Sunday, January 31, 2021

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the government is not trying to stop the spread of the virus with these measures, it's trying to punish people for trying to escape the lockdown, and not engaging in some kind of self-flagellation, or collective suffering.

it's very religious in undertone.

and, that's deeply concerning - and sort of frightening.

i don't want to live in a society like this.
i didn't have to cancel plans to the caribbean (or reduce my caviar intake due to low supply), but the choice of specific destination seems chosen more out of calvinist frugality than scientific data.

it's a typically right-wing response from this government.

i have my hands full, and this is outside of my class interests. but, somebody (the ccla?) needs to file a s. 6 challenge.
yeah, that at least works.

i wanted to get these posts for august up before i ate, but i'm going to need to stop early, and hope things work again when i'm done.
it's very frustrating that google wants to only allow me to post x number of posts, or wants to stop posts from broadcasting when they get to a certain amount. it makes it very difficult to rebuild blogs in a way that archives them via email. can i post via email, at least?
the question i'm asking is this: who is more right-wing, rachel maddow or tucker carlson?

despite your cultural allegiances, the answer really isn't entirely obvious - because they're both on the far, far right.

Saturday, January 30, 2021

if video killed the radio star, the video star is on it's deathbed, now, as well.

and, we can see the construction of an entirely different set of talking heads, as well - even old people like chomsky & wolff, and goodman, who aren't allowed on tv, are legitimate internet stars. it's a different animal, and it's of minimal help to draw comparisons.
my grandmother has never abandoned her radio as her source of information. she can't remember much for more than a few seconds nowadays, but she still listens to her cbc on her ancient, and probably carcinogenic, old radio, which is roughly the same size as her stove and would require multiple large men to move from place to place.

and, despite not having particularly different politics from each other (she's a very liberal old woman, in the true sense of the term), we often had difficulty following each other because we had such disparate framing.

the medium is, in some ways, the message. and, while, i'm not a digital native, i had to go to the computer lab at school to type book reports until i was roughly 15, i've fully embraced the internet as a complete and total source of information, for better or worse.

tv is about as relevant to me as radio is to most of us, and that's becoming a norm that the world needs to adjust to.
but, am i out of touch with reality?

or is television punditry outdated and irrelevant?
when i imagine tucker carlson in my mind, which i don't do that often, but, when i do, he's wearing that stupid bowtie, or on crossfire or something like that.


and, i still can't see stephen colbert out of character.

that's where my brain is, and criticize me for it if you'd like, but don't strawman me about it.
i have never paid for cable tv in my adult life, and i've spent most of it without a television set in my living space at all. i used to watch some tv when i was a kid, but that ceased almost totally in the late 90s - and that is easy to deduce by my cultural references, which are to things like seinfeld and the simpsons, which i understand, and not to things like curb your enthusiasm and the office, or even south park, which i've never seen a single episode of, except at bars or half awake at friends houses.

i simply don't watch television and haven't for half of my life, at this point - and for essentially this entire century.

so, when you talk to me about tucker carlson, i think of this young jerk on cnn who often appeared on gretchen carlson greta van susteran and, yes - seemed to be hiding something. i've never seen his show in more than five minute internet clips for research purposes. i've deduced that he's quite bright (unlike many of his contemporaries), but borderline evil.

nor have i ever watched rachel maddow for more than a few minutes at a time, for research purposes. msnbc is actually kind of heavy on restricted access due to property rights, in canada. i've deduced that she's obviously a cia agent - and i'm not just saying that. rachel maddow is obviously a deep state intelligence operative.

you can see what i actually watch relatively easily because i post it here or comment on it. and, i only bother when i'm eating.

but, i get the general direction that these things are moving in and need to ask a legitimate question, one that maybe only somebody that's as distant from the discourse as i am could possibly formulate:

is the contemporary mainstream liberal press legitimately so unappealing to actual political leftists, that demagogues in right-wing media legitimately are more representative of a genuine left than they are? as an honest libertarian socialist, or left marxist, or whatever you want to call it, must i admit that i really am closer to tucker carlson on the spectrum than i am to rachel maddow? and what does that imply for the legitimate left moving forwards?

but, i am out of your spectrum, and that's all i've ever said for years, now. 

where do i get this stuff from, then?

i'm an independent thinker, believe it or not. i post my sources when it's reasonable to do so, but much of the analysis here comes from nowhere but my own mind. i'm an analytical thinker, but i'm also an artist, a creative type, and that shouldn't be surprising.

and, if i'm confounding you that's fine - it means i'm doing this right.

please approach my arguments for what they are, rather than attempt to categorize me into a misleading corner. that won't pan out in the end, it'll just make you look stupid. trust me.
what is the elite concerning itself with, here?

and, don't confuse yourself - it is and has always been the elite making these arguments.

do you think they care how the democrats advance their agenda?

we hear so much in the media about how to stop the next donald trump.

they're more invested in trying to stop the next bernie sanders - and don't delude yourselves into thinking otherwise.
and, you know that's really what they're imagining banning, right?
the filibuster is a tool, and like every other tool, it can be used for good and bad.

ask wendy davis.

or bernie sanders.
i mean, why not just ban the republicans instead of the filibuster?

well?
we need clear thinking from the most powerful people in the world, not blurry-eyed nonsense.
and, does the filibuster have anything to do with the civil rights movement or opposition to it?

nope.

that's like arguing that you should ban hammers because some idiot can't find his toolbox and uses them to solve every problem.

and, it's even a classic logical fallacy - the kind they teach you about in first year.
thankfully, "progressives" in the senate do not have the votes to end the filibuster.

although, if it was up to me, i'd filibuster the vote against the filibuster.
remember that woman in texas that stopped abortion legislation with a filibuster? i never see the republicans use it, it's a tool used almost exclusively by the left. what do "progressives" have to say about losing a tool that has worked, in situations where nothing else has?

bernie had some weird positions last cycle, but he was right to be cautious about doing away with that, and i'm curious as to how that comes down.

i don't see abolishing the filibuster as a particularly left-wing position....


"biden moves on the nuclear treaty, but it's just a start"

laugh track
it's just a tease, but i need to stop to eat.

be yourself, or fuck off.
i can sort of grasp that my absolute aversion to being around somebody that clearly tried very hard to be and legitimately wanted to be my friend may come off as galling or unbecoming. i don't fucking care, but i kind of get it.

the thing is that i don't like to be around people that are similar to me - i'm the me in the room, and i don't want to compete with anybody for the space. i prefer spending time with people that are individuals, people that represent their own viewpoints and have their own minds. agreement is boring; i want to debate.

so, if you're just going to insist on being me, i'd rather spend the time by myself.

to the extent that i'd want to spend time with anybody at all, i'm more likely to be attracted to opposites - people that counterbalance my weaknesses, and not people that accentuate my strengths. the latter is just inefficient and pointless.

not only do i not need the affirmation, i don't want it at all.
i've been sorting through the last six months worth of posts tonight, and deciding that i'm going to put this all together into a smashwords download when i'm done. this is going to be a novella-sized book...nutrition science with flair.

you can put it on your coffee table.

first, i'm going to clean up a final fruit bowl post that puts everything together, and it may not post for a while still, but i want it to at least be on the way.

so, i don't have my amino acid posts done - i need threonine, tryptophan & phenylalanine/tyrosine still - but i'm working on something.
my coffee numbers are all wrong for some reason. i think i adjusted some of them to 350 and some of them to 700. i didn't show my work, and i should have - i showed it for everything else - so i can't figure out what i did, sometimes.

so, i need to go back to boron and figure that out, but i'm going to post my sources and calculations here so i can figure it out next time.

boron:
h t  t  ps : / / o  d s. o d . ni h . g o v / f a c t s h e et s /B o r  on  -H e a l t h P r o f  es s i  on  al / #h 7

then, .07*3/3 = 7%. i don't know why it says 3.5%, but i'm fixing it in the next update. i may have halved it accidentally because i was shifting from 700 ml to 350 ml in the chart, but, if that's what i did, it was a mistake.

nitrates:

i took the data for the water and multiplied it by .35 instead of ,85:

3.5*.35 = 1.225 mg

that's correct.

fluoride:

this is data from the water in windsor, which i got from the city.

