the point of this document, which will be quite lengthy, is that i'm presenting evidence that i have been repeatedly drugged with what has over time clarified itself as anabolic steroids since at least the summer of 2023 in an attempt to aggressively undo my decision to undergo gender transition. the new piece of evidence i am presenting to police is a recent drug test taken on july 7, 2025, with results made available between july 9, 2025 and july 15, 2025. however, this is also the first in a series of blood tests that are forthcoming.
introduction
i have been being stalked since at least november, 2021 and have brought the issue up to police, to property owners, to property management, to the court, to doctors and to lawyers and paralegals. despite clear evidence, i have not succeeded in convincing any party to act (except my doctor, in the limited capacity that he can), which is a consequence of clear prejudicial attitudes about my gender and gender identity. when i have moved to prosecute legally and civilly for repeatedly harassing me, i've been further victimized by systemic attitudes of transphobia and, frankly, of underlying misandry and misogyny working together that don't take the idea of me being harassed seriously because i happen to have been born male. these macho attitudes are discriminatory and need to be discarded. i need action taken and arrests made; i need this to stop.
it has been clear since mid 2023 that some party is periodically drugging me with testosterone in a failed attempt to undo a gender transition that i've been living partially since 2002 and intensely since 2009. my family appears to be responsible for financing this harassment, which has been carried out by the local religious muslim community on terms set by their religious laws, which have no legal basis or legal value in canadian jurisprudence. while this has been clear to me, i have struggled to generate the evidence required to prosecute in a court of law; the level of proof required to understand you've been drugged is not the same thing as the level of proof required to prosecute somebody for drugging you. i've also come up against a very conservative police force and a very conservative court system, that almost seems to take the side of the muslim clerics in their decision to forcibly drug me, and at the least isn't very interested in the individual rights crusade of somebody trying to stand up for their right of freedom from religion.
i am not aware of any muslims in my extended family. i have recently conducted a dna test at ancestry.com, and it came back primarily norse (it identified markers that were swedish, finnish, norwegian, north scots, irish, east slavic (polish, russian or ukrainian), italo-gothic, anglo-dutch and franco-norman), with a secondary minor roman/latin origin franco-italian ancestry that the dna clarified as real but is confusing due to my italian grandmother being adopted after her parents were tied to a set of railroad tracks in an apparent mob hit in ottawa in the 1930s. my father's family's connection to organized crime is something i have no real grasp of and don't at all understand, and i don't know if it is relevant to the situation, but it very well might be. the ancestry.com results suggested i'm related to the gotti clan on my father's side, and that is the only real evidence i've ever had presented to me that i have mob ancestry. my father's family was quebecois catholic and my mother's family was western canadian anglican, but i was not raised religiously. in addition to the norse and latin ancestors, i do appear to have one jewish ancestor from spain on my mother's side that settled in philadelphia in the 18th century, a trace amount of directly celtic welsh ancestry and one semi-legendary mikmaq ancestor from colonial francophone quebecois lore that appears to be real due to the existence of clovis markers (indigenous genetic identifiers) in parts of my dna. my father's family understands it has indigenous ancestry, but does not identify as indigenous or metis but rather considers itself franco-italian. my finnish ancestry is from the part of finland that was founded as a swedish colony and appears to be almost entirely swedish in origin; i don't have ethnic finn markers in my dna. i consequently identify as north germanic or norse-celtic, as that is where roughly 85% of my dna originates (germanic-norse-celt-slav), with almost all of the rest of it being latin (franco-italian). i can also identify trace jewish and mikmaq markers in my dna and realize there are probably trace relics of ethnic finn ancestry in my dna that were not measured in the test. i tested my y-dna as being r1b and austrian celt, with the mutation having first developed in the bronze age indo-european celtic civilization of central europe (the halstatt culture). the point i'm making is that i have made a substantive attempt to understand where i'm from, and i'm not arab or muslim. i'm simply not interested in middle eastern legal systems or middle eastern cultural traditions; i would prefer to live in the cultural inheritance of my own ancestry, which is the social and cultural system of scandinavia and the common law legal system of germanic england, which is a strictly secular legal tradition. i would be extremely hostile to people of arab descent attempting to enforce muslim religious values on me; i would consider it to be colonization, and insist it should be struggled against on those grounds, explicitly.
however, i have a history of legal conflict with the local muslim community, which i have settled two human rights complaints against, previously (both from complaints of transphobia). i previously filed human rights complaints against a grocery store and against an er doctor for discrimination against me because i'm transgendered, both of whom are muslim. in both filings, i brought up concerns about arabic law being enforced upon me and the need to protect myself from this and push back against it. i do not know if that information is relevant, but have repeatedly suspected it is. the previous conflict with the muslim er doctor may provide a lead for police in determining where the drugs are coming from. i also have a history of conflict with the windsor police department itself and have wondered periodically if i'm dealing with a grudge or process of revenge being carried out, in retribution for having officers fired due to misconduct.
