Tuesday, December 23, 2025

to be clear: i've never seen a rodent or any sign of a rodent in the apartment itself. i've seen them crawl over a taped-up hole in the bathroom (underneath the upstairs kitchen, which is where they're really living) and i've heard them scratching at night. i also know that they are transiting through the laundry area.

i haven't seen a roach in here, either. if they are eating anything in here at all, they're keeping the roach population down. there's nothing else for them to eat in here.

so i don't really know if the insulation was left by a mouse, and maybe that's unlikely, except that i have a theory.

i think there's a small mouse around here, and rats upstairs. i've been going after the rats, and having some success in blocking them access. the mouse may see me as an ally for that reason. it might want to nest with me for that reason.

i'll also point out that a mouse would love my diet as it's high in cereals, bacon, cheese, yeast, hemp, avocado and spices. 

==============================cycle 6 eaten through, except for four exceptions
- dec 6th: the salsas for the cycle 7 bacon and eggs, together, with cheese and yeast.
- dec 7th: first cycle 7 bacon & eggs. no salsa.
- dec 8th: second cycle 7 bacon & eggs. no salsa.
- dec 9th: first cycle 8 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa (to eat red pepper & broc)
- dec 10th: second cyle 8 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa (to eat red pepper & broc)
- dec 11th/12th: first cycle 7 nachos. 2x juice. plus subway, bmt with bacon.
- dec 13th/14th: second cycle 7 nachos. 2x juice.
- dec 15th: second cycle 7 tomato sandwich, with uncle ben gumbo with dill and garlic, monterrey jack cheese, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds, caesar and frank's.
- dec 16th: first cycle 7 cereal, plus two instant oatmeals with an apple with a touch of chocolate soy.
- dec 17th: second cycle 7 cereal, plus two instant oatmeals and an apple with a touch of chocolate soy.
===================cycle 7 eaten through, except for four exceptions.
- dec 18th: first cycle 8 cereal, plus two instant oatmeals with an apple with a touch of chocolate soy.
- dec 19th: second cycle 8 cereal, plus two instant oatmeals and an apple with a touch of chocolate soy.
- dec 20th: salsa for cycle 8 eggs, together, with cheese and yeast.
- dec 21st: first cycle 8 bacon & eggs. no salsa.
- dec 22nd: second cycle 8 bacon & eggs. no salsa.
- dec 23rd/24th: first cycle 8 nachos. 2x juice.


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if a mouse has been spying on me, it can see and more importantly smell (mice are nearly blind) that i eat well.

how far have mice been to being domesticated over the last several centuries? i mean house mice. if we weren't so busy trying to kill them, we'd keep them as pets. they like us. we don't like them.

what i'll say about the mouse is that if i can't find any droppings, i won't concern myself with it. i'd have to have a reason to go after it.

it's the rat or rats i want out of here and i'm still studying them to figure out how. it's going to be hard to deal with the problem so long as the upstairs tenants keep food out and in the sink.

i lost yesterday due to the leak and today due to catching up on sleep. i'll be awake overnight and trying to see what they're up to.
as an atheist, i actually think that merry christmas and happy holidays both suck. i'm not any more interested in hanukkah or whatever else than i am in christmas. they're both stupid.

i consequently have two better ideas, which are variations of the same idea:

- have a sexy solstice, which would require a little sass along the sexy part to get right or
- have a saucy saturnalia

the united states already has control over greenland.

instead of being paternalistic and imperialist and controlling, why don't the americans try convincing greenland to vote to become a us territory?

to summarize.

- the senate still has the opportunity to intervene.
- the issue should be sent to the supreme court as a reference question
- the governor general should refuse to sign it, if none of that happens
- if it somehow becomes law, it should be challenged as unconstitutional in the courts, and the courts should strike it down
specifically, the formula for amending the role of the governor-general is in s. 41 of the constitution act, and requires unanimous consent:

Amendment by unanimous consent

41 An amendment to the Constitution of Canada in relation to the following matters may be made by proclamation issued by the Governor General under the Great Seal of Canada only where authorized by resolutions of the Senate and House of Commons and of the legislative assembly of each province:

  • (a) the office of the Queen, the Governor General and the Lieutenant Governor of a province;

  • (b) the right of a province to a number of members in the House of Commons not less than the number of Senators by which the province is entitled to be represented at the time this Part comes into force;

  • (c) subject to section 43, the use of the English or the French language;

  • (d) the composition of the Supreme Court of Canada; and

  • (e) an amendment to this Part.

if the parliament wishes to amend the existing constitution by adding roles and responsibilities to the office of the governor-general, it should follow the rules to amend the constitution, as they exist in the constitution act, 1982.

this should be seen as unnecessary.

rather, the responsibilities in the act should simply be given to the minister of immigration.
the bill itself would likely be declared unconstitutional if brought before the courts. the constitution determines what roles the governor general has and this role is not in the constitution.

the parliament, or the senate, should ask the supreme court if it is constitutional for the parliament to expand the powers of the governor-general, before proceeding.
if this bill does pass the senate, mary simon should refuse to sign it.

this may result in her being replaced with somebody that will sign it, but it will also draw attention to the issue, and it will certainly become a major election issue in the next cycle.

canadians will not accept any discretionary role for the governor general, whatsoever.
the governor-general is an unelected figurehead. she should not have any discretionary power in government at all.

this is the first i've heard of this, but i would urge the senate to block this bill on the grounds that it is creeping monarchism, and uncanadian for that reason.

these powers should be given to an elected minister, in this case the minister of immigration, and not to an unelected figurehead of the monarch.

most canadians would be baffled by this provision if they were aware of it, and nobody would oppose it more than the british parliament would.

mr carney is identifying himself as a monarchist, and that is a position that is uncanadian and not welcome here.

there was a leak here yesterday that forced to me to stay up past my bedtime and i slept a little in the morning, from about 3:00-7:00, which is unusual. i woke up this morning to find a small amount of insulation beside me.

nothing bit me. i have not found a single dropping anywhere in the apartment.

rather, it almost seems to be a gift and a sign of kindness. a benevolent mouse would think i should want insulation in my bed. right?

does the mouse want to snuggle?

where did this mouse come from?

i'm doubling down on the conclusion that this rodent has taken a liking to me and i'm trying to figure out if it's maternal instinct gone awry or some kind of evil psyop. mammals really don't have instincts, that's a myth. mammals are taught everything. mice are not born knowing how to be a mouse, mice have to be taught how to be mice.

this has to be very, very weird.

the other possibility i'm contemplating is that this is a baby mouse and it's mother is dead or gone and it's reaching out to me in desperation. i'm at least a mammal, right?

i obviously don't want to kill this thing, but i have to.
an invasion of alberta would create tremendous problems for british columbia, which would be blocked from the rest of canada, except via the yukon. further, it would be inevitable that the united states would seek to connect alberta to alaska.

alberta would eventually take yukon and bc with them as the 52nd and 53rd states, whether they like it or not.
alberta does not have independence as a real option. 

back in 1995, quebec came very close to declaring independence. in response, the parliament passed some laws, and the supreme court made a ruling that's not very well understood but that says that it would be legal for quebec to separate if they can muster the force to do it but that it is otherwise illegal under canadian law. 

that doesn't actually matter very much.

we know today that clinton had been informed of an existing contingency plan written by the pentagon to instantly invade quebec on a declaration of independence. the marines, air force and navy were on guard to invade. quebec came within a few percentage points of becoming the 51st state.

there is a plan to eventually invade montreal in the united states constitution. montreal, it should not be forgotten, was the only major french settlement not taken over in the louisiana purchase, which included major us cities like detroit, chicago, st louis, minneapolis and new orleans. the reason is that the british had already conquered it, at the time.

there is obviously a similar us contingency plan to invade alberta, and it will not take more than six months to trigger.

it follows that alberta may remain in canada or become the 51st state, by force. those are their choices. that is all. there is no alternative.

if alberta wants to get that oil on ships to china, annexation by the united states will not help them do that.

Sunday, December 21, 2025

that picture might be real after all, although it's a different picture than the unredacted one taken at the same time, where they are actually looking at the camera, and which looks like a real picture, which is very much my point. we can figure out where and when the picture was purportedly taken. but it still looks like a fake picture.

you should be exceedingly skeptical about all of this.

those kids must have done a lot of work preparing for that musical, and the warm embrace by diana ross seems less creepy and more believable in context, even if the picture still looks fake.

it's a good thing that michael took all the kids for pizza after the show, to reward them for all their hard work.
this seems to be the redacted person:

i don't have the tools or the knowledge to prove the picture is fake, but i've done enough hacked photo editing for satirical purposes to see when something is fake, in a specific way.

not only is that picture fake, it looks like an amateur did it. you get those jagged lines when you paste something in using ms paint.
i ran a two second google search to find out if michael jackson and bill clinton had been photographed before, and this is a picture of them wearing the same clothes at the same time:


that is april 24, 2002.

however, this picture is dated to dec 19, 2023:


these are both stock images.
if you look at this picture carefully, the edges around the redacted person are very jagged and digital and obviously pasted in:

nobody is looking at the camera, except bill.

so, i don't know who that was actually a picture of, but i'm going to take a guess.

