but the real question is how big this guy's cock is.
Wednesday, November 6, 2024
there's an old southern saying i learned from george w. bush.
illinois + 8.
"fool me once, shame on me. fool me twice, shame on....you me...fool fool me....won't get fooled again!"
it was pretty obvious to me that the polls were wrong in exactly the same way they were wrong the last two times, which is why i managed to nail it when nobody else did.
the democrats appear at this stage to have avoided a complete catastrophe, but these numbers are exceedingly concerning to democrats and broadcast the plausibility of imminent disaster:
illinois + 8.
jersey + 5.
new jersey was as close as nevada.
the republicans have a better chance of winning illinois than the democrats do of flipping florida back.
this is going to look like a comfortable and convincing but narrow trump win. look closer and it's the narrow, narrow aversion of complete collapse.
it was immediately clear that harris was the worst possible candidate. the outcome was immediately predictable.
that's why we have primaries, and history should condemn biden for not stepping down in time to allow for one.
what next?
the youth vote is a total flip and while i don't want to oversimplify i've been pointing out for years that the covid restrictions were political suicide for the democrats. the young people today were told they weren't allowed to go outside and play because some stupid, worthless old people might die, as though they were supposed to give a fuck, and it was entirely blamed on the democrats, who are now the uncool party, and will be the uncool party for the foreseeable future.
the democrats have also become too black. it was one thing when this guy with a white mother was introducing the rolling stones at the convention, but harris didn't even try to appeal to white voters. americans may broadly be in favour of post-racialism and racial integration, but white americans don't want minority rule by african americans, which is how the democrats projected themselves.
there's no nice way to put this. this is a truly disastrous outcome and it's not as bad as it could have been or as bad as it will be next time. the democrats need to completely rebuild.
Monday, November 4, 2024
the last batch of polls are unquestionably in trump's favour, including clarifying that minnesota is in fact up for grabs.
the headlines suggest otherwise. is the news biased in favour of harris?
it is. but it would say that anyways because the news is no longer objective, they are trying to get you engaged to sell you a story. they want a close election. it's exciting. it sells.
i don't expect that the outcome tomorrow is going to be very close at all, in terms of electoral vote tallies, even if some subset of the states is close. trump should win by a comfortable to substantive margin and the outcome is going to clarify why biden was a fundamentally strong candidate and harris is a fundamentally weak candidate.
....and, then elon musk demonstrated to the world at the last minute that donald trump is in truth the ringleader of a pack of sophomoric, immature little boys trying to take over student council and not a collection of frightening fascists that want to take over the military.
macho guys are gross. don't get me wrong.
these guys aren't macho, they're immature dorks.
it's the dork patrol.
they have a saying in computer science: garbage in, garbage out.
i'm not sure how you can listen to what that guy said and be upset about what biden said. it's clearly a difference in scale.
nonetheless, this is a song i wrote in early 2000, during the republican primaries, before bush got elected. note the middle section.
*shrug*.
Sunday, November 3, 2024
i haven't spent much time outside recently, but this is noteworthy:
that forecast is for the first week of nov, 2024.
in recent years, we have seen the temperatures in november feature unusually warm bursts of air that quickly subside. i remember one year where we had two 27 degree days followed by vicious wind storms. the wind reasserted the fact that this is canada and it's november. so, we'd have this tug-of-war where it was trying to stay hot late into the year, but which was ultimately won by cold air plunging in from the arctic, as a result of the polar vortex breaking up due to a deficit of sunlight.
everything else aside, our weather is ultimately controlled by the sun and the yearly parade of longer and shorter days, governed by the tilt of the earth's axis, overpowers all. that will remain true for the foreseeable future, until or if this constant blizzard at the north pole ever subsides and the polar winter becomes a long summer festival. that will be a helluva party. by then, we should be able to grow new livers in test tubes and replace them on demand.
this forecast is different - constant late summer weather (by canadian standards) lingering on into mid or late november, and with no real end in sight. not fluctuations. not snaps. 15+ degree weather every single day up to or past november 15th, and unambiguously late summer or early fall weather pushing into december.
that is no longer unusual weather. that is now a change in the climate.
a few things to watch on tuesday.
1) black candidates underperform in wisconsin. it's not because they're all racist, exactly, although some percentage of them are. however, it's an open question whether people think kamala harris is actually black or not. barack obama told everybody he was half-white every ten minutes for a reason.
2) black turnout in michigan.
3) i think minnesota is going to be close.
4) pennsylvania is leaning republican, which is weird but consistent with the idea that some subset of amish or something don't want to vote for women. if harris loses pennsylvania, she's screwed. this has only been a swing state twice in recent memory, and it's been with female candidates both times. the demographic driving this isn't clear. it's more specific than white & rural, there's something else in there, and it might very well be amish. let's figure this out.
5) north carolina and georgia were supposed to be closer. black turnout is going to be a problem because they're not allowed to vote if they try. but keep an eye on that.
so, it's really going to come down to black voters in these states, and that is questionably undemocratic, but it's how it was setup. harris might have done more to reach out to white people - like standing on stage with a white musician or two - but she didn't. she ran as the black woman, which is doubly odd because it's not clear that people think she's black at all. yet, it's how it's going to be.
what trudeau doesn't understand, and will probably never understand, because he's actually a brutal racist, is that his longing for a culture and an identity is a consequence of the fact that white people had our culture and identity stolen from us by christianity, in the most brutal process of colonization in the history of the world. white people don't even deny this; we don't even contemplate it. we don't understand it. when we overthrew chistianity in the 17th and 18th centuries, we did understand it, but we had no latent or background culture to retreat to, and have been left without an identity ever since. some people, like myself, embrace building a new cultural identity on the concepts of reason, which was the framework developed out of the french revolution in response to the realization that the abolition of christianity would create this cultural void. others, like trudeau, lack the historical understanding and frankly the emotional maturity to come to terms with the fact that their identity was stolen from them, and try to fill that void by co-opting the cultural identities of others.
trudeau's framework only makes sense to him because he has no culture because his culture was stolen from him in the process of colonization by christianity.
this framework does not make sense to anybody that actually has a culture, and was not colonized or stripped of their identity and forced to start from scratch when the colonial process terminated, was overthrown and was reversed.
his father was far more intelligent than he was and understood the role of reason in reconstructing white cultural identity, but trudeau will always be beyond reason, and this process is lost on him. he will forever be lost in the purgatory of a colonized person that has had their identity stripped, and will never understand that those not in that condition will consider him a fool for trying to normalize his condition and attempting to apply it to others.
dossanjh was a smart guy. he's right.
Saturday, November 2, 2024
Friday, November 1, 2024
i'm startled to learn that the coast unit in windsor thinks i'm a drug addict.
a quick look through this blog will demonstrate that i have no tolerance or patience for drug addicts and think the idea that they deserve compassion or empathy to be disgusting.
these coast units are a disaster. they keep shooting people. they can't gather basic information. the whole concept needs to be abolished.
i'm going to have to declare war on the windsor coast by foia-ing them and going after their officers via oiprd reports, one by one. this is unacceptable. this can't exist.