.125*.35/4 = 1.09%. fine.

sodium

i initially used the same data source as the water:

(((3.86 + 8.58)/2)*.35)/1500 = .145%. 

but, then i changed it to the usda data, and entered the following:

3.56*4/1500 = .949%. that would be correct for 700 ml, but. not for 350 ml, which is nly:

3.56*2/1500 = .474666666%

so, that has been corrected.

potassium:

the number i have is 7.4, which seems to be calculated from the usda data, but incorrectly:

87.2*4/4700 = 7.4%, and that would be fine for 700 ml.

but, for 350 ml, i actually want:

87.2*2/4700 = 3.71%.

so, i'll need to update that as well.

the k:na ratio numbers at the bottom level had to change, then, too.

magnesium

i did the same thing with magnesium, which needs to be halved from 5.08 to 0.02542857142, which i'm going to enter as 2.54%.

silicon


Friday, January 29, 2021

valine

valine is a "branched-chain amino acid" like leucine and isoleucine, and again seems to end up with coA as the end point. i don't see any derivatives or transformations worth measuring separately, and i seem to be getting quite a lot.

water - 0
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raspberry - ?. raspberries have very low amounts of amino acids, low enough that nobody bothered measuring it, or that it couldn't be measured. i have not been able to find data, but it's minimal across the board.
guava -  87*.3 = 26.1 mg
banana  -   55
strawberry  -  19
avocado  -  161
kiwi  -  39
soy - 67*4  = 268
ice cream - 217*.825 = 179.025
yogurt - 474*.5 = 237
yeast - 612*5/20  = 153
vector cereal -  
all bran cereal -  726*.45 = 326.7
wheat bran -  726*.07 = 50.82
sunflower seeds - 1315*.08 = 105.2
flax -  1072*.12 = 128.64
algal oil -  1020*.1922*.0517 = 10.1354748
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100*(26.1 + 55 + 19 + 161 + 39 + 268 + 179.025 + 237 + 153 + 326.7 + 50.82 + 105.2 + 128.64 + 10.135)/1820 = 96.6274725275
if you didn't see this coming, you're blind.
well, how else do you expect them to pay the bankers?

raise taxes? 

naaah. that's not austerity! what you need to do is sell the cn tower to a group of foreign investors. that's the right way to pay the imf.
so, it seems like trudeau is selling air canada to saudi arabia.

might as well; they already own the wheat board.

how do i get out of here?
we're setting up a society where everybody is wasting their lives serving the elderly.

i don't want to live in it.
i'm singularly driven by the art, and need to get back to it, in some way that makes sense, once i figure it out.

but, that's not why i live.

i live for the adventures - and i don't want to live for anything else.
i hate this.

this is what i never wanted to be.
all that's left is frugality, conservatism, family, labour, religion - meaningless trivialities that are a nice escape to waste time with, but aren't worth bothering with, broadly.
i'm an introvert. i need a lot of time by myself, it's clear....

but, those concerts were really my life. if you take away those fleeting moments of actual meaningful existence, there's not much left to bother breathing for - or not much i'd care about, anyways.
i don't care about the flow of money in the economy.

but, what this shut down has done is completely eradicate any purpose to existence. why bother, when there's nothing worth doing?
i'm getting antzy again, do i even want to finish this?

yes.

now that i'm over the weird hump with methionine & cysteine, let's see if i can get the essential amino acids finished tonight, before i get through some end of the month stuff after that. and, i'm going to have to pick up back where i was, or something - i don't even know. 

i'm completely lost, right now.

i think i had resigned myself to suicide and sort of given up. i was in such a rut. with the complete collapse of any concept of social existence, i completely stopped caring about life sometime in the summer, and sort of found myself lost in setting up a diet, as a kind of way to cope.

if my fruit meal is so great, why not eat it twice a day? well, that's not a bad question, i guess.

i'm horribly depressed about everything and need to get out to a show to exist....this is a life, right now, with everything shut down, that isn't worth living....
there's a line of thinking that the chinese economy is best described as "neo-confucianist", which is actually a kind of casino capitalism with large overlaps with calvinism. the chinese are not the same as us the way that the russians or iranians are, it's an inherently different culture, but the jarring thing about them is how similar they are to us.

and, what he's saying about wages is true, but that's fordism.


also, to tie into previous posts, let's remember that nationalizing the railroads was one of the prime goals and accomplishments of 19th century populism. historians of populism will present it as a farmers revolt against the banks, and i tried to explain that they get the class analysis completely wrong when they do that. wolff's deconstruction of that point is quite useful, here, and backs up my points on the topic.

the other thing i want to point out is that the united states once had 10% growth rates, too, and that it's a function of the development level and technology level more than anything else. really, everything that has happened in china over the last fifty years happened in the united states a hundred years earlier, and if you could find an even less developed economy that needed to be built up even more, you'd see growth rates there hit those levels, too. it's consequently worthwhile to recognize that china's embrace of capitalism has no future but the same thing we saw happen in america; that is capitalism, it undoes itself in the end. as such, it is predictable that rising wages in china will inevitably lead to outsourcing in countries like vietnam, which is contributing to lower growth rates. and, in the end, you'll end up with chinese workers complaining that africans and malaysians stole all their jobs, as shanghai falls apart in post-industrial decay.

you sleep with the devil, right?

so, what wolff has forgotten is that america built it's wealth through state control, as well - not through free markets. chomsky & hudson are better sources on this topic; they'll both explain the point that china got rich by following the example that america followed, not by reversing it. but, they're crystal clear that america was, at the time, a state capitalist economy, as well - something wolff tends to obscure, to try to build them up as a counter-model.
so, is crystal getting married after the show, or what?

now, that said....

i'm not measuring these meat-only molecules - carnosine, carnitine (ok,i am measuring carnitine), taurine, etc - but i'm running up against a choice this weekend, as i get to the last little bit of salami: do i want to do away with this, and go full ovo-lacto?

i've gone ovo-lacto or ovo-lacto-pesco before, and a big part of what i'm doing is trying to figure out if it's actually practical or not. i have no moral opposition to eating eggs (although i wish i could afford to buy them from better sources), and while dairy is kinda iffy, milk is too central to too many things to drop it. it really doesn't seem like i need to eat animal flesh, but these byproducts are not replaceable.

one of the things i've been toying with, though, is whether i want to replace a $10.00 stick of salami with a $10 roasted chicken. the reason i didn't do that previously is that the salami was being consciously utilized as a high-density source of fat in a diet with almost no fat in it. but, i've added things like avocados and, in the process, reduced the amount of salami down to something quite minimal. as that logic recedes, more traditional arguments about the superiority of poultry over processed pork begin to assert themselves. so, while eating chicken as a supplement with eggs opens up some ancient and silly questions in terms of ordering the food preparation (well. which one?), it may be the better option.

you'll note i never added the salami to the chart because i never really intended to hold to it. it's a holdover from the old pasta meal and the days where i mostly alternated between melts and tomato sandwiches and consequently needed a high density source of protein; it's run it's course and should be replaced, or discarded altogether.

i might not stick with it in the longterm, but i'm probably going to do it at least once. and, there's some unassailable logic to it - if i add just a bit of actual unprocessed chicken in the 36 hour cycle, it's no doubt getting me a bit of these extra molecules at minimal to no harm, even if am technically getting enough to synthesize via the high protein onslaught in all three meals. that could be a tipping point, giving me that extra bit of amino acid base to produce those extra anti-oxidants, or those extra neurotransmitters.

so, yes - i think i've proven to myself that meat is not required.

