning up the front so i could set up the shelving, so i could move the books and cds out of the centre of the unit, so i could clear some furniture out of the kitchen. i have one big working shelving unit, one small working unit, a big broken unit and a small broken unit, in addition to the metal piping unit i just set up the other day. it took all night, but by the time i accidentally fell asleep on saturday afternoon when i stopped to google something, i had

- moved the working small unit in place, under the window

- moved the small broken unit to the area near the window, failed to fix it and put it aside

- moved the big working unit in place and put some cds i had listened to over night on it

- moved the metal piping unit in place and put about 70% of my reference books on it, organized by library of congress call number, which i had to organize by hand.

i have some pictures of the lonely cd shelf in the corner:

and of the library style book shelf, with about two thirds of my reference or non-fiction books (the fiction texts are in my bedroom):

i took that picture on saturday night when i woke up, before i got back to work.

over saturday night and sunday morning, i

- finished placing the non fiction books on the library shelf, organized by loc call number

- moved all of the fiction txts and items intended for my filing cabinet (school work, personal files) to my bedroom, where it's currently unorganized

- decided to take everything out of the middle of the room, clean it and then put it back in a more appropriate place or move it somewhere else

- caulked most of the southeast wall, including the window, and reorganized the objects located on it so that it's closer to it's final placement

- moved the boxes of cds to near where the cd shelf is

- moved the wood i intend to cut to near the front door

- fixed both of the broken shelving units and installed the big one. i'm not sure about the small one. it might go in the garage.

- took everything out of the front part of the unit, including moving several things into the garage area

- caulked and cleaned the front part of the unit

- installed the charging table with a power bar i intended for the garage (but is no longer going to be used in there) that has usb a and usb c ports in the front art of the unit

- listened to several cds and put them on the shelf when i was done

the result is that the front section is just about finished. i will still need to buy some more furniture, including a tall and skinny shelf, and i still need to get my cds on the shelf. i am also making it a priority to refind the books i have lost over the years, especially school text books. i also seem to be missing or have misplaced a box of books that has marx, kant, pynchon, machiavelli, hawthorne, shelley, the rig veda and conrad in it, to name a few things. if i cant find it, i'll order it, i guess. i think that some of the items might have been stolen by old asshole friends, and i know i lost a few things in a flood in my parent's basement a few years (many years) ago. i also want to make a point of getting physical copies of library books i read (ex: gimbutas) or books i have only read in digital format (proudhon, mill, kropotkin). the cube shelving unit turned out to be ideal as a library shelving unit, and i'm going to put a focus on it. i have two further units like that one.

but that's about it.

what i will need to do tonight after i finish eating is 

- do a second run on the front caulking

- move remaining items from the middle of the unit to the front (one of my bicycles, some wood, items for the charging table, any more books or cds i find, items that will go in the garage when i'm ready)

- clean the middle of the room (the studio, the listening area)

- move studio items to a place that will approximate their placement

- move furniture and equipment into listening area

- clear out clutter from kitchen

after that, i will get back to putting up the paneling in my bedroom first and then in the laundry, where i have done a little bit of carpet cleaning but haven't really got into updating yet.

this is a hell of a process but i'm getting there.

what donald trump really needs to come to terms with is the reality that his political career is an utter, abject failure. he's a fucking loser.

the correct thing for trump to do after he embarrassed himself on the iran file is resign and let somebody else clean the mess up. if he had any self-respect at all, he'd walk away entirely and go eat a big mac in a cave, not go on tv and make a bigger ass of himself.

“You were given the choice between war and dishonour. You chose dishonour, and you will have war.” - winston churchill, 1938

yeah.

good call.

this is an establishment think tank in the centre of canada's political establishment. 

https://macdonaldlaurier.ca/president-trumps-munich-on-the-hormuz-avideh-motmaen-far-for-inside-policy/

"if we just give the fascists everything they want, we'll have peace.".

right.

that has a history of working out well.

i actually read a liberal media article that stupidly tried to compare the situation to versailles. that is wrong, and completely misunderstanding where we're at with this.

versailles is wrong.

the sudetenland is closer to the truth.

and trump is starting to look like neville chamberlain.

trump no doubt thinks he's going to order the iranians to step down and they're going to listen.