Thursday, October 31, 2024
the united nations utterly failed to keep hezbollah north of the litani and the french should be removed from the mission, going forwards, due to their abject failure to keep the peace. while it is welcome news to hear hezbollah volunteering to retreat, and i hope they actually do so, the question of enforcement remains an open question, and somebody needs to be able to set up there to keep the parties apart that is not the french.
i would hope the israelis are reasonable about the situation.
but enforcement is a key question and promises on paper by hezbollah are not good enough.
it is good news, and i hope it develops.
Wednesday, October 30, 2024
To reach its goal, the government would need to be building at least 100,000 homes a year. The statement projects the highest number of starts to be 95,300 in 2027, which is a decrease of 500 from the 2024 budget.
but, given that the birth and death rate roughly cancel each other out in canada (domestic population growth is roughly 50,000 per year), population growth over these years is going to be due almost solely to immigration and should be in the 400,000/yr range. almost all of that will end up in ontario.
why is the government setting targets of 100,000 houses per year (that it cannot meet) when it knows immigration will be over 300,000/year for the next ten years?
targets in the short run should be closer to 500,000 per year than 100,000 per year.
in response, the government wants to send you $200, but only if you paid taxes last year.
do we want to be a third world country? this is a policy framework that has no outcome besides the imminent ghettoization of our cities. when the number of people greatly exceeds the structural framework to house them (by hundreds of thousands of people, or millions of people, if you follow the numbers in the projections), the only possible outcome is widespread slums, as people struggle to exist on the streets.
are they expecting people to die of covid? of opiate overdoses? of starvation? of exposure to the cold?
how do these numbers zero out?
i'd like to get out of here, if i only could, but i'm trapped here.
yeah. the media wants us to hate india for some reason, as though i care about indian separatists.
india is an ally.
i'm more concerned about the chinese, who are actually our enemies, and i consider this sudden two minutes of hate directed at india to be an extremely foreboding red flag as to the level of infiltration by the chinese into the liberal and conservatives parties.
i mean, i hope harris is at least enjoying her joyful happy 15 minutes of fame, because her political career, which should have been permanently over after her disastrous 2020 run but which got a lifeline she didn't deserve by a person with very bad judgement, will actually be permanently over in about a week.
i mean, she gets to go on stage with beyonce and stuff. wow. fun times.
hope she's taking pictures.
if you listen to election strategists, they will almost all tell you that calling your opponents garbage is a better strategy than pretending you represent everybody (when you obviously don't and can't). i don't think many of the people in the audience at msg last week are very excited about the premise of kamala harris representing them. in response, they might call her a stupid cunt.
the example is sort of cartoonish, but it actually demonstrates the problem with kamala harris' strategy, which she doesn't appear to understand is the core of the reason she's losing. you don't win elections with happy happy, joy joy. you have to savage your enemies.
biden's approach may have been a little garbled, but that's biden. that's always been biden.
how many elections has biden won as a senator, vp and/or president?
how many elections has kamala harris won? i actually believe the answer to this second question is one. she has a long track record of failure when running for office, and there's a reason for it.
you expect a person like kamala harris to blame everybody else except herself, including the person that got out of her way, and shouldn't have. democrats should interpret that as a failure of character and very briskly move on.
the liberals bizarrely actually think this is a beneficial narrative for them.
it could be a gigantic gift to the ndp if the election actually gets framed this way. singh is hapless and hopeless, but this might be the narrative required for them to win their first election in canada, as soft left voters abandon the liberals in droves over their refusal to fund oas fairly in the midst of record inflation.
this is going to be a final prediction.
the chances of the democrats winning are very slim.
the chances of a comfortable republican win are much higher.
in the end, this is more of a vote against kamala harris than a vote in favour of donald trump, where it matters.
i hope the democrats learn their lesson about candidates that are like kamala harris.
Monday, October 28, 2024
i haven't been able to go to detroit since early 2020 due to the pandemic and now my housing situation, but i used to hang out in hamtramck a lot (it became the artist district in detroit because it was cheap), and it was very noticeable that the small city (neighbourhood, really) had ethnic conflict bubbling up in it.
you could see this coming.
i think i posted about it, even.
in canada, cities are designed to prevent this kind of thing from happening. if left to become an isis enclave, the city is going to turn into a ghetto. the idea that a muslim majority council was a good thing was always stupid on it's face. would these people be happy about a majority conservative christian council? it's equivalent, in character. hopefully, a little burst of reality will help clarify why the fake left's politics around islam are so delusional and produce such a double standard; the ideology is incoherent because it's rooted in this concept of race that has no basis in empirical reality instead of identifiable religious and political ideology. the state needs to step in and try to create a larger level of diversity in the city by moving non-muslims in to water the population down.
are these residents of hamtramck expected to vote for the democrats? based on what logic? they're indiscernible from any other right wing christian. this is the base of the republican party. they are obvious republican voters, and it's an obvious republican demographic and voting block.
and, if you think something similar won't happen in your neigbourhood of toronto if it ends up majority muslim, you should think again. of course it will.
everybody is so cynical nowadays. this must be a ploy to win, right?
the problem with running a parachuted-in candidate like harris is is that nobody actually knows where she stands on anything. she's clarified pretty clearly that she opposes restrictions on abortion. that's about it right now.
i don't think this is cynical and i don't think it's pragmatic. i think this is actually harris making an attempt to define herself as a moderate conservative, which is what she has always been, and attempting to honestly broadcast how she would actually govern.
as an aside, i'm really annoyed by the british press' insistence on the important of the muslim vote in michigan. there's no empirical basis to this and attempting to cater to muslim voters in a small region in suburban detroit is going to alienate the much larger and much more important black vote. distant british journalists clearly don't understand that the blacks and the muslims actually don't get along very well, and trying to cater to one has the tendency of pissing off the other. the democrats need to focus on winning black voters in detroit and on winning white liberals outside of detroit. appeasing conservative muslims that want to side with hamas cannot and should not be their secondary or tertiary concern if they want to actually win.
michigan does not have the most muslims in the united states:
further, it's worth pointing out that there's around 120,000 jews in michigan, as well.
it's certainly unusual that there are twice as many muslims as jews, and there would be few places in north america where that is true, but these are not numbers that are going to swing elections. in the long run, jews are generally liberals and muslims are generally conservatives. it makes no sense to focus on muslims at the explicit expense of jews. there are more than 250,000 arabs, but roughly half of them are christians that will assimilate as white within a generation or two. while it will be a smaller percentage than arab christians, an unknown but substantive (30%? 40%?) number of arab muslims in michigan will inevitably convert to christianity or atheism and assimilate as well.
this idea that michigan will be swung by the muslims is a narrative pushed by wealthy arab financiers that has little bearing in reality and that needs to be debunked as specious.
is this accurate?
no.
in recent years, i tend to argue that i agree with about 25% of the democratic party's platform and about 25% of the republican party's platform, and disagree with 75% of both of their respective platforms. i consequently oppose them equally and agree with them equally, but there's almost no overlap.
it is correct in pointing out that i'm a socialist and align much further to the left than the democrats, but the way these ideas are presented in today's spectrum is often confused. i actually wouldn't vote for the socialist party because i think they're too right-wing and too authoritarian. stalinism has re-emerged in critical theory and needs to be carefully resisted.
it has exaggerated my support for democrats and exaggerated my disinterest in republicans.
but these are the results and i want to post them as disclosure for transparency.