but, i'm still toying with what is optimal and whether that little bit of chicken is worthwhile or not.
methionine + cysteine + taurine + glutathione (sulfur containing amino acids)

Methionine is a nutritionally indispensable amino acid required for the normal growth and development of all mammals (1, 2), whereas cysteine is conditionally indispensable (3, 4). In addition to its required role in protein synthesis, methionine supplies the methyl group for numerous methylation reactions and the sulfur atom for cysteine formation (5–8). Through the intermediate S-adenosylmethionine, methionine is the source of the methyl groups of choline, creatine, and both DNA and RNA intermediates (1, 5, 6, 8). Cysteine is involved in the protein synthesis and biosynthesis of taurine, sulfate, and glutathione (6).

so, the amino acid here that is considered essential is methionine, but it seems like the major purpose of methionine in the diet is actually to act as a source of sulfur (in conversion to cysteine) or as a methyl donor (via s-adenyl-methionine, or sam); taurine and glutathione are actually both derived more directly from cysteine, which is formed by the combination of serine & sulfur (from the methionine). it's really serine that is the precursor here, not methionine. as such, if i'm concerned about synthesizing cysteine, i need to ensure i'm getting enough serine.

serine is apparently primarily converted from glycine, but glycine is then apparently mostly converted from serine, so that doesn't help. rather, it seems like i should aim to get sufficient serine levels directly.

but, then, i should just focus on getting cysteine directly. right? yeah.

so, the main thing i'd want to do with methionine, proper, then, is use it to build s-adenosyl-methionine which is the form that methionine seems to be used as most readily. methionine also plays a role in synthesizing some neurotransmitters (including acting as a precursor to choline, where necessary), but this is a general role for amino acids, and they seem to be converted back and forth fairly easily. i'm actually going to do some more research into neurotransmitters as it's own unit topic, and may add further requirements to ensure i'm generating enough of them. for now, i'm going to assume that the rdis for the amino acids & vitamins, together, are enough to ensure i'm getting enough brain food. if i get extra methionine it could potentially end up as cysteine, but excess homocysteine (the intermediate) should be avoided - which is partly what all the extra betaine is about. b6 & b12 also help in clearing out excess homocysteine. so, i want to get a little extra methionine, but broadly keep it down a little.

so, the two main derivatives of cysteine are glutathione (with glutamic acid & glycine), which is one of the few known antioxidants that actually functions in vivo but cannot be absorbed in tact and must be synthesizedand taurine, which, due to the lack of red meat in my diet, can only be derived from cysteine. i'm phasing taurine out because i just don't get it in my diet, but i'll be working the 100 mg/day requirements into the cysteine requirements as a subcomponent.

rdi:
this is unsettled science, at this point. i've looked at a number of sources and built up the following chart:

eu: 10.4 mg/kg for methionine, 4.1 mg/kg for cysteine 

usda: 19 mg/kg total 

di buono 1: 21 mg/kg total + taurine & glutathione requirements

caveat:
Therefore, the total SAA requirements found in the present study represent the amount of dietary methionine needed to fulfill all the functions of methionine in vivo. However, it cannot be concluded from the present study whether the amount of cysteine required for the synthesis of glutathione, taurine, or sulfate was achieved with methionine intakes at the breakpoint for protein synthesis. This is an important consideration for deciding on appropriate dietary reference intakes for SAAs; additional research is required on this issue.

di buono 2: 10.1 mg/kg for methionine (lower bound) + 10.9 mg/kg cysteine (upper bound)

Results: The mean and population-safe (upper limit of the 95% CI) methionine requirements in the absence of exogenous cysteine were found to be 12.6 and 21 mg·kg−1·d−1, respectively. The mean and population-safe methionine requirements in the presence of excess dietary cysteine were found to be 4.5 and 10.1 mg·kg−1·d−1, respectively, representing a cysteine sparing effect of 64% in a comparison of mean methionine requirements and of 52% in a comparison of population-safe methionine intakes. Furthermore, the difference between population-safe intakes with and without dietary cysteine establishes a safe cysteine intake of 10.9 mg·kg−1·d−1 in the presence of adequate methionine intakes.

milk study 1: 36.3 mg/kg total, with a cys:met ratio of ~ 1.25

milk study 2: cys/met ratio of ~ 1.42

further sources:

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that's a messy pile of data. some comments are necessary.

i posted this earlier:

i think a part of the reason this is confusing - and the survey states as much up front - is that the language they're using is often inexact, to say the least. the ideas are not being presented clearly. so, let me work through this and try to get the ideas clarified, first.

their argument is that cysteine can "substitute" for methionine if it's present in sufficient quantities that you can prevent the conversion of methionine to cysteine. but, this isn't actually a substitution process at all. it's more like a blocking process. they should by talking about transsulfuration-blocking, not cysteine-sparing.

they then erect this idea of "total sulfur requirement", which is the amount of methionine you need without any cysteine, and subtract out the minimum obligatory amount of methionine, which they decide is the amount of methionine you need to do methionine things. the argument is that what's left should be the amount converted to cysteine, but, as i've said before, that doesn't actually make any sense, and i'd advise against citing that deduction. i guess you could use that number as a crude upper bound, but you don't actually know how much non-essential methionine gets converted, so you can't actually say anything besides that. the amount of cysteine you need to block conversion could very well be half of that. worse, if you go back to the first study, it mentions that they don't know that the amount of methionine cited is truly sufficient for what i'm measuring - they explicitly poi\int out that that number may be insufficient to produce enough taurine and glutathione. so, you can only deduce that you need some amount that is less than 10.9 mg/kg of cysteine to block transsulfuration from occurring at levels that may or may not be sufficient to meet cysteine needs.

so, what's the right experiment, then, even if i can't find it?

what you should do if you want the answer i'm looking for is measure the maximum amount of methionine that gets converted to cysteine, and base your cysteine requirements on how much you observe your body transsulfurate. so, what you want to do is give the subject massive levels of methionine & serine with zero cysteine and zero cysteine derivatives and see where the breakpoint occurs. that will determine total dietary cysteine requirements, independent of methionine. i'd want to take that number and build an rdi for cysteine on it. then, i could subtract that out from the total sulfur requirements to get a methionine rdi.

the confusion is likely stemming from methionine being seen as essential and cysteine being seen as inessential. that may be technically true, in terms of the chemistry, but cysteine seems to be the more valuable chemical, so it should really be what the requirements are built around. methionine may be indispensable, but only at much lower levels, and only as an after thought, in the presence of sufficient cysteine.

so, i'm taking a giant step back and asking a different question - has anybody tried to measure how much total cysteine your body requires, independent of methionine? let me figure that out first...

so, the way that this has been approached up to now has generally been to look at the two of them as "sulfur containing amino acids" and try to determine the total amount of sulfur required by the body. as methionine can convert to cysteine, but cysteine cannot convert back to methionine, and specifically cannot convert to sam, methionine is labeled as "essential", while cysteine is not. unfortunately, cysteine requirements are then generally approached with the intent to minimize methionine requirements by "sparing" them, which is really a blocking process - what di buono 2 really does is determine how much cysteine you need to take before your body decides it has enough that it can stop converting methionine to cysteine, but it doesn't tell us how much cysteine we need, altogether, if we aim to minimize our methionine intake to methylation and stop transsulfuration from occurring, altogether. so, this is ultimately a very conservative argument that ignores the implication that we may have evolved these pathways - we transsulfurate in only one direction - for a good reason, and that maybe excess cysteine is a better idea than excess methionine because of it. as mentioned, excess homocysteine is bad news for your arteries; loading up on cysteine seems like a better idea. yet, it means that we need to ensure we get enough methionine in it's own right, too, because it remains essential, in the form of sam.

the second question - how much cysteine we need, altogether, if we aim to minimize our methionine intake to methylation and stop transsulfuration from occurring, altogether - is the one i'm seeking an answer to, and it doesn't seem to be a question that has been asked. rather, the question that has been asked is the third one, "what is the minimum methionine requirements in the presence of sufficient cysteine, whatever the latter is",  and we have two answers:

