yeah, that creative software acts like spyware. you can't get it off the machine. that wasn't a problem before because the drivers for the older card (which didn't support asio at all) were integrated into xp. so, i'm just reinstalling immediately.

all i need to do is line up the sample in harry to take it out and the 7th lp releases. finally.

and, then i need to finish sorting through the drive.

...and i had two copies of my h2o driver....oops....

i had to take a nap...

i needed to get two phase inversions done this afternoon. one was easy and the second doesn't want to line up, but the creative card wasn't syncing right with cubase. so, let's try again with it removed from the machine.

so, the recording machine has been a bit more stable recently, until i did two things:

1) opened cubase

2) searched the 2 tb drive

i just proved that the audigy does not work properly over asio, so it's of minimal use to me, anyways. it's coming out. immediately.

i suspect that xp may have problems with drives larger than 1 tb, which i'm going to try to deal with by breaking the 2 tb drive up into smaller partitions.

i don't like sleeping...

i wanted this build of my 7th record done last night, but it's just a few more bits.

so, if you want the instrumental version of the renaissance piece that starts like divine amoebas, it is on the single. 

but, unlike everything else in my discography except stress, this is a vocally driven conceptual work and not a piece of pure music and i need to leave it that way.

broadly speaking, i've removed vocals from these records because i'm not comfortable with them. i rebuilt most of the inri-era vocal tracks for a series of singles, but they are broadly hard to listen to, so leaving them on the singles is the right way to do it. deny everything only had one vocal track to remove, and that was the right choice, partly because i had the electric folk version, which appears on the 5th record as the only salvaged vocal piece for the official lps. the 5th and 6th records were both built in 2014 for the first time, without vocals. and, the trivial group 2xlp will have vocals removed because they're mostly cringey, too - but left on the singles. 

unlike the others, i can't argue that that the vocals for like divine amoebas are cringey or hard to listen to. they don't interfere with the music, which was built around it. rather, i'd be separating the sound from it's content in a way that ultimately doesn't make sense.

so, i'll uploaded the 2021 rebuild for it. that's the right answer.

and, i'm going to replace some files on the amoebas single so they flow a little better, then, too.

a part of me is resisting the idea of removing the vocal mix from the ftaa disc.

let me chew on it  a bit, first.

publishing inri080

so, inri080 is done up to finalizing...

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as mentioned below this, inri080 is now released - and this one's done to start. 

i needed a way to release an updated, corrected version of this tune, as i'll be removing the vocals from the 7th lp, which is set to release imminently. the version on the art show demo is normalized, but i'm leaving it like that. so, this fills a gap that opened up. 

the first part of the track (quantum psychosis) was written on heather's acoustic guitar in sarah's bedroom one night when i was there by myself and recorded directly to four-track tascam at the same time. several electric guitar overdubs were added either right away or very shortly. i digitized this in 2004 and do not know where the tape went; it is presumed lost, in 2021. 

the second part of the track was constructed more or less all at once in january, 2004 for the purposes of creating an art show demo. i had just finished reading a couple of books on afghan history, and had imagined this idea already, so i just implemented it all in one go. i haven't altered the recording substantively, since. 

the demo doesn't appear to have found an audience in it's initial presentation. 

the track itself is fairly esoteric. if you're not following the lyrics, it's a narrative of the history of afghanistan, starting from the achaemenid period and ending in the nato occupation of afghanistan. afghanistan used to be a very wealthy and very buddhist place, but it was utterly destroyed by the mongols in the 13th century and never fully recovered from the devastation. the track then climaxes in an epic 14-minute romp that sonically depicts the transmigration of the soul. afghanistan has historically usually been a buddhist region; it is unfortunately currently being occupied by foreigners that are non-buddhists, but their ancestors would no doubt forgive them for it.

this is a comprehensive collection of the different versions, as of mid-2021 and i don't expect to expand it further. 

written and recorded from 2001-2004. all versions here constructed over early 2004 from sound written in 2001 (the piano part) and/or recorded in late 2003 (the vocal quantum psychosis folk section) or early 2004 (the transmigration section). compiled and uploaded on june 19, 2021. as always, please use headphones. 

released february 1, 2004 

j - electric & acoustic guitars, effects, drum programming, vocals, noise generators, piano programming, noise generators, digital wave editing, composition, production 

special thanks to heather's guitar, which was just sitting in the corner minding it's own business before i picked it up to jam a bit.

if we're going to have identity politics, let's identify as atheists and unite on those terms and force the system to conform to what we want, rather than the other way around.

listen.

atheists are clearly the dominant demographic right now, but we're apathetic by nature and tend not to really care much about religion one way or the other. most of us don't even see at as worth being afraid of - it's too irrelevant to even fear.

i'm not representative of anybody; i'm always twenty years ahead of everybody, and what i'm trying to do is wake atheists up a little and get them to realize the threat that's in front of them - and know they won't unless pushed. and, that's probably the actual truth, that you're going to have to really push people hard to get them to react, and even the pandemic restrictions have only created a muted reaction because they really aren't enough to have people feel as though their rights are being taken from them, yet.

if you just take it on face value, if you eliminate the obvious symbolism that is going right over your average atheist's head, then wearing a mask is a triviality, right? i mean, who cares - it's just a stupid mask. what's the big deal?

it's when you take it to the next step that you're going to get people going "heeyyyyyy. wait a minute. you said i had to wear a mask to protect from diseases, but now you want me to lie on my face and mumble this nonsense facing...which way? why that way? this is lame. and weird. so, fuck off."

the premise of incrementally converting people relies on the assumption that they understand what's going on and will submit to it; if they don't even understand what the fuck is happening, you're just going to get a delayed reaction.

so, every time i go to google news it's something else. now, the who wants to ban alcohol. right. well, that's the kind of thing that'll get people out of their seats.

it could be a good thing in the long run if it wakes us up and convince us to be more politically aware. a cohesive atheist voting bloc might seem like a pipe dream, but it just might save the world if it's coerced into existence by the "liberals" organizing on the religious right.