the person that i turned down was in my classes for years leading up to it, and while it certainly took me by surprise, i did suspect she had a crush on me. she was a lisa simpson type - not just straight as, but straight 99s. widely seen as the smartest kid in school. and, i might be giving it away.

she was very wealthy, and seemed to think the same thing of me - but she was very wrong to do so. the last time i remember seeing her, she was visibly annoyed at me because i was working at an a&w's for spending cash, while in my first or second year at carleton. she was apparently home from the holidays on a scholarship (i think she went to queen's), and buying expensive clothes in the mall. so, she did this walk right in front of me like she's superior thing, and i just laughed. i don't know if anybody ever told her. i wouldn't have the slightest idea what to do with a woman like that, and wouldn't have had the slightest interest in playing out any of her fantasies or designs for me.

she probably looks back at it and wonders what she was thinking, but i'll tell you what she was thinking - it was that i wasn't a shallow idiot. this was a smart, attractive, wealthy young girl with a bright future ahead of her, and she had to resort to asking somebody that she probably knew was queer, just to avoid getting shut out. the better question is what everybody else was thinking. sadly, her intelligence level made her unpopular, and it's hard to break that stigma once you pick it up without changing school districts and starting over.

i don't regret turning her down - as mentioned, i wouldn't have been able to handle the role playing, and i probably would have ruined her night, anyways. and, i don't know if she went or not.