Sunday, October 27, 2024
i am a heterosexual female.
i'm not gay. i've never been gay. i'm not a gay ally. i've never had any gay friends and i don't want any gay friends. i don't want anything to do with gay people at all and i'm not interested in gay culture. if some gross ass pirate tried to fuck me, i'd beat the shit out of him for it and call him a faggot while i was breaking his worthless faggot face in for being a disgusting faggot.
i think gay people are completely disgusting.
do you understand?
this is an example of the kind of complete retardedness that i'm dealing with.
i have a large pile of cardboard boxes in front of the heater. it's a clear fire hazard. it didn't matter when the heat was off during the summer, and it's been a warm fall. as of friday, the heat remained off and i was putting off doing something about it until i could determine if i was going to be here or not.
the disgusting faggot freaks cut a hole in the floor to break in here to drug me with testosterone as a part of their sick faggot fantasies. i am not gay. i am not a gay ally. i think homosexuality is a mental illness. i don't think it's worth persecuting because it isn't harmful (except in situations like this, where the correct thing to do is put the faggots in jail), but i have no interest in tolerating faggots in my personal life. i have never had a gay friend and i don't want to have gay friends; i don't respect gay people, and i don't respect the choice that gay people make to be gay. yes, being gay is a choice. nobody is born gay. i need the boxes there to keep the fucking faggots out and to stop them from drugging me. i'm not interested in their gross, perverted fantasies. at all.
if you're trans, go be trans, i can tolerate that, but don't be a faggot. it's disgusting. polite society should have no real expectation to tolerate the fags in any real, meaningful sense.
after the adjournment until december 11th, i realized i would have to do something about this. the heat will need to come on in november.
so, i sent them an email asking them to avoid turning the heat on until i could address the issue.
ten minutes later, the heat turns on. i have sent emails, i have yelled, and the heat remains on.
i am not going to remove the pile of cardboard until i am able to fix the issue in a way that prevents them from being able to enter the space, so we're living in a tinderbox of their own creation, which i have told them to turn off. they won't, and it's clear they won't.
why are they doing this?
it's not cold in here. my thermostat says 30 degrees. the place is insulated, there's computers on, the stove runs down here fairly fequently.
they turned the heat on because i asked them not to and because they want to show me who the boss is.
that's the mentality of an eight year old child but i will never get anything more mature than that out of these abjectly retarded and utterly immature fucking faggot freaks. freud's description of homosexuality was as a symptom of arrested development and a low level of maturity, and his analysis of homosexualty is the only thing he actually got right. they want to control and dominate, like the overgrown children they are, which is what all gay people are - overgrown children that cannot mature into normal heterosexual adults due to some trauma that occurred in their childhood or due to some level of mental retardation brought on by some myriad of factors. gay people are essentially retards. that's what freud said, and it's the correct analysis.
i'm not interested in fighting with them or playing their childish games with them.
so, they can burn the fucking place down, then, and i'll just call them retards for doing it when it goes to court. i don't have time for this. i'm not interested.
it's looking very, very bad for the democrats.
north carolina is red. pennsylvania is very much leaning red.
the actual swing states right now are probably nevada, wisconsin, michigan, minnesota, new hampshire, virginia, new mexico and i think the data strongly suggests trump will win at least half of them.
but, it doesn't matter. az, ga, nc, pa is game over. if trump holds those four states, the rest don't matter.
Saturday, October 26, 2024
this term "forever war" is particularly stupid and facile and has this incredible level of ignorance baked into it.
ending the "forever war" suggests that perpetual war is something that is novel or unusual and that a state of normalcy is a state of peace. well, go hang out with some monkeys and tell me if you think that's still true.
war is like diamonds - it is forever. war is normal; it is a regular state of existence. peace is a hallmark disney cartoon fantasy phony reality that has never existed in history. even in the presence of dominant empires that succeed in slaughtering their closest competitors for a while, which are the periods of history that most closely resemble peace, war always exists on the edges. eliminating the "forever war" would require something like evolving into a different species, or perhaps global communism as a basic pre-requisite. yes, there will forever be war. you silly kids will have to grow up a little and deal with that.
oddly, this term is being associated with a left. what? it is the most basic, blatant expression of the burkean conservative perspective of hierarchical harmony, where everything is in it's right place, that i could imagine hearing articulated. you couldn't better encapsulate conservative philosophy than with the phrase "end the forever war", and liberals and socialists are supposed to make fun of the conservatives for believing in such silly fantasies, rather than interpreting reality through experiment and evidence. marx, particularly, wrote a theory about conflict. socialism is about perpetual war. that's what it is.
so, this is not a left, it's a right.
so, yes, we will have war forever, and we will have war forever until we have communism. you'll never end war without getting rid of capitalism, at the least. these kids aren't even trying to write a theory, here.
i don't think randomly sending everybody $200 as a "rebate" is a very responsible use of public funds. it brings to mind goofy economic ideas like social credit.
we're talking about roughly 3.5 billion dollars, which could be spent on hiring nurses or building subsidized housing. we're overseeing a historic failure in this government to deliver basic services, and the premier is talking about mailing out checks in order to starve the beast.
at the least, if you're going to mail out checks, apply some kind of progressive gradation on it so that the money goes to the people that need it. don't just send everybody $200; targeted government subsidies don't increase inflation, generally speaking, but just handing out $200 checks to everybody is an exceedingly inflationary measure.
fwiw, i would also oppose cutting taxes for middle class families. the government should be spending this money on services, not giving it back to taxpayers.
ultimately, if the government can't figure out how to spend an extra $3.5 billion dollars in the middle of an overpopulation crisis, we quite clearly need to get a new government. there's no deficit of obvious things to do with this cash. we need an infrastructure bill in ontario and we need a government that will write it.
Friday, October 25, 2024
i'm not there yet. there remain hurdles to navigate.
however, i'm on the brink of outsmarting everybody, including the cops who are clearly out to get me.
i'm reminded of the meme that the no-talent guitarist used to repeat every time i walked out of a situation unscathed, largely because i was just trying to avoid getting into stupid conflicts that i didn't give a fuck about.
this was the way he'd pick up the phone, and i watched him do this i don't know how many times.
"yeah, j outsmarted everyone. again."
i need the cash. really. buy my discographies.
i'm currently in an extremely difficult situation and i need some cash.
so, incomplete release up to mid 2004 are restricted to inri075, inri077, inri078, inri086, inri087, inri092 & inri093. the rest are done.
the more i yell at these disgusting people to go away, the more they harass me. they are pathetic losers; bottom-feeding trolls.
if you want to help me out, now is a good time to download some full discographies:
1) inri: 51 releases for $758. this is the synth pop and electro-grunge focused project i did when i was a teenager in the 90s. there is one pending inri project, inri086. 1994-1999.
