This letter is addressed to the owner of this store, Fadi Hammoud 

This is a legal document. 

I am a long-term frequent customer at your store that spends hundreds of dollars a month there, on average, and is quite upset about an unfortunate incident that took place outside of your store on the afternoon of Sunday November 29, 2020, at around 13:00 or so, enough that it is difficult to imagine that I’ll come back to your store to spend any more money until some remedy is produced to rectify the situation. While you may hear a specific narrative from your employee, I feel it is necessary to present the perspective of the customer in the matter, in order to get a proper understanding of what it is that actually happened and understand how best to move forward. 

So, I entered your store some time around 12:30 or so, did some shopping and ultimately went through the checkout at 12:54:41 according to the receipt: 

I then took my food, put it in the cart and went to an out of the way place past the checkout line to pack my school bag, as I was walking home with my purchase, as I always do.  

It wasn’t until I got past the esso on tecumseh and near the animal hospital (moving east) that I noticed that two menacing, angry men were yelling at me and following me home. What was this about? 

Well, something that my mother taught me when I was very young was that when angry men are yelling at you and following you, you should never stop to talk to them, regardless of the circumstance, and no matter who they are. Ever. Period. No exceptions. Civilized people just don’t yell at other people to stop as they’re walking down the street. It doesn’t happen. There's just no context. Only dangerous people do that. So, the thought running through my mind was that if these people are following me home and yelling at me then they must be up to no good and I should do everything I can to get as far away from them as possible – and that is what I did, I kept walking, but at a brisker pace, hoping they’d stop following me. 

I simply didn’t know who these idiots were, and I simply didn’t want to find out. It was clear after a few moments that they thought I stole something, but nothing else was. Were they some kind of a vigilante group? Some kind of a gang? A self-appointed religious police? Transphobes? Rapists? I had no idea – all I know is that there were some angry men yelling at me to stop, and I was hardly going to listen to them. 

So, what was going through my mind at that point was fear for my personal safety, because some thugs were chasing me down the street and I didn’t understand why or what they wanted. I yelled at them to fuck off and threatened to call the police if they continued to follow me home, and have them charged with harassment. This is the legal definition of harassment: 

No person shall, without lawful authority and knowing that another person is harassed or recklessly as to whether the other person is harassed, engage in conduct referred to in subsection (2) that causes that other person reasonably, in all the circumstances, to fear for their safety or the safety of anyone known to them. 

(2) The conduct mentioned in subsection (1) consists of 

(a) repeatedly following from place to place the other person or anyone known to them; (b) repeatedly communicating with, either directly or indirectly, the other person or anyone known to them; (c) besetting or watching the dwelling-house, or place where the other person, or anyone known to them, resides, works, carries on business or happens to be; or (d) engaging in threatening conduct directed at the other person or any member of their family. 

I think it is rather obvious that that is what I was experiencing. 

Eventually, it became clear that one of these buffoons was that manager from the store I was in and wanted me to show him a receipt, but that knowledge didn’t help the situation much. If I was in the store, querying me for proof of purchase may be harassing and unnecessary, but I'd probably comply, as I grumbled. Chasing me down the street like that just opens up questions about his motives. Was he going to beat me up when he caught me? Steal my food and claim I didn’t pay for it? When you chase people down the street yelling at them, these are valid and reasonable concerns to have – these kinds of violent altercations are, in truth, commonplace. I simply didn’t know what he was going to do, but he seemed unstable, so I just kept walking... 

And, then *he* calls the cops. Bafflingly. Not only does he follow me home from the store in a menacing and disturbing way, and yell threatening things at me as I'm walking, but he calls the cops in to document the incident, creating evidence that the harassment occurred. Remarkable. A police report or occurrence is very strong evidence to utilize in a civil case in a court of law. So, I decided I would rather wait for the officer to arrive to discuss the issue, to ensure this erratic person didn’t try anything violent or dishonest. 

At this point, it is clear that this manager is discriminating against me in addition to harassing me, and the harassment is a consequence of the discrimination. I know I paid for this food. I know I have a receipt, too. So, what is he going to say when the cops arrive? That he saw me steal something I paid for and have a receipt for? That's obviously absurd – he didn’t see me steal anything, because I didn’t steal anything. Rather, he must have judged me by my appearance, decided I look like somebody that would steal something and then chased me down the street yelling at me, because he was convinced that he found one of “those people” that have been stealing from the store (and, I know nothing of the extent of your losses due to theft, I just hardly think you should take out your losses on your paying customers. That's not going to help.). 

When the officer arrived, I showed him my receipt. He cross-referenced the food in the bag with the food on the receipt, concluded it didn’t appear that a theft had taken place and allowed me to go. I then asked the manager for his name (yusuf), indicated that legal action would be taken and went home to put my groceries away. 

Yusuf just kept saying over and over again that he asked me for a receipt and didn’t understand why I wouldn’t stop, but I hope that the perspective presented here explains why that perception is preposterous. Yusuf seemed to think that, so long as he was sure I stole something from his store, it was perfectly alright to case me down the street like a maniac. In his mind, my refusal to stop was proof of guilt, rather than reasonable self-preservation in the face of a scary, strange man chasing me down the street and yelling at me. Even if I did steal something, the fact of the matter is that private citizens simply don’t chase people down the street like that in a society governed by the rule of law. What private citizens do in a civilized society is check the video, call the cops and identity the suspect – and my innocence in the matter is why you check the video first, rather than try to take the law into your own hands. The kind of vigilantism that yusuf engaged in on sunday is barbaric and has no place in a civilized society. The fact that he didn’t understand that – that he thought it was perfectly ok to chase me down the street because he thought I stole something – is absolutely mind-boggling, and frightening in it’s own right.  