- 10.1 mg/kg (di buono 2 ) & 10.4 mg/kg (eu)

these are relatively close, but let's take the bigger number. then,

methionine: 10.4*70 = 728 mg

to go back to the second question, then, the bounds are 4.1 mg/kg (eu) and 10.9 mg/kg (di buono 2 ). 10.9 is explicitly an upper bound, although they acknowledge that the upper bound may not be sufficient. i've previously calculated that 100 mg/day is a reasonable target for taurine production, so that should be added to the derived upper limit, whatever it's determined to be. so, these numbers are in truth only marginally useful. if nobody wants to ask the question i'm asking, what else can we do?

one thing we could do is look at human breast milk for clues. 

i've found two studies, both of which determine that there is more cysteine than methionine in breast milk, which suggests that humans have indeed evolved these pathways in some sort of complicated manner; it doesn't seem to be an accident that we only transsulfurate in one direction, given that our mothers give us an excess of cysteine, and just enough methionine to act as a methyl donor. the two studies provide ratios of 1.25 and 1.42. while an upper bound of 1.5 is nice and round, i am already exaggerating by using 70 mg/kg, so let's take an average instead. then, (1.25 + 1.42)/2 = 1.335 and, adding in the 100 mg/day for taurine (https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2020/10/taurine-is-something-that-im-sort-of.html):

cysteine: 10.4*1.335*70 + 100 = 1071.88

in total, that would be: (1071.88 + 728)/70 =  25.71 mg/kg

this number is higher than any of the numbers presented, except the numbers in breast milk. however, note that (1071.88 + 728)/50 = 35.9976, so a more realistic body weight estimate takes me much closer to the sulfur levels in breast milk, which are no doubt way more than enough. at 125%, that's 1.25*(1071.88 + 728)/50 = 44.997 mg/kg, which is approaching the upper limit in the next section; 1.25*(1071.88 + 728)/55 = 40.9063636364, 1.25*(1071.88 + 728)/60 = 37.4975, 1.25*(1071.88 + 728)/65 = 34.6130769231.

after much hair pulling, i believe this is sufficient.

upper limit:
this article sets it at 46 mg/kg:

1.5*46*50/728 ~ 474%
.5*46*50/728 ~ 158%

i'm going to use the same ratio for cysteine.

1.5*46*50/1072 ~ 322%
.5*46*50/1072 ~ 107%

so,

methionine (728 mg):
per meal: >50, <158
total: >150, <474

cysteine (1072, includes taurine + glutathione):
per meal: >50, <107
total: > 150, <322

methionine

water - 0
=============
raspberry - ?. raspberries have very low amounts of amino acids, low enough that nobody bothered measuring it, or that it couldn't be measured. i have not been able to find data, but it's minimal across the board.
guava -  16*.3 = 4.8
banana  -   9
strawberry  -  2
avocado  -  57
kiwi  -  17
soy - 16*4 = 64
ice cream - 81*.825 = 66.825
yogurt - 169*.5 = 84.5
yeast - 184*5/20 = 46
vector cereal -  
all bran cereal -  234*.45 = 105.3
wheat bran -  234*.07 = 16.38
sunflower seeds - 494*.08 = 39.52
flax -  370*.12 = 44.4
algal oil -  1020*.1922*.0135 = 2.646594
===============
100*(4.8 + 9 + 2 + 57 + 17 + 64 + 66.825 + 84.5 + 46 + 105.3 + 16.3 + 39.52 + 44.4 + 2.64659)/728 = 76.8257678571

cysteine

the usda has 0 for cysteine in soy milk, but that seems to be wrong. here is a different source:
h ttp s : / / w w w . r e s e a r c h g  a t e . n e t / fi g u r e / D i e t a ry -  so u r c e s - o f - c y s t e i ne _ tb l 1 _2 2 3 9 5 9 3 0 5

water - 0
=============
raspberry - ?. raspberries have very low amounts of amino acids, low enough that nobody bothered measuring it, or that it couldn't be measured. i have not been able to find data, but it's minimal across the board.
guava -  ?
banana  -   11
strawberry  -  6
avocado  -  41
kiwi  -  21
soy - 113*1.6 = 180.8
ice cream - 29*.825 = 23.925 
yogurt - 52*.5 = 26
yeast - 102*5/20 = 25.5
vector cereal -  
all bran cereal -  371*.45 = 166.95
wheat bran -  371*.07 = 25.97
sunflower seeds - 451*.08 = 36.08
flax -  340*.12 = 40.8
algal oil -  1020*.1922*.0062 = 1.2154728
===============
100*(11 + 6 + 41 + 21 + 180.8 + 23.925 + 26 + 25.5 + 166.95 + 25.97 + 36.08 + 40.8 + 1.21547)/1072 = 56.5522826493

methionine + cysteine

met: (4.8 + 9 + 2 + 57 + 17 + 64 + 66.825 + 84.5 + 46 + 105.3 + 16.3 + 39.52 + 44.4 + 2.64659) = 559.29159
cys: (11 + 6 + 41 + 21 + 180.8 + 23.925 + 26 + 25.5 + 166.95 + 25.97 + 36.08 + 40.8 + 1.21547) = 606.24047
tot: 728 + 1071.88  = 1799.88,

(559.29159 + 606.24047)/1799.98 = 0.64752500583

....but i'm not measuring this. 
i have a lengthy summary for the sulfur amino acids that i'm almost ok with, i just need to finish reading through the articles i've put on my plate before i decided i'm done and give it a post.

Thursday, January 28, 2021

sorry, the previous study had a ratio of 1.25.

the 3:2 ratio came from this study, which is very old:

it's actually 1.42.

does human milk contain taurine or glutathione?

taurine: yes, but i'm going to stick with my previous deductions, of 100 mg/day.
glutathione: you can't absorb it, so it doesn't matter....

so, the milk studies should suggest a ratio of around 1.25-1.5. 1.5 would be a nice, round upper limit - and i'd have to add in the 100 mg/day for taurine on top of it.

that means if minimum methionine requirements are around 10-11, minimum cysteine requirements would be 12.5-16.5 + 100 mg.

this is starting to stabilize.
ok, so i'm going to try to get this done tonight. again.

listen, if you follow the source material, it's clear enough that this is a question without a clear answer. so, i'm currently compiling a list of best guesses, and i'm going to try to find a solution that takes them all into account.

here's another observation: if you check out this link, humans are very different than any other animal (except rats) in the cysteine:methionine ratio of their milk. we actually have more cysteine in our milk than methionine! again - is that a hint? i'm going to take it as one.

if the ratio of cysteine:methionine in human milk is about 3:2, maybe that's something to strive for, roughly, in the absence of better data. it's consistent with what i'm deducing, at least.


these other mammals, including cow and goat, are all leaning heavily towards methionine balance in the ratio. even cats - which are obligate carnivores and have very high taurine requirements - had higher levels of methionine. so, the obvious answer that cows eat grass and mothers eat all sorts of stuff doesn't really fly. it's kind of curious. but, it's a good hint...
i don't want to allow comments here - my email address is on the side, if you want to have a debate. i'll edit it and post it, in the end.

i'm just a target for trolls...

but, there's a follow link up on the side, now.
the manhattan project was a bipartisan, cross-national collaboration to put science at the forefront of the country's future, that policy makers could cite to work up feelings of national purpose in order to shatter opposition with.

the new deal was a highly contentious - if entirely necessary - set of policies that has largely been undone over time and instantly sets 40% of the country against it every time you mention it.

so, of course fake left media pundits point to the new deal instead of the manhattan project. why would you expect otherwise?
so, he came down here and i could smell it on him. but, the more i state the logic and facts of the situation, the angrier he gets about it. he's made his position clear - he's just going to yell and deny. yell and deny. yell and deny.