2) deny everything: 21 releases for $355. this is the project for the post-inri experiments as i was trying to refocus and chart future paths, 1999-2000, and is about the 2000 american election. this project is completed. 1999-2000.
3) j's adventures in guitarland: this is about the classical guitar lessons i took from 1999-2001. project on possibly indefinite hiatus. i won't come back to this until everything else is done first. i need a 21+ fret midi classical guitar with a pickup. if i can get into subsidized housing, i can do this; it may otherwise be a serious challenge to ever finish this. currently, 3 releases for $55, and no serious plans for more until i get to the very end of the process. 1999-2001.
4) jjjjjjjjj: serious music project started in 2001 and worked on sporadically from 2001-2007 as unrealized scored music and then put on hold until 2014, then worked on intensely from 2014-2018. this project comprises symphonic works, official (instrumental) lps, academic projects and works of a more serious nature (more broadly), mostly written as scored pieces for large orchestras and performed by midi sequencers and software synthesizers (with frequent overdubbed live guitars and basses and sometimes with live keyboards and live drums and rarely with live flutes, mandolins or other instruments outside of the usual contemporary rock/jazz instrumentation). currently, 42 releases for $857. this is a continuing project that will continue growing and, in the end, will occupy the largest space in my discography, over the largest time frame, since 2001, although these releases are dated to their re-release cycle, beginning in 2013. 2001-2040.
5) the cynicide collaboration: was supposed to be a live performance "rock band" style project put together by a high school acquaintance named jon, but he abandoned working on it before anything got done. i wrote one song for this project, with demoes dated to 2001 that was finished as a solo composition in 2014 in a style that was adjunct to that intended by jon. i have guitar demos of songs written and performed by jon that were intended to be cynicide collaboration songs, but i don't own the performances or the songs and should not release or complete them (and they're not that good, unless you like early 00s nu-metal). i would have, in the end, completely redone these songs as i was recording them (and, yes, i would have done all of the work), but i didn't do that then and i shouldn't do it now. this project is almost certainly permanently closed and completed, but i will state again that there are demos that i'm restraining myself from finishing on jon's behalf. as far as i know, jon is still alive, but his life will likely be much shorter than mine. initially summer of 2001, then completed in summer of 2014, both as short stints for a few months each. 2001.
6) rabit is wolf: successor project to the cynicide collaboration, made up of just me and the proposed singer. some demoes were recorded in 2001-2002 that were shelved and not finished until 2014-2015, when i finished them as a solo project (and removed sean's vocals in the process) and transferred the compositions to jjjjjjjjj. this project is completed and there will be no further recordings. 2001-2003.
7) fuel true anarchy in the americas: noise + politics, formed in 2001 after 9/11. a demo was released in 2004 and remastered and expanded for a 2021 re-release. i do not currently have plans to reopen this, but it is semi-permanently closed. 2001-2004.
8) the trivial group: this project developed out of the various ideas worked on from 2000-2002, contains aspects of all of them and is the only conceptually unified successor project to inri. unlike the other post-inri projects, it even includes vocals as a central part of the compositions, for the first time since 1999. the trivial group released a series of singles over 2002-2004, culminating in a gigantic 2xlp dated to mid 2005. i decided in 2005 to put the trivial group down and pivot to different ideas, conceptually, but as of 2025 it is still in post-production and it's release sequence is still being finalized. i still have work to do in finishing this project, but i don't intend to write further for it as the next series of tracks reformulated themselves for release in the proverbs project. 2002-2005.
9) throatmotor: i played live bass for a band called throatmotor for about a year, from 2004-2005. the same acquaintance jon had joined the band as a guitarist and brought me in to play bass for him. throatmotor combined blink 182 or sum 41 style early 00s pop-punk lyrics and guitars on top of electronic post-production in the gravity kills or god lives underwater genre sphere, with a bit of an aphex twin vibe from the use of an actual minimoog, and was outside of my sphere of interest, as an artist. it was very syrupy, very poppy. i filled in because they needed somebody that could learn the songs fast and do it, and i tried to work with it by acting either more as a cellist (given that the songs had synth bass parts) and introducing harmonic counterpoint (for the slower songs) or as a third guitarist by introducing overlapping riffs (for the faster songs), but the reaction was muted, and i wasn't that interested in what they were actually doing and intending to do and i mutually separated from the band in mid 2005 (and was replaced by jon's girlfriend, at the time, who just followed the root notes, which is all they expected from me or wanted me to do). i did produce one short demo for throatmotor dated to early 2005 that has some of the characteristics of it (aphex-y synths, some wobbly time signatures, cut up drums, unison crescendos) and that i will complete under that moniker, but it was not well received and reflects the fact that we weren't on the same page, musically. a few bass parts were recorded, but i don't know what they did with them. i didn't record the parts myself and i don't remember the parts i wrote anymore. beyond completing this track, i wouldn't be further interested in throatmotor. 2004-2005.
10) akousmatikoi: 2002-2007.
11) cycles per second: 2004-2007.
12) tetris: 2003-2040.
13) pi: 2003-2040.
14) proverbs: 2007-200.
15) everything (at the new jessica amber murray site): 1994-2040.
i'm currently updating my text discography because it might be a while before i get back to it:
this is the late 2003 and early 2004 sequence, between when i got back from bc and when i moved to sandy hill with red indicated "not done" and green indicating "complete":
this is the csis records update sequence:
so, incomplete release up to mid 2004 are restricted to inri075, inri077, inri078, inri086, inri087, inri092 & inri093. the rest are done.
i was toying with the idea of endorsing harris at the last minute to block vance, but she keeps quoting bible verses, which makes her unelectable.
vance isn't quoting bible verses, at the least. or not yet.
it's the democrats that are starting to look like they're the more scary religionists at this point.
the candidates are both so horrible that i can't even find a lesser evil. they are both abominably terrible, they are both greater evils.
if there's some secularists down ballot on the democratic ticket, maybe they're worth supporting, but i want to endorse voting against donald trump and also endorse voting against kamala harris, whatever that means in your district.
