so, what's going on with me?

yesterday, i got a little bit upset about the border being closed for another month and went to get something to eat to kind of let me head settle before i started strategizing, and i decided that i couldn't waste the solstice sitting inside complaining. so, i went and bought a quarter of what so far seems to be better quality marijuana, at a reasonable price. it worked out to $65 for the quarter after taxes, which is in line with expected costs. we'll see how i feel as the solstice contains to carry on, but i'm feeling alright for just right now.

i didn't get a thing done last night at all, i just got lost reading articles, and made a comment or two on them. but, i was more just baked and wanting to passively read. it happens, sometimes.

this afternoon, i finally started calling around about the estrace and found 100 pills in an undisclosed location that is going to require some travelling to get to tomorrow. google wants to either send me up this gravel dirt path (which is going to be awful bicycling through) or down this abandoned rural, forested road, presumably because it's the shortest path. but, i'd like to travel mostly through civilization of some sort, even if that civilization is just farmland. i'm not keen about getting eaten while bicycling to get estrace. so, i've been charting my own path through the essex back roads, to try to maximize human contact while travelling. i'm realizing that this region is far more populated than i imagined it was. i think i can do this fairly reasonably.

so, i'm off for an adventure tomorrow.

the good news is that that's another 25 days, so if i can get all of the running around i need done, hopefully i can finish that thought process i started the other day relatively quickly. i never got around to cleaning up the overposting on the deathtokoalas blog, and should get to doing that tonight, maybe.

you can put me in the category of people that think this is for the best.

i've read a few articles lamenting the turn that canada has taken since the paul martin years, in truth, which were carried through with by stephen harper, and then picked back up again by the liberals. see, i think this is the kind of major error that defines confusion over canada's failure to return to it's very liberal 20th century foreign policy after the return of the "liberals"; the truth is that it was the martin purges that initially set this forward in the first place.

there was a distinct move towards aligning canada more directly with the united states during the mulroney administration, but it was kind of wobbled against by the chretien government, without stepping too far out of line. canada made kind of a bold stand against the united states at the united nations over iraq, refusing to take part in it because it was, in fact, illegal. but, it contributed to the invasion in other ways that it didn't feel technically contravened international law. as correct a stand as that was, it created a lot of headaches for a lot of people, and his poor relationship with the bush administration is actually a key part of the reason he was asked to step down midway through a strong third mandate. when martin came in, mending things up with the americans was a top priority. this reached a peak under harper, perhaps, but only because the existing president is so unpredictably hostile to a country that spent a lot of time trying to build very close ties. the model for this government was very close collaboration with a clinton administration, remember.

under chrystia freeland, this has taken a turn towards the absurd, with canada's aggressive involvement in venezuela being particularly disappointing. this is all being done, remember, to curry american favour, as this was seen as the best way to ensure access to their markets. we've demonstrated how far we are willing to go, and it is directly into the abyss.

now, nobody wants us making security decisions, and perhaps for good reason - right at the time when our codependent relationship with the united states is meeting up with a point of self-realization, and the failure of this policy is becoming apparent.

canada needs some time to reflect on what it actually is, and where it's going in the future. and, it should take the loss as the rebuke that it is.

i don't know if a return to a 20th century model is a salvageable or desirable proposal at this point, or if canada is even important enough to save, in the grander scheme of the board. but, we're clearly stuck, and need to find ourselves, somehow - either in the form of a renaissance of canadian liberalism, or as a colony of the united states. we can't have it both ways, clearly - the rest of the world isn't buying it.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7070563/canada-united-nations-security-council-seat/

you know, dexamethasone and hydroxychloroquine are used for many of the same purposes, and the success of the former appears to be that it is succeeding in reducing those cytokine storms that identified hydroxychloroquine as a potential treatment, for extremely ill patients.

it does sometimes happen that a specific formulation of a class of drugs may be more effective in a certain scenario, but if it is the case that dexamethasone is succeeding and hydroxycholoroquine is failing then some kind of reasoning as to why that is would be useful in demonstrating the point.

as it is, i'm not sure that small scale trials for the success of this new drug should be treated much differently than small scale trials for the success of the previous one were, and i'd not be at all surprised if clinical trials for dexamethasone end rather similarly to ones for hydroxycholoroquine.

there might be some specific difference in delivery or something; i'm not discounting it. i'm just a little skeptical, given that they appear to be prescribed interchangeably for most if not all of their clinical uses.

well, we know the virus travels in sewage. and, we know that lots of countries dump their sewage into the water. if the salmon was caught not far from a dumping site, including perhaps in british columbia, then it's not entirely insane to think the virus may have entered the salmon's gills, or otherwise been stored in it's bodies, even just via osmosis, as a consequence of living near a dumping site; it's another question to speculate as to whether the salmon may have been actively infected by the virus.

however, it's easy enough to argue that somebody may have sneezed over the cutting board, as well.

so, i would hope that other possible explanations are being explored.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/health/coronavirus-outbreak-china-who-1.5612838

there's a dog across the street, and the first couple of times it saw me walk by, it modulated between incessant yelping and curious distance. but, as it has seen me walk by a few times, it's grown accustomed to me, and is now approaching me with wagging tail and sagging tongue.

see, i think it's figured out what i'm doing when i go out. i don't want to say the magic w-word, it might know and get excited, and think....but alas, no. i will walk...shit...right by every time.

central to this change in reaction, i think, is the recognition that i live across the street. the dog seems to have noticed that, specifically, and been able to abstract close living conditions with pack membership. i live in this dog's hood, so i'm therefore cool to walk with.

it remains to be seen how the dog reacts to repeated rejection, as i continue to saunter by and leave it behind. in it's dog's mind, it no doubt believes it has an equal opportunity to walking, and it damned well knows i'm going for a walk - without him. behavioural tests on dogs have shown that they understand preferential treatment, and have an intuitive concept of justice around sharing, up to the point that they are, of course, immensely competitive for resources. it's the same contradictions we have, just in a more primal and less restrained form. so, the dog is going to no doubt feel left out, at some point.

the real revolution, of course, will come when the dog takes the initiative to walk itself. only then can there be true opportunity for all to engage in equal walking; for the dog to gain the freedom of a human to walk at will, it must seize it for itself. but, there is such a high level of responsibility to self-walking, including the need to regulate defecation, to avoid biting and to just plum out not run away, that it seems questionable whether self-walking is a realistic goal for the dog population at this point. there would really need to be a social revolution in doggy behaviour, and it would no doubt need to be expressed genotypically before it could be established with any force or regularity.

but, i wonder if the friendly dog again turns vicious in the end, due to dejection.

'cause i'm goin' for a walk. that's right. a walk. see ya doggy....

see, this is how we deal with the problem here in ontario - we pretend it doesn't exist.

windsor is one of three regions of ontario still in lockdown, because there's been a spike in cases around migrant workers. the city has called on the province to do mandatory testing, and is getting push back from the business owners, presumably because they know there's a problem. so, they're going to stop testing the migrants altogether; that way, they can get the numbers they need to open the city.

it's just the most local example of what has been clear for weeks - the numbers in ontario are useless.

but, this is what we're doing - we're pretending this doesn't exist.

https://windsor.ctvnews.ca/testing-centre-for-assessing-migrant-workers-in-windsor-area-to-shut-down-thursday-1.4987597