- diana ross might be melania knauss, based on her facial expression
- also based on the facial expression, michael jackson might be jared kushner. have you seen pictures of michael jackson staring blankly like that? but that's kushner's trademark.
- bill clinton might be jeffrey epstein, based on the hand-on-shoulder and goofy smile.

if that's the case, mr. kushner seems a little put off by what's been shown to him.

replacing the faces with bill clinton and some black people instead is distracting maga with their biases. 

can we get one with bill playing sax on the plane, maybe with arsenio hall?
what have we learned?

- donald trump likes adult women and is kind of creepy about it. they're all adults, from what i can see.
- michael jackson is a pedophile
- bill gates is at the least a creep and is maybe a pedophile
- bill clinton is a pedophile

only the last point is new information.

however.

i don't think this picture is real:

you can do a lot with ai nowadays.

that looks like it's somebody trying to erase evidence by replacing faces with dead or dying people.

careful with this shit.

i now have this ready to go.

another night with no scratching. is it possible i got both of them?

the glue trap had a substantive bite taken out of it. i suppose that it's possible that one of them got trapped in it, the other one ate it and in the process ate some of the trap, which killed it.

at some point, i need to try to figure out where it went.
is bill going to jail?


it depends on what your definition of is is.

i'm convinced.

is that a box of cigars behind him or am i seeing things?
these were young girls, right?

maybe michael got lost on his way to the gay pedophile ring and ended up at the wrong house that day.
this picture of jeffrey epstein with alexandria ocasio-cortez is extremely alarming, and i hope she's able to immediately explain what her relationship to epstein was.

Saturday, December 20, 2025

this is a much greater threat to canada and canadians than lingering anachronisms about british imperialism and should be where essentially all resources by law enforcement are directed.

the islamic fascists actually carry out attacks on a regular basis. they actually kill people. this is actually real.
the indigenous european substrate that we know of mostly had to do with maritime words - words for things like sea, boat and fish. we don't know a lot about them, but they seem to have been maritime-oriented. that's not surprising. from the dawn of history, the time of the sea peoples, to the viking invasions of europe, about all that settled civilization knew about the north men was that they lived in their boats. these immigrants came from the land of ice and snow, on their boats, and they were always mean when they got to the south. that trait is older than the aryan invasion and something that withstood it.

the genetic traits of northern europe would have been connected to an anatolian farming group that was caucasian but not yamnaya, not aryan, and also to a remnant post ice age hunter-gatherer population. the farming group would have come from the caucusus mountains, through armenia, through turkey and spread widely across europe. were they basque-speaking? there is a theory that the basque languages are related to kartvelian languages, and tying the farming expansion genetically to the kartvelian language would make some sense of that, but i don't think that's broadly accepted. not yet. unfortunately, the perception is that they may have been middle eastern in origin because that's what the bible says, and it is what the bible says, but it's not actually what the genetics say. my own opinion is that the obvious is in front of us - they were kartvelians and the basque language is the last trace of them. (the basques overwhelmingly have genetic steppe ancestry like everybody else in europe). i also think the sumerians were a part of this same lineage, and of kartvelian ancestry. on that point, it's worth pointing out that the sumerians were known for their black hair, in their own writings.

the yamnaya themselves came from somewhere around the caucusus but moved north rather than south. this is shortly after the last age, and some kind of flood mythology actually fits the evidence fairly well.

the reality is that we know that nobody had blue eyes at this time because the mutation is more recent than this, but all three groups (yamnaya, proto-basques-kartvelians and european hunter gatherers) would have been different shades of white and the lighter hair was probably already there when the farmers got there, too.

blonde hair has survived multiple population overturns because it is strongly sexually selected for. it is not a trait of dominance.
i was in the bathroom early this morning and i didn't hear anything.

it's too early to say.

i think there were at minimum two and i might have got at most one, but the fact is that the fan is now exactly where they were sleeping, and it's going to cut them into little pieces if they try and force their way back in. they're going to have to sleep somewhere else, maybe closer to their current food source.
why is the nazis' use of the term aryan backwards?

because they were racist. 

the nazis were operating on one of a number of competing hypothesis for the indo-european urheimat, a german word that means "homeland". after realizing that the european and indian languages derive from a common source, linguists, archaeologists and anthropologists (this was before watson & crick. there were no geneticists.) sought out to make sense of why and how that could be and try to piece together a theory about it. this is good science and all ideas should be considered, to start. it was actually an australian named gordon chile that came up with the idea that the urheimat was in germany, and a master race of blond-haired and blue-eyed aryans migrated out of germany, across the steppes and into india, bringing european genotypes and phenotypes with them. 

there's nothing inherently racist or particularly egregious about this theory. it was a decent guess based on the evidence in front of gordon chile as to how europeans and indians came to speak the same language that made sense in the era of global european colonialism. but it was one of several in existence at the time, and the fact is that we know today that it is wrong.

the theory that turned out to be correct (and proven beyond a doubt by modern genetics) was the one eventually written by marija gimbutas, that proved through careful archaeological work that the aryan urheimat was not in germany but rather in ukraine and that we can trace the spread of the aryans via their grave sites, called kurgans, from ukraine outwards in many directions - to europe, but also to china, to india, to persia, and to asia minor and south to egypt and mesopotamia. these people had horses and wagons and whether they were the absolute first people to invent the wheel or not, they certainly made good use of it to violently conquer and slaughter and replace the people around them. that's not nazism, although many ignorant people continue to think that is. that's actually well-established peer-reviewed and interdisciplinary science.

some of the initial ideas about these aryans are correct - they were gigantic, compared to settled peoples. we understand this today as a consequence not of differences in genetics but of differences in diet. humans are not pea plants like mendel thought; we're not tall and short, and don't come out in some mix of dominance or submission. the nazis would have believed that, but that's wrong for this allele, for this phenotype. rather, height demonstrates tremendous plasticity. if we eat more then we grow more and if we eat less, or less nutritiously, then we stunt. we understand today that the aryan steppe nomads were bigger because they ate better food - more protein, wild grains - and that the settled people were smaller because agriculture had led to overpopulation, poor soil quality, less nutritious foods and deficits of protein. we have also recently learned that the nomads had much larger brains, not because they were superior and more evolved in some way, but rather because poor nutrition resulting from agriculture led to decreases in human brain sizes in settled populations, not just relatively as the bodies shrunk, but actually absolutely. agriculture and civilization really did make the settled peoples small and weak and stupid and the superior nomadic aryans really did just ride in and slaughter them all, like rats biting the heads off of house mice, or like wolves eating domesticated dogs for breakfast.

but aryan is the same word as iran. arya exists as a place name in afghanistan, but not in germany. linguists claim ireland is a false cognate with arya, but i've never been fully convinced. regardless, there are almost no traces of aryan place names in europe that we can't expain by late migration (the alans, for example, settled in france, and disappeared but left a strong trace in human and place names), but there are a great number of place names in the east that we know have been there for centuries. 

in fact, the science states without ambiguity that these aryans, from ukraine, that spread their language and genes (r1*) throughout europe and asia, were not very european looking at all, but rather more central asian, in phenotype.

we needed the science of genetics to establish itself before we could properly understand this.

- the aryan race was indeed much larger - 6 or 7 feet tall - than settled agricultural populations, and it was warrior based, but that was not genetic, it was cultural and nutritional. they were also of a slightly darker skinned complexion (not quite olive or brown, but a beige or mixed white) than western europeans and mostly had brown eyes and black hair.
- blonde and red hair do seem to have developed in europe, but those traits were already in europe when the aryans got there. through a process of likely sexual selection (read: monster aryan men raping pretty little blond girls, many times, and over and over), the indigenous non-aryan europeans, who spoke a language with a traceable substrate but that is otherwise almost entirely lost, managed to retain that phenotypic trait, despite the aryan invasion, and not because of it. it is almost the only thing left of the indigenous european population, after the aryan invasion.
- blue eyes spread from finland in a manner that's still not fully understand, but was entirely independent of the aryan invasion into europe, and probably mostly just random genetic drift, aided by slight sexual selection.

this, in fact, repeated for thousands of years, until the mongols were blocked entry by a coalition of slavs and germans. the mongols were the last steppe warriors to threaten europe and no longer spoke an aryan language, but were otherwise what the aryans looked and acted like.

in the end, the steppe cultures were defeated with guns and tanks. agriculture won - smaller brain sizes and all. but these periodic steppe invasions brought genetic diversity with them, which europeans needed to continue to evolve. the fact that the nordic europeans were at the end point of these aryan invasion routes likely did help europeans become a master race and conquer the world in the 17th century, but that was the end of the long war that had been happening since darius.

so, the nazis got this all backwards; the aryans, the yamnaya, were indeed very much a master race, and they did slaughter and kill and replace much of the world. however, they were not europeans in the sense we understand it; they did not have blond hair or blue eyes and were not pasty white but a kind of darker white. they were not the nordic race. the nazis believed the aryans were from germany, and used the terms nordic and aryan interchangeably, but the nordics and aryans were distinctly different groups and the aryans in truth nearly wiped the nordics out, leaving almost nothing of them but the aforementioned phenotypic traits in the places that the nordics were wiped out from. because, hey, blonde chicks are hot.

it's not entirely clear how an actual nazi from the 30s would react to any of this, if explained to them now. they had faith that the nordic race was the master race that populated the continents. the science says that's wrong, that the nordic race was the victim of the aryan invasion and not the cause of it.
an actual contemporary nazi movement in europe or canada would support the following political positions:

- inferior migrant workers should work under the table for the benefit of the aryan race; migrant workers should do the jobs that canadians don't want to do. they might support literal work camps, but that would probably be a little overkill. something like the temporary foreign worker program would be more along the lines of a contemporary version of nazi labour theory.

