the universe says...

"let it be known to jessica..."

point taken. but, fuck off. i'm staying here.

let it be known to the universe: if i were to be evicted tomorrow, due to some cruel backwards legal error, the chances of me going back to ottawa are effectively zero.

i repeat: i have absolutely no interest in going back to ottawa.

the only thing that existed in ottawa that meant anything to me was my father, and he died in 2013. the truth is that i would have left ottawa years earlier if i had the money and drive, but my finances were kind of tied up with my father's, and for that reason i had to stay put. years ago, my preferred destination would have been montreal. today, i'd have probably ended up in toronto.

i'm really a big city kid; i don't like rural areas. between the christians and the wild animals, i just don't feel safe in the suburbs, let alone the countryside. on top of that, i'd end up so bored i'd almost certainly become a hopeless pothead. i'm not the type of person that would go out and explore the forest, i'm the type of person that would stay in and pout about how boring living in the sticks is.

i'm not much into thoreau, or his viewpoints. i'm really more into kropotkin. but, i'm very pro-technology. what i really want is to use technology to abolish labour and have everybody living in apartments making art.

i've mused about stopping in waterloo on my way up north, to somewhere where the air is cleaner. but, i'm still going to end up in a city. i'm going to be looking for something cheap when i do this, of course.

for right now, i have no interest in leaving windsor and would find something else here if i had to.