i don't work well under pressure. i day dream. i procrastinate.

i'm a shitty employee, and not ashamed about it.

i'm more interested in creating realities where people can create free of coercive influence than i am in contorting myself into some mental gymnastic that sees value in extorting people for profit...

...and i needed a nap.

that's what happens when i'm under pressure: i get sleepy.

it's consistent, actually. predictable. dead line tomorrow? big project due in the morning? i'm probably snoozing somewhere. and, i'm not going to pretend i really care when i wake up, either.

call me depressed, but i don't want your drugs. i want to abolish the conditions that you think spur productivity, because they don't - they just create unnecessary stress.

still no ruling.

i hope the judge doesn't think she's doing me a favour in stretching the ruling out, if she's going to give me 11 days at the end. i haven't done a thing to prepare to move. and, i'm not going to do so until i get the court order - because it's not the landlord that has the legal authority, here, it's the judge.

if she's stalling into november to give me until december 1st, i guess that's a net benefit. but, if she thinks she's just giving me extra days, she's misinterpreting my grasp of the scenario: i'm in this to win, outright.

i'm going to try to get back to filing, but i might fall back asleep. we'll see.

apologies to the guy with the order, but i'm kind of useless at the moment.

and, i'll remind you that if i win i will be immediately countersuing. if it's into november, that's another $670.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

btw, if you're curious: i would rather be hunted down and beaten by christians, impaled on a stick, roasted slowly and fed to homeless people than get a job working at amazon.

i'm entirely post-employment. i've been lucky enough to be able to live on disability, and, at this point, suicide seems far more logical than wasting my time at some stupid fucking job.

i won't do it. don't think i will.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

what goes on at the central banks of the world is not economics, it's political theatre - and applied psychology, when they realize it.

jameets singh must cut his beard.

RATES DON'T AFFECT JOBS OR INFLATION.

it's not puzzling: the price of oil is stuck.

so, what would a rate hike actually do? make money for investors. that is all.

https://beta.theglobeandmail.com/report-on-business/economy/threat-of-nafta-collapse-weak-inflation-put-bank-of-canada-on-hold/article36711722/?ref=http://www.theglobeandmail.com&

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

the president can't be firing senators, guys.

c'mon. snap the fuck out of it.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

does anybody still think this phoenix pay thing is an accident?

the union should start doing rolling shut downs. that'd get them moving.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i think i should take it as a good sign that i don't have the ruling in, yet.

i'm not talking about the mail; i can check the database in real time. she said tuesday or wednesday.

it's thursday afternoon; she's taking her time. i couldn't imagine why she would need to do that if she wasn't researching, and that only really make sense if she's dismissing, or at least sees an excellent reason to consider it.

there's another interpretation, though. the landlord decided to argue with the judge at the last minute about how she has "property rights" (she doesn't.), and tried to guilt her over her mom (i think she's full of shit.). that was stupid all around, and especially stupid in a case like this where the judge has reason to doubt  her - to risk that the judge might conclude the complainant was essentially trying to sucker her into a quick ruling is another thing she didn't have to do, but did. if the judge comes around to my side, she may interact with that memory very poorly. but, she also might just be trying to smack a little but of humility down. she'll do this at her leisure, miss fucking pleb.

but, i didn't quite get that from the judge. she was haughty, but empathetic. that's a good judge. and, it's probably just taking a long time due to a good judge doing some good judging.

or, i hope, anyways.

that migraine set me back more than 24 hours. but, i've finally got this done.

