i'm home, after what was one of if not the single longest, most stressful days of my life.

i'm sore everywhere, some of it from over-exertion and some of it from being manipulated by some thuggish cops. and, sleep is not optional in humans.

more later. but yikes....

zzzzzzz.

it's nice to see that markey held off kennedy.

i just want to provide an update to the office about the situation, and request a concrete date when i can speak with dr ======.

after speaking with reception this morning (directly after being released from a night in jail, when i was arrested for "trespassing" in the emergency room, after being told i wasn't suicidal and was just making it up, and yet adamantly insisting i was), i tried to attend a number of clinics, only to learn that every clinic around is totally closed. i then made my way home, tried to call a few places with no luck and then called the shopper's, where we worked out a plan for another month.

so, the exact crisis has been postponed, until i can see or speak to dr ===== again in mid-september and we can discuss dosages and ways to increase them, such as perhaps seeing an endocrinologist. the release of funding for the orchidectomy is another necessary topic of discussion, and i can maybe do some due diligence in trying to find somebody that'll actually do it.

so, presuming that i can actually speak to dr. ========== in mid-september, it seems as though the situation is resolved, for now.

i have no schedule, but would prefer the 13:00 time slot, if possible. please let me know if you can schedule.

and, if we are doing this by phone, which is fine, i will need to be given another number to call as your number just rings with no answer when i call over voip, for reasons i don't understand.

i apologize if i was uncharacteristically erratic, but my stress levels were truly through the roof. i tried hard to be grounded, and did the best i could in the situation.

i am the person that was arrested twice last night for the crime of having suicidal thoughts and going to the hospital to have it addressed. the crisis i was in is not over, and this is likely not the last you've seen of me.

i have been off of the drugs now for almost 36 hours and am already experiencing severe side effects, including unwanted random erections and extreme outbursts of violent thoughts and aggressive behaviour, leading me to wonder how much more of this i can take before i pull the plug. this is only going to get worse until the issue is addressed. it is beyond baffling that my very serious concerns were brushed aside by a doctor that clearly had distinctly anti-queer biases.

as i was not allowed to get the facts straight before i was dragged out of the hospital like an animal, i feel the need to get a fax to the hospital to set things straight. after reviewing these facts, if the hospital would like to reconsider the situation and the uniqueness of the emergency room in having the ability to prescribe what i need at this time, i would appreciate a call (you can leave a message) or email to correct the situation.

as it is, dr. ====== should expect a human rights case to be filed against him at the ohrc for discrimination, in short order, and i will be prosecuting the case as aggressively as is possible, as what happened is unconscionable. there will likewise be civil action taken against the police for clearly disproportionately violent behaviour. and, i intend to make a serious complaint against the guard '======', as well, with the intent of him losing his job.

i will easily defeat the specious tickets in court.

this can never happen to anybody else ever again.

what are the facts?

1) the transitional stability centre does not have physicians on hand and cannot prescribe medications. it is of absolutely no use to me at all, as i said. dr. ====== insistence that i go there to refill an rx was deeply ignorant and severely misinformed.

2) while i have an rx for cyproterone, it is at a dosage that is too small to be useful, as a result of an unusual level of tolerance built up from high dosages over many, many years. i need a dosage that is usually reserved for prostate cancer patients.

3) my doctor is on holidays and cannot be reached until mid september.

4) regardless, doctors & nurses are required to follow certain guidelines in filling a rx such as this. my required dosage exceeds the maximum allotment. as such, only an emergency room doctor can identify the situation as an emergency and prescribe the required dosage.

5) every clinic in town is closed.

so, i have now followed the suggestions set out by the doctors and have merely arrived at the same point: i need an er doctor to prescribe this rx. a clinic cannot do so, nor can my family doctor.

i will need to try the met campus this afternoon, and hope i get a second opinion, from there.

the bizarrity of the scenario is that i was right about everything, and the doctors and nurses were wrong about everything. there is still time to correct this, even if the situation is too far gone to avoid the intervention of the ohrc. no amount of reconciliation on your behalf will avoid a human rights battle that i intend to win, and that i intend to reverberate in pushing through institutional changes as to how mental health emergencies are dealt with by the windsor hospital.

what happened to me cannot happen to anybody else, and everybody involved should be deeply ashamed of what they did. you will be held accountable in time.