- competition between like-minded firms should be minimized. rather, the economy should be cartelized and overseen by government. in canada, the word we would use for a nazi cartel would be a crown corporation.

- europe (canada) should massively increase military spending. spending on the military is not just good for self-defence, it is good for the economy.

- there should be massive state expenditure on modernizing infrastructure, like high-speed electric rail networks.

- islam is superior to christianity because islam is a master morality and christianity is a slave morality. chrtistianity should be altered so it is more like islam, and the masses should be converted to the new militant form of christianity. however, the elite know better than to concern themselves with such nonsense and should focus on germanic concepts of culture and religion. the islamified version of christianity would just be a tool to control the masses with, but done in a way that corrects the mistakes made in the earlier roman empires. it is not clear if the nazis would have sought to simply replace christians with muslims if the christians refused to change, but they might have done that. it sounds like something they'd do.

- there is no valid law except the state and the state determines law as it decides. there is no common law.

- communism, marxism, socialism and anarchism are taboo topics, not to be learned about or talked about in any way. proponents of these ideologies should be ostracized, or killed.

- russians are an inferior race because they are half mongoloid and russia needs to be conquered by europe to provide for more living space for europeans. therefore, the nazis would support nato expansion into finland, the baltics, belarus, poland, romania and ukraine.

- generous state subsidies should be provided for the master race, based on re-distributing wealth upwards from the labour of the inferior migrant workers, who do the work that the master race doesn't want to do.

- a new western roman empire, a fourth reich, must emerge that unites all of the west under a single military, social and political command. the romans, after all, were aryans (a claim that is actually correct, in the sense that they meant it, although their use of the term aryan was backwards). therefore, the second reich was properly continued in germania, as the holy roman empire, and the fourth reich must be a new aryan empire that unites the entire germanic world under one control structure. the fourth reich would be something like nato, in construction, but with a unified political command.

- there should be no political boundaries in europe or north america but should rather be complete freedom of movement across the continents.

who does that actually sound like to you?
i would not have voted for robert borden. i think wilfred laurier is the best prime minister the country has ever had, by a large margin, and would have certainly supported laurier, and certainly supported the laurier liberals, and not just because i'm a little bit french canadian.

but these people sound like robert borden. a lot.

they do not even remotely sound like adolf hitler, not even a little.

this has no remote resemblance to nazi ideology. rather, they sound like canadians from the early part of the 20th century.

robert borden, who was prime minister around world war one, campaigned on the slogan "a white canada" and succeeded in almost completely blocking non-white immigrants from entering the country until the pearson-trudeau government opened immigration policy. there were essentially no black, middle eastern or asian people in canada until about 1970; the country was something like 98% european. while the civil rights movement was happening in the united states, canada was an essentially homogeneous white society. this was strongest in the western part of the country, but was due to the fact that the tories were initially in control of the country almost continually up to world war two. this was a very british, conservative party ideology.

the nazis, on the other hand, aggressively prevented anybody that wasn't white from trying to migrate. if you were considered sufficiently european, you could come in and out of germany, but you could not leave germany if you were jewish, black, gypsy, slavic (they thought poles, czechs and ukrainians were "mongoloids") or gay, as you were under essential house arrest until you could be enslaved by the master race. 

the nazis would have scoffed at the concept of expelling the inferior races, as it would mean that the gemans would be forced to work in the factories. conservatives, on the other hand, are in favour of keeping out immigrants precisely because they steal their jobs.

the nazis were weird and hard to understand using contemporary political ideas. they were a kind of vulgar marxist on some level, in the sense that they sought to use marxist ideology to advance the interests of an upper class, rather than the interests of a proletariat. they sought to use marxism against the marxists. being a communist, marxist, socialist or anarchist would get you sent to the work camps, partly because they'd call you a jew because they thought socialism was jewish. the nazis were actually kind of more like modern liberals, economically; it was a type of state capitalism. they were not very conservative in any sense of the term, except the most culturally narrowest, as inheritors of the prussian junker class system.

the nazis also loved islam because they saw it is a militaristic version of christianty and aligned with muslim groups to fight the british everywhere and anywhere. the purpose of what these people in the article are trying to do is reduce muslim migration to canada, but the nazis were actually in favour of muslim immigration and actually sought to build military and political alliances with muslims, often against christians, wherever they went. the nazis showed no aversion to arabs, turks, north africans or iranians, unless they were mistaken as jews.

these people are probably better described as trying to bring back the british empire than trying to bring back nazi europe and they may have some valid points to make, in that regard. if canadian law attempts to criminalize speech of this sort (it does not, in truth. that claim is false.), then the problem would be with canadian law, which would need to be corrected to allow for a more free exchange of ideas, but that isn;t actually the case. canadians should not be ashamed of their history or afraid to identify as who they are

Friday, December 19, 2025

i was able to confirm that the math i posted this morning is correct. so i need to get $3200 in the account before dec 31st and i need to get the transfer process in motion asap. i appear to have to do it by phone because there is no branch location for the brokerage and the online application doesn't have information about the rdsp, but i wasn't able to get through this afternoon. i sat on hold for two hours before the line accidentally disconnected, and when i called back it said they were closed. i'll need to call early on monday morning.

i took my rodent trap out this afternoon when they came to install the fan and it looks like something got caught and gnawed itself right through it. i put a few more out to see what happens, but i may have to rethink this.

the fan itself might scare them a little, but it's probably not a long term answer.

i must finish the legal writing this weekend because i'm running out of time. i'll post another update post and get back to the apartment writeups after i do that.
this has been a major concern since this mess started, as it is well understood that ukraine is full of russian spies and that, in the long run, the premise that kiev is going to tilt to berlin rather than moscow is laughable.

giving any sort of privileged information to ukraine is just handing it over to russia and, while i am not afraid of the russians and understand that we need to treat them as allies instead of as enemies if we want to succeed in containing the chinese and the arabs, who are the true threats to western culture, that's still not a good idea, in the short run.

something i need to do next though is apply to wipe out my remaining student loan using the dtc i was just approved for. i should have done that years ago, but it would have required me to get a doctor to sign off on being "severely, permanently disabled", which was harder to do before they set up the cdb. i couldn't bring myself to do it. so i just let it sit. nowadays, doctor are doing it so people can get the money. the threshold has fallen.

it's already been done.

i really just need to get a doctor to sign the paperwork, and the remaining $11000 in collections is cancelled.

even if i can't, that should be a minor concern, with all of this grant money, eventually. it's s hiccup, now, and not a block.

and that should get my credit score up a little without having to get a fucking credit card, which i don't want. i'd rather get a small line of credit, but if i don't need one, and i don't, then i don't want one.
i've seen some fairly creepy pictures of bill gates and bill clinton, but nothing that incriminates donald trump, or any republican.

chuck schumer is a complete fucking idiot.
somewhere, the pantheistic universe is petting a creepy feline, smashing it's fist on the nearest object and screaming at the wall,

i'll get you next time, jessica!

but it won't.

it never will.

things tend to work out for me.
am i rich all of a sudden?

no.

however, if i do this right, i should be able to take the money from the rdsp, the chb and the cdb and pool it together to buy a house shortly before or right after i turn 60. if i'm able to stay where i am for a while, i should be able to put quite a bit aside for that purpose. i'm not sure exactly how much to expect from the cohb yet, or if it backdates, but if it's over $400/month, it could make sense for me to just take the money they give me for subsidized housing and put it directly in the rdsp, until 2029, to eventually use it to buy a house with. i should be able to eat with the money from odsp. that gives me the $200+/month cdb to spend on things and go out with, which functionally doubles for the summer months, as i don't go out much over the winter. i might also find myself getting tax refunds for the first time since i signed up for odsp, because i still have $120K in education carryover amounts. for that reason, it might actually make more sense for me to pay taxes on taking the money out of the rdsp in 2040 and put it right int the tfsa to get the subsequent tax refunds on the unused tuition amounts than it does for me to carefully take it out in bits under the tax threshold, because the cra will just send me back the amount it takes out in taxes, anyways. i'll need to double check that.