if they were rational, they would. they aren't. rather, it's going to probably look something more like a police operation. they may be able to get the united nations involved, and that may be helpful given the nature of the technology required. they may need to police the strait to stop them from mining it.

i'd like to see them just torpedo any naval vessels trying to enforce a toll, one by one.

i can already see that the iranians are planning to toll the strait. that's not going to happen, and will require a military response. you can pencil that in a few weeks from now.

don coyote didn't want a war, he wanted to bully the iranians into compliance, and it didn't work because they're irrational. so, he gave up.

he should have blown them up, but he's a pussy.

they will be blown up soon enough, when he's replaced by a president with a bigger pair of balls.

the liberal press is retarded. some of the things i've read today are just moronic, and i'm not going to bother, but this is exactly what i wanted to avoid. i did not want to see the press come to these absurd and false conclusions, as that does not help the forces of global freedom, which mostly live in the west.

no, the united states did not lose a war against iran. trump lost a war against himself. liberalism lost a struggle against authoritarianism, but it's a struggle it was set up to lose, and that the actors guiding the liberal side weren't truly fighting. the result is irrelevant in fact, but catastrophic in theory. it looks terrible on paper.

but trump doesn't actually care.

the reality is that it doesn't matter what the document says. the iranians aren't going to abide by it, and the americans probably won't either. trump doesn't actually give a fuck. trump was just bored. it was taking too long; his attention span isn't that long. the iranians weren't cooperating. it wasn't fun. the war sucked.

the document will never be implemented, never be ratified, never mean anything. it's nonsense to the core. it looks horrific, but it's ridiculous on it's face. journalists will scour the document for meaning and purpose, but there's no meaning, and the only purpose was to end the formal state of hostilities. it means nothing else.

the blockade was a good idea, but they didn't even try. they let food and medicine in and even let some oil out. a blockade is a siege, and it might have to go on for years before it succeeds. 

but, now trump doesn't have to have the war any more, because it's not any fun.

instead, he can go on tv and say shit like this, and it doesn't matter what connection it has to reality. what matters is the branding: trump wins, america won, trump brought home a peace deal for the senate. he'll sell that to his irrelevant base, as a lame duck. it just doesn't matter. 

what matters is the process that comes next, which is cleaning this mess up, and it's going to be painful and violent and destructive.

https://www.cnbc.com/2026/06/19/trump-claims-iran-deal-is-unconditional-surrender-axios-.html

iran now has 60 days to completely withdraw hezbollah from lebanon, or it will face renewed american attacks.

or that's my reading of the document, anyways.

paragraph 1 of the mou should require the complete disarmament and withdrawal of hezbollah and all other iranian proxy forces from lebanon, who are not respecting the sovereignty of the lebanese state. if the iranians do not immediately remove their proxy forces from lebanon, they are not abiding by the agreement. 

what else does the paragraph mean?

the only signatories are iran and the united states, and only iran has illegal proxies in lebanon.

the basic problem here is that the americans are giving a dishonest, lying terrorist death cult, who has repeatedly broken every agreement it's ever signed, the benefit of the doubt that they will negotiate in good faith, when all evidence demonstrates that that is absurd.

the agreement is not worth the paper it's signed on. the iranians will break it at the soonest opportunity.

but, trump is being driven by the mental illness of faith in a positive outcome. he wants peace and won't allow facts or evidence to alter his desires. he never does, which is his general problem - he's not empirical. he operates on magical thinking.

trump may end up signing something because he insists on imagining peace as a realistic outcome and won't allow evidence to disrupt his vision, but there is no possibility that this process is going to lead to any kind of substantive peace, and it is merely necessitating a vicious american response in the very near future, perhaps even by the next democrat in the oval office, who might have to go in there and chop some heads off to clean up this mess.

expect this process to lead to nothing other than iranian terrorist attacks, dead americans, more war and an eventual resolve for regime change in tehran in washington. and expect donald trump to be portrayed as a delusional, insane buffoon by historians.

https://www.npr.org/2026/06/18/nx-s1-5863027/us-iran-trump-memorandum-of-understanding-full-text

we didn't get much rain here last night but the weather system knocked me out regardless. i got most of the way through my caesar and stopped to sleep and woke up to realize the power had gone out earlier in the night. i only have two chromebooks running right now and one of them has a battery, so it was a minimal annoyance, but i slept a lot longer than intended, regardless. it's reminded me to add a couple of upses to the list of studio and other computer station items.

i woke up and sorted through some purchases first and will get to finishing the caesar now.