i had a strong suspicion that the locks would be changed if i left to take a blood test, so i repeatedly sought blood work at home between the summer of 2023 and the spring of 2025 (and refused to leave the house at all), but was repeatedly refused. my doctor sent out several requisitions as he wanted the blood work done more than anybody. windsor has a local blood lab (medical labs of windsor) with roughly a dozen locations, and they refused to send somebody to my home due to claimed safety concerns, which i believe were manufactured by police. it is true that my door was slightly barricaded to try to prevent people from getting in to drug me, but this did not cause any discernible safety concerns for phlebotomists looking to come in. this is the kind of victimization i'm constantly dealing with in trying to navigate how to prosecute my stalkers and harassers. the barricades were there for my safety, they did not pose a definable safety hazard. neither lifelabs nor dynacare responded to my doctor's requisition at all. i had an ambulance show up at my door at one point that refused to do blood work but did do ecg testing that provided strong evidence that i'd recently been drugged with anabolic steroids, when i wasn't sure at that point what i was being drugged with (meth? testosterone?). since that point in time, i've been trying to very carefully generate evidence that i'm being periodically drugged with steroids, specifically.
after a lengthy process that i believe was riddled with legal and factual errors and coloured by systemic levels of transphobia, and which i am continuing to appeal, i was evicted in april of 2025. i saw my doctor at the end of may and got a blood requisition, but i wanted to wait until i was certain they'd pick something up. a game of chicken with my stalkers set in over june and i believe i was drugged either on june 26th or on july 1st, or both. police were called on july 4th and july 6th. bloodwork was done on july 7, 2025.
as the primary purpose of this document is to present the bloodwork, let me address it first. i will then work through the history backwards, presenting further evidence in a backwards manner.
why i waited to get bloodwork done
police have repeatedly expressed confusion about why i didn't get bloodwork done sooner. if i'd really been drugged, why didn't i go get evidence? it's not quite that easy.
first, note that i was concerned about the safety of leaving the house. in hindsight, i can't really know how real my concerns were, or if my locks would have been changed when i was gone, but i believed them to be very real and believed my locks would be changed. my concern initially stemmed from the observation that the new property owner apparently spent her entire summer holidays in the new house, apparently waiting for me to leave. why? i was operating on body language and a series of blatant cues, including people banging on my door. i was being overly cautious, but i think my concerns were real. i did not want to end up sleeping outside and felt it was a very real concern. i was not able to get a home lab visit, and i did try more than twice.
second, note that i take a lot of hormones and that anything introduced to the hormones i take voluntarily is added to the mix. i predicted that this would make it difficult to pick up a clear signal and would require that i get my blood taken in a very limited time frame after being drugged in order to actually catch somebody drugging me.
- i take high dosages of estradiol every six hours. my estradiol should be in the 450-900 range.
- i take progesterone every six hours. my progesterone should always be above 15 and usually be above 20.
- i also take testosterone blockers every six hours. my testosterone should be trace, that is <0.3. the result should say trace or unmeasurable, and be <0.3 or <0.4. to be clear: the result should be less than an upper limit, and not a measurable amount. any measured amount of testosterone would indicate a spike in t levels.
the fact that i take testosterone blockers every six hours means i'm constantly giving my body powerful tools to clear any testosterone from my system. if somebody is able to get into my apartment and drug me when i'm sleeping, or put something in my food, they may at most be able to introduce more testosterone every 24-36 hours, depending on my habits. i generally eat once a day, but i might not always eat the item that was tampered with. more realistically they might be able to introduce testosterone at most every 48 hours or even only once or twice a week. it follows that i will have at least four opportunities to block the testosterone for every opportunity they have to introduce it - and probably at least 10 opportunities - and i intend to make use of those extra opportunities and always have made use of them to remove the introduced testosterone at every point. i do not want to go off t-blockers to catch them, as i'd have to suffer the consequences of that. that make this very hard.