Thursday, October 24, 2024
listen.
yes, i support abortion rights. it's about self-ownership. i'm an anarchist. it's in the core of my politics.
further, yes, polling indicates young people support abortion rights and will vote for them if the issue comes up in a referendum.
however, i think i speak for most people under 50 when i point out that the existence of birth control and condoms makes abortion as a right somewhat of an uninteresting anachronism. if you're talking about people getting raped, that's one thing, and with a few exceptions even the most conservative states allow for abortion access in scenarios where people are getting raped. yet, it's a valid question to ask.
why weren't you on birth control?
why didn't you use a condom?
answers like "we got out of hand" are technically valid, but they don't produce an emotional or empathetic response. it's become an empty rights assertion that most people support in principle but that people are increasingly apathetic about.
people have the responsibility to make smart choices in life. less and less people care about bailing people out that make stupid decisions.
if you let the issue fester long enough, every single state in the united states will re-assert bodily autonomy and abortion rights.
however, the days where this is going to be a populist issue are long past as most people are going to shrug it off and say "you got pregnant? well, it's kind of your own fault, you stupid fucking idiot. it's hard to have empathy for you, when you were too fucking stupid to use a condom.".
there are more important issues in front of most people, politically, then the issue of whether irresponsible people have access to abortion or not, even if most people do support it, in principle.
the canadian government announced a 20% drop in immigration. sounds substantive.
is it enough?
well, that means going from 500,000 to 400,000. that is legal, official immigration; it is a cut of 100,000 legal new immigrants, officially.
i hope they don't just come anyways, or sign up as a temporary workers or foreign students. those numbers are not included in that number of 500,000.
canada is a big country geographically but has a dense population around the american border of around 40 million people. that would have been about a 1.5% increase in population, and is being instead reduced to about a 1.25% increase.
so, it amounts to a 0.25% decrease in projected immigration growth.
we need immigration reform in canada, there's no question, but the immediate issue in front of us is building enough housing, not making political decisions about immigration targets that are functionally trivial and will have next to no actual impact on anybody. the over-population issues we're dealing with took 20 years to build and cannot and will not be solved with minor tweaks over night. we need a major government-directed public works building project using public sector workers, land seizures via eminent domain, etc.
i'm still struggling to re-establish a sense of normalcy after covid. my life is not what it was previously, and it may never be. i am overwhelmingly worse off than i was before covid.
i want my pre-covid life back and will probably never get it back. covid-era policy restrictions may define the rest of my life.
but, for people under the age of 30 and especially under the age of 25 today, covid-era restrictions - and the traumatic experience of growing up in the pandemic - will form the core of experiences that define their entire life. what's after z is omicron. we haven't seen anything like this since the depression.
the reason young people are all of a sudden voting for right-wing parties isn't any of the reasons the media is imagining, and isn't some ideological shift, it's because the reality during the covid pandemic, which defined the youths of the current young generation, was that the democrats and liberals in general were the no-fun party and the republicans and conservatives (libertarians, really) represented the opposition to no-fun. joining the revolution meant siding with the republicans and the right against the no-fun of the democrats and the left.
that's not going to undo itself or go away.
that's probably permanent until some other cultural event changes it, 20 or 50 or 100 years from now. the next batch of young people will copy today's young people and etc. this is self-perpetuating.
the last similar cultural political shift was in the 1960s. what happened after 2020 is that opposing covid restrictions began to define the counter-culture, and it's going to slowly take over the mainstream as generational replacement sequentially removes the millennial generation from power.
as a musician, i'm actually happy to have a counter-culture back. there has been no counter-culture for my entire adult life. i wish i could get out of the house to experience it, but i'm stuck inside fighting with these stupid women trying to take over my apartment and steal my stuff. i'm on a path to a solution that will get me out to enjoy and participate in the counter-culture but it could take a while still.
it may be a better idea for liberals to try to take over the republican party, given that the authoritarian leftists in the democratic party represent a dead end, anyways. however, all of the symbols and marketing and relics of the democratic party are going to increasingly be a dead-end and a non-starter as they become moribundly unpopular as the covid-restriction no-fun emblems with an increasing share of the population, as boomers and xers and millennials slowly die out.
all of the models currently have georgia and arizona leaning republican. they should also have north carolina leaning republican but are dragging their feet in doing it. this doesn't factor in the difficulties that black people will have in actually voting in north carolina, either. it may be justified to have michigan leaning democrat, and michigan is the state that democrats have the best chance of winning because detroit is so black, but that is still a stretch. none of the other states should be leaning blue right now, and the data is bordering on colouring pennsylvania in as leaning red.
i want to be very clear what {ar, ga, nc} as republican means, even if you're generous and give nevada, new mexico, new hampshire and maine to the democrats. at 261 safe or almost safe ec votes, the republicans only have to win one more state - minnesota, wisconsin, michigan, pennsylvania or virginia - to win. there are also more complex combinations involving the forfeited states.
there is no question that trump is the clear favourite, beyond careful language and beyond ambiguity. it is very clear.
it should be pointed out that this is basically a reversal of the map from 2016 when trump had to win all three states, and did, and almost won minnesota, too. however, the trends are moving in the opposite direction, right now, and have been for quite a while.
what we're going to see in a few weeks is that the democrats need to completely rebuild their brand and marketing image. democrats need to understand this: they're not the cool kids. at all. they're losers. they're unpopular.
everything else aside, i think that the democrats' embrace of covid restrictions (and the republicans' campaigning against them) has flipped cultural perceptions about who is cool and who is lame to the opposite of what they were when i was a young person and happy happy joy joy is not sufficient to address that issue. because they refused to let anybody have any fun during the pandemic, the democrats may be seriously fucked for a long time. the liberals and ndp in canada may also have a similar problem, and they may try everything to fix it and fundamentally refuse to understand it.
the democrats probably need to completely rebrand to distance themselves from their conservative covid-era policies.
right now this is starting to ankle bite and nip at your feet in the mid west. in the upcoming years, expect oregon and new york and massachusetts to become competitive, as actually really liberal people that were under 30 in 2020 move into their 40s and refuse to support the democrats. california may not need to sink into the ocean to become an island, in the end, if the fake left doesn't figure it out and foundationally adjust.
Wednesday, October 23, 2024
you may also notice that harris is noticeably wearing far more makeup over the last week or so, and the campaign around her is doing things like increasing lighting and taking pictures from a greater distance.
i don't want to criticize her for wearing makeup, exactly, but the shift its reflective of what her campaign team thinks they're marketing to people.
and it's depressing.
the problem with trump isn't that he's a control freak it's that his disinterest is palpably negligent.
for example, as far as anybody can put together, trump, as an individual, is actually pro-choice, but he let pence fuck the court over because he didn't want to govern, he wanted to go hang out in florida.
what trump wants appears to be (i) lower taxes and (ii) less wars. he's the exact opposite of a fascist dictator and the exact opposite of adolf hitler.
it was this kind of absurdist rhetoric that made biden look like a clown, and harris is going to wear it even worse than biden did.
you should read into this: the bottom is falling out. this is going to be a rough night for democrats.
Tuesday, October 22, 2024
the premise that the government's ministers have the right to order people around without due process of law is blatantly absurd and has no place in a democratic society.
it's the kind of mindset you'd expect from a backwards dictatorship like iran.
the only way to react to uppity people that think they have some kind of authority to order you around is to ignore them and if the minister wants to continue to walk around with these delusions of grandeur then the labour board is going to be left with no choice but to ignore his "orders".
something that democratic commentators are fundamentally misunderstanding is that the perception of age across the parties is not reciprocal. democrats need young voters to win, but what we're learning is that the problems in democratic appeal are not restricted to having this old guy as the face of the party. republicans, on the other hand, are the party of old men, and they see themselves in an older candidate like trump. republicans like old white men; it's what they are, themselves.
biden's age was consequently a liability, admittedly, while trump's age is actually an asset.
but i said from the start that harris was the worst possible candidate. who was responsible for setting this up? ultimately, biden, by picking her, and that will just be recorded in history as one of his myriad mistakes.
these are 538 numbers regarding probabilities of trump winning. yes, the math works in harris' favour as well, but the existence of a likely bradley effect and a general polling error in favour of harris make the opposite exceedingly more likely and everybody realizes that.
