Saturday, November 15, 2025

wayne gretzky didn't just drop out of high school, he didn't even go to high school at all. he has about a functional grade 9 education.

he's not somebody you should look to for intellect or wisdom or guidance, unless you're open and he has the puck, and in the latter scenario, you don't need to think about it much; you don't need to call him, he'll find you.

in fact, if you're open and he has the puck, then you'd better keep an eye out, as he has a tendency to bounce pucks in off people's asses and you might just get knocked out if you're not paying attention. but, i mean, that'll still count, right?

it turns out that the weather today sucks anyways. the sun never came out so the ground never dried up and there's a constant 40 km/hr win moving in from the south. it might be an ok day for a walk, but that wasn't the plan.

some groceries came in this morning and my saw came in this afternoon. the temperature is unusually mild for mid november - almost 20 degrees - but this has become a normal occurrence in windsor/detroit over the last 10 years. we expect a handful of 16+ days in late november and early december, nowadays, and winter, if it happens at all, is usually over by mid january, or early february. a cold day in windsor nowadays is plus 3 or 4 degrees celsius. 

i wouldn't have gone anywhere in the damp windy weather anyways. the wind is not really going to clear out until mid week, so this might be better rain jacket weather this week than it is summer weather this weekend.

my wood will be here next weekend and the temperature will recover again by then. it might feel nicer next weekend, despite not being as warm.

i need to plan the rest of the groceries out, finish writing the document i was typing up for the apartment setup and then finish the last bit of legal writing (hopefully), before i can get those shelves into the kitchen and get to work converting the laundry into a walk-in closet.
the purpose of tariffs is not supposed to be raise revenue. as a tax, this is highly regressive.

the purpose of tariffs, like other pigovian taxes, is suppose to be to change consumer behaviour.
if trump hands out rebates for inflation, it just makes the tariffs a pigovian tax designed to reward those who buy more american products and less foreign products. like a carbon tax.

that's not why he's doing it, he's reacting to public concerns about inflation, but it would make the tariffs more effective as policy (in theory) and something he should have done in the first place if he wanted this to actually work.

our own government might want to consider tariff rebates, as well, that would go out to everybody and reward those that buy canadian items without tariffs, while penalizing those that don't.
i am really tired of the economic nationalism i'm seeing in stores lately and am beginning to go out of my way to find items not made in canada. 

i fucking hate this stupid country.
there was a foolish attempt in the last part of the previous century to try to prove that homosexuality was genetic, despite the science being abundantly clear that behaviour in mammals is never genetic. simple organisms, like reptiles and insects, have little ability to undo their instinctual reactivity, but the development of mammal intelligence rendered instinct largely irrelevant. all mammals, from lions to mice, are born helpless and empty and without any residual genetic instincts and need to be taught everything by their parents or community. an earlier era of biology would have argued that predators like tigers and lions are, like crocodiles, born with an instinct to hunt, but we have known for decades now that that is completely wrong and that lions need to be taught to hunt and will starve if they are not taught to hunt by their parents. the tabula rasa model is the correct model in all mammals and a small subset of birds.

for that reason, citing the gay penguin as biological proof of homosexuality was stupid. birds are still largely instinctual, whereas mammals have essentially no instinctual basis in their behaviour at all. if somebody drops a kid in the forest, they might figure it out, but it will be by self-learning and not by instinct. humans don't have a caveman instinct underneath their civilized exterior. that idea is a debunked myth.

what genes actually do is code for proteins; hormones are proteins. genes make mistakes, and those mistakes have consequences that are usually negative, but they don't directly control or affect choices. the result is that mammals have free will, and that that free will is genetic, in the tabula rasa we're born with, up to the caveat that we don't decide how to manufacture proteins, that is autonomous and determined by our genetics.

it follows that the idea that being gay is genetic is actually incredibly stupid. this is obviously wrong, as the mechanism of using genes to explain sexual behaviour is incoherent. that makes absolutely no sense.

the result of looking for a gay gene - and they looked. hard. - is that they couldn't find one. all of the effort put into finding a gay gene resulted in the demonstrably clear outcome that there is no gay gene and homosexual behaviour is neither biological nor genetic but, rather, a clear individual choice that some people do or don't make. people can choose to be gay, they can choose to be straight, they can choose to be bi, or they can choose to be celibate, which is the actual choice that i've actually made for myself, in my own life.

however, what researchers did find in their attempt to find a biological basis for homosexuality, which they proved wrong, was that there are certain genes that code for testosterone and estrogen development and that errors in transcription in these genes can lead to individuals unable to produce normal amounts of sex hormones. it follows that while homosexuality has no biological basis, it is true that some biological men are born with low testosterone or high estrogen, and that this result can affect their behaviour, in leading to identify with women, or become attracted to men. this generates a biological basis for gender identity that does not exist for homosexuality.

