if i take the money, i'll have to get off disability, and that will force me into the real world - which means suing my stepmother and probably my sister. one thing i've learned doing this is that time limitations don't mean much in court, in real life - but i already knew that. if there's no further sources at the end of it, i dry up. so, i'll need to finish everything in the finite space and just die when it runs out.
if i don't take the money, i'm gambling that disability might get cancelled, which will have the result of getting thrown out on the street almost immediately. but, if it doesn't, i'm probably ok until i die.
i don't want to live in a market economy and would rather take the check and not have to worry about it. i'm lucky - i found an escape, and argued my way into it. but, what if they take it away?