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purchasing this release does not come with a download.

inri013: written and demoed from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. sequenced on jan 6-7, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. released jan 7, 2016. finalized on july 29, 2016. symph001.

inri016: created in the summer of 1998. released as a standalone ep on nov 16, 2013. audio permanently closed on oct 12, 2016. release finalized on oct 27, 2016.

inri019: written and demoed from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in january, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. compiled on nov 13, 2016. sequenced on nov 22-24, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on nov 24, 2016. release finalized on nov 27, 2016. symph002.

inri029: recorded over 1997-1999. constructed in this form in june, 1999. published in november, 2013. aborted early version added as a hidden track on sept 13, 2017; release consequently finalized. symph003.

inri039: this was constructed over a little more than a month: from 7/7-8/20, 2000. it seems to have been recombined into one track around 2007 but has otherwise not been modified since it was completed. first released as an ep in jan 2014. release finalized as symph004 on oct 8, 2017.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri053: written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012.

originally created from 1996-2002. this compilation is dated to jan 25, 2002. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 26, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released January 25, 2002

j - guitars (electric, classical, acoustic), effects, ebow, bass, mandolin, synthesizers, electric piano, piano, organ, vocals, drum kit, drum programming, orchestral & other sequencing, flute, cool edit synthesis, sound raider, sampling, light-wave synthesis, generative synthesis, generative percussion, noise generators, sound design, loops, tapes, found sounds (washing machine), metronome, windows 95 sound recorder, treatments, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, coughs, a broken tape deck, a broken equalizer, composition, production

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include synthesizers, clavinet, kalimba, nylon guitar, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass guitar, piano, banjo, electronic drums, pc card, violin, cello, bamboo flute, flute, viola, soprano saxophone, tuba, trumpet, organ, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, synth pads, contrabass, tubular bells and music box. 

 

 https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/symphonic-works-volume-1

 

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

so, i've been saying for years that you can't rely on the united states government to do this.

the world needs to look elsewhere for leadership on this issue.

http://www.newsweek.com/trump-replace-birth-control-fertility-awareness-leaked-document-689840?utm_source=internal&utm_campaign=most_read&utm_medium=most_read3

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i'm sorry, but it's 2017, and if you're sticking needles in you and don't know what's going to happen, you can't be expecting anybody to bail you out.

i support suicide as a choice.

that's my view on the contemporary opium issue.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

do you know what i honestly have to conclude looking at the city council in windsor?

that, if you thought you were going to save money by downloading costs to city council, you were a complete fucking idiot.

...and that we need to talk about recentralizing the important services, like sewers and housing.

the people on this council are useless. but, it's the fact that they're being given too much money that's at the real root of the problem. higher levels of government need to take the money back and spend it more responsibly.

i was never a fan of off-loading, obviously. but, the council has proven that it's simply too inept to manage these kinds of funds. and, it's really up to the province to step in and take control.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

dumbest fucking thing i've ever heard.

why don't they build a pedestrian bridge, instead?

http://windsorstar.com/news/local-news/gondolas-over-the-detroit-river-windsor-mayor-dilkens-revives-cable-car-idea-for-amazon-hq2-bid

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

the christianization of europe comes down to us in various forms, much of it from indigenous sources. the imperial accounts of emperors and warrior-priests are generally of questionable value, as they were designed to uphold the rule of the court.

this took a very long time, with some areas of eastern europe not christianizing until the napoleonic period. so, the stories are diverse and unique.

one of the more well told stories is the genocide of the saxons, who lived near the border of germany and france, where it is thought that the catholic church (via charlemagne) killed upwards of 70% of the indigenous population for refusing to convert. those are numbers that rival the extermination of the american indigenous people, as a whole. ought there be any surprise when i tell you it was the same institution that was responsible?

other areas used economic coercion to convert people, by refusing them services or opportunities. others had their schools taken over - or, in some cases built - by monasteries. the sagas of northern europe are badly whitewashed, but they tell the story of a centuries long struggle between this foreign ideology of christianity and the nativist polytheism.

you can like chrisianity or not. but, stop pretending it's a european cultural treasure. it's not. it's an invading colonial force that destroyed entire cultures and civilizations.

today, the indigenous religions and cultures of europe are so thoroughly lost to history that they cannot even be speculatively reconstructed.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.