i have long suspected, without clear empirical evidence but rather based on what i experienced, that the drugs were being removed from my system extremely efficiently. i am pretty healthy; in recent years (since the pandemic), i have consumed almost no alcohol and smoked almost nothing. i have recently bicycled a little less than i did a few years ago due to circumstances, but i still get a fair amount of cardio in. it's also simply the case that what i experienced was being drugged, in the sense that i felt myself "get high on testosterone", i experienced very short term physical effects while i was high on testosterone that could not be explained any other way, and then i very clearly "came down" and watched the effects dissipate. it was pretty clear that the testosterone they were drugging me with was not working very well, and thankfully so, as it was about the last thing in the world that i was interested in. however, if the testosterone only took a few days to clear from my system, it would take up to two weeks to fully undo the most egregious result, which was unwanted face and body hair. it would, however, quite predictably clear in a relatively short amount of time, until they drugged me again. the primary way i've been determining if i've recently been drugged again or not is to take note of whether i'm growing hair on my stomach or not, as i did not grow hair on my stomach before i want into transition in 2002 and i certainly shouldn't be randomly growing hair there now. that particular metric is clear and unambiguous.
i also want to take note of the fact that i was castrated in the summer of 2021 in a surgical procedure called an orchiectomy. this castration process fully removed my testicles, which renders me unable to produce testosterone, except via my adrenal gland. i need some small amount of testosterone to manufacture red blood cells. the small amount of testosterone i produce now, post-castration, is bio-identical to the amount that ciswomen produce, also primarily for the purpose of red blood cell manufacture.
it is impossible to explain how i would spontaneously grow hair on my stomach after being castrated when i never did before and i'm continuing to take t-blockers without introducing some external source entering my body via tampered with food, pills and/or injections. there have been other painful and embarrassing symptoms, but it is the stomach hair that is most clearly the result of an introduced substance, as i never, ever grew hair there previously, at all.
urine testing as a better way to catch being drugged with anabolic steroids
given that my experience has been that i'm very efficiently clearing any drugs being non-consensually introduced into my system by force, i asked my doctor to test my liver and kidney functions to determine if i was experiencing signs of damage.
my blood test for liver function came back in the normal range:
ALT / SGPT - 21 (range: 0 - 54 IU/L)
this would suggest my liver is in good health. this is relieving. however, the tests for kidney health are less clear.
CK - 68 (range: 24 - 170 IU/L)
CREATININE - 88 (range: 40 - 100 umol/L)
eGFR - 69 if female, 96 if male (range: > 90 is normal, 60-90 is slightly damaged)
note that egfr is a gender-based test and that the result is determined by a constant that is altered for gender. this results in a higher value for men than women, based on the same data, but the healthy ranges are the same for both genders, despite the existence of this manipulative constant. that's why there's two results; there are two different formulas, with distinct constants in them. i have spoken to an endocrinologist about this, and it is not clear how to adjust the egfr calculation for a transgendered person, other than to do both calculations and make a reasonable analysis. as my ck and creatinine are both in normal ranges, and my egfr is on the lowish side (low but healthy if male, slightly damaged if female), it would suggest that my kidneys are slightly overworked but are working well at efficient clearance and not experiencing damage. if my kidneys were damaged, it would also result in high ck and creatinine in addition to the low egfr, because they wouldn't be getting cleared.
the urine test result upholds this:
URINE CREATININE - 37.84 (range: 5 - 16 mmol/L for females, 7-18 mmol/L for men)
URINE ALBUMIN - 19 (range: 0 - 20 mg/L for females)
ALBUMIN/CREATININE RATIO - 0.5 (range: 0 - 2.8 mg/mmol)
this result, when cross-referenced to the blood test result, clearly indicates that i've successfully recently removed a very large amount of creatinine and a relatively large amount of albumin from my bloodstream and that it put some stress on my kidneys but left me with healthy blood test results. it would suggest i'm still healthy and have normal blood test results, but that i recently experienced a little bit of organ stress, and that had the test been taken 24-48 hours earlier (when i experienced symptoms of being drugged), that that elevated creatinine result would have probably been in my blood rather than my urine. this is exactly what i was worried about in potentially missing the positive result due to the high amount of t blockers being consumed, and trying to guess when the best time to take the test would be. if i had taken the test 48 hours later, i might have missed it altogether.
the question to ask is what would cause so much creatinine and so much albumin together and the correct answer is that it is strong evidence of being drugged with anabolic steroids.
alternate explanations
1) protein. a combination of normal blood creatinine and high urine creatinine may also be caused by having recently eaten a very, very large amount of meat protein. creatinine is not present in plants. i have been taking note of my diet recently and that is not the case:
- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 1st: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 2nd: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 3rd: 10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).
- july 4th: a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.
- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 7th: two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins.
while there is a little bit of processed meat in this diet, and i add a reasonable amount of essential amino acids to almost every meal in the form of hemp seeds and nutritional yeast, it is not very likely that the chicken noodle soup i had on the morning of july 7th or the can of stew i had on the morning of july 4th caused such extremely elevated creatinine levels, even with a tablespoon of hemp seeds and a tablespoon of nutritional yeast. urine creatinine at twice healthy levels would require consuming something like an excess multitude of hamburgers or a very, very large steak. that is really a crazy test result.