all of this together should let me put something like $150K, minimum, into a mortgage. i don't need or want a fancy, rich person house in the suburbs. i'm in great health. so i'm happy to get a small, working class house in a working class neighbourhood for under $250K and i actually think prices are going to crash if i wait it out another 5-10 years. i should be able to pay essentially all of this down with the grants and bonds in the rdsp, and the interest generated from it.

if i wait until the cohb runs out and in the end use it to buy, and i'm paying almost nothing on rent when i do because my mortgage is almost paid down, and i use whatever is left in the rdsp to pay the rest down after 2040, the $1500+ in odsp i get for the remaining years, followed by the $2000+ in oas/gis/gains after that, which is more than odsp, should be enough for me to live fairly well. if i have no rent and no mortgage, and no taxes, $25000/yr is really fairly cushy. i don't travel, and at some point (which may have already passed), i'll be too told to go out. i haven't gone anywhere in years, as it is, due to circumstances. i'm realizing the culture is changing and i'm not so interested in what the kids are listening to anymore. i'll just want to spend that on working on my art, and staying in shape. i could build a kick ass studio in a paid for little house with $20,000/year and if i can stay in shape and keep my brain working well because i'm working on finishing the art i could live until i'm 95.

at some point, when i'm doddering and teetering, or in a wheelchair and can't go on, i'll sell the house and move into an apartment.

not rich - no. but comfortable.

i saw myself at the precipice, on the brink of disaster, and walked away from it. it's due to no fault of my own, but capitalism is a fucking shitty system to navigate through and it can shoot you in the face if you're not careful, and i need to adjust to make sure that doesn't happen again.

i'm going to get through this. i'm going to survive. i'm going to be ok.
i think my math for the max contributions to the rdsp was flawed. i'm getting conflicting information. i'm going to call a different umber in the morning, and begin the transfer process right way.

as i filed in 2025, i can carryover funds back to 2015, but that's apparently not really true. i understand that they'll match the 3x contributions first and the 2x contributions second but initially assumed the algorithm was smart and they'd either carryover the 2x contributions until they get used or let me match the 2015 contributions first, then the 3x and then the 2x so that i can actually carryover the 2x from 2015. if that were the case, as i initially thought, my max contribution for 2025 would be either:

$3500 for 2015-2021, with a $10500 grant and the ability to pick the 2x for 2015 back up when the 3x runs out (that would be smartest), or;

$1500 (for 2015), with a $3500 grant, plus $500/yr for the next 7000/3 dollars, which is 2333.33, which is five years and a bit. that would $3833.33 total for 2025. under this scenario, because it's the end of the year, if i just wanted to make sure i didn't miss out on 2015, i'd just get the $1500 in as a first priority.

however, i'm realizing that what it's going to do is force me to use the $3500 for 2015-2021 and just drop the 2x for 2015 and there's no way to actually access it. as a corollary, that means i'd better get the 2x for 2016 in over 2026 or i'll lose it, too.

the new max contribution for 2025 remains $3500 and the new max contribution for 2026 becomes $500*5, for 2022-2026, plus 3000/2 is $1500, but that is $1000 from 2016 and 500 for 2017.

after that, it would continually take $500 from the current year at $1500 and then 9000/2 from subsequent years, until i'm caught up. that would mean i'd max out at $5000/yr until i run out. 

for 2027, the first $500 would be for 2017 and the next $4000 would be for 2018, 2019, 2020 and 2021.

for 2028, the first $4000 would be for 2022, 2023, 2024 and 2025 and the next $500 would be for 2026.

for 2029, the first $500 would be for 2026 and the next $3000 would be for 2027, 2028, 2029. so max contributions would be decreased to $3500 + $500 and max payout would be at $7000+ $1500 = $8500.

for 2030, max contributions would be $1500 at $4500.

i would consequently cash out at 10500*4 + 1500 + 7000 + 4500 = 55000 and would have some room to catch up if i miss maxing out after 2027. with the bonds, total payout is $71000.

however, i don't have $3500 and it doesn't look like i'm going to get it. i have $3375. however, i have $110 coming in on jan 5, $75 on jan 10 and $200 on jan 15th, in addition to the $408 on jan 31st and some unclear amount for the cohb in late january or early february.

i was thinking about going to money mart and taking a small loan for the remaining $125, but i'm deciding that doesn't make sense.

instead, i'm going to just put $3200 in for 2025 now and the other $300 in early in the year. the difference would be a few days of interest.

i can still max out 2026 by adding $300 (for 2021 )plus $2500 (for 2022, 23, 24, 25, 26) plus (10500 - 2800*3)/2 = 1050 (for 2016, 2017) to max out at 2800*3 + 1050*2 = 10500. that would be 3850.

i would then max out 2027 by adding $950 for 2017, $3000 for 2018,19,20 and $550 for 2021.

i would max out 2028 by adding $450 for 2021, $4000 for 2022, 2023, 2024, 2025 and $50 for 2026.

i would max out 2029 by adding $950 for 2026 and $3000 for 2027, 2028, 2029, for $3950.

2030 would still be $1500 to max out.

that would still be a total of 3200*3 + 10500*3 + 1500 + 3950*2 + 4500 = $55000.

(i fell asleep at around 5:00 this morning and woke up around 11:30)

the esdc will send me something at the start of the year to verify, but i want to put that aside, as i'm pretty sure it's correct. today, i want to call esdc to verify, then call national bank to start the transfer process.
maybe i've just been brainwashed by phil collins.


no scratching, tonight.

i have somebody coming to installing venting today. we'll see what happened when they open the hole back up.

Thursday, December 18, 2025

there's an old saying, "wouldn't even harm a mouse".

i have some rodents in my ceiling. they appear to be eating out of the kitchen in the apartment upstairs and nesting in the crawl space behind my laundry area, which i can't really get at, and which has a tremendous draft. rodents are pesky, and i can't say with certainty that they aren't coming in here, but i have all of the food sealed quite tightly and i haven't seen any traces of them in here. i've only seen the droppings in the laundry and i only hear them in the ceiling. there's no signs of chew marks on anything, and there's nothing missing.

i have gotten a few glimpses of them crawling around in the ceiling; i think they're large mice, but they might be small rats. i don't know. i'll have to catch a few to be sure.

however, if it's a mouse, and i think it is, this mouse is not afraid of me. it runs right by the taped over hole in the ceiling when i'm in the bathroom and seems to be nesting exactly where i spend the most time. it even squeaks when i come in to the bathroom, as though it's happy to see me. it seems to think i'm it's friend.

this is making me wonder where these rodents came from, as they seem more like domesticated mice than sewer rats. or, maybe it's a psy-op jedi mind trick by the sneaky rat, to trick me into thinking it's a cuddly wittle mouse, so i won't kill it. whatever the truth is, i have to get them out of here.

i'm unhappy about this. i don't want to kill them; they aren't brainless roaches or mind-hive ants, they have some level of intelligence, as i'm experiencing. but i have no option. they're truly disgusting, filthy creatures.

would i not even harm a mouse? the mouse seems to think so. and i wish i could just scare them off, but that's not going to work.

there are some glue traps set in two places and i'll probably know what i'm dealing with in a day or two.
trump just bought a fusion company.

is that based on insider information?
this demonstrates the problem in letting market advocates deal with carbon pollution.

there is no market or corporate friendly solution to the climate crisis. you have to make rules and order businesses to follow them.

i am not an expert in psychohistory.

there is no such thing as psychohistory.
it was clearly a tactical/strategic mistake for canada to avoid levying export taxes on the united states in an attempt to appease them. our liberals are appeasing donald trump. why would anyone have expected otherwise? we might have had leverage to trade something with the united states, to gain concessions and preferable outcomes. now, we have nothing to trade, so they're just going to bully us around and tell us what to do, instead.

carney has bent over backwards to do everything trump has ordered him to do, including changing domestic legislation, and it has had no effect on donald trump at all, other than to embolden him.

but, if we just give them the sudetenland, like they ask for, they'll surely behave more reasonably.

as the old saying goes, it appears as though we've been playing checkers, while the americans are playing a game of chess against us.

we don't just look weak and easily manipulated. we look stupid

and we don't even realize it.

it's not too late to levy export taxes in an attempt to gain leverage, but it won't have the same effect, it will look weak and desperate.

