and, yeah - i'm now 38 years old, apparently. how'd that happen?

i don't really celebrate birthdays. i think it's bourgeois.

but, what i'd like to give myself is the gift of clear-headedness - not sobriety, exactly, as i don't have a problem with that, but clarity, to be free of the effects of the habits of others, and to regain the mental alertness i took for granted until around this time last year.

i'm coming up on eight months of abstention, and four months in a cleaner, if not completely clean, environment. and, yes - i'm still feeling it.

one day at a time.

it can't be forever.