hopefully, i got under his skin enough to get him to adjust a little. that's all i want. i don't care what he does in some abstract universal sense, i care if i can tell, in it's specific & direct effects on me.
i have never, ever smoked inside, either. this is the worst situation i've been in since i was 15.

when i got a place with sarah, and we were splitting on rent, i even forced her to smoke outside. she was paying $500/month to smoke outside, while cohabiting with a smoker. that was in 2004, and that's how insistent i've been on outside smoking, for my whole life.

every place i've ever lived in was outside smoking, exclusively.

this is why: it makes me viciously sick, and i know it and have for decades.
yes. 

i'm serious.

it's baffling, but it seems like my landlord signed a non-smoking lease with me in absolute bad faith. he tricked me into moving in here, and chain smokes inside with the doors closed. then, he feigns shock and surprise when i accuse him of smoking, and lies to my face about it.

it's baffling.

the only sense i can make of it is that i signed a lease with the police - and that the cops up there, which actually seem to rotate, don't give a fuck. i got tricked into moving into some kind of heavily monitored holding cell, and am basically under perpetual surveillance. the thing is that this adds up with everything else.

it's the only way i can make sense of how or why somebody would behave so absurdly.
it's frustrating that it's come to this, but this might be the closest thing i can get to actionable evidence in a situation where a landlord smokes inside with the doors closed and the blinds drawn, and then lies about it when confronted about it.

i think these are the first pictures of me that i've published anywhere since about 2017. these are my 40 year-old, very skinny, totally unfake and makeupless lips:





do you see the red rash around my lips?

what's happening there is called contact dermatitis, and is essentially an allergic reaction to second-hand smoke. and, i know that because i went through it for much of my early childhood over and over. i used to have to go to school looking like that every day, due to my mother's smoking habits. it's in exactly the same spot (when i was a kid, it was often more widespread) and is exactly the same rash, triggered by exactly the same process.

for whatever reason, it doesn't happen when i smoke outside - it's exclusively a reaction to second-hand smoke.

so, i can complain about migraines, and i can hack and wheeze. and i can get overwhelmed by the stench and puke, but so long as he just lies about it, there's nothing i can really do.

if i break out into a rash, though, i can present that as evidence - and, then, everything else becomes actionable, too.

obviously, i don't like the rash. but, it might be a blessing in disguise in a case where i've been trying to generate evidence for, literally, years, and can't.
the best thing that could be done is a massive manhattan-project style investment drive from the feds, but that doesn't seem likely.

as such, americans are best off supporting local representatives to protect their own backyards than federal ones. and, that's how you get regulations passed in places like kentucky, to protect the local watershed.
the president is not intended to be a domestic policy legislator; he is the commander in chief, not an elected king.

that role is supposed to mostly fall to congress, which is where the real power is.
from what i can see, these are fairly modest proposals, which he likely only has limited jurisdiction over. see, this is the part the discourse forgets - in the united states, this is mostly a state-level issue, which is why california and kentucky are on such divergent paths. i don't think that biden can end coal production in appalachia if he wants to.

that said, from the perspective of capital, there is a big difference between funding new industries and ending old ones. we have three things to look at:

1) government funding for profitable new industry will be welcomed by capital. that's the kind of thing you're likely to see substantive action on, and it's a step, at least. you have to give consumers a real choice before you blame them for rejecting it; right now, this is a supply-side issue, primarily. shifting that is helpful. so, call it what you want - investment, welfare - but it's probably the crux of what you'll actually see this government focus on.
2) shutting down out-of-date, unprofitable or obsolete industries is a normal part of capitalism, and large parts of the carbon economy are moving in to that category. what biden can do here is take credit for this by spinning it. and, the democrats aren't competitive in the regions where it's a concern, anyways, so the political fallout is of minimal concern - just like the liberals don't really care about losing votes in saskatchewan.
3)  shutting down profitable sectors of the economy that are causing large amounts of pollution. this strikes me as highly unlikely; that essentially won't happen..

i also want to call on the canadian government to allow for cross-border traffic to access vaccines in the united states, given the increasing lack of availability of them here - which i suspect is actually blowback from our border policies.

there is a distinct moral problem in telling people they can't leave the country to get vaccinated unless they can afford and access a plane ticket out.
my argument against mask laws was always that the flimsy masks they were mandating were useless - and that was well understood by the medical community, despite the disinformation in the mainstream press about it. the mask mandates were worse than a placebo, they were mass public panic. and, the way they were being pushed down was - and still is - concerning. why did the media collectively refuse to look at actual evidence, and push nonsense instead? surely, the mask industry was not that powerful...

if you're going to mandate n95s, i can't really make that argument anymore, because the science is that they should substantively reduce transmission, if they're used properly - a substantive caveat, sure, but the point remains.

i still want to catch the virus - if i haven't already - though. 

does that mean it's now technically airborne?

he's my excretion.

my shit.

my garbage...

the part of me i threw away, the part of me i didn't want.

and, he seemed to hone in on it, without grasping it.
i don't know for sure, but the outcome is predictable - he's probably exactly what i left behind, precisely what i discarded, entirely what i rejected about myself. uniquely. wholly. fully. and, compactly.
when i met him, he wore basketball jerseys and listened to the worst kinds of hip-hop; he was derogatorily referred to by the other kids as a "spic" or a "wigger" and, while i never took part in stuff like that, he was about the last person i'd have seen myself hanging out with. at the time, you'd have seen me in zero shirts, blaring fixed or garbage in my phones.

he does a science project at my house, and he's walking around in nine inch nails shirts, all of a sudden. and hanging out with my friends, too. like, it was a complete shift in identity...

maybe he just lacked something of his own, maybe i'm explaining the point better than i realize; maybe he was caught between cultures, and i gave him a way out he hadn't had before.

but, i'd rather forget about him.....
in the 11th grade, the teacher assigned him to be my work partner for a science project, and he ended up at my house. we had to build a potential energy driven car powered by elastics.

i built the car. he hung out with my dad.

but, i couldn't get rid him for 15 years after that.

and, he was actually upper middle class - wealthier than i was - so it wasn't that.

i dunno what it was.
i post about some of my other old friends, sometimes.

i never mention this guy, because the thought of him still creeps me out. his name will never appear here.
but, and this is the point i'm coming to...

if you're curious about the question...

what would jessica have been like if she had decided to be jason, instead?

the actual answer is: dead.

but, he's no doubt an approximate caricature.
he's probably everything i hated about myself, and everything i wanted to avoid being - in the most spectacular configuration, imaginable. that's what he always wanted...

which is why i had to get away from him.

and why he kept coming back....
anyways.

i'm glad i'm not that person - i didn't want to be that person. i set up a hard path, granted, but i'd rather fail and drown somewhere off the beaten path than succeed by walking with my head up along the sidewalk.
and, you know what the really odd thing about it is?

this false projection of me that he modeled himself on wasn't, like, some cooler version of me, or something. i could at least sort of get that.

it was the version of me that my parents wanted me to be.

so, imagine trying to juggle that - not only do you need to deal with rejecting your parents' false expectations of you, which is relatively normal, but you need to deal with the bizarre reality that your friends have exactly the same false projections.

i guess i can look back and realize that i obviously wasn't doing a very good job of projecting myself, was i? but, i think the broader truth is that people see what the media programs them to see, and the weird underlying reality is that they were watching the same tv programs.
like, he'd randomly show up at my place out of nowhere and ask for guitar lessons, or want to read the same book i was reading, or listen to the same record i was listening to...

and not for a week.

for years.

the obsession was bizarre, but you see the point of delusion - he's maybe the only person i knew in that period that didn't realize i was queer. and the only person (besides sarah, for somewhat understandable reasons) that reacted negatively to it, in the end. nobody else actually cared.

the only one that didn't see how obvious it was was the one that worshipped a false projection of me, and modeled his entire life on it - the one that seemed to think he knew me the best.