that being said, there is a smart analysis, here. what does donald trump want out of this? i think that if you're careful in your analysis of his behaviour, it's to conclude that the outcome isn't really the goal. trump is not driven by results. that is the part of this that the too rational liberal party can't get it's head around. if we're rational why isn't he rational, too?

logically, you ought to be able to give a lion hunks of meat everyday, and have a happy well-fed lion, but it won't act that way. the lion needs to be a lion; it needs to hunt.

for donald trump, this is all performative. he doesn't care if he gets the best deal for america, in the end. it doesn't matter if carney does everything ordered of him. trump wants to negotiate. that's why he likes the arabs so much, under the facade.

i am highly critical of middle eastern religion, and i am also highly critical of market economics. in fact, these things go hand in hand. it was carthaginian markets that ruled the mediterrannean before the romans showed up and burned them down. the romans intentionally destroyed their history, so we know much less about this than we should, but we know that if you show up at a market - a bazaar - in northern africa even today and you offer to just buy something at an advertised price, they will throw you out. paying an advertised price for something is insulting. no - they want to barter, they want to negotiate, they want to trade, they want to make a deal.

we need to stop appeasing donald trump and start arguing with him.

if we give him a good argument, a good tussle, a good fight, a sporting competition, but to be clear are sure to let him win in the end, we're much more likely to come out of this ahead than if we show up and prostrate ourselves and make ourselves look compliant and weak. 

trudeau's mistake is that he won the debate. carney's mistake is that he's not debating with him at all.

we have british liberals as our natural governing party in this country but we're not taking advantage of it and don't even realize that that's what donald trump is. we need to look at it like a good sprightly dog hunt.

send them john manley as the new ambassador and tell him to play his surname up a little.

Wednesday, December 17, 2025

the caq is on paper the right-wing version of the pq, or the pq's right flank forming it's own party, but that is misleading, as they would be considered centre to centre-left by most global metrics. they are secularist, oppose oil pipelines, are pro-abortion (and unusually feminist by any standards, as that is a cultural assumption in quebec), etc. calling this a conservative party is awkward, even if they are the most right-wing party in quebec's spectrum, which nobody disputes. they are not particularly fiscally conservative, and didn't run on it; they ran on secularism and on fighting religious authorities to expand rights for women and queers.

quebec is a very left-wing place, in a more traditional left-wing context than you see today in europe or the united states, where the spectrum has turned on it's head. for that reason, the ndp doesn't do well in this unusually left-wing district, as it has abandoned socialism and embraced identity politics.

it was very weird for this right-wing flank of the pq to win in the first place, and it was more of a refection of internal collapse in the pq, and a general consensus amongst quebeckers that the liberals are unacceptable at the provincial level, partly because they are too pro-immigration (which is a right-wing/capitalist position in a traditional socialist discourse, which argues for low immigration levels, degrowth and sustainable birth rates). the party swung to the caq to give the pq time to rebuild itself, without bring forced to elect the liberals to do it.

what's developing is an isolated spectrum in quebec, but that's not unusual in canada. bc, alberta and saskatchewan have political spectrums that are unique to them and the liberals basically don't exist west of winnipeg at this point, while the conservative parties are all distinct from the federal conservative party. that is because canada is a collection of smaller colonies from three main sources - indigenous, english and french - that are spread out across the country (much of manitoba and saskatchewan was french, too, although not in the louisiana purchase) and united for security and economics, and not a nation state in the sense that england or france are.

it is likely that quebec will alternate between the caq and the pq for the near future, with the liberals being the party that falls off and is banished, unless it's able to redefine itself as being a party of quebeckers instead of a party of foreigners, which is how it's seen by most quebeckers right now. this march of the liberal party to obscurity in quebec at the provincial level will mirror it's obscurity in the west, and may foreshadow similar outcomes in manitoba and ontario in the near future.

manitoba seems to be on the same path as the western provinces, while ontario is in a bit of a contradiction. ontario is not a conservative jurisdiction, which is the reason the liberals can't beat out the ndp to win an election and the conservatives are currently in power. but the ndp scares a lot of the canadian left, for the reason that it isn't a traditional left, it's an initially christian left populist party that has become a kind of bourgeois party for the canadian nouveau riche. a raging socialist like myself really sees almost nothing of value in the ndp at all and, if you understand the history, the reality is the liberals have actually often been closer to traditional socialism, and pushing down socialist options to fight the free market alternatives pushed by the ndp, which is the reason we're so much more socialist - the liberals were, for years, a democratic socialist party in disguise, while the ndp were a progressive capitalist party and often on their right. people were generally confused by how this worked, but content with the outcomes, so they held with it. what took it down was a corruption scandal in the early 00s led by an rcmp investigation, which always stunk of political interference, but was never seen that way by naive canadian political analysts. the liberal party has emerged from this early 00s collapse and purge as a much more right-wing version of it's previous self, and carney has taken the final plunge, re-aligning the party with classical liberal style thatcherism. he has yet to face a verdict on that, but i don't think canadians are going to be happy about this, once they understand it better. the problem, right now, is that there is no alternative to thatcherism.

one example is healthcare, where the supposedly socialist ndp was actually pushing this group insurance model and building support for it, which forced the liberals to step in and say "look, this is bullshit. this won't work. we don't want this obamacare before obamacare. this solves nothing. if you want healthcare, we kind of agree, and we'll just build an nhs, instead. that will actually work, and will be a better use of public money than just pooling insurance contributions to get lower premiums. we're an advanced economy; we won the war and we can build a proper healthcare system like the homeland did. we shouldn't be hobbling together premiums like a third world country, and we won't allow that. we have some pride in ourselves. so, you can have your healthcare. it will be good for the economy, which is what we care about, and something which we understand better than most.". 

ontario may need to create a new party to get out of the funk it's in, as the liberals decline in the west, and the ndp declines in the east, leaving it stuck in between.

yeah, and the next step is to identify the diploma mills, identify them as such and shut them down.

i'm an advocate of moderate de-growth. global population levels should certainly be less than 5 billion and canada's population should be less than 25 million.

this is a good thing.






have you ever noticed that donald trump often looks like a grouchy ostrich?




this is the other reason, which nobody talks about, that exporting oil to asia is a bad idea.

the reasons are:

1) no business case
2) environmentally harmful
3) it will enrage washington and put us under threat of something far worse than tariffs.

is figure skating an area in particular need of fair rules for trans participants?

it probably is.

as norm macdonald famously asked the world from the weekend update desk,

if elvis stojko is such a good skater, why doesn't he just play hockey?
this is an interesting development after the swimming bodies took the opposite position.

i don't like competition. i'm not going to follow this. but i am trans, and i'm beginning to view this consideration as a litmus test regarding whether society is behaving rationally or not, given that there are a lot of issues in determining what's fair and what isn't and reducing it strictly to birth sex is the least rigorous way possible.

i have in the past suggested eliminating the gender category and focusing on tiers like weight, height and age instead.

doug ford is infinitely worse than ron desantis.
the rdsp account i opened isn't quite what i thought. i wanted to open an account that would let me buy individual penny stocks, in addition to mutual funds (or etfs) and would give me maximum flexibility to move money in the account around a bit. the bank i went to only sells mutual funds with rdsps. it turns out that what i want is a "self-directed rdsp", and the options for that are slim. the only institution that has something more like the account i want requires a 20K minimum balance to avoid a $100/year fee, which is coming soon, and still less than the difference in management fees.

i will need to make some calls in the morning. however, i'm probably going to switch banks immediately.

Tuesday, December 16, 2025

this reflects a bias in the white house and longstanding reaganite policy to prop up arab crazies to fight the communists, who they see as trying to restrict their "religious freedom" and are therefore seen as reliable allies, but negates history and empirical reality on the ground.

remember that jared kushner said the administration doesn't think history matters, which is the most retarded thing i've ever heard.

the reality is that gaza has almost no history inside of the arab world, as it's been under turkish rule since the crusades and was a key part of the roman empire until the 7th century, at the latest. the region was periodically under some kind of arab occupation for a few centuries from about 700-1000 that ended over a thousand years ago. the gulf monarchies have had no control over this area for many centuries and really have no business trying to decide it's future.

the problem is that most decision makers in washington just don't know that; they think the region must be arab because it's muslim, which itself is even not really true. they're also propping up the arabs to keep the iranians out. unlike the arab peninsula, persia actually has a long history in gaza, and that's not going to work due to the geography, specifically the massive desert, which we should not forget is partly manmade from overfarming. the fact that the gulf monarchies have all of this money all of a sudden doesn't open up a royal road from the desert to damascus.

if you don't understand history, or don't care, or understand it poorly, you're likely to create the same mistakes over and over. 

at some point, the fact that recent attempts by monarchist gulf arabs to colonize the levant with radical versions of islam are the cause of most of the problems on the ground rather than the solution to the instability needs to be understood to get passed this. 

take solace in the realization that the oil is running out, the temperatures in the area are climbing to uninhabitable levels and the small area of the region that is fertile after millennia of desertification is falling into the sea. this attempt to make arabia great again won't last much longer. their towers will fall, and their cities will crumble. the people of the levant need to tough it out.

our society's reliance on oil will cause it to make bad decisions and align with bad actors. i've said many times that if you want much of this to end, you should start by boycotting, divesting and sanctioning the oil industry as best as you can.

