yeah, this is...

now i'm coming down off the nicotine, and i know i can do this, but this isn't good. it's distracting. ugh. i want to be more productive than this.

so, it's feeling more and more like i'm going to have to wait this out. i think that what i wanted to get out of my system is now out, and i could very well opt for a straight-edge approach to the rest of the summer, if i can just find a way to blunt the a/c in here. or, maybe i'll just start going for walks outside to warm up when i get cold.

i want to adjust to a concept of normalcy, but i don't want to waste the rest of the summer, so it may have to wait until christmas.

and, maybe the price will come down a little in the interim.