and, the bootlog is crashing at the same place, too.

so, the primary goal still appears to be to take down the firewall and install a vpn.

which is never going to happen, because i'll never allow unsigned drivers.

i'm going to just try a vanilla copy over for now, and hope i can get the rebuild finished.

the last ip addresses in the log belong to google (which makes sense, as i was posting to blogger and listening to youtube) and fastly, which does not, unless google is buying services from fastly, which seems unlikely.

i don't see any legitimate reason for these ips.

so, i guess i can try blocking the range of ip addresses by fastly when i come up. hopefully, that buys me some more time.

again, though: whoever is doing this appears to have gone to the trouble of purchasing a cloud computing service to attack me with. that's surreal. it indicates quite a bit of investiture, and it's starting to freak me out.

i'm starting to feel stalked. like, actually stalked - stalked in terms that would meet a legal definition of an actual crime. 

so, i have a potential source, but it doesn't look to be very helpful. hopefully, though, i can block it..

i'm an egalitarian. i like equality. i treat people as equals, and want to be treated as an equal by the people around me.

i don't like people that are dominant or controlling. and, i'm not going to submit to anybody's dominance. nor am i going to fight back against them.

i'm just going to try to avoid and ignore people that act like that, because i wouldn't enjoy spending my time with them.

again: i'm not enjoying this.

i don't like this game.

i'm not having fun.

this is boring. i want to do something else with my time.

i don't like the person that is doing this. i'm not impressed by them. i'm annoyed, and want them to leave me alone.

ok, it's the same access error i was getting previously.

....meaning that i'm pretty sure i know how to fix it.

i'm going to guess that the increased harmfulness of the attack is a function of the increased difficulty in breaking in and that they're essentially still running the same failed exploit, which i'm going to format yet again.

but, let's see what kind of evidence they left.

there's not really anything i can do until i get some kind of lead.

i do still think that it's the cops, or at least i think that the cops are the primary suspect. then, what happens if i call? i'm just giving them information.

if it's not the cops, i don't have any useful information to give them - i can't really prove that my hard drive isn't failing, although i'm nerdy enough to know it isn't.

the chkdsk gave me back my file directory at least, let's see what happens if i try to boot.

this is legit cyberstalking, and the person responsible belongs in a jail cell for it.

but, how concerned ought i be about who or what is stalking me?

if succeeding in locking whatever i'm fighting with out made them angry and destructive all of a sudden, what exactly am i dealing with, here?

i haven't posted in a while.

i didn't want to broadcast that i was up, and that the system seemed stable, i just wanted to quietly get back to work. and, i got quite a bit done - i'm very close to being finished the rebuild for 2013, it's just two days and a few pages left, although i'm going to have to rewind to the beginning of the month when i get back up to ensure data integrity. it's very time consuming, but it's required every time i do this.

i was probably on to something about the service workers being an attack vector, because they don't seem to have been able to do what they were doing previously. that seems to have stopped them.

so, instead, they did something else and tried to take my boot drive out altogether. i got an 0x24, which is an indexing error and may indicate lost data.

it's not actual lost data. i don't keep anything on my boot drive; it's designed to be wiped out. if i've lost anything, it's the changes i made since the last reimage, and that's minor.

but, this is an escalation. this is the first time they've threatened my data in any meaningful way.

i'll have to see what i can recover from the drive. can i get an ip address? can i figure out what they did?

i wanted to finish the rebuild before i ate, and i did get very close, but i'll have to run a chkdsk on the drive and i'll have to eat now.

are they trying to delete the data after all? that's not consistent. rather, i might suspect that somebody just threw a temper tantrum. and, given that this is all very childish all around, is it worthwhile to tell them to grow up?

this is my computer, my data, my website, my ideas, my writings. i own all of this. this is mine. nobody has any rights of interference, here.

it's ridiculous enough that i have to waste my time fighting this off, but to the extent that i'm successful, i'm certainly in my rights of self-defense. 

but, it's worrisome.

and, it's making me wonder. is this really the cops? or is it a fucked up loser with control issues?