from what i've heard, the people on the street right now neither sound like anarchists, nor like nazis.

what they sound like is islamists.

what they want is to punish the sinners.

and, i'm growing more and more concerned about the general situation, as we're being forced to wear masks and being coerced to yell biblical slogans, like dark age barbarians.

you don't have to agree with me completely; it's ok if you don't.

the united states is unusual in the modern world in it's continued embrace of retributive justice. it's a broader social issue in your country, and we're not likely to see eye-to-eye on it. you're likely to want to pluck mine out over it, too.

but, let's all sit down and read through some historical approaches to the question "what is justice?" before we go back to yelling for blood on the streets like a bunch of barbarians. i'm sure we can find some kind of consensus...

justice isn't more thuggery, or reverse thuggery, or enlightened thuggery.

justice is putting an end to the thuggery.

justice means reforming the police services to expunge the teaching of thuggery, not tracking down the bad apples and parading their heads around on stakes.

no. shut up. you're wrong. deal with it.

stop.

my opposition is to judeo-muslim (christians are actually a little better, here) concepts of retributive justice, and the opposition is foundational and deep. i will never side with any political movement calling for increasing punishment of anybody.

i wrote an essay about this a while ago:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/thoughts/essays/pauchay.html

...but it's actually a constant thread through the site, even if i get a little angry from time to time.

so, in a situation where a cop by all apparent means accidentally kills an unarmed civilian due to his own overwhelming stupidity, what is justice? is it enacting as much retribution on the individual as possible? is it punishing everybody in sight at the highest degree possible?

i must adamantly dissent - no! this is not justice! this is merely a continuation of the cycle of violence. it is barbarism, not justice.

justice is reforming the system so that stupid people are no longer taught stupid things at cop school, and then let loose on the general population to be idiotic thugs with guns. that's justice.

and, that's the movement i'd support, if it was out there.

you people calling for blood and retribution and punishment and think that that's "justice" can do so without me.

this is the last one of these for a while. when i started this project several years ago, i never expected it to take this long. i thought it would be something i could do to blow the time as i weaned myself off of a physical nicotine addiction. as it is, it's taken me longer to compile these journals than it did to write them. it's really been absolutely absurd.

i still need to finish the liner notes for the series of rereleases attached to this journal - inri031-inri034, inri036-inri04 & inri045. these will come up in due time. that will end the first reconstruction phase, which documents my move from ottawa to windsor and the initial series of re-releases that happened as soon as i got here. the first release of new recordings (of old material) was in june, 2014. after realizing how time consuming this is, it could be a while before i get back to the second phase.

i need to put this aside asap and get back to actually finishing the recordings. period 3 starts soon.

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the seventh entry in the music journal series, which is the month of january, 2014 and is 189 pages long. i am not going to summarize the story, but it is available on the web over here: http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.com/2014/01/.

this is a compilation of written correspondences that occurred around me over january, 2014. it includes facebook posts, google+ posts, youtube comments discussions and emails with acquaintances, strangers and family members, in an attempt to document the first reconstruction phase of rebuilding my discography, including remastering and (re)publishing inri031, inri032, inri033, inri034, inri036, inri037, inri038, inri039, inri040, inri041 and inri045. the contents of this download are the dummy track, a word doc file and a pdf file, both written in a more readable, chronological ordering. i've also added the respective files for my other three blogs, for general interest, as well as 57 separate txt documents (all html files) that are referenced in the journal.

the events documented in this journal occurred in january, 2014 and were compiled into a narrative in several stages over the years 2014-2020. journal completed, released and finalized in doc and pdf format on june 1, 2020. doc201401.

credits

released February 1, 2014

j - editing, participant

nick austin - participant
jonathan jaeger - participant
uncle elvis - participant
arod13arod - participant
Nickelpitts - participant
DatzWhatsUp - participant
TheStory SoFar - participant
TrulyHorrifying Productions - participant
Erik Paulson - participant
kurtless guhle - participant
danny shuddup - participant
cklin114 - participant
Matt Gaub - participant
Memphis. Methods - participant
Evanya Parker - participant
Nowell Kishimoto - participant
George Porte - participant
Bearslikejaimie - participant
Adam Moscinski - participant

nana - participant
the oldest aunt's wife - participant
mom - participant
jeff - participant
sister - participant
stepmother - participant
the surviving uncle - participant

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/01-2014-music-journal

just to clarify/reiterate/remind what the problem is.

i'm creating these documents in word 2003 because i like the program, because i have a copy of it and because it works just fine. word processing isn't the kind of thing you should have to pay for over and over again. i don't remember where i got the version i have, but somebody paid for it, and that shouldn't expire.

but, i never got used to the office 2007 interface. i was supposed to eventually deal with it, i know; i didn't, and i don't want to now, and i'm never going to. but, they changed the format at the time from .doc to .docx.

this was a substantive change in the way that office files are created. i don't know how the old office files work, but the new office files are using an xml-based architecture that appears to be dramatically different.

unfortunately, converting from .doc to .docx is something that everybody has massive problems with. google, adobe, the free sites and microsoft, too. it breaks the formatting, every time.  sadly, the standard way that doc is converted to pdf seems to implement the conversion to docx as an intermediary step. so, if i go to google docs, it will convert my doc file to a docx file first and then convert it to pdf after, which leaves me with a slew of broken formatting, essentially undoing everything i spent the last month doing.

but, i was able to find a workaround at the microsoft cloud that converted directly from doc to pdf. it's the only free site that has that option, that i'm aware of.

this broke on me this morning, and then righted itself, and then broke again, and then fixed itself again. but, i think i squeezed what i need out...

the issue could of course be resolved by fixing the conversion step. i'm labeling it as unnecessary and trying to just avoid it, but if they'd just fucking fix it, it wouldn't be a problem.

regardless, that's something that should be made clear - any .doc file that you download from me will lose it's formatting when converted to .docx format, so you should try to open it in a version of word that lets you open it natively, without having to convert it to xml.

ok.

i think i got it. i had to mess around with a few things, and i may have even just gotten it to avoid the conversion by accident. !.

it's going to be an extra slow process of double checking, so i might not have these finalized for a few more hours, but i think i got what i wanted downloaded and it's just a matter of time before i get these links up.

finally.

ugh.

microsoft has undone my trick. it won't convert directly from doc to pdf. and the other site i was using wants a credit card, now, because i'm browsing incognito (and can't turn it off).

i don't have access to a newer version of ms word and don't want to pay for it. on top of that, i just don't like the user interface in the new word.

we might have to just not have pdf files, anymore, if nobody is going to let me convert from doc to pdf.

but, why is this happening? i had a method worked out, and they broke it. twice...

i would, in the end, expect the courts to side with speech advocates; i don't think that repealing s. 230 would lead to less legal protections for speech.

the concern is that the companies might not want to go through the process of litigating, and would just ban hammer everything on the slightest complaint, instead.

and, you neo-fascist progressive-conservative brownshirts need to take heed - you'll be the first to go.

https://www.npr.org/2020/05/30/865813960/as-trump-targets-twitters-legal-shield-experts-have-a-warning