2) dehydration. creatinine may be elevated during dehydration, but blood urea is a better indicator and my urea was normal, indicating i was likely not substantively dehydrated:
UREA - 4.9 (range: 2.5 - 8 mmol/L)
i did not feel dehydrated. it was a little cooler out on the 7th than it has been for much of the summer.
3) strenuous exercise. i had not done any strenuous exercise on this day. i had bicycled a short distance to the lab and was not at all stressed by it.
ketones in urine, not diabetic
a second marker in my urine is considered a symptom of extreme levels of diabetes and a medical emergency:
KETONES, URINE - 3.9 mmol/L (range: <0.6)
however, i'm not diabetic:
1) HbA1C - 5.0 (non-diabetic range is 0 - 6 %)
2) RANDOM GLUCOSE - 4.9 (range: 3.6 - 8 mmol/L)
in fact, my random glucose was in normal fasting levels, when i was drinking a coffee, which is actually quite low. it had been several hours (roughly 10) since i'd eaten a big bowl of chicken soup, but i had just consumed a third an xl cup of coffee with a double double. there was a line at the blood lab, the tim's was across the street and i just forgot i was fasting and went across the street to get a coffee to wait in line. i wanted coffee. clearly.
i am struggling to understand this result, which google tells me is a medical emergency and should trigger a trip to the emergency room, but it can be explained by steroid use triggering insulin resistance. however, again, i have no symptoms of diabetes or insulin resistance.
i am in fact going to go to ask my doctor for an urgent monthly blood req when i'm done this document that will use what i learned from this blood test to build a more focused blood test to hone in on specific results that might catch the steroids more directly in blood and in urine. i may also need to go to the er to get particular tests done, such as a direct steroid test. i will add further results to the top of this document.
steroid test not covered by ohip
why didn't i get tested for steroids? because it's not covered. i am not critical of the fact that ohip does not cover this as getting drugged with steroids is not common, but i do need to get tested directly for steroids and will need to figure out how to get that covered. my ketones result is serious enough that i might get this done at an er.
what exactly are ketones?
ketones are created as a byproduct of your body metabolizing fat instead of glucose/sugar. when your metabolism is working correctly, you convert sugar into energy. when you can't convert sugar to energy, your body begins to break down fat and use it as fuel, instead. this is a sign of diabetes because it suggests you aren't getting sugar out of your blood, which is what insulin does; that clearly isn't the problem i was having. rather, this needs to be put in the context of the massive creatinine urine level:
what exactly is creatinine?
creatinine is produced into the blood when muscle breaks down and is then removed via kidneys and excreted in urine. very high creatinine in urine like this suggests a recent loss of a lot of muscle. given my blood and hormone chemistry, the actual question that needs to be asked is where the muscle came from in the first place, as i should have a very difficult time building any muscle, by design. i don't want to be muscular (i think it's gross) and take hormones and have had surgery to ensure i can't build muscle. i do a fair amount of cardio that is designed to burn fat, not to build muscle. i do not lift weights. i do not engage in resistance training. i shouldn't have all this creatinine to excrete. the only way i could have this much muscle buildup in my system in the first place is if i was drugged with steroids, experienced short term muscle build up and then experienced rapid muscle loss due to immediate withdrawal from the steroids. that is why the very, very high creatinine result suggests involuntary steroid use and withdrawal, in a process that mimics muscular dystrophy. the high creatinine and high ketones in my urine together suggest i was also burning fat for energy in addition to losing large amounts of muscle mass. could that be because the steroids forced me to deposit more fat, in the absence of weight-training and exercise?
i need to do more testing, clearly.
blood hormone levels
as mentioned, testing my blood testosterone directly is difficult due to the amount of hormones i take. these are the results:
PROGESTERONE - 19.9 nmol/L
ESTRADIOL - 452 pmol/L
FSH < 0.2 IU/L
LH < 0.2 IU/L
PROLACTIN 30.93 ug/L
TESTOSTERONE 0.5 nmol/L
these are good results for a transgendered woman, but i want to note that i generally have a non-zero fsh and lh and that my testosterone is usually less than 0.5. while good for most transwomen, these results are different than what i expect. fsh and lh both at zero happens in men who take steroids. the non-trace testosterone, combined with the other blood and urine results, is also indicative of having recently been drugged, and having removed it via urine. i wish i had a urine testosterone result and will ask for that as a part of the new req.
