i mean, they have to do this. there's no other choice. there never was any other choice.

but there's going to be more casualties now than if they had just done it to start with.

it looks like centcom is trying to create a landing zone on the iranian coast.

but it's going to be much harder to do this now than it would have been six months ago.

i found my prolegomena to any future metaphysics. it was hiding in the fiction, under a copy of ulysses. that sneaky old kant. it's like the distance between the books only existed in my mind or something. but you can't get thinking like that, or you'll go crazy and start believing silly things like that euclid is absolute truth. such rubbish. but i'm glad i found it, because that was one of the ones that i couldn't clearly identify as stolen in a specific way.

i lost my figure with my weight over 150. i'm happy to see it coming back with my weight coming back down under 145. 

i've been exhausted this week, and i think they got in here to drug me when i was outside fixing the concrete. it's had no substantive effect due to the weight loss. but these retards don't appear likely to give up. they think their pretend god and their dark age rules matter. it's pathetically sad. they're going to have to go to jail,  and that's where they belong, it's just a question of figuring out the best way to get them there, and i'm increasingly looking at alternative tactics to get them arrested and charged. i just want them to go away and die somewhere and leave me alone. i don't care how we get at that end point.

i'm still focusing on getting the stereo set up first, then finishing a general clean, but i've been struggling with this sunburn since tuesday night. it's almost gone. in fact, as i mentioned, i should look better when the dead skin clears off, and fresh new skin pops up. i have pretty warm blood, but i do tend to shed, and if anything it's a little late this year.

this is not acceptable and should be met with a proportionate response.

the people of turkey and egypt alike are entitled to regime change, and soon.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/world/2slgbtq-cruise-denied-entry-turkey-egypt-9.7264048

lebanon does not yet have the ability to secure the areas it is demanding israel withdraw from and is acting against it's own self-interest in making those demands. lebanon should be seeking to work with israel to entirely eliminate hezbollah from the south of lebanon.

i would support a regional cooperation agreement between lebanon and israel once hezbollah is thrown out of the area, but that's up to them. lebanon is not like the other countries in the region; it is more like israel than syria or egypt.

while it would be helpful if netanyahu could clarify which villages are seeking annexation by israel, the premise is plausible and a contrasting report by al jazeera, which constantly presents false information, is hardly a valid source to contradict his claims. you can't believe anything they say. they're serial liars. i'd like to see a vote in the area before i take it seriously. but i'd rather see the regions that have recently been overrun by shia immigrants from syria annexed by israel than continue to be colonized by syrians under iranian domination. the indigenous inhabitants have largely evacuated the region and are now a minority in it. there's no answer that doesn't involve demographic overhaul, but the shia refugees should not be allowed to permanently settle there, they should be pushed back out.

in the short run, continued lebanese refusal to cooperate with israel is just going to result in dead lebanese people, a weaker lebanese state and a stronger iran. it's not smart.

iran's continued belligerence is doing nothing more than making the case against them and in favour of removing them.

i'm strongly opposed to endless, go nowhere tit-for-tat with iran, which is what has been going on and what the americans seem to want to do, in the endless delusion that the iranians are going to negotiate. i explicitly stated i'm opposed to that outcome and supported a single, immense, overpowering regime change offensive precisely to prevent it. 

the americans could have done this very quickly, and they might have received some criticism for it from stupid people, but it would have been a smart thing to do and greatly benefited the region and the world. instead, they've done this the dumbest way possible by dragging it out as much as they can because they didn't want to do it at all, and now have an unavoidable, grueling, expensive, twenty year proxy war with the chinese in front of them that will distract them from other parts of the world and further ramp up their external debts.

this is the consequence of bad leadership.

so, i did eat again last night, slept a few times between getting through it and spent a lot of time in the bathroom. i was only out for a few hours yesterday, but i got a bit of a sunburn on my cheeks, which is unusual. that, combined with the sweating, acted as a bit of a catalyst to speed up the pore-cleaning exercise underlying the purpose of the weight loss, and i woke up yesterday looking pretty filthy. it is manifesting as vicious acne, but i'm actually getting at some deep ingrowns, which is exactly what i've been complaining about - this inability to wash my face fully because i can't get to the clogged pores underneath the layer of fat, which is an unexpected, unforeseen and unwanted consequence of accidentally gaining a lot of weight. i'm realizing that the outcome will be a dramatic improvement, once i get over this hump of awkwardness in the next few days.

for now, i've got my face layered with acne soap, which is letting me get in there and pull these annoying thread-thick ingrowns out, either with tweezers or just with my fingers. i can normally just pop blackheads out by squeezing them with my fingers, which has historically been key to sufficiently cleaning my face, but i haven't been able to recently due to that annoying layer of fat. i am almost back to being able to do that, which will rapidly clear my cheeks back out.

even if i can't see the clogged pores under the layer of fat, it still affects the way i look. the small amount of gravitational mass in the filth clogging the pore creates a downward pull that results in a sagging effect, even when my skin looks completely clear. getting that sag out is fundamental to my appearance as jessica, and my inability to do so while i've been carrying this extra weight has had an extremely negative effect on my overall appearance, even if my face looks clear. it hasn't actually been clear, because i haven't been able to get in there to wash it out.

so, i'm looking extra gross just right now but am going through a cleansing process and it should lift very soon.

for tonight, in keeping with the ever shifting nature of this apartment cleaning operation, i am realizing that i need to set the stereo up before i can clean in the bedroom, because i'm taking the stereo out of the bedroom, and need to move it to finish cleaning. so, step one is now the stereo setup, and 'm back to cleaning in the middle of the room first.

my face is burning. it hurts. my eyes are clogged with goop. that means it's working and it'll be better when it stops.