- i have ten more containers of caulk and a container of quick drying cement coming from canadian tire

- i think i can use the quick drying cement as mortar without adding sand because it doesn't shrink (it seems to already have sand). it is probably technically a mortar, already. i hope i have enough.

- i bought a trowel with it on amazon because i don't have one

- i also bought some kitchen items: a glass replacement for my brita jug (which i leave out at room temperature, without a filter), some brushes for some of the glasses i bought that are designed for dishwashers and that i can't get my hands into because they're too skinny, a 150 watt herb grinder for extremely infrequent marijuana use (i like to keep it a substantive distance from the house and don't want to smell it where i live. i don't shit in my own food supply.), a handful of paper sized white board magnets for the fridge and these $25 usb c electric scrubbing devices for the floors, which i think need a good scrub. if they work once and break, that's fine, but i suspect i'll hang on to them.

there's going to be a charging table in the front entrance, which is going to be used less when i get the other door installed. i already have a 10 port usb A charging hub that has slowly filled up with devices. it's also going to need a usb c hub, because they aren't compatible. that wasn't supposed to happen. usb was supposed to be backwards compatible. but the money-grubbing shitheads at apple pushed that through and we're stuck with it.

as i'm trying to get the plastic out of here, and that's a major reason i'm considering buying a pop maker, i don't want to buy a pop maker with a plastic bottle. that limits my options to one model by sodastream, or a more expensive high end competitor that's out of my price range. my choices are the new duo sodastream or a used aquafizz. so i'll have to wait a bit.

it's not going to be clear where i can put a dishwasher in here until it's properly cleaned up, but i might actually want to put it in the laundry. there's more space in there, a table i can put it on and a water hook up near the laundry. that will likely have to wait a fair bit, as i'm probably going to have to pay n the $400+ range, and it's not likely to be a priority.

i've been sleeping mornings this week but i'm awake now. so, i'm going to finish that salad and then clean myself up a little and then get back to what i was doing, as i wait for things to come in. i could conceivably get some shelving installed by the end of the day.

google...

can you stop sending me to amazon.com and walmart.com and ebay.com instead of the .ca sites?

google.ca apparently no longer exists, forcing me to use google.com. i'm never going to buy anything from a us site instead of the .ca site, and they wouldn't ship here, anyways. this is stupid.

why did you get rid of google.ca? it makes shopping via google from canada almost impossible.

i didn't get as much done as i wanted last night before i fell asleep, but i did get one of those cube shelves put together, and i think it should be sturdy enough for textbooks (which is what i bought it for), so long as it stays in place. it's pretty solid. i also got another row of cardboard up on the ceiling, enough that i'll be ready to put the first row of aluminum up, as soon as i'm done recovering some corrupted video files and make a short video about it. i had to put together the cube shelves before i could get the cardboard up because i had to use the box from the shelves to get a hole around the light fixture.

i had a food processor and a titanium cutting board delivered the other day, and the food processor is absolutely vicious. it's for garlic mostly, as well as dill and broccoli and other things i want cut very closely. it just destroys it. my old plastic cutting board is smelly and impossible to clean. the metal board wipes right down. that's some more plastic out of here.

i have some rechargeable lithium nine volt batteries coming tomorrow because my landlord isn't responding to requests to replace the battery in the fire alarm. it's his responsibility. while this is negligence, and i'm taking note of it if i need to bring it up, it's not worth it to me. if i get a couple of rechargeables, i have them if i need them. i don't mind paying for that, as i can use them for guitar effects or whatever else. it is useful to have extra nine volts and these are rechargeable for thousands of charges so now i'll always have some. he is paying electricity, anyways. problem solved, although he'll need to note that i'm taking it with me in the end. i also have some concrete on order to fix the holes i'm concerned about. if i actually do that, and have to send him the costs for fixing it, the only remaining serious issue is going to be fixing a door. i'm not going to fix that door myself; if i have to do it, i'm going to hire somebody, and if i have to hire somebody i'm going to need to send him the bill. the door must be fixed. the problem is that the manager here is a massive loser that wants to maintain this property as a crack house rather than fix it. i don't have patience for that, but i don't want to fight with him, so i'm doing it myself, but i also want to avoid conflict, so i'm leaving fixing this door to the very end when everything else is done. i am within my rights to fix things myself if he won't fix it, and he'll have to pay for it if i have to hire somebody. as it is, i'm just asking for a refund on materials.