The group is on a sponsored travel trip organized by a Canadian registered non-profit charity organization, the Canadian Muslim Vote.

that sentence describes a large amount of what is wrong with canada, right now.
why doesn't canada just become the eighth province of rhodesia?

introducing the new prime minister of canada.....

....lord milner!

there are not more than two people in canada that want to suffer through jenny kwan's analysis of israel's settlement activity in historical judaea, and the canadian parliament has no jurisdiction over the region and can do nothing but play politics with the situation, which should be seen as unwelcome by both sides. it is not clear to me that anybody in palestine wants to talk to jenny kwan, and i wouldn't be surprised if she found nobody to talk to there. on that level, israel was correct to deny entry; these people were in the region solely to cause problems. they have no mandate, as canadian representatives, to comment on domestic issues in other countries; it's a performative behaviour directed at a subset of their voting coalition that has no relevance to their job description.

the recent history in canada is pretty clear: politicians that publicly side with palestine are constantly punished for it. don't be surprised if a majority of those six mps lose re-election as a consequence of this botched pr stunt, which has no valid purpose in the context of the canadian parliament. canadian voters are correct to ask why their representatives are flying around the world and meddling in foreign states instead of representing their constituents in canada.

that said, my understanding is that they would be surprised by what they found. the people that live in the west bank have deeper ties to israel than gazans do; a large percentage of them know their ancestors were hebrew and jews, and many families only converted to islam in recent memory, partly as a part of the arab revolt in world war two. gazans are less hebrew in ancestry, and have a lot of african slave admixture, due to the region being a part of egypt and being on the coast, where more slave trading happened during arab and ottomon occupation periods. that is the reason that so many gazans are dark-skinned; indigenous jews should be light-skinned to olive-skinned, but gaza is mostly african in ancestry, and so it is much darker than the west bank, israel proper, lebanon or syria. the violent resistance movement in gaza is almost entirely absent in the west bank, where many people see israeli annexation as a way out of exclusion and segregation, and are more interested in integration than "resistance". hamas is not popular in the west bank and the general position is that fighting the jews is stupid and self-defeating. they want jobs in israeli cities, they don't want more bombs and violence.

if you speak the language, you can converse with these people online, if you are interested in them in a non-professional capacity,  which should be the level of interest broadcast by the canadian mps. the west bank is not cut off from the world the way that iran is. if they were to talk to people over facebook, they might get a different perspective than what state-controlled media in the unfree dictatorships in the gulf countries are trying to manufacture.

they may have found that a surprising number of inhabitants in the west bank, which i will reiterate largely have hebrew ancestry, are actually in favour of annexation by israel. because how else can they improve their material conditions? bombing israel is stupid, and the west bank seems to have figured that out, while gaza is still struggling with it.
that would be utterly retarded and a giant step further into the backwards free market dystopia we've been suffering through since thatcher.

library books should be shipped entirely at taxpayers' costs, at no cost to the library at all, and it doesn't matter if canada post runs at a loss to do that. the problem in front of us is this utterly idiotic idea that canada post should be profitable. canada post should not be profitable, it *should* run at a loss; that is the reason we have a publicly owned post system, and why it was determined as a necessary government function in a working society several hundred years ago.

removing publicly owned mail delivery is a giant step on the road back to free market feudalism.

in the not so distant past, the british intentionally used opium - manufactured in british india - as a weapon of mass destruction against the chinese, and it worked extremely well. it essentially destroyed the chinese revival after the mongols in it's tracks, leaving the chinese insular and unable to keep up with a changing world. the british just wanted hong kong as a trading colony; they almost got wiped out by the russians and japanese in succession.

the chinese have no doubt learned from this, and would have reason to weaponize opium, or synthetic opium, and use it against the british, which are now the americans, as a tactic of revenge. that actually makes sense.

but there's no real evidence of this. the chinese are exporting the precursor materials, but they're made for cleaning supplies, and the chinese export everything.

this is not in the realm of fantasy, but looking into the eyes of nicolas maduro and seeing a plot to dismantle america with addiction is not real, and the data's just not there.

assad was worth standing up for, as he was the only moderate in the area, and the alternative was the bloodthirsty islamic fascists that biden let walk into damascus. the venezuelan opposition is not so scary, and maduro is as big an asshole as they get.

trump's behaviour is illegal, and he should be called out for it, but you won't see me lift a carpal tunnel damaged pinkie to stand up for the dictator of venezuela. this guy is a doofus. bolivarianism died with chavez.

Monday, December 15, 2025

this isn't greaser slang, it's self-deprecation.


so, scat is apparently 60s greaser lingo for "fuck off".

i'm still not sure how that makes sense. it's better than calling it a pile of shit, but it just puts words into the lady's mouths for them, because you will be told to fuck off, repeatedly, if you buy this car.

are there enough aging boomer fonzis at this point to justify a vehicle line?

or is this exhibit a of why north american car manufacturing is in an existential crisis?
introducing the brand new dodge scat:


it's every bit as shit as you remember it!
The Windsor Assembly Plant recently launched production of the new SIXPACK-powered, two-door 2026 Dodge Charger Scat Pack. 

everybody has known for years that dodge vehicles are shit, but i never thought they'd market them that way.

what the fuck is a scat pack? because it reads literally as a pile of shit, which is the perfect description of a dodge, which dodge would presumably want to avoid.

that third shift at the assembly plant keeps businesses open late in this area. when they shut the third shift, they closed the 24 hour grocery store, the 24 hour drug store and a handful of all night diners, which pissed me off because i sometimes like to go shopping at 3 am, if i'm coming home late from somewhere, or if i'm just taking advantage of the weather to get some exercise. hopefully, those stores will bring back their old hours, now.
we only tend to get about a weekend of winter all year in windsor nowadays. if we got it early this year, that's probably it. 

i'd expect a warm january and spring by early february.
i've been very loud about how disgusted i've been by nato's position in syria for decades, as it aggressively funded conservative, religious terrorist organizations to overthrow a secular democracy because it happened to have russian backing. the position that nato took in syria exposes every lie about western democracy that there is in the most brutal manner possible.

my solidarity is with the secularists, the apostates, the socialists and the democrats on the ground, which represent an overwhelming majority in syria, and which backed assad as a lesser evil. the reason assad did not fall is that he was popular and represented syrian popular opinion, which was and remains in opposition to religious tyranny, theocracy and autocracy. syria, unlike lebanon, is an arab state, but it's history is older, and syria was deeply tied into the persian, greek and roman worlds. it's people are mostly white, there is a large christian minority and the culture is moderate and secular and believes in democracy. syria is not a religious society and the syrian people do not want to live under theocracy or to be oppressed by islamic fascism. in fact, syria would be a more likely candidate as a european union member state, in the long run, than as a member of the arab league.

however, a false dichotomy in nato military doctrine going back to jimmy carter that is fundamentally about supporting islamic fascists as a bulwark against communism led to the collapse of the middle east's only arab democracy (i don't consider lebanon to be arab), and the region's most moderate state, in order to advance the goals of bloodthirsty autocrats in riyadh and try to steal a deepwater port from the russians.

it bother me that liberal media buys into this so fully. assad was not an ideal figure head, but he was a popular leader and he was effectively preventing the country's collapse into backwardsness. it is very sad that he failed to prevent the saudis from destroying the country, but you can't fault him for trying. in the end, the russians gave up - assad and syria got traded for something, but it's not yet clear what that was.

my solidarity remains with the secularists on the ground as they seek to overthrow the fascist nato-backed government and return syria to democracy.
it would make sense to shop at dollarama if you lack somewhere to store your food, and are just going meal to meal. that is a lot of people, admittedly - couch surfers. people camping out, the actual homeless or people living in their cars. anybody with a kitchen should go to walmart and look for items in bulk.
dollarama's business model is based on shrinkflating everything and then tricking you into thinking it's cheaper, when you're actually paying more for less.

so, you'll walk in and buy a can of soup at dollarama that is 10% less than retail and think you got a deal, without realizing it's 25% smaller. they do this for everything they can package, and it is rare that you're saving money; you're usually actually overpaying.

but you can't tell that if you lack grade school numeracy and cannot do basic math in your head, which is the sad truth for many canadians.
what it shows is that consumers aren't very good at math. that's why the company is seeing record profits.

when it comes to groceries, dollarama is actually usually a brutal ripoff, and what it sells has low to zero nutritional value.

the cheapest grocery store in canada for almost everything is walmart, but i also buy specific items at freshco, superstore and food basics. giant tiger is worth shopping at. if you can buy in bulk at wholesale or get into costco for free, you should. you want to avoid dollarama, shopper's drug mart and zehr's, usually, although they sometimes have sales. bulk barn is also often a brutal rip-off.

