this mouse is breaking my heart.

i continue to find minimal evidence of it in the apartment, but it is a mouse in here. i can hear it squeaking.

is it the same mouse that left me presents last year? i don't know.

it's making me sad that it keeps coming in here. frankly, if it stayed in the walls and ate the bugs, i would not care much. it must be eating the bugs; it's not eating my food. i am pretty clean, but i find crumbs a day or two later. i have seen little to no sign of roaches in here. so why does it come in here if there's no food for it to eat?

it must be coming in because it's warm, and as a result it seems to see me as a caretaker or a benevolent master, and i'm not. it almost seems to be following me through the walls. i've started banging on the walls to scare it off and the squeak is shifting from a happy squeak to a sad squeak, as though it gets it and is sad at the rejection. i'm going to have to kill it if it keeps at it, even if i don't want to.

rodents are a difficult moral problem. these are smart animals that pose a threat to our health and need to be exterminated but they might be good pets or companions, otherwise. 

it's not destructive and it leaves almost no feces. almost is not good enough. we've coexisted for centuries. i wish there was a better solution.

i've made it very hard to get in here and it's kept the rats out, which was the intent. but this very small mouse is something like 10% of the size of the large rats that were in the ceiling last year and the things i did to keep the rats out and worked have not been enough to keep the little mouse out. it can live in the walls; the rats couldn't. it's substantively harder to block any holes it might use to get in because it's so much smaller.

i'm figuring it out and i will but if it keeps finding alternative ways to get in after i block the existing entrance points then it will have to die.

i got quite a bit done last night but i'm not quite done yet. soon.

i have supported regime change in iran for a long time and was happy to see the americans move to remove the fascists from power in tehran. i also support high oil prices and would encourage people upset about oil prices to seek ways to minimize their carbon footprint, in response.

i have been disappointed by the americans' tactics in carrying this regime change out. trump does not appear to want to implement regime change, he appears to want to force an agreement on the existing fascist state. this will not help the people of iran overthrow their fascist cult government. further, the many months that have been wasted on endless go-nowhere negotiations have simply made it more difficult to get to that end point.

trump appears to have given up on trying to convince the iranian dictatorship to sign an agreement. reports suggest that, rather than aggressively move to replace the dictatorship, he is planning to take out his frustration on iranian civilians by destroying civilian infrastructure. this is the opposite of what i tentatively supported.

the blockade, which i may have suggested, is likely to succeed in the long run but they need to put it in place for a long time and trump wants this done faster than that. they also need to actually blockade them.

i would still support a brutal operation to eliminate the iranian dictatorship by destroying it's infrastructure and eliminating it's leadership. that does not mean one or two people, it means wiping out the full theocracy - the judges, the police, the bureaucracy.

i am not interested in punishing the iranian people for the brutality of their dictatorship and don't understand the logic in it. if trump wants to aimlessly and illegally destroy iran for no reason and as a means to punish it's dictatorship for disobeying him, he should be removed from office by the people closest to him. that is not an acceptable policy.

this has to have an endpoint of regime change, and bounds for it need to be generated very soon.