when my cdb comes in tomorrow, i'm going to need to order some caulk so i can clean and seal up the front of the apartment, which is where i'm moving all of the shelving for books and cds. once it's clean in there, i can move the shelving in, which will open up the studio part of the apartment to move my studio furniture and equipment into. further, once the shelving is in place, i can take all of the books and cds off the floor and put them on the shelves, which will open up a lot more space. there's hundreds of books and hundreds of cds in piles of large boxes. in fact, one of the things i like about this place is that i have a lot of shelving options in multiple parts of the apartment, which i'm going to maximize.

so, i'm trying to avoid getting into a fight about fixing the door, and about fixing the holes, and about the batteries and whatnot. i'm looking for less combative approaches. i have not filed any t2s at this location, but i should have by now. the smoking is minimal and often non-existent, i don't need the money, and i've been looking at a general direction of things to judge how to react. are things, broadly, getting better? then, let me be patient. they were broadly getting better, but it's stagnated since the summer. i don't know if this guy is gone for the summer or what. i can do a lot of this shit myself, but there's a few red lines of things i have to get done and that i might have to get pushy about if they don't get done and that i'm going to try to stay away from until i have to.

right now, i need to eat, and then i need to get back to the things i was doing, which include getting the cardboard on the ceiling and cleaning the front so i can get to caulking it for tomorrow.

the basic question is this: what does israel get in return for withdrawing?

nothing?

then go fuck yourself.

if i were israel, i would make it clear that the end of hostilities in lebanon requires, by definition, the complete disarmament and withdrawal of hezbollah, who are illegally occupying the country. there can be no peace in lebanon without the complete withdrawal of the hezbollah occupiers.

if the agreement between the united states and iran calls for a unilateral withdrawal of israel from lebanon without a subsequent withdrawal of hezbollah from lebanon, that would be a non-starter and something israel could not abide by. so long as hezbollah is in lebanon, israel will also be in lebanon. the agreement would need to call for a bilateral withdrawal, and the withdrawal would need to be carried out reciprocally, or it's a non-starter and it won't be abided by.

i was at 149.6 when i went to sleep this morning. i'm at 149.0 now. it's time to eat again.

i'm noticing some more substantive weight loss over the last few days (i've had to tighten my belt to stop my pants from falling off), and it's had a noticeable effect on the acne. the puffiness akin to an allergic reaction - the stupid jock face syndrome - has lifted, which is exposing a lot of blemishes under the build up of dead skin that is coming off, and that are starting to wash off. so, it looks maybe worse right now, but it's getting better. give it a few more pounds and that should clear up.

i don't think i've ever been over 150 pounds before previously in my life, and i'm 45 years old. this is highly uncharacteristic and about as fat as i'm ever going to get. the reason it snuck up on me is that i've never had to deal with it before. i've always struggled to gain weight; i've always been too thin. i caught it when my bmi started coming up over 23 and i started to notice the acne resulting from it. 

if i start getting back into my normal exercise routine soon, i shouldn't find myself that concerned about the weight. i'm just still struggling to climb out of the rock bottom i hit a few years ago due to the pandemic restrictions, which functionally ended my social life and which i never recovered from, and reestablish a sense of normality. reasserting my normal weight is a healthy part of this process of renormalizing.

it is a clearly empirical, objective, uncontestable fact that there is no such thing as god, and any individual expressing belief in god is expressing mental illness and should be recommended for treatment.

let us begin with that and start from there.

second, we need to more seriously address the problem of drug addiction, as a society. our courts have failed on this issue. repassing laws prohibiting drug use in order to recreate a social stigma around it is a necessary first step, but it's not enough. we failed to properly educate the millennial generation about the dangers of drug use, and we're seeing the consequences of that failure in education. 

the best way to educate young people about the dangers of drug use is to show them what drug addicts actually look like. they're not attractive people, they're pathetic losers, and young people will see that if you stop sheltering them from it and actually allow them to observe the evidence first hand.