As mentioned, I am a regular customer in your store. I spend hundreds of dollars there every month. Yet, I will no longer feel safe shopping there unless three conditions are met: 

1) I want an apology.
2) I want some disciplinary action and retraining for yusuf. He can’t be chasing people down the street and yelling at them, like that. That's preposterous.
3) Given that I was falsely accused of theft, I think a voucher at your store is appropriate. And, given that the harassment is rooted in discrimination, I think the voucher should be substantive. I am requesting a voucher of $10,000 to be spent exclusively at your store. 

I am giving you until December 20, 2020 to respond to my request. Should no response follow, civil action will be taken against your store that accuses you of discrimination and harassment, at a much larger sum than $10,000. Please retain all existing video of the event for legal purposes – and realize you will be accused of destroying evidence, to your own detriment, if you do not. 

Jessica Murray – 5199161358, death.to.koalas@gmail.com

they don't seem to have a fax.

that's fine, i'll hand deliver them a letter.

so, i wanted to get my grocery shopping done for the month yesterday because there's a snow storm coming in today. alas, there were a few problems.

i should point out that i tried some edibles as i was out. i decided it's the best way to experiment, because i can move a little - something i find absolutely necessary on psilocybin. i can't sit still and veg, i need to go climb a mountain (i do not recommend scaling mountains on hallucinogens). that, and i didn't want to walk into the solstice as a neophyte. i ended up doubling up on the 2s 4 times (meaning i ate the whole little thing of chocolate), and what i can report is that the feeling is neither great nor awful. it often felt more like a state of confusion - a weak mushroom trip - than being actually high on anything, although it did come in after a while. you don't get high the first time you smoke up, right? but, remember: marijuana is classed as a hallucinogen, too. that comparison is not that odd. it's enough to warrant further experimentation, but i think i'm needing either at least 4 at once, or more or less to double up on the 2s every hour like i did. i'll have to play with it.

i have two 5s left to try. i suspect a 5 will be something close to a trip, so i'm going to give myself until the solstice to detox. and, i'll learn the hard way if that's too much at once. i suspect it's either too much or just right.

on the way back from my second trip (to the grocery store), something very bizarre happened - i looked up and noticed there were some angry men yelling at me to stop. da fuck?

well, when angry men are yelling at you, you should never stop to talk to them, regardless of the circumstance, and no matter who they are. ever. period. no exceptions. 

civilized people don't yell at people to stop as they're walking down the street. there's just no context...

so, who were these idiots? it was clear that they thought i stole something, but nothing else was. were they some kind of vigilante group? some kind of gang? a religious police? transphobes? rapists? i had no idea - all i knew is that there were some angry men yelling at me to stop, and i was hardly going to listen to them.

so, i yelled at them to fuck off and told them i'd call the cops if they didn't. that had no effect at all, they just kept yelling at me.

eventually, it became clear that it was the manager from the store i was in and he wanted me to show him a receipt, but that knowledge didn't help the situation much. if i was in the store, querying me for a proof of purchase may be harassing and unnecessary,  but i'd probably comply. chasing me down the street like this just opens up questions about his motives. was he going to beat me up when he caught me? steal my food and claim i didn't pay for it? i just kept walking...

and, he calls the police, believe it or not.

so, now i'm thinking to myself "this guy can't be such an idiot". not only does he follow me home from the store in a menacing and disturbing way, and yell threatening things at me as i'm walking, but he calls the cops in to document it, creating evidence that the incident occurred. "great", i'm thinking. "the human rights tribunal will love this".

and, what other conclusion can i come to? i know i paid for this food. so, what is he going to say? that he saw me steal something i paid for and that i have a receipt for? that's obviously absurd - he obviously didn't see me steal anything, because i didn't steal anything. rather, he must have judged me by my appearance, decided i look like somebody that would steal something and then chased me down the street yelling at me.

*ka-ching*. 

"there has been a grocer's error in your favour. collect $5,000."

we're still walking down the street, and a cop pulls up. i showed him my receipt. we compared it to the items. i asked the manager for his name ('yusuf'. he works at the freshco at tecumseh & huron church.), informed him that a lawsuit was imminent and walked off.

i'm going to send them a fax, to start, explaining the scenario from a reasonable person's perspective. the manager's excuse was "i asked you nicely to show me your receipt", but that is an absolutely bizarre perspective, given that he thinks that justifies chasing me down the street, yelling at me. in his mind, my refusal to stop was proof of guilt, rather than reasonable self-preservation in the face of a scary strange man chasing me down the street and yelling at me. even if i did steal something, you don't chase people down the street like that in a society that is governed by the rule of law. what you do is check the video, call the cops and identify the suspect. that kind of vigilantism is barbaric and has no place in a civilized society. the fact that he didn't understand that - that he thought it was perfectly ok to chase me down the street - is absolutely mind-boggling.

i spend a lot of money at the store on a regular basis. i would suspect that, when i call yusuf's boss, his primary concern is going to be maintaining me as a customer, not standing up for his dipshit, racist, vigilante justice employee. as such, i suspect that a simple fax will be enough to get me my three demands:

1) i want an apology

2) i want some disciplinary action and retraining for 'yusuf'. he can't be chasing people down the street yelling at them, in this country. that's preposterous on it's face.

