so, it was a little after 3:00 when i noticed the smell of marijuana seeping in from upstairs, again. nowadays, this only seems to happen after i get home from the bar, indicating that there is some kind of feeling upstairs by the property owner that i'm some kind of hypocrite, or that my actions outside of the house provide some kind of license for his actions inside of it.

the smell was coming from all corners of the house, indicating that there was some intent to disperse the smell.

i ran upstairs to see if there was anybody outside, and there wasn't. nor was the smell anywhere outside. i will point out that i have seen at least one actual skunk in the neighbourhood, and it may have been an actual skunk that one time, but this smell was less controversial - this was a lighter smell, probably actually some kind of hash. the only possible conclusion is that he was smoking inside with the lights off and the windows closed so as to not get busted.

this is all very childish, on his behalf, and that's essentially my conclusion from dealing with this for the last year - this guy thinks like a teenager, and should hand in his adult card. and, the basic point is that i know better than to argue with dishonest people. after being sure it was him, i confronted him on it, and he's denied it...

so, i took a long shower to deal with the smell, did dishes (that always smells good....), made a pot of coffee in the other room and am going to make a pot of coffee in this room, now. actually, let me get up and do that...

it's brewing beside me. i've got the fan running, but short of putting down actual air fresheners, which i'm out of, there's not a lot i can do in this room.

let's hope it's under control, at least.

but, let's also review a few points:

1) i neither smoke marijuana nor do i smoke nicotine at home. while i was a habitual tobacco smoker for some years, i have not been since the start of 2016, which is almost four years ago. since then, i have only smoked when i'm drinking. four years is a long time, and i am confident that i will not return to habitual smoking. so, no - seeing me smoke at the bar or on the street does not imply that i've started smoking again. you should be confident at this point that that will never happen.

2) i have never been a habitual marijuana smoker, ever - i have only ever smoked marijuana in social settings, and in infrequent binges, from time to time. the legalization of marijuana in canada has not had any effect on my habits, and will not have any effect on my habits in the long run, either; while it will be nice to buy the odd pre-roll to take to the bars with me, i have no intention of smoking it at home. i simply do not want to smoke marijuana habitually - i prefer stimulants as my day-today habit, and consequently actually drink very large amounts of coffee. note that nicotine is also a stimulant, and consequently a very different type of habit.

3) as i do not want to smoke habitually, and consider that a key lifestyle decision at this point, i made a big deal out of signing a non-smoking lease when i moved in here at the end of 2018.

4) my habits outside of the unit have no legal implications towards the validity of the existing agreement, which i have upheld to the letter.

5) the agreement does not end or become void after a year. that agreement remains in force into perpetuity, unless somebody makes an effort to change it. this would not be difficult, but it would require the consent of both parties. as i would never consent to removing the non-smoking language, he's going to have to pay to get out.

6) he can, of course, pay to get out. it's his house. the agreement is real, but it isn't bondage - if he decides he made a mistake, he just has to pay a fine.

7) there's no hypocrisy on my behalf, and the law is clear enough. i told him i was a social smoker, but i didn't want it in the house, and that's exactly what we've got in front of us, on my end. i have every right to want this, and he has a clear obligation to provide for it, or be fucking honest about it and pay me out.

but, there's a pattern - it's when i come home.

and, i just need to be as clear as i can - no, my habits outside of the house don't mean i've changed my mind. and, if there's some delusion that i'm ever going to, people need to pull their heads out of their asses: that's not going to happen. ever.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.