no child should say "i want to be a drug addict when i grow up".

we should be spending billions to develop scientific therapies to cure people of the mental illness of theism and religionism, to start with. wiping out the mental health scourge of faith and eradicating the backwardsness of belief should be a dominant public health priority.

the irony you will find with these drug dealer pushers with this most recent snake oil scam is that the true believers think they are providing treatment for "mental health", when the truth is that the bulk of them are symptomatic schizophrenics that need therapy, themselves.

no schizophrenic idiot that believes in god should ever be looked to to provide "mental health" guidance for the mentally ill. 

https://www.cbc.ca/arts/prophet-of-ecstasy-doc-9.7237506

ok, so i have caught up on the loose ends on the computer caused by the crash at the zoom site, which i must avoid going to completely, and now need to finish what i was doing with the insulation & wiring in the bedroom and laundry, do some loose ends in the bathroom and laundry and then get back to pushing through the coffee table book, including setting up some of these shelves. and, as i'm at about 151.5, it should be time to eat again soon, too.

let me try to get the loose ends done before i eat, which will be setting up one of these cube shelving systems (unlike my closet organizer, which i had to abandon because it was flimsy, these structures are made of metal inserts and will be very sturdy) and swapping out the door knobs, before i get some more cardboard up on the wall.

are canadians ready to support a tax on male facial hair yet?

yeah, i'm probably going to get more of what i want from a linux mini pc than an android tablet. and it may be cheaper to buy it with windows 11, and even use it for a bit until i have to replace it. can i find one that won't break in six months? although this device will also be used less than my devices are and will be in a sturdy place.

it might not be so bad in terms of longevity. can you swap parts on a mini pc or are the boards soldered?

the specialized hardware i want to run will work with windows 11 out of the box, but i might have to tolerate adware. i can always install linux if i hate it. 

there are reasons why i want to use a tablet for this; they're engineered to do this. it should be the best user experience. but the access restrictions on android are frustrating, the cost to get around it with windows isn't worth it and the apples are absurdly overpriced. the mini pc is probably the best answer.

but, as mentioned, i can use an inexpensive android tablet, regardless, so i should start there and see if it works. if it works, great. if it doesn't, i'll move it to the bedroom and get the mini pc, which i'm certain will work.

there's a lesson in israel right now for the entire world: donald trump is an unreliable ally and a fair weather friend. 

it's going to be up to the administration to go around him.

and, as he becomes lamer and lamer, that will become the more dominant norm. by the end of this, he'll be lamer than his tv show was.

the rest of the world needs to be prepared for when the americans come back and finish this, as nothing was resolved. this isn't over. it won't be very long. the democrats might even have to do it. it's non-negotiable and inevitable and imminent, and it's now going to be harder than it would have been, otherwise, but there is no alternative outcome.

the problem is just that trump couldn't get what he wanted, so he gave up, but that's not real life. real life is that if you punch an ape in the nose, you have to fight it, even if you don't want to do it.

if you look at the inflation data carefully, it tells you something else - it's less that food is too expensive (it's not that bad, relatively speaking) and it's more that wages are too low. employers have done the usual scam job on us, in hiking prices faster than wages. so, real wages have fallen relative to inflation, and that's really what the issue is.

we don't solve these problems with stupid commissions on competition. that's retarded.

we solve these problems by organizing, marching and striking for higher pay.

competition is extremely expensive.

it's consumers that have to pay for it.

that's what modern economics says about competition. mr. carney's views, broadly, are not very modern. he still lives in the cold war.

so, in a stupid attempt to save money, they're going to waste millions on a study, which may suggest they enforce expensive policies that will certainly increase prices.

i learned in first year economics that competition is wasteful and that the food industry, which is highly oligopolistic, strenuously avoids competition because it would lead to higher prices in the long run, after the costs for the competitive behaviour (including advertising) are fully accounted for. i'm not sure what our fuhrer mr carney learned about competition in school, but it would seem to be something else entirely, and something less correct.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/business/competition-bureau-canada-food-supply-chain-grocery-prices-9.7237172

canada has a serious problem with creeping fascism in it's ruling hierarchy, and it needs to be identified for what it is so it can be attacked and dismantled.