Wednesday, May 26, 2021

this is actually a useful outcome, as she doesn't have to pander to quebec to win re-election.

i've been highly critical of this person's political positions. she was wrong on her insistence on unnecessary statist interference in assisted suicide, and she was wrong on the normalcy and relevancy of corruption within capitalist institutions. but, she's right this time - the legal process in the constitution must be followed, or it's rendered void, altogether.

and, if the prime minister won't at least stand up for the procedural conventions in the constitution, he should resign immediately, as it renders him unfit to govern.
and, i will even do a cea test if the fit test comes back free of blood.....
i asked for copper and he ordered ceruloplasmin, and i think i understand why he did that. 

but, given that the ceruloplasmin is high, i'm going to ask for a direct copper test next time, too.
vitamin a - not in yet
copper cerulaplasmin - 26.1 μmol/L, which is considered slightly high, unless you're taking oral estrogen, which i of course am.

that said, elevated copper is also a sign of cancer, and particularly blood cancer, which is one of the more obscure things i'm worried about.

so,

iron - low absorption
zinc - normal absorption
copper - high absorption

together, that continues to suggest celiac is very unlikely and suggests that low copper is not interfering with iron absorption, at the least.

c-reactive protein was indeed tested previously at .8, which is ideal.

i should have a lengthy list of items coming:

- fibrinogen, prothombin time (pt) & partial thromboplastin time  (ptt) for k.
- glutathione, for selenium.
- iodine 
- uric acid, for molybdenum.
- pyruvate, lipase, amylase for manganese.
- ascorbic acid
- asca, for crohn's v colitis (although there's no sign of inflammation, given crp and esr were low)
- oxalic acid
- salicylate
- mercury
- amino acid, fractionation & quantitation
so, i was sleepy when i got in, which isn't that bizarre, as i had been sleeping afternoons for the last few days. i wanted to shower, eat and take a nap, but i had to shower and then nap, instead. so, then i got up to eat and napped some more. i took some iron and napped some more...

i guess i got about ten hours of sleep overall, but i suspect that's two days worth. i actually like naps rather than long sleeps in the summer, and i'd rather sleep in the day if the air conditioning  is on (as opposed to having to suffer through it). i absolutely despise air conditioning and want it off altogether, but it is currently on, despite the fact that i asked him to turn it off when he left. so, when you have the air on, it's actually warmer at night - and it's more enjoyable to sleep during the day, to avoid the a/c. but, now i'm awake, so i'm going to need to run the stove to warm the place up, instead. i'll have to try to cycle that over in the next few days, to get back to sleeping during the air conditioning and being awake when it's off.

as it is, i've been up since around 6:00 and have been trying to shift over to do some cleaning but have been stuck dealing with the recording pc, instead.

i guess the cops upstairs realized i was using the recording pc this week, and decided they therefore had to break it. i have no idea what they're looking for, but they seem to think i'm hiding some kind of data somewhere. whatever they did, they seem to have shorted the ram, and they seem to have broken the boot loader - which is something similar to what they kept doing to my windows 7 machine. the difference is that i've very purposefully kept the recording machine off the network for more or less this exact reason, and i guess it doesn't seem to matter - they'll just break into your house and break it when you\re gone.

so, i cleared the cmos and...i was in the process of reinstalling to the drive anyways, so i'm currently putting a temp install in.

this machine does not have a wireless card in it, and i don't want to connect it to any outside network ever at all. in the lalala world that the cops live in, that means i must be hiding secret codes from the kremlin on it, so they need to hack it and take it down.

i don't know how i got into this surreal, absurd mess, but they don't seem to be operating on evidence, and it seems that my only choice is to try to ignore them. 

so, that's my night (eating and sleeping) and my morning (reinstalling). i need to call the doctor soon, eat again and then get to getting on with it.
this is my seventh symphony, now inri058, which i spent about five months on in mid-2002, at the start of my first stint through hormone therapy, in between multiple moves and at the start of somewhat of a crisis in my academic identity, as i closed down my second year in the pure math program with the conclusion that i wanted out of it. in all of it's incarnations, this is a confusing, dark, demented piece of music, which is of course how i like it, and a reflection of the shift in existence that i was going through at the time.

i think this was a little much for sean to process. his reaction was to decide it should be reworked for my own projects, which it then was. but, i mean....i gave him a ridiculous 25 minute masterpiece and he asked for a three minute radio song, instead. it didn't end quite there, but it was somewhere around this point that i decided i couldn't be fucking bothered anymore.

this track actually has two reworks, in the end - the cynicide version (inri048) that best represents it's initial construction as a cynicide collaboration piece and the ftaa version (inri058), which is how it eventually ends up in the end, after going through rabit is wolf on it's way there.

so, this is the biggest, most developed thing that came out of that period, and forms the template of what i would do for the next several years, moving forwards, as it pulls together all of the various disparate influences and concepts into the format of a sprawling, morphing, roughly half hour epic.

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there are a few ideas in my discography that i've explored from multiple angles, but nothing else at all like this track, which has been through multiple complete rethinks involving multiple people over the course of sixteen years. as the revisions are so diverse, i think that a comprehensive collection of interpretations is a proper entry within my discography. 

in the end, this emerges as my seventh symphony. 

the collection is to be arranged chronologically in four discs consisting of two 2xcd sets, with the first two discs consisting of mixes that were meant for inclusion in band projects and the third and fourth consisting of mixes that were created after the track was moved into my own various one-person projects. further discussions of the various incarnations of the tracks appear on the track pages. 

written over 2001 and 2002 and rethought repeatedly between 2002-2014, with no clear resolution in a final mix. reconstructed from source in late 2014 and then rendered at multiple stages to create a series of snapshots. final mixes were completed over the last week of november and the first week of december. released as a two-volume set on dec 7, 2014. the concept was rethought on nov 3, 2017, which led to the inclusion of five more mixes and an expansion to four cds. re-released in four volumes & finalized as symph007 on nov 12, 2017. the raw guitar mix was corrected on jan 6, 2018. as always, please use headphones. 

the album version of the track (track 13), reconstructed in 2014, appears on my seventh record, ftaa (inri079): jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa 

the 2002 vocal mix appears on the rabit is wolf demo (inri057): 
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf 

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2002, 2004, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2014, 2017). 

released july 4, 2002 

j - guitars (electric, acoustic, classical), bass, synthesizers, drum programming, orchestral sequencing (12), drum manipulation, vocal manipulation, voice (9), live & digital effects processing, digital wave editing, loops, equalizers, soundscaping, sampling, composition, production, cover art 

sean - vocals/lyrics (2,5,7), ring modulator (7-9, 11, 13-14, 16) 
greg - drum performance sample source (4, 6-9, 11, 13) 
bob - hammering (3) 

the rendered electronic orchestra on track 12 includes tuba, saxophone, flute, clarinet, orchestra hit, piano, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and various full string sections.