3) given that i was accused of theft, i think a generous voucher is a proper compensation. $5000, perhaps.

or, i'll get the police report and use it to file a human rights complaint. their choice.

in the end, i got everything except soy milk & strawberries. i thought that the metro was open 24/7, but the pandemic has modified the hours. so, i went out there to find it closed, then rode around a little longer to find another closed metro. ugh. i got a few things at a zehr's a few minutes before 22:00, found myself out of luck at a walmart open until 23:00 and now have a snowstorm to go find soy milk in.

i actually want to wait until it turns over into snow, first. i can bike reasonably well through mild snow. it's the cold rain that's death.

so, i'm going to type up a fax and get it to the freshco management. let's see if this is easy or hard...

i used to do this every day - summer, winter, fall, rain, snow.

at the time, the building was owned by a call center company that i've forgotten the name of. i was contracted out to work for microsoft, and did vista tech support.

everybody used to ask why i don't move to kanata, and the answer was that i didn't want to move to kanata. why don't they move the tech jobs downtown, instead? kanata's boring.

i got a job at the hp building on herzberg after that (the microsoft contract got sent to the philippines, and i took the severance payout, hoping to find something better downtown) and did basically the same thing for another year.

that was in the mid 00s.

i'm still alive, the dish soap didn't kill me. i've just been kiind of exhausted, and busy.

i went back out to amherstburg to get some more estrace on saturday afternoon and utterly collapsed when i got back; the wind was just punishing, and tired me right out.

this is a lengthy ride, and it was through sustained winds coming off the river that....i've done this recently, and it took me more than an hour longer this time than it did last time. the store closed at 14:00; i almost missed it, i was there no earlier than 13:55.

amherstburg's a nice a little small town (and, i've enjoyed the tourism involved in scavenging estrace recently) with a recently opened pot shop. i scouted out a nice spot on the way in, overlooking the detroit river:

the thing is that i was pummeled from the wind and i knew the ride back might actually be relatively difficult. i think it's clear that when i tell you i'm an experienced bicyclist, that's not hubris - i've been riding like this for twenty years. even when i was a kid, i used to bike across town to school, sometimes.

i didn't do that everyday, but i was like 15-18 when i did.

so, i know when i'm beat - and i knew i'd gotten myself into a mess, two hours from home in near freezing temperatures and a sweaty winter jacket, and with a hard slog back.

i'd hesitate to label marijuana as performance enhancing, but i know from experience that it can dramatically numb the pain in certain scenarios where hard work is unavoidable, and overexertion has already expired. it was my only serious option, really.

but, i just fell over when i got back, and then had to get up to do groceries on sunday.

see, and this is...

if i convince myself that this guy wanted to drill over a stain, i'm running away, again.

that's dentist number three, and they all did the same thing - try to talk me into drilling immediately.

brushing once with the dish soap actually seems to have made a difference very quickly, and it's sort of what i thought - some of the build-up came off (i'm not joking, it really did) and some of the rest of it got scrapy very quick. 

it's impossible for me to tell with my eye, as an untrained person, if it's a cavity or a stain. i need to be clear about that. i don't know.

but, much of it no longer looks like a cavity to me at all, once i softened up the plaque with the dish soap.

i'm not exactly recommending this. i don't actually know what the long term consequences are. but, ammonia is the historical toothpaste - it's what we used before we used toothpaste. and, it's easy to see why, actually trying it.

see, this is what i'll need to mad-scientist hack.

i hope they published it properly.

https://www.theguardian.com/science/2019/aug/30/scientists-grow-tooth-enamel

before i start thinking about using toothpaste as a condiment, let's really figure this out more rigorously.

guava - 30*.34/10000 = 0.00102 mg = 1000*(0.00102) µg = 1.02 µg

banana - 2.6

strawberry - 4.4

avocado - 10.5

kiwi - trace, but no data

soy milk - 1000*(6*1.33/10000) = .798 µg

ice cream - trace, bot no data

yogurt  - fluoride would kill the bacterial culture

yeast - fluoride kills yeast, too

vector - 1000*(15*.19/10000) = .285 µg

all bran - 1000*(45*.29/10000) = 1.305 µg

flax - trace

algal oil -  potentially relatively substantive, but not clear from any data

water: 1000*.1*(1.774 + .7) = 247.4 µg <----two cups of water + coffee

that's .2684 mg, so far.

4*.3 = 1.2 mg

i still need a milligram, roughly.

an equivalent amount of black tea would have:

3*1000*(256*3/10000) = 230.4 µg, but that may be exaggerated by fluoridated water. it doesn't really help, and it's the most fluoridated thing in the database.

if i get the fancy 1.1% naf prevident, i'd need x*.011 = 1 <---> x = 1/.011 ~ 90 mg. that's only 1% of the tube. so, if it costs $10, it's only $0.1/day. and, that's hardly dangerous.

i may have to get a better scale.

so, i'm actually committing to that if i can find it.

do i think i can scrounge up that much fluoride in the other bowls without needing to resort to toothpaste? i don't know.....