Sunday, December 14, 2025

this is not a year-end, best of 2025 list. i haven't had time in recent years.

but you'll note that i maintain a np: list accessible from the link list on the right hand side of the page, because i am forever stuck in the 90s, and in my mind this page is really just about me arguing with myself over usenet.

this is a collection of short, first impression reviews of music i listened to this year. it's less a best of list and more an.....np: list. it's just a list of albums i've listened to, with first impressions.

i'll update this a few times before the end of the year.

replicant daybreaker 2025 us C kind of boring electronic pop music.
sierra veins in the name of blood 2025 france B- stripped down modern techno update on a 90s industrial sound. it's enjoyable, but a little primitive.
the ocean / sierra boreal / traum
(split)
2025 germany
/france
C go nowhere electronic remixes of bland post-metal.
morke to carry on 2025 us C- this is a bit more mellow and more shoegaze on it's face in tone, but in content it's uninspired prog.
blackbraid blackbraid III 2025 us F this is about as stupid and about as generic and about as cliched as you get. i can almost understand a few of the words. does he get to sleipnir? i want a concept record about the fucking horse.
asunojokei thinking of you 2025 japan D it says it's no joke, but it seems like a joke, to me. i can't even tell if this is in english or japanese. why bother singing at all? musically, it's generic.
teardrinker killing the flowers will not delay the spring 2025 netherlands F generic and boring.
agriculture the spiritual sound 2025 us E rock music has slowly become more and more retarded over time; you always had to be a little bit daft to do this well, but by the time corporate emo was taking over, i was done with it, and just listening to jazz. it had become utterly stupid. then, corporate emo inverted on itself in a way nobody predicted, and became the era's progressive rock, and i realized i was going to have to find a way to deal with my disdain for the incredibly stupid cliches in the genre if i wanted to listen to anything calling itself rock at any time in the near future, because the fuckers had taken over the genre, and that was how it was, whether i liked it or not. i never really came around to it, but just as i was finding ways to stomach it, it evolved into something even worse. somebody will yell at me for deriving black metal from screamo, and i know that skips a few steps, but i'm talking about the mainstream rock culture, not the development of the style. if i thought corporate screamo was stupid, black metal was a massive step into full retard, but the same thing was beginning to happen, and there just wasn't a way around dealing with the ubiquity of this new style of rock music if you wanted to find things that were new, as anything at all was going to go through both the screamo bottleneck and then the black metal bottleneck. art rock wasn't going to sound like it used to anymore and you'd have to deal with this, no matter how much you hated it, or you'd have to give up and stick to jazz.

one very weird thing that happened is that this genre that was about killing fags (is that guy still in jail?) got taken over by women, gays and transgendered people, but that didn't make me more interested in it, it just took away a good way to make fun of it.

now, in 2025, it's usurped the core structural norms in progressive rock music, so there's no way around dealing with it, but i'm not convinced that i can. when they just shut up and play, it's not that bad, but i haven't found a way to process this screeching and yelling, yet. i was able to solve this problem during the ubiquitous period of screamo by finding more hardcore or punk sounding vocalists, and waiting until the genre matured to the point where the lyricism was more developed. i haven't really found that path with black metal, yet, and it doesn't make as much sense to look for punk singers in black metal bands, as the history is oppositional. i have only been able to enjoy it when it's instrumental, when it's essentially loud shoegaze or when it features virtuoso guitar playing, like indricothere. i have no interest in the genre cliches: satan is stupid, heavy metal guitar solos are boring and these lyrics are never going to be intelligible in the genre because the point is that they aren't, which makes me disinterested in them. i'm not going to find a small group of evolved, progressive black metal bands that i'm able to appreciate as new art rock, i'm going to continue to cringe at this until the next thing replaces it. the form is fundamentally less redeemable than screamo was, and that makes it pretty awful, as everybody thought screamo must be the absolute bottoming out of western culture. we were wrong.

i have listened to this a few times, and i'll give them an E for effort in terms of trying to be a little bit unpredictable regarding form, but it sucks, as art, and i'm not going to ease up on this the way i eventually forced myself to ease up on screamo. i'm going to have to wait this out. but, i fear the next thing is even worse, like using thoughts to generate pink noise with diodes, and running it through a high gain feedback loop, forcing the listener to decode it with a special fourier transform algorithm that you have to download with the album.
chat pile this dungeon earth / remove your skin please 2019
/
2025
us B- these are repackaged 2019 eps. the thing about this band that confuses me has to do with the accolades it gets for being creative, when it just sounds to me like a rehash of every 90s emo band, and we just went through that a few years ago. this is totally derivative and rehashed 90s rock, it's not this forward thinking music of the future. i dunno. maybe you've never heard any underground screamo from the 90s or something, so maybe this is brand new to you, but it just isn't. therefore, it's overrated. but it's not awful. the other thing that's annoying about it is that it's remarketing 90s hardcore for, like, wifebeater wearing white trash losers, rather than as an outgrowth of punk rock, but that existed at the time, too, and it's more of an effect than a cause; that's real life, and i acknowledge it, i just don't like it. there's worse music out there, but there's better rock bands than this right now, too. the basic point is that the question as to what it might have sounded like if ian curtis lived and joy division went hardcore instead of new wave has already been answered many times.
chat pile in the earth again 2025 us C- i've found this band to be overrated for years. this is also overrated.
bleeth marionette 2025 us C the theme in post-rock has been cliched and prodding for a while now, with few counter-examples. this isn't one of them. the problem is that this is fun to play, right? it's loud, it's cathartic. but it's all identical and it's been this way for 20 years, with few musicians looking to transcend it. it's not that this sucks, it's that i've heard this record too many times, already. but i'd probably go see the show if it was down the street.
spotlight rarities 2025 us C this is an outtakes disc, granted, but it seems cliched and prodding.
wednesday bleeds 2025 us C+ in recent decades, as rock music has become more obscure, american rock music has largely settled into a type of country music with power chords, which reflects it's remnant audience base as being rural and white. american rock music now primarily appeals to demographics in republican states, which is weird. this isn't cow punk, but it is sometimes. to enjoy much of what's left of rock music as a genre, you have to have a pre-existing affinity for that strain of country rock as a pre-requisite, and i largely never have. i will need to look a little further underground for noisier, more abrasive forms to get more of what i'm looking for.
gabi gamberg
'daffo'
where the earth bends 2025 us C+ it's a little light for me, but this person wants to be a singer-songwriter and wants to be taken seriously as one.
jo passed weekend 2025 canada C+ pop musicians need to shift with the pop form. bit of a weezer vibe.
north sea radio orchestra special powers 2025 uk+ire B- this has several of the same people as lost crowns but is a far more listenable record. however, the middle part of the record drags it down a little. it's built like an early 70s pink floyd record in that sense.
lost crowns the heart is in the body 2025 uk+ire D being a trained musician in 2025 is extremely frustrating, as your choices are total obscurity or doing covers of bloated cliches, if you're lucky enough to get a job in the local orchestra. opportunities for creative music production are very meagre. so, you get projects like this.

it's not enough to call this pretentious or even to say it has no commercial potential. this really doesn't go anywhere or do anything. it's complex on it's face (it's less complex than it sounds), but it isn't abstract or creative, it's just purposefully obtuse. it's difficult without being rewarding, as you don't gain anything by being patient with it, or suffering through it. there are reasons that medieval music is so ugly sounding - they had the mathematics of tonality all wrong and were always out of tune - and mimicking that in the era of supercomputers doesn't sound sophisticated, it just sounds out of tune. you want the record to develop at some point, but it doesn't. the drumming is the best part of the record. there's a subset of people that will think they're smart for "understanding" this and call you stupid for rejecting it, but you should not listen to them and take their self-righteousness as irony. when the primary selling point of your record is that somebody could write a phd thesis about it, it's not compelling, by definition. so, you could spend a lot of time with this, but you won't get much out of it in the end - it's awkward, ugly, empty and rotting in it's own filth. like the dark ages.
lake of puppies lake of puppies 1996/
2024
uk+ire these are old demos with william d drake and some other people.
adebisi shank this is the second ep of a band called adebisi shank 2025 uk+ire B+ this is the skipped review of a band called adebisi shank, which is possibly the most hyperactive and cracked out band the math rock era produced. they don't change much from release to release, which i appreciate, as it means you can just fill up the 5 disc changer, or set up a five hour playlist at this point. if you like the other releases, you'll like this too.
foetus succulence 2025 australia jim. the legendary jim. jim is checking out, he says. i'll wait.