50% - pennsylvania
50% - nevada
50% - michigan
50% - wisconsin
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53% - minnesota
53% - new hampshire
54% - virginia
54% - new mexico
54% - maine
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56% - colorado
56% - oregon
given the not just possibility or plausibility but actual likelihood of a roughly 5% error in the polling in harris's direction (and trump's favour), the election map actually probably looks like this going into the very end of the election:
there is a very real possibility of a 400+ ec vote massive trump blowout.
Monday, October 21, 2024
putin'd better lay off on the north korean soldiers (!? who let them out of north korea? are they allowed back in or were they sent to die?), 'cause that special japanese rapid action ninja force has yet to show up on the battlefield, and i'm telling you that's how you shut putin down in the end, is with the ninjas.
if they want to actually apply this market theory they pretend to like so much, wages for imported foreign workers should actually be set to higher than wages for the domestic labour market by law because the use of imported foreign workers implies scarcity in the labour market, which increases the price of labour.
the minimum wage in ontario is currently $17.20.
therefore, the minimum wage for imported labour should be set to $20, minimum.
i remember watching jello biafra post pro-ukrianian propaganda when this started and wanting to get on a plane to colorado to knock him upside the head.
this might bring back some memories of the kind of thing jello was on the front lines in fighting in the united states in the 80s, except it's worse; it's a hybrid of the conscription americans faced in the 60s and the pro-war metal movement of the 80s, where they had military officers taking names to sign up for the military standing beside the merch booth at every show.
welcome to the west, ukraine.
i found a downfall meme with harris in it and i'm not going to post it because it's not what i wanted but they focused on picking a number of clips with harris speaking in a way that was designed to make her look like an airhead. i hadn't seen anything like that before, and it was actually incredibly alarming.
i understand that kamala is a valley girl and that articulating herself in that manner might even be good politics in california, but non-californians are not only not going to react well to that kind of expression but are going to be extremely put off and concerned by it. it really did very convincingly make her look like an airhead.
it's too late now and her political career is certainly over when she loses but somebody really should have told her to tone down the valley speak.
like, yikes.
Sunday, October 20, 2024
i've always been a smart ass, but whats my smart analysis, as a math nerd? how did we get here?
the race in these states has been close from the start and in fact has been for years. specific candidates and debates and other events are going to have minimal push and pull. almost nobody is basing their votes on specific policies, people or outcomes; it's a polarized electorate.
that means that the election isn't about ideas, it's about turnout.
something that affected turnout in the polls was a third party candidate getting a good chunk of the vote, namely rfk. these are obviously disaffected voters that really want to vote "none of the above". rfk seemed to be pulling from both parties, but maybe a little more from democrats that might have hearts that lean trump and brains that scream NOOOOO.
two things happened recently.
1) biden was replaced with harris. this gave harris a very small but consistent bump that pulled her just over trump, but it really had to do with black enthusiasm in the voting models and it may turn out to be a bradley effect, in which case the election may be worse for the democrats than we expect. watch new mexico on election night. if new mexico is close, or trump wins as an upset, harris' bump was a functional bradley effect created by messing around with the data in the modelling. i'm not getting the data suggesting oregon is a potential upset, but don't be surprised if its surprisingly close. also watch minnesota.
2) rfk pulled out, which is what his father should have done. this gave trump a much larger bump.
it took a few months for it to even itself out, but the result of these two minimal shifts in projected turnout was that trump came back out in front.
the democrats are going to very seriously need to figure out how to win back young people, or they're possibly fucked for quite a while. it's not by being sympathetic to the islamic right.
i want to see somebody do the downfall hitler freakout scene with kamala harris, in the bunker.
hilter's generals: we are losing in arizona, georgia and north carolina and are losing ground quickly in pennsylvania.
*map scene*
hitler: we still have michigan and wisconsin.
*generals look around at each other*
generals: we are in the margin of error in both wisconsin and michigan.
*pause*
hitler: ze jews! ....
Saturday, October 19, 2024
great. now, when she loses, she can blame it on ze jews, rather than take responsibility for the fact that she's a poor candidate.
has anybody explained to her that arabs think indians are heretics and black people are slaves? that doesn't mention what they think about women, or what they think the place of women is in society. it's the demographic she has the least possible hope with.
it happens to be gaza, but it might have been something else. these are right-wing, deeply conservative, religious voters. they have no place in the left, and they know it and aren't interested in it.
20 years from now, arab-americans will be one of the most important voting blocs in the republican party and there is nothing the democrats can do to undo this besides become the party of god.
Thursday, October 17, 2024
there's no evidence for this.
he's (again) making an ass of himself on the world stage and it's driving home the reality that he's a closet muslim.
he's even calling for un sanctions on india. laughably.
india should send prime minister dumbass a letter explaining that they're a rising nuclear power and canada is on a direct path towards becoming a third world country, and already is through large swaths of it's urban areas, beset by ghettos, overwhelming poverty and mass drug addiction and homelessness. india should not be taking lectures from a backwards, third-rate country like canada.
trudeau's utterly incompetent and pathetically childish outburst against india needs to be the last straw from the apparatchiks in the liberal party leadership.
the americans and british think we're idiots, and are trying to be nice about it.
can we get this idiot out of power before he embarrasses us further?
i believe that i'm currently listening to mauricio velasco and sean hansel live stream a complete lie about the identity of jessica murray (who is myself, born jason parent) from upstairs in this duplex to a platform (probably a video game platform) that i have no interaction with and don't care about.
i can't really stop sean from stealing my name. my legal name is actually jessica parent. my mother's birth name is kerry murray, so i started using the name jessica murray on the internet to try to create a level of obfuscation. i didn't want people to connect the dots. this blur on my identity (which has never been hard to figure out. look at the url on my bandcamp site on the side, it's jasonparent.bandcamp.com. who do you think built and owns that site?) has allowed sean to walk into a point of ambiguity and confuse people, apparently to try and get laid.
i think mauricio's motive is that he always wanted to make a movie about me and i've firmly and consistently told him to fuck off. i don't respect mauricio as a human being, and i don't respect him as an artist. the absolute last thing i want is this idiot that i don't like making a film about me. i have since begun posting vlogs on the internet, and he seems to be trying to take control of them because he thinks he is entitled to some concept of ownership of any film about me, which he obviously isn't. then, he's trying to plug sean in for me because i don't want anything to do with it.
this is disgusting and psychotic and these losers belong in and need to go to jail, but it's so absurd that i've had a difficult time putting it together and convincing somebody. it's foundationally, fundamentally irrational. i'm pretty good with deductive thought, but you can't deduce things from nonsense, you need to wait until you get evidence. i've had to sit here and wait for them to do what they're doing in order to try to understand it.
