yeah, well, my sunday school would be full of greek philosophy, not psychobabble from the mythological jesus.

i don't even know. they threw me out.

you get the point.

unlike elizabeth warren, john bolton doesn't seem to have gone to sunday school.

he never learned the lesson in the boy that cries wolf.

long wars are long.

deep down underneath his actually quite recent steely resolve lies putin the pussycat, remember.

so, might he make a deal with the donald on venezuela? would america leave ukraine, in return?

he is quite a naive man, convinced that russia and america can be friends, despite this 1500 year old civil war.

the russians should not move on this, not even one inch to the east.

and, they will regret it if they do.

i went for some groceries today and had migraine number three click in right before i left. so, i was kind of grouchy.

regardless.

if you're wondering why i told some christians that approached me in the parking lot to fuck off, it's because they were christians, and that's what i always do when christians approach me.

i will make it a point to tell them to fuck off the next time they approach me, too.

#fuckchristians

yeah, but they talk about this like nobody's actually reading it.

i don't actually even see the utility of sanders winning if it's not policy-driven. it might even be counter-productive, if you just get a backlash to it. if there's some gulf between reality and perception here, the focus should be turned back on voter education.

i guess this goes back to being an anarchist: the movement is more important than the people in it, and if it's a sham then you need to pull the deck and start over again.

revolution is perpetual, and destruction is never negative; you have to destroy to rebuild.

https://washingtonmonthly.com/2019/05/14/biden-needs-to-be-challenged-by-someone-other-than-sanders/

what i heard was that she decided to speak at a sunday school class, instead.

https://www.politico.com/story/2019/05/14/elizabeth-warren-fox-news-town-hall-1320068

would i take drugs for the headache, which is what i suspect this is actually about?

i've denied atavan. i've denied t3s. i wouldn't accept marijuana in smoked or pilled form as a prescription, under any scenario. so, it's extremely unlikely.

i might take an aspirin once in a while, but i'd actually rather avoid it.

in fact, this is the kind of thing that i'm straight-edge about, more so than moderate recreational use. i don't want the dependency, and i don't see any reason to think i can't control this environmentally, as i haven't had difficulties doing this previously.

so, if my choice is between taking migraine drugs, whatever they are, and moving somewhere else, i'd rather move somewhere else.

i'm of the belief that i need more air flow in the basement, not more drugs to compensate for it.

i was still tired when i finished eating, so i took a nap, and i woke up to another splitting headache. my attempt at a shower led to another hemiplegic moment, although this time on the other side of the body. it didn't make it all of the way up my left side, but it's kind of a scary thing to have happen in the shower.

so, i've had migraines on both sides of my body in the last 24 hours, after turning off the fan on request.

his concern seemed to be not wanting to replace the device, but the basement air is clearly making me sick, whatever the cause. i mean, that might not even be smoke - and i haven't really smelled smoke in the last little bit., although i've been sleeping, too.

i've set up a box fan beside my bed for now, instead. if that works, great. if not, i'll have to turn the fan back on - and i'll have to plan to get out of here.

i still think the onset was so sudden that it must have been a shift in magnetism, but i don't think stale basement air is an unsurprising cause of headache, either.

the fact is that i'm till tired and am going back to sleep. i just wanted to check the weather, and they seem to have balanced it back out again. hooray.

i don't know how you fault me for this.

i did my due diligence....

but, people fucking suck. and, that's life, and you have to deal with it.

the smoke seemed to clear out for the weekend, only to come back in on sunday night - and i forced myself to go to sleep early on sunday, when it did. i was up on monday morning, feeling better, but skeptical.

it was ok for the day, but came in in the afternoon, so i had to make a complaint, finally, in the form of an email, which i'm going to withhold for the moment. the property owner showed up at my door a few hours later, red-eyed and adamant that nobody was smoking pot.

yet, he was clearly stoned, himself, at the time of denial.

what am i supposed to do? argue with him? he's obviously full of shit, and not willing to budge on it. people don't care about truth anymore; they'll lie to your face and make fun of you for believing it. but, there's no meaningful arbiter, here, no point in the debate. i'll keep the arguments for the judge, if i have to.

i don't want to go through this again; that's why i took so long to say something. the letter simply made the nature of the complaint clear and hoped that he would rectify the problem, however he may. but, the bottom line is that if he wants to do drugs on his property, i can't stop him - i can only ask that he lets me out of the lease with compensation, and lets me move somewhere else. if it were only that easy, right. the fact that he's lying about it is deeply discouraging, but i need to react to the facts in front of me.

i've had the bathroom fan on more or less nonstop since, i think, december. i've tried to turn it off a few times, and just noticed the air quality in here tank immediately. but, he made a request for me to turn it off, so i did so to keep the peace in the short run - and instantly had my first hemiplegic migraine in almost two years. it was weak, and gone in a few hours; it started in my right hand and didn't make it further than my wrist. i didn't try to talk, but i got a bit more sleep.

i'm going to assume that turning off the fan shut down a magnetic field in the basement and essentially gave me an electric shock, which triggered the migraine. we'll see where things go from here, but if they become more frequent i'll need to turn the fan back on, clearly.

so, am i back in the same shitty situation i was in two years ago? it's looking more and more like it.

i'm going to try to eat. but, i'm less than happy, this evening.