broad spectrum toxicology
i tested negative for all drugs, including for meth and for mdma. on some level this is relieving, but it's also been a while since that was a concern. i was not tested for steroids, for viagra or for psilocybin.
new blood req
items requested for monthly req:
- blood and urine tests for anabolic steroids
- blood and urine cortisol (for corticosteroids)
- blood and urine tests for ketones
- blood and urine creatinine and albumin
- testosterone - blood and urine
- estradiol
- progesterone
- lh
- fsh
- prolactin
- urea
- ck
- alt
- efgr
- fasting glucose and fasting cholesterol
- hba1c
- any further tests determined as necessary
recent history
a small number of calls were made to police between when i moved in on may 9th and when i requested police arrive at my door on july 4th. i believe they succeeded in drugging me a few days before my doctor's appointment in may, as experienced psilocybin like effects (something that happened repeatedly from 2023-2025). for that reason, i decided to wait until they drugged me again before i went to get the blood work done. i also made sure they knew i had a blood req ready to go, hoping it would scare them into leaving me alone.
i did not go outside between june 16th and july 7th, except to accept packages, check mail and talk to police.
my property manager sent a worker here on june 26th to seal some holes in the kitchen and bathroom. the worker noted that the bathroom sink was still leaking, despite there being somebody here to fix it a few days earlier. this worker was here early in the morning and disrupted my sleeping schedule, so i went back to sleep in the afternoon when he left. i woke up again around 16:00 to a plumber in my apartment (without notice) and began to notice effects of the drugging, including bumps on my stomach, within a few hours. i would consider it unlikely that the plumber drugged me, but they may have accidentally allowed the stalker in to the apartment when i was sleeping. i began to hear the stalker's voice claim "i can't believe this worked". the stalker is always very proud when he succeeds in harassing me, which i find baffling and disgusting. he would apparently rather brag about his crimes than try to hide them.
on july 1st, i woke up with a brutal splitting headache. early on the morning of july 3rd, i had the first of several bouts of vicious diarrhea. i woke up around 8:00 am on july 3rd shivering from near hypothermia, in 23-25 degree weather outside. i first noticed actual hair (rather than bumps) on my stomach on july 3rd, and had to stop to pluck it out. also on the 3rd, somebody repeatedly buzzed my door, which is an issue that traces back to the previous apartment (and which i documented then). on july 4th, they woke me up by generating an erection, which can't happen unless they drugged me recently, and which dissipated within a few seconds of waking up but left me in a painful and embarrassed state. i called police to document this. this happened again several times on the 4th, 5th and 6th and i called police a second time on the 6th. during these days, they told me they were going to enforce arabic law on me, they demanded i stop taking hormones so that they didn't interfere with their "therapy" and, at one point, they told me they wanted to engage in oral sex on me. it's been clear for a long time that they are doing this because they want to have sex with me, and are not interested in my repeated refusal to consent. i got my blood taken on the 7th and did not sleep in the morning on the 7th, 8th or 9th. i was not woken up on those days. i did notice some unwanted hair start to build up on the 9th, which was very time consuming to eliminate. they did wake me up again on the 10th in the same way they did on the 4th, 5th and 6th, leading me to wonder if they drugged me again. however, when they tried to wake me up on the 12th and 13th, they did not succeed in generating an erection, but only in waking me up (repeatedly), indicating the drugs had worn off. when i am not under the influence of the drugs they give me, i am not able to become erect because (1) i'm castrated and (2) i take t-blockers post-castration. i very, very rarely experienced erections pre-castration due to the t-blockers; i got surgery to stop taking t-blockers to save my liver, but went back on them when this started happening. they can still train me to wake up on command when i'm not under the influence of the steroids, and i will wake up when they command me to, but i don't wake up with the half limp but painful three second long erections i get when they drug me, i just wake up. sometimes, i may have heart palpitations (i did on the 13th), and i've learned that the heart palpitations are resolved by taking calcium in the form of extra strength antacids. calcium resolves the heart palpitations (a symptom of steroid use) because it is a muscle relaxant.
as of the 14th, i believe i have cleared the most recently introduced steroids, there is no hair on my stomach, the hair on my legs has softened and thinned back to normal levels and the hair on my face that popped up after the 9th has largely been washed off. i expect that i'll be back to normal within a few days. this has forced me to stay inside and sit in the shower for hours, instead of go out to buy used furniture for my new apartment.
i also taped over some of the windows when i woke up on july 4th and some more of the windows on july 10th. it would in theory be possible for somebody to climb the roof at 747 windsor and jump though the open windows, as the houses are very close together. you could talk to the owner there. somebody could also potentially go out the window in unit 4, climb up to the roof and drop down through the open window. both procedures would be very dangerous and arguably stupid, but i have learned that these people are overwhelmingly obsessed with me. i need to document the possible, not just the plausible. the windows are now taped up.