they apparently want to take over my vlog, and they want to pretend sean is me. mauricio is the "director". sean is the "actor". in reality, i filmed these vlogs myself by talking into a cheap handheld device, frequently talking to myself in the mirror. you can see the green camera in most of my vlogs and a lot of my pictures. it's not ambiguous; i'm obviously shit-talking into the mirror. nobody is "directing".
my writing style is idiosyncratic. that will be easily deconstructed. neither of these two idiots will convince anybody that they're me, online, for more than a week.
sean has no musical talent. he can't play guitar like me, he can't write songs like me and in fact i'm also a better technical singer than he is, and i think my lyrics are better than his. he's not going to be able to write lyrics like i do, and he can't use the gear i own in any meaningful or productive sense. it's an algorithm for mass disappointment.
i don't want to work with sean further. i took his vocals out of my songs because i thought they sucked; bad singing and worse poetry. it was jon's idea, it just sort of happened. blame it on jon, not me, but this is actually done with. i have no further recordings with sean and no work left to do that involved him in any way. sean has no further role to play in my art or my discography.
that doesn't matter. they want the vlog; they think they're making some kind of film. they're complete retards.
as mentioned, i can't block sean from using the name "jessica murray", if he's pathetic and lame enough to keep at it, rather than come up with his own name and identity. i can't copyright the name. i can tell you that the sites linked to this page are mine and the sites not linked to this page are not mine.
it would be better for everybody if they just bought an oxygen and a macbook and played around on it and tried to sell what they came up with. my obscure gear is designed to write and produce jazz. i'm a jazz musician. it's not something they can use to make pretentious electronic music. they could be doing something substantive instead of harassing me. what does their fixation on controlling me say about their artistic abilities and inclinations?
i don't use gaming platforms, and anything livestreamed that way is not and never will be me. go watch their videos and try to convince them to go live their own lives and leave me alone.
i have to acknowledge that i have picked up some pretty cinematic moments on my vlog camera, but it's not any sort of mockumentary. it's legitimately real life, raw and unfiltered. there's no script. it's just real.
Wednesday, October 16, 2024
after failing to confirm their motion on the 6th, the landlords have legitimately forgotten to reserve me and appear to have filed a document with the wrong date on it. that motion won't be heard.
this application costs around $400, plus labour for the lawyer, and it puts it off to at least the 1st of november, as motions are only heard on fridays. they won't get the money back. they'll have to pay it again.
the most likely outcome is it for it be rescheduled to next year, anyways, and the longer this takes, the less sense it makes. i overheard some rescheduling motions on friday, and i'm likely to get to trial before they can file to cancel me. yet, those slots in april are also filling up and, the longer this takes, the higher the chance that april fills up, too.
so i may be safe here for quite a while. it's looking like november, 2025, but i don't want to still be here by then.
the situation is toxic and unsafe (for me) and i need to get out. if you can make some purchase as an act of charity or altruism to help get me out of here, please do.
maybe they should have thought about the consequences of their actions before they acted. israel is acting out of self-defense, and that is a legal act.
iran is not the west's primary enemy, it's a relatively small country with a long history of being destroyed by outsiders because it has historically been poorly governed by authoritarian regimes and has been on the brink of collapse, once again, for decades. it won't take much for israel to topple the jenga tower over.
the united nations should be helping israel to remove the terrorist regime in iran and return iran to the international community and iran is delusional to expect otherwise.
the russians saw the americans lining up in poland, clearly intending to move in. so, they struck first.
i picked that graphic for a reason. look at it carefully.
the russian operative was to move the war west, so that it was fought in ukraine instead of in russia. this is ukraine's longstanding purpose to moscow, after all, as a buffer state, even if it would rather that buffer state be poland than ukraine.
america's purpose in digging in has been to bleed russian resources, take out some ships, etc. the hope is that it can reduce russia's strategic capabilities. this has clearly backfired, as america is having difficulty producing missiles and munitions, and the cost of the war has become a major political issue that is negatively impacting the popularity of the current administration.
russia has since annexed four provinces in southeast ukraine that were absorbed into russia in the distant past and were appended to ukraine by khruschev during the soviet period. this was supposed to russify ukraine, which was a fine enough idea when the soviet union existed, but has resulted in a region that russia considers a part of russia outside of russia, after the collapse of the union. these areas are also russian-speaking.
by annexing the regions to russia, putin can claim he is expelling ukrainian invaders from russian territory, which is an awkward claim but has some convoluted logic to it.
while it seems on it's face that the russians are halted due to incompetence, given these competing objectives, it is possible that they were trying to create a trench and dig in, a la world war one, or at the very least were slowing down the process on purpose. this is after all what the russians want - to fight the war in ukraine, if the americans insist on fighting it. winning would actually be counter-productive, then, as the americans would just start another war somewhere else. so long as this trench across ukraine exists a distance from russia, the russians basically get what they want.
however.
the russians have recently been moving west:
i picked that graphic for a reason. look at it carefully.
there is a jagged grey line in the middle of the picture. that line is the official border of the russian federation.
what happens when russia gets to that line? does it stop?
will it get there before the reinauguration of donald trump in january? if it does, this slow trudge west could produce the conditions for a truce.
is that what the russians wanted all along?
is that why this is taking so long?
i'm going to rephrase what i said previously.
the iranian threat to israel gives the pentagon an excuse to get out of ukraine before it becomes a massive drag on american resources, like vietnam was.
if they don't get out soon, that's the inevitable outcome, and we'll be talking about them getting out eventually, after having squandered trillions and after having gained nothing.
Tuesday, October 15, 2024
what about the jews? i blame the christians, i blame the muslims. why don't i blame the jews?
well, first of all, nobody blames the jews. when the jews are to be blamed, we blame ze jews.
i'm talking about colonialism, very explicitly, and in the context of this discussion, the jews really don't count. gentillism notwithstanding, and perhaps i am wrong, but i am not aware of a single example of a jewish state ever trying to conquer, convert or colonize anybody. the jews have needed to defend themselves throughout history, but israel never tried to conquer egypt or syria or arabia. there might have been a jewish kingdom north of the caucasus in the middle ages, but the stories told about it are dubious and it's existence is difficult to even prove at all. this would have been a majority turkish state, if it did exist. the story is that they adopted judaism to counter the christian russians to their north and the muslim arabs to their south, so they didn't have to be absorbed by either, and could play them off against each other. there's perhaps a warning embedded in this that judaism could be a colonizing or imperial force, but the fact is that there is no actual clear example of that happening anywhere on the planet and anywhere in history.
except joshua. i guess. but they were joshing about joshua. that never actually happened.
if you look closely behind the scenes, there's often some sneaky jewish oligarch making plans for aristocrats and generals. i have to give you that. however, that wasn't what the spread of christianity was really about. you can't blame christianity on the jews; it would be more accurate to blame it on the greeks, anyways.
