i skipped yesterday, which was aleph-1 - all of the releases related to lp001, together:

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-box-set

i skipped it because i'll need to build a front-end, like i am with aleph-0. i'll repost that when it's done.

today's post (that is, the post for april 2nd) is inri016:

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this is something i did between inri demos. i needed a break from structured writing. just wanted to make some noise... 

i suppose this is the biggest sample collage of them all, but it's best not to take it too seriously. the idea here eventually morphed into a project called "fuel true anarchy in the americas" (inri068), a play on the ftaa trade agreement, which itself got toned down in scope. 

there's everything from science docs to hitler in here. it's meant to be a passive trip through real and imaginary time that is experienced with the aid of psychedelic drugs, rather than any kind of political statement. it's quite consciously absurd, often juxtaposing ironic statements with their contradictions. 

the core of the ambience was produced by a program called sound raider. i then took the sound it created and shaped it by adding in vocal samples, looping certain parts, running things through effects, sequencing the noise into a more melodic shape, etc. it's consequently a sort of a collaboration between myself and the machine, rather than the work of the machine itself. 

no sane person could really listen to this passively. you basically *need* drugs to get anything out of this at all. 

...and i think i'm probably the only person that ever experienced it properly. hey, it's never too late... 

created in the summer of 1998. released as a standalone ep on nov 16, 2013. audio permanently closed on oct 12, 2016. release finalized on oct 27, 2016. first liner note release added on dec 25, 2019 & updated on jan 27, 2020. as always, please use headphones.

this track also appears on my third record, inridiculous (inri033): jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inridiculous 

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1998, 2013-2019). as of dec 25, 2019, the release includes a 5 page booklet in doc, pdf & html, with an html5 audio frontend, that includes journal entries from the remastering process over nov, 2013. as of jan 27, 2020, that booklet is now 6 pages, and encompasses nov & dec, 2013. 

released july 1, 1998 

j - sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute 

gauntk9 - anti-social quip

i'm going to need to test the ferritin again some time soon, probably around the middle of april.

i need to get him to ask for an actual iron test, as well - because while low ferritin is an indicator of anemia, it's not actually a proof of it, and it's actually entirely plausible that my blood iron levels are fine, and my stores are just low.

....which again means either bad genes or cancer.

he should have asked for that in the first place, really.

you know, i'm looking at the clinical ranges around mcv (which is the size of your red blood cells) and  total rbc count and i'm not convinced i'm outside of a reasonable range. i said this about the other blood count metrics, which were an epsilon out of the range last time and an epsilon inside the range this time. but, this lab is using restrictive ranges.

so, my mcv is 95.1. this lab has an upper limit of 94 for a normal range, but others suggest anything under 100 is normal. so, should i really worry about this? i mean, it's so close, regardless...

further, my rbc count  is 4.25 and the lab suggests the normal range starts at 4.3. other labs suggest a normal range for women starts at 4.2 and a normal range for men starts at 4.7.

but, i actually think this metric is consistent across several blood tests, iirc. i'm always just an epsilon off, or an epsilon in. 

my ferritin is low - i'm accepting that and reacting to it, even if i'm not convinced it's the most terrible thing ever, so long as i'm consuming sufficient iron regularly.

but, i'm not convinced my blood count is, actually, low at all - maybe it just consistently runs at the very bottom of the range, along with my blood pressure and my cholesterol.

i can't believe that the media is still talking about eradicating covid-19.

is this incompetence or fascism?

first of all, i've got my shit log uploading - it should be done soon.

i've come to somewhat of a conclusion here, and it's that the colour of the shit seems variable enough for me to conclude that if the low ferritin is due to bleeding then it's not constant. i can't reasonably come to further deductions on the point. is something i'm eating making me bleed short term? is that even possible? 

really, i think that, as far as the shit is concerned, i'm looking at two options:

1) it's a parasite and that's why it's sporadic

2) it's just the food and i'm not bleeding at all

that rules it out, but it would almost be easier if i had an ulcer...

so, where was i?

i got a lot of running around done, but i can't really clean properly in here until the fan gets replaced. i got some oil, and if it works it could salvage the second half of the weekend, but there's no guarantee that it will. 

so, i'm going to do a kind of quick, surface clean and leave the deeper clean until next week.

for right now, let me go some updates done and get back to what i'm doing.

it's important to take some time for the classics, though.

i'll have some posts soon. i'm in for the week, at least.

