marijuana is not a medicine, and it is not used to treat symptoms, whatever those symptoms are.

rather, it's a recreational drug that is used in social situations in order to have a good time with.

i'm just not feeling up to going out this weekend at all. i've actually been over this before, but i guess i get the opportunity to demonstrate it, now.

a lot of people would say something like "you're having a shitty weekend, so, relax and smoke a joint - it will make you feel better.". no. if i go out for beers on saturday, or i find drugs this weekend more generally, it's just going to make me more depressed. it's not going to make me feel better. i know that.

drugs can work alright with stress, sometimes. but, that's different. that's "i'm feeling like i need to take a load off and forget about things for a few hours". fine. it usually works best with music or dancing - it's a process of getting away.

but, when i'm actually angry or frustrated or upset about something, drugs are just going to make the situation worse, and the absolute last thing i want.

what i want right now is cold sobriety and absolute social avoidance. i'll go out and have fun again when i feel more like myself.

i seem to have been right about the hydro, though.

i mean, you might imagine that if only i was in a house with othe people like me i would...

no.

i'd lock myself in my room all the time.

i don't like people. at all. sorry.

there are some people that are well-behaved, and there are some people that are rebellious.

then, there's people like me that can't figure out which is which.

what i really need is an apartment in a controlled space.

i would be a strong candidate for an asylum.

i've failed the government's behavioural test three times, and i have no idea why i failed or what the right answer are.

"well, you worked in the past"

yeah.

and out of the thirty jobs i've held, i've been fired from or quit 25 of them, mostly after less than a month.

why? because i can't get along with anybody.

there are two reasons i can't move into a rooming house.

the first is that i cannot fit my gear into a rooming house. you might tell me to sell  my gear; well, fuck you. but, i'll even give you that - suppose i didn't have any gear...

suppose i could actually fit all my things into a room.

the more important reason that i can't move into a rooming house is that i have social anxiety disorder. that means that simple conflicts that most people can easily deal with are giant problems for me. i am simply incapable of dealing with people on the level of living with them.

i would not want to spend time with the people in a rooming house - i would be in a conflict with the whole house within hours.

that is the same reason i can't work - i can't get along with anyone. i'm never going to get along with anyone. i don't even want to get along with people...i want a safe, private space where i don't have to deal with anybody.

and the fact is that i'm going to keep looking until i can find one - and make everybody else suffer the consequences of slowing me down.

Notice to Appear in Court on July 5^th, After All

On the morning of June 8^th, 2018, I called Ina to explain that the results of the previous election had thrust me into a state of deep financial uncertainty, and I would be unable to continue with plans to move out of this unhealthy space until some certainty was restored around my income. I indicated that I would have a letter ready on the morning of the 11^th.

Due to the debilitating effects of massive second-hand marijuana smoke from the tenant downstairs, which is generally intolerable from ~5:00 am until ~noon, I was unable to get out of bed to print this document on the morning of the 11^th. When Ina knocked on my door around 10:00, I had been knocked out cold from a haze of second-hand smoke all morning. However, I was able to finally sober up enough to get out of bed and print the letter a little after 11:00. I gave the letter to Ina a little later that afternoon.

In that letter, I explained the necessity of waiting for a response from the government before further action could be taken, and that I would not be seeking to follow through with the open hearing.

However, since then, the situation has only become less tolerable; I cannot stay here any longer than I must. The constant drug abuse happening downstairs is making me constantly lethargic. I’m drinking coffee like water, and still suffering through short days - sleeping 15 hours at a time, and dragging myself with difficulty through what limited consciousness I can muster.

My art projects are suffering dramatically, because I can’t stay awake to work on them.

My letter was sincere, but it was not technically a legal document. The hearing has remained open the whole time, and I have decided as of this week that I will be presenting my case in full, as initially intended, after all.

The adjudicator will need to determine an end date for the lease, along with any damages due to negligence that I am entitled to. I do not currently have any firm plans to move on August 1^st, but I will be actively exploring the market over the next few days. Given the circumstance of needing to find a smoke-free place to live, or repeat this process a third time, I plan to ask her to allow for a month-to-month tenancy until I am able to plan a move.

