like i said before, this is the right way to do this - the diet plan was a good start, but you have to test it to make sure it works, too.

i know it's easy to blame it on the phytates, but my calcium and magnesium levels are both high.

let's see what the zinc levels are...

so, i got to the doctor's office and back in less than an hour and got recs for the following things i suggested:

- reticulocyte (am i actually bleeding?)

- ldh (to test for spleen damage and general organ malfunction)

- ck isoenzymes ("")

- lead  (it's entirely plausible, given where i live, that i'm experiencing lead poisoning.)

- hepcidin (i think this is the key one. he didn't know what it was, either.)

- zinc (i focused just on the zinc this time, out of curiosity)

- ferritin (let's see what effect two weeks of pills has had)

...as well as the following things he suggested:

- haptoglobin (my blood results are weird, but this will clarify what's going on a little in terms of what kind of anemia is present. but, i actually suspect this will come back normal, or close to it, just to make it all that much more confusing.)

- urine & fecal test for blood traces (i'll let them do it, but...)

- h pylori (which is a bacteria i posted a little about previously. again, sure - let's be thorough. fine.) 

he also ordered a "urinalysis" and we'll have to see what's in the test regarding things like vitamins and minerals. but, i held off on a lot of stuff this appointment, and let him doctor, instead. we can do a full vitamin & mineral count next time.

this should clarify quite a bit, i think.

i'm posting them here ahead of time to make sure i don't miss anything when it comes back.

the only things in my list that got skipped were the vitamins and minerals, which were intended to check for full absorption, but also for my own nutrition project. i mean, are there any other weak points besides the iron?

- vitamins a, b1-b7, c, e, k & choline/betaine  (some in urinalysis, though?)

- selenium & iodine

- molybdenum, copper, nickel, manganese & chromium

- fluoride

- nitrates (in urinalysis, though?)

- cadmium, aluminum, arsenic, mercury

- protein / amino acids (in urinalysis, though?)

as mentioned, i'm ok waiting until next time for this stuff. there's enough in the test already as it is.

he suggested i hold off on the appointment for a hematologist because everything's coming back fine, for now; that is, he didn't see anything to specifically refer to him. fair enough.

so, i am actually almost done sorting through this pile of external media - i have two more drives to sort through, and then it's going to be a different process.

i'm stopping for the morning and will be back at it this afternoon.

i got off facebook a long time ago, and the only redeeming lingering quality it really had was an easily sortable timeline...which is now gone.

we have that here, thankfully.

but, i'm wondering if it wouldn't be better to just wipe the thing down....

i'm not there yet, and it doesn't matter right now. soon, though.

and, how am i feeling? 

substantively more alert.

actually.

so, i've sorted through everything and the only thing i can find that is amiss is those weird kickstarter accounts. strange.

also, there's one account that won't let me login, and that's potentially a concerning point.

the general bizarrity of the situation continues.

i got my pins in today, which should help me get some stuff out of boxes as soon as i can get into the back space, which will happen as soon as i can defrost the fridge, which is fairly soon.

for now, i've got everything i wanted to get off the internet off and on to the external drive and am willing to step away from this.

i'm not going to get to the alter-reality today, but i'm closer to it than i have been in quit a while.

today's post is my third official record, inridiculous, aka inri033. that closes the trilogy. sort of. trinri became my fourth lp, instead, but isn't thematically similar. 

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except to split out the last track as a single, i've decided not to alter this in any way. 

i was moving, conceptually, to more serious styles of music. i wanted to write these epic 20-minute trips that reached into every genre imaginable. you can hear that shift over the last few things i posted, and it really accelerates moving into the year 2000. there wasn't much left of 'inri' by the time i got there. 

what i had left was a bunch of noise tracks that i'd been putting aside for a third demo, trinri, that was meant to carry on with the same concept as the first two: "songs" and "collages" would alternate over 19 tracks. the problem i ran up against with trinri was that i was no longer interested in writing songs. what was coming out, instead, were these fifteen minute journeys. that's ultimately the driving reason that i switched things up: the format had worn itself thin. 

in an attempt to establish conceptual unity, i pulled the noise collages together (along with some older collages that i had pulled from various sources as far back as my first demo tape) into this thing. i became aware at some point, very suddenly, that the whole idea and product was sort of ridiculous. hence the title. 

this recording is consequently void of actual songs. it isn't easy to listen to, and offers few reprieves, but if you're a fan of a specific kind of electronic psychedelia then you may find something of enjoyment here. 

written and demoed in multiple stages from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in dec, 1999. slightly resequenced in jan, 2014. re-released jan 3, 2014. finalized as lp007 on sept 19, 2017. this is my third official record; as always, please use headphones. 

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1999, 2013, 2014, 2017). 

released december 10, 1999 

j - guitar, effects, bass, keyboards, tapes, synthesizers, live drums, drum programming, hammerhead (909 emulator), sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, noise generators, sound design, loops, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute

to be clear: the mongols and chinese didn't like each other. clearly.

but, the mongols were never this group of noble savages like the germans, slavs and celts were; they had empires (and emperors), they enforced taxes, they colonized, etc.

so, it was more like you had competing ethnic groups with more or less the same governing ideology.

the division in europe was about more than race - there was a distinct ideological boundary. so, it was that much more profound, and the clash that occurred was that much more substantive.

so, this seems like a student body at oxford that has decided to put some lectures by guest speakers up online.

i'll take a run through that and see if i want to stick with it or not.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8tThrdb4QUCZLjTgPeAYiQ/videos

you know, the british have a house of lords. in fact, that's what the magna carta actually was - representation by clan. and, i certainly couldn't suggest, with good conscience, that that kind of system should be exported to somalia; after all, the british people spent a fair amount of time tearing it down.

i'm not going to fact check everything this guy said, but he made a very large number of questionable, misleading or false assertions. i'll just tag it with caveat auditor and leave it at that.

that said, the basic dialectic he's presenting it's exceedingly useful. i've made my own biases towards the german variant of anarchism known, but let's not pretend it was unique - it was just the most recent example of a process that occurred in rome, in greece and probably in sumeria (where our records are a little less reliable), where you have these anarchist northerners coming into contact with these settled southerners, and seeing different kinds of economic organization throw thesis and antithesis against each other. this dialectical process really repeats in history - it's not just a europe v china thing. and, what seems to be the significant difference in china is that the mongols were never an antithesis to the chinese, so the synthesis never formed out of it.

so, i'm not going to endorse anything this guy says; i'd instead suggest significant caution in listening to him. but, i'm going to suggest watching it, nonetheless, as the framing is actually exceedingly relevant.

that happens sometimes - you have a good idea, and bad or insufficient deductions drawn from it.