is it possible that i did get drugged, and the guy just missed his chance?

i don't feel unusually hungover, although it's worth noting that i've barely slept since i got back - three hours this afternoon and three more tonight. but, there is really no sign of anything. with the exception of a little bit of ass sweat that i recognize as dance-induced, my clothes are really in pristine condition.

if i had sex last night, it appears to have been fully consensual. i don't think i actually did. but, a missed opportunity doesn't prove it didn't happen, right?

this is kind of why i want to know who gave me the sweater. was it the same guy that drove me to the bar? was i being babysat or was i being groomed?

in hindsight, i do remember somebody saying something [it's blurry] about mdma in the drinks; it's blurry, but it's solid - there's a difference between trying to figure out the accuracy of a memory bicycling alone and remembering something that was said. this was said. although, frustratingly, it's blurry who said it.

if somebody dropped "mdma" in my drink, it was probably actually some mixture of cocaine and meth, and not actual mdma. and, if anything, it might have helped keep me awake.

*shrug*.

i'm ok. that's what's important.

https://www.thecut.com/2014/10/what-you-might-not-know-about-getting-roofied.html