it's hard to get your head into the mindset of the political, social, religious and military leaders around the collapse of a decaying empire, and what they might have imagined the outcome of forcing this religion on everybody might have been, but the writing they have left behind (the bit that was vandalized and rewritten repeatedly rather than just burned and forgotten) tells us they were trying to build a common culture to unify the empire. this is understandable, on some level. american culture, from cherry pies to hamburgers and rock and roll, is a pretty real unifying force across the pond, from the beatles' days in hamburg to the british invasion and beyond. we think we have a common culture, and we do, but it's not about a shared appreciation of shakespeare or voltaire, it's about the gramscian conditioning of american beliefs on the conquered peoples, and we've got this figured out way better than the romans ever did. the romans inherited pan-hellenism, and that worked in the east (it is the real culprit behind christianity), but the west was half carthaginian and half celtic and slowly being conquered by germans and there was no history of a unified culture or even a cohesive civilization in these regions, who had been dealing with greek and lebanese traders and settlers on their land for centuries and clearly didn't like it. something that happened repeatedly during the same period that christianity developed in egypt, syria and greece was that the gaulic west (britain, france, spain) tried to split away from rome and form an independent celtic empire. this independent celtic empire was roman and latin, to be clear, but it held to it's own customs, it held to it's own religion and it may have held to dialects of gallic, while not wanting to be completely cut off from the roman world (and it never had been. the primary source of tin in the west had been britain for hundreds of years previously. the city of marseilles was founded by greeks; barcelona was founded by lebanese. we don't know how far out to sea the egyptians or carthaginians made it. these regions were integrated into the trade networks, going back centuries.). so, the empire was falling apart and the social engineers wanted to find a way to extend panhellenism to the west of the empire to keep it together. you can't blame them for wanting to do that, but you can blame them for showing up with swords and ordering people around; that, however, was a pretty roman thing to do and not much of a jewish thing or much of a greek thing to do at all. the romans liked showing up with swords and ordering people around. the spread of christianity was just one of the many ways they did that, in the end.
so, i don't blame ze jews for christianity and i don't think christianity is even really that jewish. christianity is fundamentally platonic. islam breaks with christianity in being more about aristotle than plato, which is one of the reasons islam is so much worse than christianity.
the weird thing about ze jews is that they were basically indo-europeans anyways. judaism takes it's basic themes from zoroastrianism and is essentially a sky god religion, in the indo-european tradition. there is nothing much like yahweh in traditional semitic religion; yahweh is really more like thor or zeus. we know that existing judaism was reformed in the hellenic period to align with platonism itself, and we know it was heavily influenced by zoroastrianism on it's way out of captivity. the extent to which it may have mingled with greek invaders in the bronze age collapse is itself unclear. the stories that do have clearly semitic connections (like the flood) are general myths from the region and seem distanced from their origin by several layers. in a lot of ways, judaism is closer to greek or roman paganism than christianity is, and should seem less problematic to a pagan than christianity would.
but this is all very abstract.
the basic historical fact is that jews just don't conquer or colonize. they just don't. that's an islamo-christian thing.
there is a conflict of narratives in defining european identity. i get it.
this is the correct narrative:
one of the things i cannot tolerate about the contemporary fake left, and do not have common ground with them on, is their negation of a secular humanist narrative. i move beyond criticism of them on this point.
the canadian government's issue with india has a number of layers. i don't think any of them are substantive and i don't think any of them should be supported by anybody, but trudeau's party machinery thinks attacking india is going to be populist for the following reasons:
1) trudeau has failed in securing a free trade agreement with india, and is lashing out like a four year-old child that didn't get what he wanted.
2) trudeau has been criticized for a trip to india he made where he and his family put on indian clothing, like a dress rehearsal for a play or something.
3) partly due to the absence of the free trade agreement, and in a reckless act of obliviousness regarding our relationship with the americans, the liberal party is trying to curry favour with the chinese by aligning against india, and by generally trying to create problems with india.
4) sikhs are a powerful lobbying group in canada with an incredibly disproportionate amount of power. that is actually true.
5) the liberals also seem to be specifically targeting indian students and scapegoating them for the housing crisis. there is some truth to this, but it's trudeau's fault not theirs and the messaging from the liberals on the issue has some dark undertones that have to do with their polytheism, which is seen poorly by powerful sikh and muslim elements in the party.
6) there has been a growing anti-india undercurrent in upper class fake left circles for the last several years that has to do with conflicts between the invading and colonizing muslim minority in india and the indigenous hindu majority, which seeks to protect it's culture and history from encroachment by muslim and arab (and iranian) colonialism.
it's the last point that i'm interested in because i think that the west (north america and europe) should be prioritizing india as a major ally because we have an indigenous cultural overlap with india that we don't have with the middle east, africa or china in the sense that indian religion is exceedingly similar to (and in many ways exactly the same as) the indigenous european religions of the celts, germans, slavs, romans, hittites, persians and greeks. we all speak dialects of the same language and we all had similar cultural and religious beliefs; further, we are all struggling against the effects of islamo-christological imperialism and colonialization by christians and muslims of middle eastern origin. buddhism is also a force in india, and we know today it was introduced by greeks after alexander and is not ancient, as was previously thought. indian historians understand the important role that hellenism played in india in the classical period. as a westerner, it is at the core of my culture and identity to stand in solidarity with indian nationalism against the effects of islamic colonialism, and to stand in support of deislamification in india, in parallel to the ongoing but largely completed process of dechristianization in europe and america. a close cultural relationship with indigenous indian religion can help us better understand who we are, as westerners and as europeans and as decendents of european settlers.
a big part of the reason that india is being targeted is due to the ongoing attempts by muslims to colonize it. muslims tend to have a special level of disdain for hindus. this is coming out in the diaspora politics and identity politics in the liberal party.
this tilt towards islam and in conflict with indian polytheism has powerful lobbying voices but it is not the direction that we should go in in the west as it would be undoing the dechristianization process that culminated in the french revolution, which was our final break with the past. conservatives in europe tend to get confused about this or outright deny that europe was forcibly colonized in a violent series of wars and genocides that even included crusades in france and poland, the latter during what we would generally call the age of reason (that is, extremely late), and that even included an inquisition to burn the indigenous women, who held to their indigenous customs the longest. we have already fought this war, and it was a long war, a thousand year war, and we won it. christianity has been defeated in the west. let us align not with a new christian menace in the form of islam, but with our indigenous roots in indo-european polytheism.
for that reason, i am going to come down extremely harshly on the liberals if they push this stupid fight with india for stupid reasons that are not in the interest of canada and not in the interest of western civilization.
a re-embrace of polytheism also makes sense in redesigning our culture to embrace holistic meaning in the process of decarbonization. the garden of eden, and genesis in general, is a stupid and retarding myth that has screwed up how we approach resource management and needs to be thrown in the trash. indigenous and polytheistic cultures are less likely to see humans as unique or created to control or steward and more likely to see themselves as a part of a complex ecological web that needs to co-exist in nature rather than dominate over it. we need this change of mindset, and overthrowing the patriarchal hierarchical social model in the monotheistic religions is central to getting to that point.
i'm not exactly proposing that you believe in athena or shivu or vishnu or thor as actual real things, and it's not clear how seriously that was ever actually taken. what i am proposing is that this is exactly the shift in culture we need in order to survive and an indo-european compact and alliance based on shared indigenous beliefs and value systems is likely the best vehicle to actually do it.
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