 Fluoride levels in the Great Lakes range from 0.05 to 0.14 mg/L (Anon, 1977) 

https://www2.gov.bc.ca/assets/gov/environment/air-land-water/water/waterquality/water-quality-guidelines/approved-wqgs/fluoride-tech.pdf

.1*(3*1.774 + 1.4 + .5)/4 = 0.18055

so, i think that's a reasonable background assumption until i get further clarification.

so, it's .08 mg/L in st. catharines, which is up the lake from niagara falls, on the canadian side. that's the same water system.

i found an old document documenting .1 ppm in the detroit river near wyandotte. that's quite a bit higher, at about 1 mg/L - which would be acceptable as fluoridated drinking water. but, this is downstream from where we take the water, and south of zug island, which is the remaining industrial heart of detroit.

but, those are my likely bounds - between .08 and 1 mg/L.

if it's .08, i'd need to drink 40+ litres of water a day to get to the lower end of the rdi, at 3 mg, if water is my only source.

if it's at .3, i'd need to get to 10 L to get to 3 mg - and drinking 5 L, which is on the extreme end of what's actually plausible, would get me to 1.5 mg, which is almost 40%.

i could conceivably get into the habit of downing a big gulp of water before and after meals, which would be about 1.774 L. at .3 mg/L, that's .5322 mg - or 13.3% of the rdi. thrice that is nearly 40%. two cups of coffee is another 1.4 L of water, which is another 10%. it would be hard to drink more water than that, consistently, every day.

at .08 mg/L, it's unfortunately only .08*(3*1.774 + 1.4)/4 = 13%

at .4 mg/L, it's .4*(3*1.774 + 1.4)/4 = 67%

it was previously at .6 mg/L, and i'd then be at .6*(3*1.774 + 1.4)/4 = 100%, on the nose.

i can also get some water from the pasta cooking process.

so, we see what the bounds i have to actually work with actually are.

as far as i know, we get our water from the detroit river, not from ground water.

but, it would suggest that it's probably not that deficient and the necessary supplementation is perhaps minimal.

i've noticed my mouth gets weird when i drink less water, and assumed i was dehydrated. maybe there's something more to it than that - maybe if i drink a lot of water, i'm getting to something like 40%.

and, the plot thickens.

see, this is why i'm asking.

so, i'll leave this here for later.

i need to clear my tabs out and refocus.

https://stacks.cdc.gov/view/cdc/70753/cdc_70753_DS1.pdf

fish is relatively high in fluorine, but it turns out that seaweed and algae is very high in fluorine, high enough that this might solve my problem.

this study presents the fluoride content of spirulina as a danger, but if the concentration is 60 mg/kg, and i need 4 mg, i only need 1000/(60/4) = 67 g of the stuff. and, that is almost the same concentration as toothpaste, in an actual food source. if i decide i want to get 1.5 in each bowl, 1000/(60/1.5) = 25 g. that's the size of a large strawberry. that's workable..

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/343635156_Fluoride_content_in_dietary_supplements_of_spirulina_Kaldunska_FLUORIDE_CONTENT_IN_DIETARY_SUPPLEMENTS_OF_SPIRULINA_ARTHROSPIRA_SPP_FROM_CONVENTIONAL_AND_ORGANIC_CULTIVATION/download

that means that the algal oil should have some fluoride in it, alhough it might be a struggle to have it measured

so, i'm starting to work this out.

i can probably get 20-30% from the water, at least. if i'm lucky, i can get another 20-30% from the algal oil and maybe another 20-30% from spirulina or chlorella. and, then i can get extra bits from spices & from anchovies.

i just need to add it up.

one more question.

i had settled on algal oil to avoid the mercury.

how much fluoride is there in fish and algal oil, respectively?

to be clear: what he told me is that it looks more like erosion from acidic food than cavities from bacteria or sugar. it's the fluoride that's going to fix that - i hope - and not the surfactant.

but, i want to do this right, anyways.

yeah.

so, this dish soap has three surfactants. my toothpaste uses cocamidopropyl betaine and sodium methyl cocoyl taurate, both of which are derived from coconut oil. but, i wonder if it's enough, or if it might be interacting with the other stuff.

if i give myself a careful wash with the ammonia mixtures in the dish soap, i'm doing just about as much as i can to get rid of anything with a cell membrane. there's a lot of idiots out there that write this off as "foaminess", but this is the actual soap, it's what actually kills the actual bacteria.

it smells good, too.

so, how should i do this?

- brush with soft brush & ammonia-based surfactant dish soap before eating. it's going to be passion fruit palmolive, at least to start. this is strictly anti-bacterial.

- brush with medium brush & stannnous fluoride mix [i'm going to look for the sensodyne, who are also introducing a stannuous fluoride mix. this is brand new.]. i'm looking for the greater fluoride uptake.

- eat

- brush with soft brush & novamin mix. the novamin does work, it's just that it does a very restricted thing, namely patch up very small holes.

.....& i need to find some way to access sodium fluoride pills, as well.

i think that's the extent of what i'm going to try, for now.

ugh.

i may have to order it from the states, but they all want an rx.

but, it's not a conspiracy. right.

https://buyandsell.gc.ca/procurement-data/goods-and-services-identification-number/gsin/N6505NRA

the benefit of a chewable tablet would be that it would have less ingredients, of course.

the pharmacist at the shopper's says that's crazy, he's never seen that before.

i can't find it in the drug dispensary.

well, i have an appointment in two weeks. i'll ask if he can prescribe it or not.

it does exist.

i'm going to call the 24 hour shopper's and ask them...

they do make sodium fluoride pills, but it seems like i'm going to need to get a prescription to get access to them.

fuck.

see, this is why people don't trust dentists - they take the fluoride out of the water, then make it impossible to buy supplements. it sure seems like a giant scam, to try to force you to go to a "professional" and shell out for it.

maybe it's just capitalism, granted. but, i actually think you'd be forgiven for deducing there's something nefarious going on, and i'm not convinced there isn't, myself.

i want to be clear about what i'm thinking.

if you consume substantial amounts of fluoride, your body is going to deposit it in your skeletal system. it's not going to get excreted through your kidneys, and it's not going to just disappear. it's really going to end up in your teeth.

