i don't pretend that i'm on trump's side when it comes to many things, and i fully grasp that he'd be happy to toss me off a cliff to get a sandwich. i mean nothing to him.

but, i'm not going to make false allies with muslims and gamers, groups that i do not like any more than i like christian fundamentalists or nihilist republicans, and that i recognize would offer me no more solidarity than trump would. the muslims would kill me on the spot, and the bros would mostly like to beat the shit out of me. these are not allies, not even temporary ones - they are opponents, and not even hidden ones.

rather, i have to look at the situation relatively and try and figure out where my best interests are, and they're really not in this growing conservative movement that passes itself off as a "progressive" movement. this is a coalition of people with deeply socially conservative attitudes that poses a serious threat to a liberal order. you have to understand that america does not have a left, it has a choice between the nihilists in the republican party and the conservatives in the democratic party, which is why the "right" often seems more open to free expression. if i have to, i will align with nihilists before i align with conservatives, all the while realizing that it's a terrible choice.

where the muslims and bros want me dead (literally or figuratively), trump just wants to turn me into an election foil. it's a shitty choice, but it's a big difference.

obviously, i want to support a genuine leftist movement. but, as this window closes in front of me, i'll need to make the choice i need to make to survive.