there has recently been a movement amongst conservatives to deny all of this, and flip the evidence over to align with the outcome they want, which conservatives often do, and which is that both gender and sexuality are fixed by god, via the mechanism of genes. the way that these conservatives accept homosexuals is by deciding it's genetic, and therefore determined by god. this might allow them to handle homosexuals as non-deviants (despite their religious rules very explicitly declaring otherwise), but it has no basis in biology or in sociology or even in the mainstream of the pseudo-science we call psychology. it is, in fact, a classic example of conservative anti-intellectualism and right-wing idiocy. but, it follows that if gender and orientation are both fixed, then transgendered people are just confused; the problem is that that's wrong in it's core assumption, and every branch of science states it's wrong.

rather, the sociologists and psychologists are very clear that orientation is not fixed but fluid, and people can and do experience multiple sexual orientations in their lifetime, and are not born with a sexual orientation but rather make choices in what behaviour to engage in throughout their lives, and are free to change their mind as they see fit.

conversely, the biologists are increasingly clear that genetics is at the core of hormonal expression, and that people don't have any real choice in how their hormones are expressed in their genes, or how much of what hormone their body makes endogenously, which has a clear biological effect on their gender identity, although they do have a choice in how they want to react to that.

personally, i discovered i had low testosterone in my late teens when i began feeling experiences of gender dysphoria, and realize this biological fact is almost certainly a consequence of a genetic mutation. this low testosterone resulted in low amounts of body hair and minimal muscle mass, amongst other things. i might have decided to take testosterone injections to address that, but i didn't, and i have the free will to decide how i want to react to my own biology, because i own my own body. that is my choice, not the choice of society, and the law must uphold my right to make choices about my body, whether the society likes it or not.
i've been focusing on some things inside this week. the legal writing is almost done. there's been a few more purchases - 2 tables for the in-unit garage for $50, two more chromebooks for kids that expire in 2029 (i now have three expired chromebooks (one in 2018 and two in 2021) and two that don't expire until 2029) for $75 each, 16 more oversized wall pegs for shelving for $11, a circular saw for $70, two large containers of dill for $45, some more groceries this morning for $200 (that will max me out on virtually everything except produce until the end of december), some replacement usb to ethernet cables for these chromebooks (that no longer have rj-45s) for about $20 and $120 worth of wood, including two large shelves for books and one for under the sink that i can cut in half. next up is materials to build a bright light for in the bathroom.

i wanted to go out to buy some produce this morning, but it seems as though the despicably disgusting perverted gay retard that's been stalking me, and won't accept that i'm not a homosexual and not remotely attracted to or interested in gay men and have never had a gay friend or spent more than five minutes in total aggregate ever talking to all gay men i've ever met in my life, is upstairs. as such, i'm going to have to lock myself inside until i'm sure he's gone, and past experiences suggest to me that this might take several months or even longer.

right now, i'm looking at maybe going outside again some time in the spring. the drug addicts upstairs haven't been evicted yet and i'm starting to draw uncomfortable conclusions about it. the world is a sick place full of dishonest, worthless losers. i'll know they're gone when the heat turns on, as they always turn the heat off when they come in, but i'm concluding they're again getting in with the aid of management, and it won't mean anything if they leave for a few days. i'm going to have to order that produce.

as mentioned, i don't know what this worthless, disgusting, faggot piece of shit wants, but they insist on following me around, drugging my food and talking to me when i'm sleeping in an utterly idiotic attempt to brainwash me into being gay, which i'm not interested in and is not going to work (i would never make the free choice to engage in any kind of homosexual behaviour, which is what being gay is, a harmless personal choice that affects nobody except the gays themselves, and how the law should interpret homosexual decision-making) and apparently expects to move into the apartment and become my boyfriend, despite the fact that i've yelled at him over and over again to go kill himself and explained to him repeatedly that i'm not gay and am in fact not very socially liberal and barely tolerant of faggotry at all. i basically don't care about the fags so long as i don't have to have anything to do with them. the moment that the gays try to interfere with my life, or bother me at all, i essentially believe i'm entitled to stab them in the face and feed them to the rats, because i don't really accept the idea of gay rights in any meaningful sense. if this despicable queer ever identifies himself and tries to talk to me, as i expect he intends to do, i am going to immediately murder him, and i'm telling the world that because i want the outcome to be predictable and expected. i am a transgendered female and consider myself to be heterosexual woman. i don't respect men that choose to be gay, against all biological evidence that insists that homosexuality does not exist, and i don't want to tolerate them. i certainly don't want to be their friends, to have sex with them or to enter into any kind of relationship with them, and the only outcome of this process is consequently necessarily tragic. in what might be a stupid attempt by abject retards to try to prove that trans people don't exist, these faggot idiots are trying to brainwash me into being gay using freudian pseudoscience, because they can't accept what the actual truth is, which is that the science is clear that trans people do exist as a complex result of social conditioning and hormonal genetics, and that gay people don't exist at all, but that engaging in homosexual behaviour is a personal choice and a lifestyle decision that some heterosexual men decide to make. i've done everything i can to prevent the inevitable outcome that i'm going to have no choice but to kill this person, i want it to be described as a hate crime when it happens (as that is the correct analysis), despite also being self-defence, and i am essentially waiting for the moment in which i have the opportunity to kill them. there's no other possible outcome at this point.

right now, my focus is on securing the entry points, making sure they can't get in and locking the place down to keep them out.