I will be presenting video evidence at the trial.  This evidence will be presented to you on the dayof the hearting, but will also be available at the following url, no earlier than july 4^th at midnight, and no later than july 4^th at noon: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3JSjmqp0cbvN7RpHG7gw52ARfWLhWtQd

The description of that youtube playlist will also contain a link to a detailed written journal, at some point on july 4th.

dated: june 29^th, 2018

printed: june 29^th, 2018.

tenant: jason parent

Statement Explaining the Decision to Take Back My Rent Deposit For July

I will remind you that you asked me to leave the unit by June 27^th and threatened court action over it, so you have no grounds to ask for notice when I do leave. As far as I am concerned, this tenancy is irreparably broken, and it is in the interests of both parties to have me vacate the unit as soon as is possible.

The remaining questions revolve around what the definition of “possible” is.

I will be using my last month’s rent for July of 2018, but this is not a notice of evacuation - I am explicitly not committing to an evacuation date of August 1^st, and am explicitly suggesting that there is a reasonably high possibility I may be here past August 1^st. However, I am committing to the hope that i can find a way out of this mess by August 1^st, and you should consequently interpret me taking this unilateral action as a statement of good faith to end this tenancy as quickly as possible.

While I had indicated previously that the election has created great uncertainty around my income, I do not believe that I can tolerate the smoke long enough to wait for an official government response. I have to take this gamble; I need out, it’s just intolerable. Another victory for casino capitalism, I guess. Please see the second letter for a more detailed explanation of this change of plans.

I do not have a history of missing rent payments, and this is not a reaction to financial hardship on my behalf - as of the morning of June 30^th, there’s over $1800 in my account, which is more than enough to pay $700 of rent on July 1^st. I’m suing you because I don’t like living through the consequences of my neighbours’ drug abuse; I don’t have a drug or alcohol problem. I quit smoking cigarettes habitually 2.5 years ago. I don’t have a gambling problem. Further, I do not want to harm my already somewhat shaky credit rating (due to a large defaulted student loan), and have every intent to continue to pay rent month-month for as long as it takes to end my tenancy.

The problem is not that i’m an irresponsible tenant, but that i’m too responsible of a tenant to live in this building.

The reasons that I’m taking back my last month’s rent are twofold:

1) The market in windsor is currently being driven by immediate vacancy. I can only speculate as to the reasons underlying this. Perhaps people are abandoning units at high rates; perhaps people are being evicted at high rates. Perhaps landlords are just being lazy. Or, perhaps, the market is currently overvalued. There were still units for July 1^st coming up on the morning of June 27^th. What I can state with certainty is that I lost several opportunities to move out on July 1^st because I was not able to secure a commitment from Ina that I would receive my deposit back upon request. I need to have this deposit at my immediate disposal in order to maximize my chances of signing a lease for august 1^st on short notice. It’s just a realistic reaction to market conditions - and, as mentioned, you should actually take it as an act of good faith.

2) Ina has indicated that she will not be co-operating with me further. I have no choice but to act unilaterally in the face of non-cooperation by the landlord (in contravention of the tenancy act, fwiw).

I understand that I am breaking the rules, here. But, it is in reaction to your own decision to break the rules, and in reaction to a general disinterest in this city to follow the rules. By continuing to follow this rule, I would be placing myself at a disadvantage on the market - and extending this nightmare for everybody involved. I will remind you that only the board can evict a tenant, and acknowledge you are in your rights to seek legal action to this end. But, I will likewise promise you  prompt payment of rent on the first of the month for as long as I remain stuck here past august 1^st - and question what the value of action on your behalf would actually be.

Also note that last month’s rent deposit is not intended to be held for possible damages to the unit. That said, note that I will not be seeking my $25 deposit back - and that I don’t believe that damages to the unit (which should be little more than a paint job) should substantively exceed that amount.