Approximately 80% or more of orally ingested fluoride is absorbed in the gastrointestinal tract [1]. In adults, about 50% of absorbed fluoride is retained, and bones and teeth store about 99% of fluoride in the body [1,3]. The other 50% is excreted in urine [1]. In young children, up to 80% of absorbed fluoride is retained because more is taken up by bones and teeth than in adults [1].

https://ods.od.nih.gov/factsheets/Fluoride-HealthProfessional/

so, what happens if you have a cavity and you ingest a lot of fluoride? this is the part that doesn't make sense to me - supposedly, you deposit the fluoride in your teeth unless you have a cavity? but, then what happens to it if you do?

it can't just disappear.

if i'm convinced that i'm not consuming enough fluoride and that's what the problem is, i am sort of skeptical that i can't fix it by taking....not high but higher doses of fluoride. what else is going to happen to this fluoride?

i get tons of calcium, tons of phosphorus, tons of just about everything else. fluoride is the singular hole in the diet that needs to be plugged.

now, you might say something like the remineralization will be unnatural, but i'd rather have an unnatural remineralization than a mercury amalgam, or a plastic resin. that's a better choice, even if it's a little discoloured.

i am fully aware that this is not the currently accepted view, but i'm willing to take a chance on it and see what happens, because what i've been told my whole life doesn't make any sense to me.

if your body doesn't deposit these minerals, what does it do with them?

well, how effective is antibacterial dish soap, do you think?

and, at the end of the day, the best thing for me to do may very well be to get in the habit of washing my mouth out with soap.

which, you fucking idiots would perhaps like me to do, anyways.

the most absorbable form seems to be hydrogen fluoride, but i don't want to give myself ulcers to try to save my teeth. that would give you a nasty stomach ache if you took too much....

i need the sodium salt, for consumption - i don't want to eat a lot of tin.

i would take a supplement of this if i could find it.

nah, that's not going to work - the calcium fluoride has poor absorption. i'd just be putting strain on my kidneys.

what if i shelled out and bought 5 g of calcium fluoride and put a pinch of it in a glass of water every day?

it's going to cost me upfront, but it works out to about $0.10/day.

i'd need to get a more precise scale, as well. 

i need to be clear - this is dangerous. i might kill myself doing it. but, your body needs fluoride and i'm just not getting it...my options are very restricted....

https://www.sigmaaldrich.com/catalog/product/aldrich/449717?lang=en&region=CA

the statement from the pmo is september.

like, next year.

are we going to have to go through another summer of boredom and slavery?

so, are they going to at least let people cross the border into the states to get vaccinated there, then?

my argument - which i never got to make - was that annoying somebody isn't harassment, under the law. it's some kind of colloquial concept of harassment in terms of "bothering somebody", perhaps. but, she had no grounds to fear for her safety at all, and that's what the legal question is. so, i've never denied initiating the communication - i've always argued that i was fully within my rights to do so. 

my argument in the human rights trial is that the implication that i was a threat to her safety is discriminatory, as the only way to come to that deduction is through negative stereotypes about trans people, disabled people or both.

but, the actual truth of the matter is that there never even was any purposeful communication with this woman. and, if it turns out ryan's a real person, an employee, like i suspect, then i never sent this woman any communication at all, accidentally or not.

this might be a part of the reason she's avoiding a response.....

nononono, i want to be as clear as i can.

i was communicating with a man named ryan, clearly - at least in my mind, anyways. the sole topic of communication was housing; there was nothing else discussed, and no other purpose in the communication. but, everything was addressed to a male named ryan.

and, yet i was charged with harassing a woman named caroline, and the case was presented in such a way as to imply i was a dangerous pervert.

it was truly ridiculous.

it's just hard for me to tell if i'm smelling smoke from upstairs or dirt from the heaters. all i can really say with certainty is that it's overwhelmingly dry - and that itself makes it hard to breathe, makes my throat sore, generates asthma attacks, etc. 

so, i'd might as well be breathing in secondhand smoke, even if i'm only breathing in dry air.

since i woke up last night, it's just been absolutely disgustingly dry in here. i wonder if they altered something when i was out. i've had to have the shower running almost nonstop to adjust....

yeah, i'm going to call on monday and cancel the fillings and insist on a cleaning, instead. i should have been more assertive about that - that's what i want.

i've had some difficulty articulating this because i'm never been through this before. it's not anxiety, exactly, it's more denial. he has a business model. it's how this society functions.

so, i essentially need for him to prove that i need a filling by cleaning my teeth first and showing it to me. so long as i have stains and plaque on my teeth (and i do.), i feel skeptical about the need for drilling. but, if he cleans my teeth for me first, and lets me get a better look at it, i'll be convinced that it's actually necessary - or not.

and, that will give me some time to try to bombard it with fluoride, which should start tomorrow.

and, it's not ambiguous, either - i address the subject of the emails by name, "ryan", on repeated occasions.

it's abundantly, crystal clear that i obviously thought i was communicating with a dude.

and, like i say, i think i was.

the karen just missed another deadline....

when this whole thing happened, it took me by surprise, because i thought the landlord was a male named ryan. so, when i say i've never met her that's an understatement - all communication was, on the surface, with a male. when i was charged with applying for an apartment too many times, i thought i was repeatedly applying to an apartment complex run by a man named ryan.

you can imagine, then, that i was confused when the charges claimed i had harassed a woman named caroline chevalier, who claimed she was using the name ryan on the internet.