they were at the hotel, from late april to early may
it took a few days for them to get there. but the same voices showed up at the hotel i stayed at, which was the royal windsor hotel on huron church, and they drugged me with some kind of psilocybin-like substance on several occasions, which i did not enjoy. i initially went into shock because i was finally starting to feel and look normal again near the end of april, only for them to show back up again and drug me at the hotel. i became extremely depressed by this and did not know how to react. checking the records of the hotel from april 10th to may 10th and cross-referencing it with records for people staying at 1227 curry and 751 windsor could help identify who these people are.
the identity of the stalkers
i don't know who these people are with any clarity, but i have recognized the following voices over the last three years:
- i believe my mother, kerry murray, was upstairs at 1227 curry for a period of time. i believe she lived there for a while in 2023. i heard her voice quite frequently then but have not in a long time. she may have been intending to move into my apartment.
- i believe my half sister, hannah boucher, was staying there with my mother periodically in 2023. she was frequently referenced indirectly.
- i believe my mother's sister, pamela murray, also flew into town periodically over 2023 and 2024 and spent weekends upstairs at 1227 curry. i also heard her voice. she seemed to be meeting somebody there on the weekends, and perhaps engaging in some kind of prostitution. if the question is "why would she fly in", that would seem to be the answer. i would have to assume it was worth her time. it would seem as though some people in the area of bayswater avenue in ottawa thought that pam and i were the same person, because we sequentially lived in my grandmother's apartment (not at the same time, but one after the other) and happen to be very similar looking. that confusion might be at the core of this; she may have been more open to suggestions than i am, and i am not open to suggestions. when i asked pam about this at the start of it, she responded by telling me that she thought the "therapy" would be good for me. it left me with the uncomfortable perception that she had some knowledge about what was happening.
- i believe my full sister, megan giacomelli (megan parent) was upstairs at 1227 curry on a small number of occasions, to check on progress, at the start of this. i think it likely that she might have initially organized it. this is also because i heard her voice. i do not think she's come back to windsor in a long time.
- in recent months, i have not heard my family but have rather heard a team of three voices working together.
- the three voices are a deep and husky male voice that i believe is a male of arabic ancestry, a more midrange male voice that sounds more white and a female-presenting voice that i sometimes think is a gay man, sometimes think is a female and sometimes think is a transfemale. there is periodically a fourth voice that sounds like a black male due to his use of african american vernacular, and that appears to be working as protection for the other three.
- the team of three people apparently wants to move into my apartment and wanted to move into my apartment at 1227 curry, previously. they have indicated they are producing some kind of film. they have indicated they want control of my websites and want to steal my recording equipment.
- for that reason, i'm actually convinced that what is actually going on here is a very bizarre attempt at identity theft and that this isn't about harassing me, exactly, but about taking control of my web persona.
- they have repeatedly repeated the phrase "she paid sean." or "she paid chan(telle)". i actually don't know what that means, but they keep saying it. it would appear to indicate some level of financing underlying the harassment, which aligns with what i otherwise deduced. they appear to be trying to explain, that seems to be why they keep saying it, but i don't understand what they mean.
- one of them has claimed they have a master's degree. another has claimed they're a doctor, but i don't believe that. they do seem to have some level of education in freudian or jungian psychoanalysis, which is what they are doing.
- i have periodically convinced and unconvinced myself that one of the three voices is chantelle simpson, also initially from ottawa, but i did not see her at 1227 curry after the fall of 2023 and have not seen her at 751 windsor. she has strenuously denied being in windsor at all, but i did see her repeatedly over the summer of 2023.
- i observed several drug deals take place at 1227 curry. a male named cody levesque, who i think was the initial stalker, was at the centre of these drug deals. i became convinced over 2023 that the house was bought by organized crime, and i was stuck in it. it is also possible that the midrange voice belongs to cody levesque.
- i also saw the owner of the husky voice through a window at 1227 curry on one occasion, when they just moved in, at the start of may 2023. he was a heavy set, bearded male of apparent bearded ancestry
- on one occasion in late 2023, somebody that i knew from high school named sean hansel appeared at my door and tried to coerce me to open it. this appeared to be a tactic to get me to open up. i told him to fuck off. sean shows up as a guest of the team of three voices, periodically. he may be here in an attempt to steal some of my recording equipment, and it may be tied into the attempt at identity theft.
- since mid 2023, the team of three voices has ensured i can't see them, ever. they do not want anybody to know they even exist at all, but they do.