This is an absurd situation for everybody, but you need to take a large amount of responsibility for it, yourself. I’m sorry it’s come to it, but I need to do everything in my ability to position myself to move to a healthier space, and I will make these same arguments at the tribunal, if you insist that I must.

dated: june 27th, 2018

printed: june 29th, 2018

tenant: jason parent

well, i got my letters printed.

strangely, the place i went to look at yesterday just got relisted with a terrible management company that is using an illegal rent-to-income percentage process (and basically wouldn't let me rent more than a room), at a higher price that is just out of my ability to pay, anyways.

that's a shame - i thought i had a way out, there.

back to the drawing board.

so, they filed an l2 after all.

i guess that the landlord thought she had to wait until the 27th; she could have filed it the day of.

i expect to beat the l2 if i have to fight it - they lied on the forms. but, i don't want to reschedule my t2/t6 after their l2, regardless of the outcome.

what that means is that i have to carry through with the court process on thursday, because i want my court date first. so, i might as well print the letters this afternoon.

this is going to put me in a tricky situation of potentially having the tenancy cancelled august 1st, without being ready to move on that date. so, this is a gamble. it would be an awful judge, however, that would order an eviction within weeks of the court date...i would expect her to set the date for either september or october.

give that there's an l2, they are not likely to consent to a rescheduling. so, i'd have to cancel and resubmit.

they should have waited until after the 5th. that's an error on their behalf.

so, this page is now filled in from the time i got to windsor until the beginning of 2014.

i finished archiving my link dump in early 2014, which was mostly spent on music, and on youtube debates. again: i don't expect this to be all that lengthy. i hope to get a lot done this weekend.

nothing up this morning. no response from the agent from yesterday. i need to make some calls and eat.

i'm square as fuck.

and, fuck you if you don't like it.

when you hear the line "it's not up to me to educate you", it's a red flag that that person is a troll and just hanging around looking to get into a fight.

education is the entire purpose of activism. if you're not there to educate, what are you doing, exactly?

an accuser does not have the right to remain silent, or the right to remain anonymous - an accuser has the obligation to identify themselves, and the burden of proof to demonstrate their case.

an accused does not have the obligation to explain themselves, or to disprove the allegations against them out of court - an accused has the right to remain silent, and the opportunity to disprove the accusations, as they come forward. an accused is presumed innocent until proven guilty.

and, what is that called?

that's called liberalism.

will the prime minister take a stand and be a fucking liberal for once?

again: trudeau should not be afraid to appear hypocritical, here.

he's going to isolate far more potential voters by holding to some post-modernist claptrap that his in-the-wrong-party advisors learned in a pseudo-scientific sociology course than he is going to by swallowing his own foot and standing up for the principles of his own party - which are also the principles of the country, and even the principles of the culture.

"she has the right to remain silent".

this is a good example of the kind of backwards legal logic that you get out of screwy post-modernist thinking.

the right to remain silent is something that people are afforded when they are accused of a crime, so as to not incriminate themselves. further, it is a fundamental principle of justice in the british legal system that an accused be able to face their accuser - and, yes, this is exactly the situation that produces a clear reason that this rule exists.

you can run off foucault all day if you want, but in our legal system that actually exists, it is the accuser who must identify herself and the accused that has the right to remain silent.

academically. this idea forms the crux of what lawyers refer to as liberalism.

and, it would be nice to hear the leader of the liberal party stand up for what should be his own principles, in calling for his accuser to identify herself publicly, and press charges in a court of law if she feels compelled to do so - while standing up for his own right to remain silent, should he choose to do so.

if you would like to live in a society where people can make anonymous accusations against public figures with impunity, which those public figures are then forced to respond publicly to, i might suggest moving to china.

https://www.thestar.com/opinion/star-columnists/2018/06/28/on-groping-allegation-trudeau-ducks-the-rules-he-set.html

i have to brace myself for the reality that i'm probably going to get overwhelmed repeatedly and spend more time sleeping this weekend than i'd like. it's going to simply be disgusting in here.

but, right now the steam is working relatively well in cleansing the air of whatever the fuck it is that she's smoking.

the down side is that i'm sopping in sweat in my bed, but at least i'm wide awake and not wasting the night away sleeping...