*shrug*
that second guy actually spent most of his life trying to emulate me, to the point that i repeatedly had to get away from him. i dunno; it was always weird to me that this guy put me on this bizarre pedestal, that i never fully understood.

it's weird to have this longterm friendship with this person that almost worships you, and that you largely don't even respect at all. like, i thought he was a complete buffoon from the time i met him until the fifth or sixth time i tried to explain to him that, despite his reverence for this projection that he imagined i was, and that i actually despised, i didn't actually have the slightest bit in common with him, and never did. i could never really fully grasp why he seemed to see me as this person that...i mean, if i was actually the person he imagined i was, i would have killed myself in disgust.

but, the fetish didn't end until i went firmly on hormones - that's what it took to break the false projection into pieces, after 15 years or whatever it was.

but, he just copied me for like half of his life regarding almost everything you could imagine. and it was tiring and frustrating and sort of pathetic - given that i was trying to reinvent myself as somebody else, the whole time.

in the end, if he got something out of it, whatever. but, i'd probably hate him more as a 40 year old fake me than i ever did or ever could back then.
the actual funny thing about my reaction to zizek is that i'm pretty sure my admittedly chomskyian reaction - it's almost identical. - was actually produced before chomsky produced it.

i had some friends from high school come over. one of them got through grade 12 with a d average and was on his fifth or sixth try at trade school (he had wealthy parents, so they kept sending him back to fail, like, marketing and advertising courses. the truth is less that he was flat out dumb and more that he didn't care about much besides final fantasy. he was the singer in rabit is wolf.) and the other had a film degree from a school in thunder bay, and had demonstrated almost no interest in much of anything before i lent him a couple of books (some dante & some machiavelli) when he was recovering from a broken leg suffered in a bus accident in south america. it was the second one that decided he wanted to be a philosopher after reading some dante while on his death bed. well, i mean, i can think of worse things to do with yourself. i haven't talked to him in years, but i think he ended up teaching english as a second language in korea. his spanish was always better than his english...

anyways, these guys - pothead goofs with minimal formal or informal education that were more articulate about tool than they were about lacan. - show up with this zizek video and decide i have to watch it, 'cause i was the smart one, and they needed my approval, or something.

so, i watched it with them, mostly in silence. and, they waited with baited breath...

i was just like "well, what was the point of that? he just rambled for forty minutes about nothing.".

they decided i didn't get it.

that was in 2007, i think.

Wednesday, January 27, 2021

the left does not win when the working class is hegemonic. no...

the left wins when the working class no longer exists at all.
beethoven for all.

or give up - there's no point.
so, i mean, if you want to take this frugal, weberian position about class being a lifestyle choice, whatever. but take it to fucking church - keep it out of the left.
now, if you read the anarchist literature, they ask the question: why should we have communism?

is it so the workers get what they deserve, and everybody else can starve?

is it because it's fun to play government?

no - it's to abolish the coercive relationship between labour and capital, and ultimately to allow the proletariat the freedom to experience civilization.

we want communism so we can all experience and understand art.

that's the fucking point.

otherwise, why bother?
if you don't have to work, you're not working class.

you can choose to work if you want, but working class does not that make you. it's the necessity, the coercion, the lack of actual choice...

how many books you've read does not and cannot alleviate that condition.
the proletariat is not an austere group of self-disciplined, hard-working mechanics with ass-cracks that can barely read, and only the most bourgeois minds would imagine them that way.

the proletariat is the category of person that has to sell their labour to exist, or must starve. in that category, exist people of all kinds of education levels, interest levels, cultural affinities and ability levels. none of that has anything to do with it...

work or starve - that's proletariat. nothing more, nothing less.
it makes me laugh when i see self-identified leftists present ideas like "bourgeois" and "proletariat" as lifestyle choices or personality archetypes, rather than relationships to the managerial class, of which the individual has almost no control over.

it's just about the most bourgeois analysis possible, as it reduces class to a market choice.

ironically.
the move to end private prisons is welcomed and fundamental to ending the profitability of the school-to-prison pipeline. this is a positive step that should be applauded.

unfortunately, what that does, however, is shift the profitability to the state sector, which is something the united states has seen before - and i worry that you'll end up with stricter state laws to compensate. but, it's a positive step.

now, if they could fix the 13th amendment to get rid of the backdoor for slavery...
so, regarding the court stuff, which is building up. i want to make sure i'm not missing anything.

i'm actually not filing anything this week, after all.

- the karen case has two components:
a) the divisional court case, where i'm trying to get the cop charged with harassment and/or fired, is on indefinite hold until the end of the pandemic. there's nothing i can do.
b) the human rights case, where i'm trying to get a pay out from the karen directly, is awaiting an imminent response. i've recently made a second request to rule in the absence of a response. i need to wait, but i've decided to file form 10s every monday morning.

c) i will eventually be filing a constitutional challenge in this case.
d) i am waiting for a foia request from the cops to file criminal charges against the karen, and to prepare for the actual case, including the constitutional case, which i could file soon if i get a resolution in the human rights component. what i really wanted was a ruling against the cop, first, but...

- the discrimination case against the hospital has two components:
a) the human rights case is waiting for a response from myself by the 5th. this is what i wanted to do this week. but, i got a letter yesterday (dated jan 19th) that explained that they can't find the video. so, i have to file with the privacy commissioner about that. they also haven't produced the medical records yet (and aren't picking up the phone). so, i have filed to request an extension until i get the documents from the hospital.
b) the oiprd investigation is on hold until i can get the same documents.

c) so, i need to contact the hospital about the records, and i need to contact the privacy commissioner about the video.
d) i also need to file a foia with the cops on this one and haven't, yet.

- the discrimination case against the grocery store is waiting for the foia request. i was going to file immediately, but i need to wait because i'm only 95% sure i have the right store.

see, there's two stores in the strip mall - a freshco on one side of the street and a food basics on the other. i go to both stores, frequently - or used to. i was chased down the street after leaving the freshco, and so assumed they were the bad guys. but, i wasn't paying close enough attention to the identity of the thugs, and i've been getting weird glances when i enter the food basics ever since, making me wonder if what happened wasn't that a food basics employee saw me walking around with items i bought at the other store and chased me down the street, assuming i stole them - which is even worse. if that's true, i'm boycotting the wrong store. this will get filed, i just need to make sure i have the right store, first. so, i need the foia request to finish.

- my landlord has also accused me of running up his water bill (well, he won't refrain from smoking.) and has become non-responsive, so i may have to file against him if he doesn't react soon. it's idiocy. i guess i'll need to pay rent this weekend, so that's how long he has to react. i'm used to filing downtown, i'll have to see what the new procedure is....

i actually hope he reacts, as i don't want this right now.

so, that's the sum of what's actually been done this week, which is much less than intended:

- the karen case is at the mercy of the adjudicator - but could end at any time. like, today, tomorrow....next month. it would help tremendously to get this over with.
- i have to ask for an extension on the hospital case, because i need to wait for files. and, i need to get that information to everybody, and get my requests to everybody, too. tomorrow morning.
- i need to wait for the foia on the grocery store to make sure i don't file against the wrong store, which would be embarrassing. it would already be embarrassing, if understandable in context, if i gave the letter to the wrong store owner.
- and, i think my landlord is up to no good, and i may have to act pre-emptively against him because of it. he just drove off....
i'll remind you that i've recently purchased ground up cow bones in the form of a calcium supplement, which is being marketed as pure hydroxyapatite.

your teeth are about 97% this substance, and peer-reviewed studies have shown that brushing with it is at least as effective as brushing with fluoride. nasa has done large amounts of research into the molecule as a way to rebuild teeth and bone after extended periods in space.

it's an experiment, but it makes sense - if i can get the right process, with small enough particles, my body should pull this molecule up into my teeth, in tact.

what your body can't do is rebuild enamel from source, because the molecule is too complicated. but, absorbing it in tact is a different question, and seems to be far more likely, if technically unproven.