- all i can say for certain is that i have been followed by a group of three people from 1227 curry to the hotel to 751 windsor that is insisting on putting me through this therapy, involuntarily. they keep telling me somebody paid "sean" for it, in an attempt to explain.
- i have deduced - without evidence, besides that i've been followed - that 751 windsor may have been recently purchased by the same people that bought 1227 curry. this was as a personal investment by a worker employed by the upper class real estate company sotheby's, which never made sense to me. it indicates some deep wealth bought a small house that it shouldn't have cared much about, and i was the apparent target, not the house.
- i have a phone number sent to me in november 2021 in the context of a request for random sex by a stranger that i think is cody levesque's and is the only piece of clear evidence that i have in potentially identifying any of these people.
- if they would simply leave me alone, i wouldn't have to do this, but they have now followed me to three dwellings and i have no choice but to do whatever is required to put them behind bars in order to get them to stop.
the ambulance visit in dec, 2024
i requested an ambulance visit in dec of 2024. the following is a document submitted as a part of a previous police report, 2024-307533.
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i have been dealing with an ongoing sexual harassment for months, since my duplex was purchased in early 2023. somebody is trying to detransition me for an unclear reason, but they have clarified that they want to have sex with me, which i am not interested in.
on the morning of dec 6 at 4:00 am and again on dec 7 at 6:00 am i woke up erect, for roughly 10 seconds before it dissolved. i am a castrated transgendered female, so the idea of me ever having any sort of erection is biologically impossible, in the absence of drugs, which i strenuously do not want in my system. this indicates i've been drugged, as it would otherwise be impossible. i have been experiencing the effects of this unwanted drugging since mid 2023, coming from an entity upstairs that delusionally expects to have sex with me, which there is no possibility of ever happening. in fact, it is a foregone conclusion that i will react extremely violently if forced to defend myself from any sexual advances. i have done everything i possible can to broadcast my complete and total lack of consent, but they appear to be from a middle eastern country and don't seem to understand or care, due to some kind of culture shock.
i am being spoken to when i am asleep in order to generate the arousal. the process being utilized is operand or pavlovian conditioning, although they think they are doing freudian talk therapy. there is a literature on the idea that you can "cure" queer people via talk therapy, which is frankly overwhelmingly stupid and not any kind of science, but is more accepted in eastern cultures. pavlov, however, is science, and they can get the result for ten seconds after i wake up, but only if they drug me first. if they have drugged me recently or a lot, i will have to suffer through an excruciating level of agitation for hours afterwards, which they seem to think is pleasureful, but is actually extremely difficult and at times outright painful.
on these two days - dec 6 and 7 - i woke up with apparent injection marks on my scrotum, which had not happened before. i also noticed my underwear was damp, which may have been from swabbing the scrotum. by the morning of the 7th, the area was extremely red and sore and full of broken skin. i called police to try to get pictures to them.
on the morning of dec 6 at 4:00 am and again on dec 7 at 6:00 am i woke up erect, for roughly 10 seconds before it dissolved. i am a castrated transgendered female, so the idea of me ever having any sort of erection is biologically impossible, in the absence of drugs, which i strenuously do not want in my system. this indicates i've been drugged, as it would otherwise be impossible. i have been experiencing the effects of this unwanted drugging since mid 2023, coming from an entity upstairs that delusionally expects to have sex with me, which there is no possibility of ever happening. in fact, it is a foregone conclusion that i will react extremely violently if forced to defend myself from any sexual advances. i have done everything i possible can to broadcast my complete and total lack of consent, but they appear to be from a middle eastern country and don't seem to understand or care, due to some kind of culture shock.
i am being spoken to when i am asleep in order to generate the arousal. the process being utilized is operand or pavlovian conditioning, although they think they are doing freudian talk therapy. there is a literature on the idea that you can "cure" queer people via talk therapy, which is frankly overwhelmingly stupid and not any kind of science, but is more accepted in eastern cultures. pavlov, however, is science, and they can get the result for ten seconds after i wake up, but only if they drug me first. if they have drugged me recently or a lot, i will have to suffer through an excruciating level of agitation for hours afterwards, which they seem to think is pleasureful, but is actually extremely difficult and at times outright painful.
on these two days - dec 6 and 7 - i woke up with apparent injection marks on my scrotum, which had not happened before. i also noticed my underwear was damp, which may have been from swabbing the scrotum. by the morning of the 7th, the area was extremely red and sore and full of broken skin. i called police to try to get pictures to them.
an officer was sent early in the morning, who i talked to briefly over the phone, and who suggested i file a report online if i want to upload pictures. i am apparently unable to do this. i will post a link to this document.
