the number of biological men with absolutely no hair on their chest at all due to genetics is estimated to be around 5%, and the variation is heritable.

i cannot explain this with heredity - the men on both sides of my family are all very hairy. my dad's side is italian and jewish - very, very hairy people. 

so, again - was i switched at birth? was my mother raised by somebody who wasn't her father? these are possibilities, however obscure.

but, the fact is that the most likely cause is low testosterone - and if you want to get around it, you need to question my ancestry in some manner.

i'm still waiting for resorption and turnover markers, but my formation markers are fine - indicating i'm not having difficulty producing bone, at least. i'm going to test gh and igf-1 directly fairly soon, but it doesn't seem to be a problem with calcium or d or thyroid hormones. and, the point of taking estrogen is to protect against resorption, so it makes little sense to think that's what's going on, either - but i'm testing and we'll see.

it's almost certainly that my bones never developed properly, and i initially pointed to malnutrition and smoking (which likely both contributed), but it turns out that poor bone development during adolescence is actually relatively common in pre-treatment transwomen. so, i'm a statistic here - there's a pattern for this.

the idea is that we often don't really go through puberty, so our bones never really develop properly as a result of it. and, did i go through puberty? not really, no.  my dad was a man ape, in terms of body hair. that's 100% genes. but, i've never grown a single hair between my belly button and my adam's apple - not even fuzz, not even vellus hair. i had no interest in dating or having sex with anybody at all. and, i had a distinct lack of aggression as a teenager, as well.

these are unreliable markers, granted, and i can't do tests on my long evolved adolescent self to be sure, but they seem to point towards a general picture of incomplete or stunted puberty, likely due to low testosterone development. and, that might be why i was able to suppress it so much when i went on the cyproterone. there were times when they couldn't even measure any serum testosterone with blood tests - it was statistically 0.

what they've found is that the subsequent estrogen therapy often helps increase bone density in pre-treatment transwomen because it's actually undoing the hypogonadism present due to lower than average testosterone.

so, i'm tentatively coming to this diagnosis of low testosterone as a teenager as being the primary cause of poor development, with exposure to smoking and poor nutrition as potentially exacerbating factors. of course, teenage boys convert their testosterone to estrogen to build density. but, if there's no testosterone, there's no estrogen. so, it's another reason to argue that you want to get kids on hormones as young as possible.

and, that means i'm best off going on high dosage injectable estrogen to start, and potentially moving to forteo after it's effects have been measured. if the diagnosis is hypogonadism as a teenager, let's try hypergonadism as an adult to attempt to undo it, as a starting point.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6709704/

fit test #2 was also negative, and the gastro thinks there's nothing wrong with me.

his view was that low stomach acid isn't actually a thing (i'm not so sure...), and the idea that i'm bleeding from too many avocados is crazy talk (he's probably right on that, but i need to hold the thought, regardless).

he wouldn't schedule a virtual scope because he's decided there's nothing wrong with me; i'll have to schedule that with my family doctor, and i'm going to - it's better than spending $150 for a celiac test.

ok.

so, that's that - i'm officially cleared by the gastro. but, i'm not done yet.

i'm about to call the gastro to get the second fit results and presumably schedule a virtual scope.

let's see what he says about the likelihood of low stomach acid, and where his head is at regarding these results.

he is the one that spooked me. i guess he's required by law to tell me the chances of a tear during a colonoscopy, which were one in a thousand - numbers he thought were low.

1/1000 is not unlikely - it means tears happen all of the time. those are not good odds for an unnecessary procedure, and i'm qualified to tell you that. odds of colon cancer at my age, given that i've been on a low meat diet since my early 20s, are much, much lower.

and, we'll see soon if that was the right calculation or not.

whoever is doing these harvard science talks seems to have a distinctly pro-einstein, distinctly anti-copenhagen bias.

i'm actually in agreement, but it's a little unusual to see it.

so, i'm not allowed to broadcast links again, and i actually suspect it has something to do with the stupid law they just passed to force google to pay these useless, parasitic "journalists" that mostly broadcast state propaganda, as though it's the link that's the content of this space, rather than the deconstruction of them.

there are no ads on this site; i've never made a dime from my analysis, and don't want to make money doing this, as it's just a corrupting factor. i do this for free, i give it away for free and i don't want it polluted by advertising. so, you can do the math - take your cut of nothing, as you will.

but, it's just a category error to begin with. i'm not hosting content - it's just wrong to look at it like this.

what i'm doing is either referred to in academia as a commentary, or is just basic research and essay writing. the only reason i post links - and i post them frequently, and don't intend to stop - is either as references (which is frequent) or so that the reader understands what i'm commenting on or am otherwise deconstructing. i'd lean strongly towards the idea that link sharing is advertising, but that's not what i'm doing - i'm not link sharing, i'm not advertising and i'm not hosting. all i'm doing is telling you what the topic of my deconstruction is, and then i'm posting original writing around it.

so, this is something that will need to get fixed on the backend - this site has nothing to do with the new regulations, and restrictions around broadcasting posts the way i'm doing it are not covered by the legislation.

that said, the way to get around it right now is to go back to posting links with spaces in between to avoid the algorithm

so, instead of posting a link to my bandcamp site, i'll have to post it like this:

h t t p : / / j a s o n p a  r e n t . b a n d c a m p . c o m  

i can then immediately hit the back button in the browser, and replace it with a link, leaving the broadcast in my inbox.

that means you'll need a site like this if you're following along via email:

https://www.browserling.com/tools/remove-all-whitespace

today is also a friday, so i'm going to start with the alter-reality. finally.

it's still in the form of loose ends, though - i'll be working on the following this morning, in order to clear out the facebook page and shut it down:

https://jessicamurrayreleasestimeline.blogspot.com/

so, that sleep was something i needed.

i need to catch up this morning.