in my application, i point out that i am skeptical of the claim, and suggest that the case was presented that way to maximize chance of conviction - and that there really is probably some guy named ryan out there and he needs to testify to the tribunal. as all of the evidence in the case is addressed to ryan, and none of it to caroline, i named ryan as the secondary defendant in the case. i named caroline as the primary defendant because she is the one that filed the vexatious charges, and thus is the one guilty of discrimination and intimidation. further, she seems to be the actual owner - if ryan exists, he is likely an employee.

the tribunal also seems to be curious in uncovering the truth of the matter, and caroline's outburst no doubt did not help her cause. so, she was to indicate to the tribunal by the end of the day today whether ryan would be presenting a defence of his own, or if she would do the talking for him.

no response. again. is she preventing herself from being caught filing a false report?

and, it just demonstrates the point - she's never going to file this response. she's just going to make baseless attacks, and cry victim without evidence. so, let's get on with it.

see, it may not seem like a lot, but if i take 10 g of garlic & 10 g of turmeric & 10 g of cayenne that's nearly .1 mg. 10 g of cumin and thyme would be another .08 each.

remember: i need to get to 3-4ish.

instant tea is a potentially potent source, as well.

these are the highest concentration foods there are, and my best choices. so, understanding how much fluoride is in the water is key.

https://www.fluorideresearch.org/492/files/FJ2016_v49_n2_p165-177_sfs.pdf

sorry, i cut myself off.

the only other dietary thing i can think of is that spices - like oregano - may have a relatively high fluoride content. it's leafy type things that you want to look for. but, the options are very poor, which is why they put it in the water...

i may be able to turn this around, still.

so,

1) i need the stannous fluoride. it's the only type that is bioavailable, so the only type that will deal with gumline issues. note that colgate has also gone back to stannuous flouride (this is recent.), so i have an option - the crest pro-health or the colgate total. and, i can figure that out in the next day or two.

2) i need to get dietary fluoride up. 311 sent me to the local water treatment company, enwin. i'll see what they say. but, i'm going to end up putting toothpaste in the breakfast bowl, almost for sure. the only other dietary thing i can think of 

3) brush hard before and gently after eating, instead of just brushing after eating.

and, what i'll do is i'll push for him to do a cleaning, first.

and, i'm considering sending them an email to ask some pointed questions so i'm sure.

i just don't want to drill unless i'm sure i need to. i need to answer this question - are these caries in the enamel or in the dentine?

https://www.nidcr.nih.gov/health-info/tooth-decay/more-info/tooth-decay-process

i should take a step back.

i don't actually think that any of my cavities are advanced enough to require the regeneration of dentine. i'm looking at enamel regrowth as a goal, here.

i think.

could i do this to myself, do you think?

https://www.bbc.com/news/uk-38524566

wait.

can i get this shit prescribed?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tideglusib

see, this is what i want - not a bunch of plastic in my mouth.

https://www.dentistryiq.com/practice-management/industry/article/16366894/dental-stem-cell-regeneration-techniques-may-spell-the-end-of-tooth-decay-as-we-know-it

this idiot is actually a member of the fake socialist party, the ndp....not some right-wing demagogue.

you'd be forgiven for being confused, though.

https://www.citywindsor.ca/cityhall/City-Council-Meetings/Meetings-This-Week/Documents/F20_20130118112305.pdf

that's still cutting edge.

but, i might be a member of the first generation that gets to regrow new teeth in old age, when i get there.

https://www.cnedental.com/the-science-of-growing-teeth-stem-cell-therapy-reveals-limitless-possibilities/

why don't our teeth heal, though?

it seems like it's something evolution didn't get around to. and, save me your nonsense about god - if anything, it's an argument against creation. what kind of sadistic creator would create a being that can't repair their own teeth? no - we're just dealing with a consequence of living past our evolutionary best before date. your teeth fall out for the same reason you get alzheimers.

but, if god doesn't exist, we don't have to worry about usurping it's role. we can see biology as a playground.

so, is this something we can use stem cells for, or what? is there some future in regenerative dental technology?

our teeth don't heal, but they should. and, let's hope we can figure that out, eventually.

the adults told me how to brush back in the 80s.

it seemed to work; i didn't get any cavities. and, i haven't questioned it or thought about it much since.

but, like i say - i'm aging. your teeth don't heal; i'm used to healing. i need to adjust...

actually, i think i'm going to start doing both, but in different ways.

if i vigorously brush before i eat with a medium toothbrush, maybe it'll help clear shit out of there before i put food in. then, if i repeat with a soft tooth brush after i eat, maybe it'll help clear out food without damaging the enamel further.

yes, i should have done this research a long time ago, but i didn't need to....

https://www.rdhmag.com/patient-care/rinses-pastes/article/16403965/brush-before-eating

something else i want to point out is that when they took my temperature at the dentist's office it was....

34

that's 93 degrees in backward yankee units, apparently. i dunno - it's a different language, i don't understand it at all.

that's indicative of hypothermia. i should have been dying.

while it was no doubt a confused reading stemming from the fact that i just got off a bicycle ride in a brisk wind on a 10 degree day (itself indicative of how healthy i am - i can bike for an hour without breaking a sweat), it says something about me that is very much consistent with a lot of things i've been going through for a long time. 

i will go into shivers & nearly into shock from even moderate levels of air conditioning. it's consistent, and repeatable. further, it seems to be genetic - my father had the same issue. he used to blame it on his blood pressure. but, my blood pressure is generally unusually low, while his was always dangerously high. there seems to be something else going on, there.

but, if that dental assistant was a nurse, she would have called an ambulance - i should have been going into shock. she took it twice - at my forehead and on my wrist. it was 34 both times.