in the long run, i'm hoping to be able to stimulate stem cells in my mouth to regrow the lost gumline, but that may be a few years down the road.
sorry, just to clarify the thought.

so, if i had a lot of bacteria in those pockets, what i'd need to do is:

1) clean them out.
2) let them heal

in theory, they should usually reattach if you get the bacteria out.

what i'm seeing happen instead is a kind of layer of white material - i presume hydroxyapatite, or fluoroapatite - develop over the stains, which seems to be....it's less that's filling the hole in and more that it's blocking the pocket. i don't know if the material then migrates in and fills up, or if it's just a surface layer. but, the result is that the stain gets hidden.

for the stained teeth that aren't splitting, what i'm seeing is slow wear on the stain. i don't know what the chemical composition of the stain is, but i remember reading that there might be a large amount of sulfur in there. but, i mean, it looks and feels like burnt carbon. i don't want to scratch it off for obvious reasons, but it's slowly, slowly, slowly washing off - which is all i can ask for.

what a dentist would have to do is drill out the stain and fill it in, and i don't want that - i want to find a way to wash it off, which they've all told me is impossible. but, i mean, it can't be impossible - that's not how chemistry works. i may lose some enamel in the end, which is why i'm trying to rebuild it. but, slowly washing it off has to be gentler than drilling it out...

i've regained white enamel under heavy staining on one tooth so far and hope it accelerates over the next few months.

so, i'm going to buy some more hydroxyapatite and extend the experiment another two months.
how are my teeth doing after almost two months of this, now?

it's hard for me to know how much difference the fluoride is making, but i've noticed the stains fall into a pattern of very slow retreat. and, yes - i am convinced it's 100% staining and 0% cavitation, which doesn't get me out of the woods - it suggests my gums are in pretty bad shape. i put off the call to the fancy dentist until i could develop some further stability, and will need to wait a little longer, i think.

while i think the surfactants in the dish soap are eating away it at very slowly sort of thing, the most noticeable changes actually seem to be associated with the hydroxyapatite, but only when i do it right, which is proving a little more challenging than i thought. i need to use a very small amount of saliva and leave it on my teeth for something like 40 minutes. there have been a couple of times where this has noticeably helped, and a lot of times where it hasn't. i don't know if i'm actually rebuilding something there, or what.

there were a couple of teeth that were splitting open up that i've managed to reattach to themselves, at least for now. that was a part of the reason i want to call the fancy dentist to do the "root planing" thing, which cleans out developing pockets in an attempt to allow the teeth to heal themselves. this is partly why it was important for me to know what i was looking at - stains on a bad gumline (and that could be caused by smoking, by coffee, by dehydration, by malnutrition, by genetics or, more likely, by some combination of these things) or teeth falling apart due to cavities. the fact that they're reattaching suggests that giving the teeth proper surface nutrition is at least helping, whether that implies malnutrition or not.

so, it's two months and i'm going to characterize the progress as moderate and keep with it.

i'm going to want to cut the dish soap out at some point, though. 
see, what bugs me about what wolff is saying - and i'm broadly on board with his democracy at work thing, even if i think he's a producerist - is that he's setting up a choice between keynesian make-work and a post-industrial pseudo-communist ubi (which should probably look like a negative income tax). i don't like the idea of being forced to defend a ubi instead of make work - i support both approaches, as they will address different concerns that exist. but, make work is by nature temporary. a ubi is structural....


...and he skipped the last step in the discussion of the wealthy understanding the consequences of inequality - that when you take away the ability to enact change peacefully, and you drive desperation to the point of reaction, there is nothing people can do but react with force. that's when people storm bastilles and send bankers to guillotines. how close is america to that? it's not clear, but likely not far.

i said this elsewhere: if america wants to avoid collapse, it's going to have to teach it's elite how to share. and, it should do so with a government-funded education program targeted at the 1%.
"you shouldn't compare isis to the bugaloo boys, though."

you're right, i shouldn't - one is a heavily funded, highly organized paramilitary group that has killed at least hundreds of thousands, probably millions, of people, and the other is a bunch of inbred idiots that are so harmless that the cops literally laughed at then when they literally tried to storm the capitol.

it's a ridiculous comparison.
the soviets were an empire and an imperial state, themselves - so these debates were in truth between supporting two different imperialist states, and upholding the different brands of propaganda presented by them.

it's long past due that we realize that.
just to close down, at least for now, i think we need to remember that a lot of this discourse around supporting "nationalist revolutions" in the face of "imperialism", especially in the middle east, shouldn't be separated from the context of the cold war.

really, when you drop the bullshit, this was just an argument made by useful idiots supporting soviet causes. the "nationalist uprisings" were almost always soviet front groups, and rarely represented the people any more effectively than the british or american installed dictators did. 

so, the narrative, when deconstructed properly, was really a lot of bullshit in the first place - it was really never about supporting indigenous groups, but almost always about supporting soviet front groups masquerading as indigenous groups, and adopting this whole framework of propaganda designed to uphold that.

whatever you thought of that, that world doesn't exist anymore, and the left shouldn't even be entertaining these ideas as valid anymore. if we want to call ourselves a left, we need to be supporting lefts on the ground - no exceptions.
so, why don't i call for bombing white supremacist groups, then?

because there aren't any worth bombing.

i have called for bombing mormons in bountiful, bc.
the crusades were a civil war between the successors of the eastern and western roman empires, not a clash of civilizations.

the caliphs always saw themselves as emperors.
so, then should i support something like rojava?

and, i've consistently argued that i'd like to, but it's the same problem that consistently comes up. i mean, relatively speaking, there's reasons to take that position, and i will let chomsky speak here as he's a legitimate expert on this topic. but, all i see every time i look into it is a typical left-wing cult with strong authoritarian tendencies that needs to be resisted more than supported. this idea that they're some kind of anarchist paradise is just a projection of fantasy.

they look great compared to isis, but how do they compare in relation to the secular arab socialism that was in place in syria before the saudis invaded in 2011? that's less clear.

what is clear is that i can't support them moving into places and setting up, given that they have a history of participating in genocide in the region.

like most people, i want to see peace in the region and understand that it's a pre-requisite for meaningful leftist change. i think that assad is probably the best way forward and that the kurds need to be pushed back to facilitate for that; we can disagree, but we're disagreeing on tactics.
it bothers me that the narrative wants to set up a dichotomy between nazism and fundamentalist islam and play these things off against each other, as it's an attempt at divide and conquer in the most viciously regressive manner imaginable. 

my argument the whole way through has always been that isis are nazis and should be treated the same way as nazis, in the end.

i am not picking a side in that debate - a pox on both of them.
one of the problems you have in trying to define a difference between the occident and orient - and i'm taking an idea in said and running with it, here, rather than citing him directly - is the blurriness in assigning the origins of ideas to east or west, because it's not there in history. it's actually the same kind of problems that we come up with in trying to define a concept of race. it just breaks down with any meaningful analysis.

so, were the greeks occidental or oriental? how about the achaemenids? buddhism? christianity?

the renaissance?

it flips both ways - to the extent that said was right that the east, as it is understood in the west, is a racist projection by the west, it is also true that the west was largely created in the east.

how does something like the arab slave trade work it's way into that narrative? i mean, the arabs had the most vicious empire, ever, at the time, if not still. the ottomans? the mongol empire?

the point is that there isn't a clear way to divide east and west when you look at it holistically, and it's not helpful to try. so, you inevitably get stuck in racist tropes, because it's all that the division is rooted in in the first place.

there is an east, but it's the far east, not the middle east. rather, the middle east, india, russia and europe form a united cultural block with a shared linguistic, cultural and religious origin that has a strong bottleneck through alexander and his tutor, aristotle (and his teacher, plato). that's the right way to look at it, and the correct starting point on the left - we're not different, we're the same, and our popular movements should be more similar than not.
no, listen - i'm talking about something practical, not something theoretical. i'm practical & empirically driven, not theoretically driven. i can have a mild disagreement in the analysis, but it's more like we're talking at cross-purposes, and more like you're tearing down a strawman. let's address the actual point, not get lost in red herrings about post-colonialism and post-structuralism.