this track is a gabrielesque epic, which is something jim did more of in the latter part of his career, with an idiosyncratic big band bombast. because if this is the apocalyse, you should dance down your death march.
jessica moss unfolding 2025 canada B jessica moss is one of a number of musicians that i have followed for a length of time and that has recently made the issue in gaza central to her messaging in a way that i don't agree with, but i wouldn't consider it to be catastrophic. i don't consider jessica moss to be a supporter of hamas or an advocate of genocide against israel, but i recognize that she's uncomfortable with not criticizing an israeli government that she sees as acting in her name in what she thinks is a drastic overreaction. she would appear to be reacting out of embarrassment. she may accuse israel of overreacting to hamas, but i may rather suggest she's underreacting to the threat. i think a lot of people had difficulty grasping the immense level of hatred unleashed on oct 7th and don't want to engage in the difficult discourse attached to weighing realistic policy options available to the state of israel today in confronting 30 years of failed containment policies and consequently getting your head around the fundamental nature of what the existing population of gaza is. it's easier to adopt a humanitarian posture, without acknowledging or accepting that these are people that would cut your arm off for trying to feed them; you would hand them bread, and they would eat your arm. the state of israel bears responsibility in generating the situation, but that doesn't make the set of options available to it any easier. if you leave a dog alone in a cage for months at a time and it grows mean and attacks you when you enter the room, what choice do you have but to euthanize it? but these are not themes that would play out well in jessica moss' group of friends, or help her market her art to the audience she wants to market it to, which wants to talk about resisting state power and is in the process identifying itself as a collection of useful idiots to foreign fascist groups that would gleefully slaughter them for show, she would be the first to go, and in the most gruesome manner imaginable, where it was once a soundtrack for internalizing defiance of the here and now that directly confronts us.

but she composes instrumental classical music.

she generates a lot of sound, and some if it has more thought put into it than some of it that doesn't. this would be more on the jam/improvised side, and you can hear that she's working a lot with reverb and loop pedals to create drone-based soundscapes without doing much with them when she does. it's like building a foundation without constructing a house. it's passively enjoyable for what it is, but it doesnt command much attention; it's missing a lead, melodic instrument, which coud be anything she wants it to be, but which is currently absent. that is not always true of her solo work, but it is frequently true.
tear garden astral elevator 2025 canada C i think this might be the first cevin key project with vst synthesizers. it's....odd....that ka-spel sounds 30 years younger all of a sudden, and i don't know whether to take the claim of goettel contributions seriously, as key has admitted to bullshiting it. what i can say about this is that it's fairly stripped down for tear garden, to it's most basic elements, and while i'm not sure who is ultimately writing it, it's focused less on being abstract and more on being marketable. it's not clear why key would embrace this for tear garden and resist it so strenuously for skinny puppy, which appears to be done, as ogre is frustrated with key for not doing.....this. i dunno. this kind of bullshit has constantly frustrated key's projects since dwayne died in 1995. it's been the same thing over and over.

i would describe the record as lacklustre, but not disappointing because my expectations were not high. these are pop songs, and are supposed to be pop songs.
lingouf cintamini 2025 france B+ lingouf, who has been a well known (in certain circles) underground dj for decades, released this brilliant lp in 2008 that is very different than what he's known for, and i've kept checking back periodically to see if he's tried to expand his sound a little from the very harsh and guttural, distorted beats he is mostly known for, generally without positive results. this record is actually a little more mainstream and contemporary techno, which is neither going to appeal to his core fanbase (who are no doubt too old for that shit now anyways) or the art-techno audience that identified doeme as what it is. this is by no means bad, but it isn't brilliant, either. it's a little generic.
photek call of duty II soundtrack 2023 uk + ire 5 this is the last photek soundtrack release. it's made with stock samples using heavyocity's damage library, which sound like the world music samples peter gabriel collected with a tape recorder and fed into his fairlight cmi in the 80s, put through gated reverbs that he simply didn't have access to, in terms of processing power, but which you can do nowdays on a fancy phone. i think he directly samples reznor's quake soundtrack at one point as well. the entire sampling-for-cinema industry is built on top of the work gabriel did, and in a lot of ways, gabriel did it way better, and has never been eclipsed. i'm sure he got paid for this, and i can't exactly fault the guy, but it's not very interesting as art. that's the point i'm making. which is not to pick on photek exactly but to explain why i'm still listening to squarepusher all of these years later and not listening to photek.
photek the forge 2025 uk + ire D photek did release a single this year, but it's his first release since 2012, except soundtrack work. the point i'm making should be readily obvious.
squarepusher dostrotime 2024 uk+ire A this is the most recent squarepusher record, and when you listen to them back to back you can really hear how the artist has retreated from the techno scene and instead decided to embrace art rock traditions, including a pastoral guitar introduction ripped from nursery cryme and an apparent watcher of the skies remix to start the second track. see, i'm a musician. i like this stuff. that's the point; that's why i'm listening to squarepusher in 2025, and not listening to, say, photek. but this is only techno in aesthetic. it's really more like electronic prog. because the only drummer i'm aware of that could play this shit (it's programmed, nobody is playing it) would be a young phil collins. as for the record itself, this is a strong evolution of squarepusher's sound to include a broader tonal pallette, while honing in well on what it is that he's always done. you couldn't ask for more from the guy at this stage in his career.
squarepusher stereotype 1994/
2025
uk+ire B+ i can't say i'd heard this before. squarepusher has developed a reputation as the brainiest of the 90s braindance artists, which is just a way to get around the embarrassing term idm, while nonetheless continuing to try to point out that this isn't ebm. the kids came up with this idea of edm which looks like a cross between the two and sort of is, but there was a time when people felt it was worthwhile to say "look, this is music. it's not just boom boom boom.", and it led to people calling it jazz as a way out, but to an extent you'd might as well just give up and call it progressive rock because it's so fucking british anyways, which nobody dares to do. what i'm getting at is that you hope an early squarepusher record is abstract, even if you expect it to be more rave and acid house than his later work, and that's actually more or less what this is. it's dated; it's from 1994, and you can tell. it's not helpful to analyze it as new music. but if you want some more very early squarepusher, well, here it is, and it's really everything you'd hope it is, too.
swans birthing 2025 us A+ i still remember when swans were dead. the last few swans releases have really taken gira to a different level and, after having listened to this a few times, i think his sanity is an open question. this record is bizarre. there are certain crutches in his contributors that he relies upon, and he has a tendency to exaggerate bad cliches, but, for what it is, this might be the best record released so far this century. the problem is that it's almost impossible to listen to, and that's before you try to understand it, which i don't suggest doing.
geese getting killed 2025 us i didn't make it through this one. the singer's not my thing. seems really phony and plastic and fake. the first song would be better if it was a reaction to finding a bum (that is, a homeless person) in his car than a bomb in his car.
guerilla toss you're weird now 2025 us B guerilla toss wants you to think they're punk, and there was something punk about them in 2015ish, but this record draws from mainstream pop, nu metal and progressive rock, with little to no discernible punk influence. that's not a criticism, it's a description. i wouldn't normally listen to vocals of this type, and citing paramore nowadays would not be current, but it is the last thing i heard with this type of vocals, which is a good distance from the barking of yester year. it's still popular. i think. i dunno. the odd time signatures, prominent synth work and capable guitar narratives keep it flowing in a manner that seems intended for mtv, but they don't have mtv anymore. i'm not that old, i was a kid in the 90s, but i don't think this has that much in common with pavement or phish. rather, the very popular band (at it's peak) that this record reminds me of is late 70s or early 80s genesis, albeit not in exact style but in aesthetic and approach. these are relatively short, musically interesting, anthemic, arena-ready synth-rock pieces that would make phil and tony smile. that gives the record a pretty broad level of appeal. contemporary pop music of this sort is generally intentionally extremely facile, and while this isn't particularly complex either, it's developed enough to be interesting. at my age, i feel like i'm looking in on something, although i know i'm not; that said, if the intent here is to market a polished pop record to young people, and you know a few, maybe help these big kids out.
cardiacs lsd 2025 uk+ire B this is not really cardiacs. the key composer had been functionally dead for years before he died and it's clear enough that he didn't leave enough for a record, so some of his friends and proteges took over and the result is passable but not very impressive. they do the same pop song something like ten times. i initially described it as a parody and i think that's correct. i never thought i'd suggest they should cut a cardiacs record in half, but this multitide of identical pop songs is redundant and gets tiresome and if jim thought he was going to fool everybody, i think i'm on to him. his brother hated him for a reason; he's a sonofabitch. the lengthier and more disparate pieces hold their interest (it's ok if some of the instrumental interludes sound like they were written by somebody with mild brain damage, because it's true, and it adds to their quirky charm), but we only needed one of these interchangeable pop songs over an hour, and it's hard to imagine going back to the record when you realize it's the same song over and over again. maybe your average cardiacs fan in 2025 can't remember ten minutes ago, anyway.