no. see...
if you just died in somebody's arms tonight, you can't be singing a song. you're dead. fucking hair metal. utterly incoherent nonsense....
it took me a few days to realize it and get used to the "new" furniture (new for me, anyways), but i've actually had recurring nightmares about the place i just moved into. how's that for creepy? strangely enough, the layout of the place leaves little room for doubt that there's some kind of connection. it's an old building, and marketed today as a two bedroom apartment, but the fact that the second bedroom has a separate entrance almost parallel to the front entrance (i'm using it as a laundry out) and no closet sort of highly suggests it was once a slave (or at least a paid servant) residence. point being: it's not an apartment layout you'd ever see in ottawa, which doesn't really have a history of slavery or indentured servitude or anything of the type (it is a city that was built too recently), excluding the obvious colonial thievery...
recurring dreams are supposed to be based on things you've seen or experienced. i suppose i could have seen an apartment layout like this in a movie. i can't remember which one it might have been, though, and, considering i don't really engage in the medium, that itself seems a little far-fetched.
so, based on those recurring nightmares, it seems like i'm probably going to get hunted down in this apartment at some point. fine. i just hope i have time to get some work done first....
i have a lot of recurring dreams, i think most of us do, but it's usually stuff from the past that i can identify as trying to work something out that was never worked out properly. i think that's pretty normal stuff. yes: i'm absolutely skeptical about whether any of us can analyze dreams properly (i'll freely write off the *content* of the analysis of dreams as pseudo-science), but i think the *idea* is roughly correct. i do agree that there's some kind of processing that happens in dreams, and i'll absolutely sit down and give trying to understand the dream a shot, even if i remain skeptical about the actual analysis.
this is one of a handful that i've never been able to put into any kind of context, though. again, it might seem a little uncharacteristic for me to talk about dreams producing prophecies. not science, j. right. well...
i don't really accept the concept of free will. i see the universe sort of like one of those domino games, where a series of explosions set a bunch of things off and we're just mindlessly following through with them. so, i think the future of the universe is already determined. that doesn't necessarily require a creator; it's an analogy, there aren't literally dominoes. i'd consider a couple of slabs of energy smashing into each other and creating a reaction to be sufficient to set off a set of chain reactions. further levels of abstraction may still defy my mind, but i don't think we need to bring in any heavy machinery to explain our singular universe and what happens in it, anyways....
that may seem like a classical view, but it isn't entirely. the statistical approach has to do with predicting what is going to happen, rather than what actually does happen. just because we can't predict how an atom is going to bounce around doesn't mean there's any actual randomness in it. i think a lot of people get confused by this point. there is an obscure interpretation that takes this position, but it's generally discarded because it's not local.
so, if i think we live in a pre-determined and fatalistic universe, why couldn't dreams tap into the pre-determined future somehow? i don't claim to understand the how, but this is a pretty heavy coincidence...
as it is, i'm living out this experiment. if i'm killed in this basement by a knife attack by somebody that breaks in the back door and catches me as i'm turning the corner out of the studio...
see, here's the thing: move out, right? no. just setting off the inevitable.