i am willing to acknowledge that i may have a condition of some sort, but i am not willing to experiment around chemical approaches to treating it. what i want to see is a test that defines a specific problem, and a specific solution to treating it.

so, i don't want to be told i'm "bipolar" or "schizophrenic", and should take these drugs with an unclear mechanism for it - these are meaningless diagnoses and shots in the dark at fixing an undetermined problem.

i want to be told i can't synthesize a specific protein, due to a specific genetic mutation. and, i want to take a targeted treatment option for it.

until then, i will refuse medication, outright - because i'm not being presented with a useful diagnosis, or being told that the medication will fix an actual problem.

what is actually happening is that i'm just being drugged for financial gain, at a devastating cost to my personal well being.