so, i should figure out what is in the water as it is before i take steps to add a tsp of toothpaste to my breakfast bowl. even unfluoridated water should have some fluoride. how much water do i need to drink to get to 4 mg? is it even possible?

jessica murray <koala.central.command@gmail.com>

7:57 AM (0 minutes ago)

to 311

hi.

i understand that the city doesn't currently add fluoride to the water, but the water should have some level of fluoride in it naturally. this would be very specific to windsor; that is the information i'm seeking. 

i did not grow up here, and i believe i've recently developed cavities for the first time in my life (i'm 40.) as a consequence of switching from a fluoridated water supply to a water supply without fluoride. i'm not happy about that, and need to get my dietary fluoride levels back up. so, i want to find ways to reintroduce fluoride into my diet on my own, if the city refuses to take appropriate steps to do so. my teeth have run out of time waiting.

the fda has set an rdi for fluoride because it is an essential mineral. it is 4 mg/day and people generally get 60-90% of it from drinking water.

however, fluoride is also poisonous in relatively small quantities. so, if i'm forced to do this myself, i need to properly understand what i'm doing. in the end, i'm no doubt going to do something like add a teaspoon of toothpaste to my morning smoothie (dietary fluoride is not exactly plentiful - it's pretty much the only serious choice), but i need to understand what the base levels are before i do that, so i don't accidentally overdo it.

can you put me in contact with somebody that can give me information about existing fluoride content in the city water, without it being treated?

and, can you put me in touch with somebody that has up to date information on whether the city is ever going to refluoridate or not?

thanks,

j

i'll repeat that.

if you're an elderly person going to a church or a mosque in a pandemic and you get sick, you should be denied treatment as a consequence of your own stupidity - there are people that got sick in ways that weren't entirely preventable, and they must take priority.

ask your god to help you, instead.

in response, health officials should refuse to treat patients that contracted the virus at a place of worship, citing their own stupidity and claiming they deserve it.

....but don't tell me i can't get a beer, if you let the geriatrics go to church.

they're the ones that need to be locked down, not me; if they won't protect themselves, don't tell me i need to adjust.

fine.

let the decrepit, ancient church-goers kill themselves off in a fit of idiocy.

less religious values voters is good news for america, in the long run.

https://www.ctvnews.ca/world/new-justice-amy-coney-barrett-casts-deciding-vote-to-block-n-y-limit-on-religious-gatherings-1.5205203?cache=yes%3FclipId%3D89531

in theory, though, how much toothpaste would i need to eat in my breakfast bowl to get to 4 mg a day?

if i use the stuff i'm using now it's .104% fluoride. so, .104x = 4 <---> x = 4/.104 = 38.4615384615.

so, 39 mg. that's something like half the tube. mmm?

what if i used this colgate prevident at .5%? 4/.5 = 8 mg. so, that's more like a tenth of the tube. at $10/tube, that's an expense.

if i figure out how to get a gram or two from diet, though, the cost could come down a lot....

the crest may be the better option for straight swallowing, due to cost.

how much of this stuff is going to kill you? the answer is far more than i thought - quite a lot. and, what is the actual reason you're not supposed to do it? it's because it could lead to "fluoridosis", which is a build of fluoride on your teeth.

well, i'd like a bit of a build-up on my teeth....

so, i'm going to give the world the finger and start swallowing my fucking toothpaste, dammit. it's not much sodium, comparably. i wonder about the silicon, though.

supposedly, children that use novamin exclusively don't develop fluoride spots. is that because they aren't swallowing, or because of the difference in ingredients? the assumption seems to be the latter. and, if kids are swallowing it and surviving, it can't be that toxic.

i'd like a direct answer, though. so, maybe i'll hold off and swallow something with just sodium fluoride, instead.

if i brush thrice a day, and the tube lasts a month, (75/30)/3 = .83 mg. it's a step there, at least.

this is a summary of what i'm saying and how it pertains to myself, specifically:

https://www.oralhealthgroup.com/news/toothpaste-recommend-matters-1003934290/

what i really want is something that will combine the novamin (which seems to be doing what it's supposed to be) with the stannous fluoride, but that doesn't seem to be an option.

there's a crest brand that has a whitening component to it.

apparently, the difference is that the stannous fluoride is bioavailable, and the sodium fluoride isn't. that is what i really need - more dietary fluoride, because there's none in the water, here. the sodium fluoride may kill bacteria on contact and/or provide a coating on the teeth, but it doesn't get uptaken or absorbed by your body.

 

to create a transition back into what i'm doing, the rdi for fluoride - ingested - is 4 mg/day. i'm not even getting .1 mg, as far as i can tell.

so, don't eat toothpaste, kids - but maybe consider using a bioavailable type of fluoride that you can absorb as you're brushing.

i'm doing everything right, except the thing i can't fix, which is living in the filth created by those around me.

the novamin sensodyne i'm using is .2299% sodium fluoride, which is .104% fluoride. this is higher than their other products. the pronamel is .1450% sodium fluoride, and the recommendation is .1-.15%.

rather, it seems like i may benefit from stannous fluoride rather than sodium fluoride. they used to put stannous fluoride in toothpaste, but replaced it with sodium fluoride, supposedly due to cosmetic concerns. but, the sodium fluoride is not considered effective against the kind of gumline cavities i'm picking up.

if there was fluoride in the water, i could get a lot of what i need from drinking coffee.

alas...

can i buy fluoride supplements and do it myself? i know that fluoride is toxic and i need to be careful with this. but...

it's bad to drink toothpaste. how bad?

he also suggested i may be brushing too hard, and there's a bit of a counterintuitive component to this.

if you brush too hard, and especially in the presence of dry mouth and in a higher acidity environment, you eliminate the gumline as a defense again erosion, actually contributing to tooth decay.

so, i may be doing too much.

but the basic problem is dehydration and everything else would be solved if i could solve that - something i've realized for quite a while, now.

so, what can i do to help heal my teeth?