but, my fan is out, and i'm getting a migraine. coincidence? i think not. we'll see how bad it gets.

but, right now, it looks like i'm going to actually spend the weekend in bed.

al gore supported the first gulf war, the sanctions regime and the invasion of iraq. people under 40 will think of al gore as an environmentalist; people older than that will remember that he was a war hawk, and in fact the architect of much of the groundwork that allowed for the 2003 invasion in the first place. i've consequently repeatedly made the argument that those arguing that gore wouldn't have invaded iraq are probably wrong - and even that he would have seemed to be more likely to do it than bush, standing in the year 2000. bush campaigned against what he called "nation building", and you had to actually listen really closely to hear the burgeoning neo-con in there, which didn't really come out until after 9/11. but, gore was coming out of an administration that purposefully starved children as an economic sanction, and had personally supported military action against iraq since the 80s. and, i mean, look at how hillary clinton took out ghaddafi as soon as she got the chance. nader's argument the whole time was that it didn't really matter which one won, and i think he was actually probably right.

deathtokoalas

the pmc should not exist at all, it should be abolished and replaced by a series of committees.

her arguments in favour of the pmc were really the only reactionary things she said, and this is typical of the so-called academic left, which loves to pretend that it's doing something useful but are in truth mostly useless eaters on state subsidies. that mirror needs to be held up.

they would be - and should be - the first to go.

Immortal Science of Hauntology

npc

deathtokoalas

i have no idea what you're talking about. at all.

(pause)

so, this is apparently something that gross, smelly gamer bros say when they mean to suggest that somebody doesn't think for themselves - which they need to do by implementing a generalized groupthink meme, rather than coming up with something original and pertinent.

it's not subtle enough to be ironic; it's just dumb.

stakkanov friman

some good points you make.

The workers can not wield the state tool for their own interest for it is an oppressive system. but academia? shure.

i see a problem

deathtokoalas

academia will never lose it's superiority complex, and it is consequently forever lost to communism. it is itself a tool of oppression that must be brought under the control of the cooperative, and not the other way around.

stakkanov friman

i am unshure if you are aware of my attempt to explain their hypocracy.

i was trying to mostly agree with you infact. but i do not think that a workers cooperative can wield academia as a tool for their goals. just like the state it must be destroyed and built for a new purpose in a differenet form from the ground up

deathtokoalas

the problem with academia is that it's inherently hierarchical, and consequently can't avoid implementing tyrannies of knowledge. and, in a past era, that may have been unavoidable, but we don't need experts anymore when we have searchable databases - they can be bypassed almost entirely. the technology undoes a certain type of division of labour, which necessitates it's democratization, like any other. 

you were repeating my statement that the academy is hypocritical and i agreed with myself and expanded upon the point. but, it's more than hypocrisy, when they start producing these ridiculous prices to attend the institution, and then restricting access to meaningful labour based on an ability to pay. that's a source of oppression, and it has to be democratized for that reason as well. 

but, because their own self-interest is to perpetuate these prices and this exclusion, these decisions need to be taken away from them and placed in the hands of the people, more broadly. they can't be allowed to run themselves, as it will lead to continued restrictions to access. and, in the existing world, where data is power, that's almost the most oppressive thing you could  imagine.

we could have a debate about the definition of the state, but i'm not entirely sure where you're coming from. you sound almost right-libertarian. i'm a libertarian socialist. so, when i talk about abolishing the state, what i mean is democratizing decision making power, by taking it away from a professional managerial class and putting it into the hands of a collective. maybe you mean something else.

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deathtokoalas

marx was critical of anybody who called themselves socialist but refused to perfectly adhere to his theory. i think what you're discussing here would better refer to lassalle than proudhon, but there's a commonality in the critique - he felt he had an authoritarian monopoly on socialist theory, and anybody that deviated from it was wrong. so, he would have been vicious on lenin, vicious on mao and vicious on anybody else that tweaked his theory at all. what that's really uncovering, if you look at it, is that marx saw himself as a prophet, and refused to tolerate dissent. and, then you get to  the real point of what marx really was - a cult leader, a religionist.

 

zero books

He argued persuasively that many socialists continued to formulate their notions of socialism on a bourgeois/class basis.

deathtokoalas

see, i don't think that holds well with proudhon, which he seemed to think was just a kind of a loose cannon. but, i think it holds well with lasalle - i don't disagree with you. but, i mean, i'd rather live in sweden than the ussr, too.