the dealer left a cat here.

i don't want a cat. but i don't want to let it starve either. hopefully i can call somebody to come get it.

i think this nails it.

but gen x is also very similar to the parents of the boomer generation in many of the ways discussed here, who grew up during one or two major wars, and faced near death after being forced to fight in one or both of them. there's a reason for that: a lot of us were raised by our grandparents, not by our parents.

i was a latch key kid and the first person i saw in the evening was more often than not my maternal grandmother, who would show up to check on me when my mom disappeared on cocaine binges. my dad would pick me up twice a week due to a court order for him to and drop me off somewhere like at a soccer field or a karate club, then go watch the game in a bar and pick me up to drive me home a few hours later, until he was able to move me into his basement to evade paying child support.

but i actually spent a lot of time with nana that i didn't actually spend with either of my parents. 

ok.

i'm being told the top floor is sealed up. that won't be good for the rats, because that's their entry point, but that's what they said. i'll see if i can verify that. i hope it's very short term, otherwise there's going to be a brutal infestation.

despite that, i can hear people upstairs, and can smell their drug use. it's beginning to feel similar to what happened in the last basement, where it was obvious there were people upstairs doing drugs, but the landlords repeatedly denied it.

the cops are retards and the courts are broken. it's a waste of time.

i'm tentatively planning to get out of here asap. i don't like these people. i'm not their friend and don't want to hang out with them and i don't understand why they keep following me around.

i think that these people are disgusting losers and i don't want to acknowledge that they even exist.

i have repeatedly warned them to stay away from me or to suffer the consequences for it and it's relatively clear that they aren't listening and that's going to be what happens.