what if i told you that you should support the bugaloo boys in their struggle against american imperialism because they represent american culture on the ground, and it's invasive to insist on demanding i uphold concepts like universal human rights laws, as they have minimal meaning to americans?

first, i'd have to accept the premise that the bugaloo boys are representative of american culture - which i don't, just as i don't accept the premise that arabs are all a bunch of fundamentalist muslims; the fact that some of the most repressive governments in the world are fundamentalist islamic states notwithstanding, they really aren't. i mean, there's a small percentage of arabs that think like that, sure - just as there are a small number of americans that have extreme right-wing positions. but, we see how ridiculous it is to generalize americans that way pretty much immediately, and would probably call foreigners that insist on it racists. then, we apply the same ridiculous caricatures to arabs readily and gratuitously, and call it "cultural sensitivity" - while they laugh at us for our ignorance and absurdity.

second, i'd have to ignore the rights of everybody that the bugaloo boys would hurt if they took over power as unimportant in the face of the supremacy of american culture, insofar as erecting the strawman does. i'd have to decide that the right of americans to be americans means looking the other way as they lynch blacks and jews. well, what right do we have to enforce our values on them? the blacks just need to get out of the way. do you realize that's what you're telling shias and druze and everybody else, in context?

and, then, once all of this absurdity has run it's course, you'd have to rationalize the fact that you've told leftwing groups on the ground that their struggle is less important, and you're aligning with the most right-wing, reactionary forces you can find instead, because you have cultural sensitivity and respect the rights of americans to uphold their culture, which you're not judging and refuse to condemn.

said is extremely useful in breaking through this and deconstructing it for what it really is - an orwellian presentation of abject racism. and, that's all i've ever cited him for and i'll i ever would cite him for. he may be less useful in other contexts, but i'm not citing him in those contexts, so it doesn't matter, and i don't actually really care. 

i mean, i don't have these debates about post-colonialism or post-structuralism. i agitate for international working class solidarity and revolution across borders, which i argue should not exist. it is for that reason that when i look at politics in the region, i will only support leftist groups that seek to overthrow the traditional culture - just as i support groups in the west that seek to advocate secularism, and reduce the role of traditional european cultural values. the left needs consistency here, not the celebration of difference.

in the end, it's the difference between being an actual leftist and being some kind of multiculturalist liberal.

Tuesday, January 26, 2021

do i think buddha was a real person, though?

no.
so, we can talk about the empire if we want, but we need to understand that it includes most of the world, and always has.

it's not this thing centered in london - it has been centered in baghdad and constantinople, too.

and, it's all one great big empire....so big it fractures and reforms, but never does it secede...
i've posted about this previously, but i should clarify that it's clear at this point that the hypothesis that buddhism derived from the indo-greek synthesis in northern india has been largely proven, at this point. 

buddhism was invented by greek settlers in northern india.

the parallels to christianity come from the shared hellenic origins.
what that means is that you should not support movements in other parts of the world that you would not support in your own backyard - because we all have the same rights, and we're all fighting for the same things.
the panhellenic world created by alexander was never destroyed - it merely expanded in every direction, fractured, recombined and fractured again.

we remain panhellenes, today.

there are two counter-examples in the old world - the strong counter-example (subsaharan africa) and the weak counterexample (china, which flirted with panhellenism when it embraced offshoots of buddhism). and, there is the new world, which is built strictly on panhellenic values - despite the indigenous substratum.

so, there is no orient.

we are (almost) all greeks.
deathtokoalas
but, maybe what you're saying about said's imperialistic relativism, so to say, is actually an insight, rather than a defect. i would certainly agree that anybody arguing that western imperialism is somehow unique in history is wrong - turks, arabs, mongols, etc had imperialism at the centre of their existence, as well, and should be analyzed in the same way, in their historical turn.

the idea that everything every empire ever did is caused by the same forces is of course silly, but i want to point to two historical examples to back up his argument, which i'd argue is partially useful, although not the reason i tend to cite said, myself - i find him useful in deconstructing this tendency to masquerade racism as agency, which leads to pseudo-leftists aligning with conservative and reactionary forces under the misguided argument that they're supporting "liberation movements". in truth, they're just aligning with the far right and can't figure it out, or don't care or have conservative sympathies that get exposed that way.

you can and should oppose imperialism by aligning with the left, not the right - and arguing that you're upholding cultural differences is....well, that's what the book is for.

but, the two examples i want to try draw attention to are the french invasion of algeria and the existence of christianity.

if you look at the historical justifications for the french invasion of algeria, they fit the description said laid out fairly clearly. the reason the french went into algeria was to stop slave raids and piracy in southern france. it really wasn't economic or material, it was practically self-defense. and, over time, the french ended up integrating algeria in a way that's somewhat unusual, and maybe only has the british relationship to india as a parallel. that is one example where said's description is correct, even if you can find a dozen more where it's really not.

i would argue that tracing the issue back to the greeks actually demonstrates the opposite point, because islam is a fundamentally greek religion, like buddhism and christianity are. i've tended to make the opposite argument - there is no such thing as the east at all. we're all greeks! we're still living in panhellenism, from the tip of ireland to the depths of malaysia. a careful historical analysis indicates there is no such thing as the east, at all, and othering them doesn't actually make any sense. but, the western fascination with eastern mystery cults in the roman period is widespread. you had mithraism, for example. and, the most obvious outcome was christianity - an eastern mystery cult that found widespread adoption amongst westerners, partly voluntarily and partly not.

this isn't to say that said's models are universally applicable. but, this topic doesn't lend itself to broad statements, anyways; there simply aren't universal models to describe colonialism, it's complicated and doesn't generalize well. i would agree that he sometimes made statements that were too broad, but if you wind them back and apply them more carefully, they can be quite powerful.


"only the west engages in empire"

i mean, that's a ridiculous, empirically wrong statement.

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i should also point out that chomsky himself is enormously critical of marx & lenin - because he's an anarchist. as were bakunin & kropotkin & ....

i wouldn't place said in that category, certainly. but, criticism of marx is nothing new on the left.

but, what chibber is doing here is fundamentally bad thinking, in defining sides and good and bad people, rather than looking at arguments and separating them from the people making them. i don't need to agree with everything said says, or even most of the things he says, to realize the value of his contribution in pointing out a certain strain of blurry thinking that needs to be corrected. citing said in one context doesn't mean citing him or even endorsing him in another. and, it would be a ridiculous strawman to suggest otherwise.

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deathtokoalas
at the end of the talk, all i got from this is that these guys largely missed the point that there isn't a difference between east and west and it's racist to insist there is - a position that would align them with post-structuralism, rather than it's negation.

Red Authority
Of course there is a difference between East and west. There is a difference between all nations. What are you talking about?

deathtokoalas
i'm talking about basic egalitarianism; no there is not a difference between east and west and is not a difference between any "nations", the latter of which is an artificial construct of capitalism. if you get anything at all from said, it has to be that the "orient" doesn't actually exist, and neither of these guys got that.

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deathtokoalas
specifically, said is useful and powerful in deconstructing the phenomenon of leftists supporting far right groups like isis, or even  groups like the khmer rouge, even if he's only weakly applied to many other scenarios. that's where said is useful and how he will continue to be cited, not in a broader post-structuralist framework.

ViolentHexameter
Not really. You just happen to have read Said and now see everywhere where you can apply your mediocre education. Like most people with a university education who are not, well, over 40 at least.

deathtokoalas
well, i can tell you that i'm going to keep citing said in this context, and that i'm going to keep thinking it's useful and powerful, whether you want to keep throwing non-arguments about it at me or not.

nothing these guys said here is convincing in undoing said at all.