i also asked that an ambulance be dispatched so that i could get some documentation and they did not look at it, but they did take an ecg and the paramedic actually suggested taking me into a hospital as i was under threat of a heart attack due a heightened t-wave, which he suggested was due to a potassium imbalance. i am not experiencing symptoms of a heart attack. one of the causes of potassium imbalance is kidney stress or failure, which is what would happen if you continually drugged a castrated transfemale with testosterone in order to try to make them get an erection and my actual concern in claiming the harassment is a causing me to fear for my safety. it would appear that the results are in general the type of ecg that would be expected to be observed from a male on steroids, rather than a transgendered female.
i do not want to take steroids, or build muscles. i have never done any weight-training or taken any steroids before in my life and i would consider the premise to be disgusting. i am neither attracted to muscular men nor would i want to be one. i don't like jocks, i don't like gay men and i don't like thugs. i know enough about human metabolism to know that i won't build any muscle if i don't lift any weights, and i have actually even stopped my cardio workouts until i can extricate the testosterone form my system, as i don't want to accidentally build muscle when i'm actually trying to lose weight.
the ambulance did not take blood tests. i have not been able to get a blood lab to perform a home visit and it's not clear why.
as of the afternoon of the 7th, my scrotum remains extremely sore and agitated and i'm extremely frustrated, confused and angry. i have previously made accusations of being drugged rectally that i couldn't prove (besides taking pictures of soiled underwear) and suspect they changed their tactic because it wasn't getting the outcome they wanted, by injecting me in my scrotum instead. my rectum is not currently sore. my perineum (the skin between the scrotum and anus) is extremely sore.
this is the ecg, with:
1) spiked t-waves suggesting kidney failure
2) spike p-waves, a dipped s wave and a benign early repolarization, which is strongly suggestive of high testosterone levels
all four are seen in athletes or men that take steroids, which is what i'm accusing my neighbour of drugging me with. this is an abnormal ecg and demonstrates that my body is under extreme stress and that i'm not imagining being drugged or making it up.
these are pictures of the agitated scrotum, which i think is demonstrating injection marks:
i believe each of these three red lines is an injection mark that causes the ten second erections and the ecg indicative of steroid use. as mentioned, the region remains sore and raw, even late on the evening of the 7th.
i am going to be contacting my doctor about an appointment early in the week. my doctor actually has an expertise in "sports medicine" and would be able to analyze this, if given to him.
j
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summary of 2021-2024
i am not going to attach complaints i made about being anally drugged over late 2023 because they aren't medical documentation and i did not report them to police in that context. however, there is a document presented to police called "the saga of the tossed around dick pick" that summarizes the situation up to the end of 2023:
i presented this document to local justices in windsor in an attempt to press mischief charges against the owners at 1227 curry via private prosecution, but hit a dead-end when told i had to go to the courthouse, as i didn't feel safe going outside.
the situation over most of 2024 stagnated. i made it very difficult to get into my apartment by barricading the doors shut, and that largely prevented them from drugging me for most of the year, but i also made a handful of mistakes, and they made me pay for it. at one point, i had to go outside to call teksavvy, and they got and drugged a bunch of my food. i struggled to find the source of what i thought was testosterone but now think was steroids, and eventually concluded that my vitamins (c, d) were doctored, my grapefruit juice was punched and my hot sauce was spiked. i was not able to get police to test these items, and they did not offer advice as to how to have them tested privately. as mentioned, i could not get a home lab visit.
there were many calls made to police over 2024. i could not generate the evidence they wanted, and felt myself in a catch-22; i'm not a detective. the police could not do the kind of work i needed them to do for me, and rather expected me to do it and provide it to them, and i couldn't. i need the police to do the police work to get the evidence the police needed to do the police work. i was locked in a basement for two years, hiding from people trying to drug me, and reaching out to anybody i could find for help. all i received was frustrating results.
a document presented to the ltb contains a summary of those police reports:
conclusion
my inability to generate drug test results while i was locked in the basement made it difficult for me to advance my argument, but these cases remain in appeal and i need to do what i can to get the information out, now. i am happy to do things like file motions for fresh evidence. i think the situation justifies it.
as mentioned, i don't know the identity of the three stalkers. one is an arab muslim male, one is female-identifying (or very, very gay) and the other one is sort of a mystery. as further drug tests come in and it becomes increasingly clear that my concerns were justified and real from the very start, i need to make an increasing appeal to anybody involved to act like a decent human being and get information to police if you have it. this document will eventually be presented to police in relation to report number 25-70223. if you can identify one or more of these three individuals, or you have further information to provide to police, please provide it, so i can put end to this difficult period of constant harassment and get on with my life.
as it is, i have more bloodwork to do.