- i need more fluoride

- i need more humidity

- i need cleaner air

there has to be some way to get fluoride from food.

and, if i can get this court case done with soon, i can take the cash and look at moving.

i put everything on this apartment being healthy, and it isn't.

i've never needed a filling before, in my life. ever. this is the first time. and, as it's sinking in, i'm getting angry about it.

and, no - i don't care about stupid racist yankee xtian holidays.

again...

second-hand smoke is not an annoyance, it's a health issue. the most obvious consequence of second-hand smoke is cancer - and it is well established that secondhand smoke is a leading cause of cancer.

but, you can ruin your neighbours' or family's teeth with bad habits, too.

worse, i seem to have woken up to the smokiest air in weeks :(.

so, i saw dentist today and he verified most of what i suspected.

- there were no signs of cavities from the x-rays, indicating that my teeth are fundamentally healthy.

- however, there were several cavities around the gumline, some worse than others

i am going in for cosmetic work, first, to eliminate some stains.

he said that, from what he could see, the problem was not really about sugar or poor hygiene but more about acidity. that is, it didn't look like my teeth were eaten away by sugar or not brushing so much as it looked like they were worn down by acidification. he suggested that this was more likely to be caused by dehydration and high acidic foods and that the only thing that could be done about it is to drink more water and consume less acidic foods, although it's the more water thing that is the more important consideration. and, i'm not sure how i could drink more water than i do.

further, he agreed that the deficit of fluoride in the water may be the reason that my dental health has deteriorated since moving here but argued that this is manageable by using higher fluoride toothpaste. i'm already using high fluoride toothpaste.

he also agreed that there was previous work and it wasn't clear to him what was done. he seemed confused by it. this is largely upholding my suspicion that the previous work is the root of the problem.

i would have never imagined that the air could by dried out and damaged so much as to give me cavities, but that seems to be the reality. and, i think the best thing i can do is move to get away from the dirty, dry air in this apartment. 

my landlord has ruined my teeth with his dehumidifier and second-hand smoke :(.

so, there is apparently a lone facility in canada that is capable of making a vaccine of this type.

what's going on here?

contracts with a specific company? kickbacks? somebody buddy with somebody?

this is the kind of corruption that has become the norm with this government, and it seems as though people are literally going to die due to it. the opposition needs to figure this out, but it's easy enough to put 2 & 2 together and realize that somebody's getting paid this way, and wouldn't be otherwise.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/politics/article-canada-will-get-covid-19-vaccines-after-other-countries-due-to-lack-of/

just an update on the karen case.

i finally got a response from her when i filed the form 10, but it was just to ask for an extension "due to covid-19", which is just a bullshit excuse. as far as i can tell, her paralegal dumped her at the last minute, but that's hardly an excuse given that she should have filed a response in march and has only been given this long due to covid-19, in the first place.

i've indicated that i don't consent to the request, which unleashed an entitled tirade about how she's a victim of harassment (a claim rejected by the court), that i'm a vexatious litigator (in fact, i've won both of the two cases i've seen go to trial at the landlord and tenant board, and that is the extent of the litigation i've launched and seen to fruition), that i'm stupid (i was a gifted child.) and uneducated (while i only have an undergraduate math degree, i have more completed university credits than most phd students, including enough to get a master's degree in math, a bsc in computer science and an undergraduate degree in the sociology of law) and don't understand what i'm doing and that she'll have me thrown back in jail at once if she feels inclined to.

it's really something else - this is somebody that's clearly never been challenged by anybody. she was no doubt raised as a princess by wealthy parents, and has been conditioned to act like an aristocrat since the day she was born. in the face of a challenge to her authority, she's completely melted into a ball of idiocy, like a petulant child.

i sent a series of emails this evening systematically debunking each of her claims (as i tend to do) with facts and evidence. she's been completely dismantled, completely destroyed.

but, the point of importance is this - she was supposed to file a response a long time ago. the court sent her a letter at the beginning of november telling her to file by the 17th or forfeit the case. so, this didn't sneak up on her - it's been clear for months that this was imminent. and, instead of filing a response, she's sent a series of snotty, abusive, demeaning letters full of false information to court staff demanding special treatment, which i've now shown to be full of false information.

if she wanted leniency in good faith, she would have filed a response. she does not - she is not intending to file one. she doesn't think she's required to. she thinks it's beneath her to acknowledge the accusations. as i expected...

she might still get leniency, but she doesn't deserve it; she's done everything she possibly can to harm herself and the court would be well within it's jurisdiction and well within precedent to tell her time's up and award me damages at once.

i couldn't have asked for a better outburst.

if you find western liberalism enraging and offensive then you need to be destroyed and defeated.

and, i'm not a spineless, appeasing relativist - i will see you as the enemy of freedom you are and seek to wipe you right out.

(in a civilized manner, of course. i will defeat you with words, not with violence. unless i must defend myself from yours....)

when you target somebody in that way, it's called harassment.

and, i'm not interested in the specious theories of contemporary social scientists. what i am interested in is existing legal precedent and case law in the context of the western legal tradition, and those are the arguments you will hear from me in return - whether they enrage and offend you or not.

they took the age restriction down when i appealed.

if anybody knows who is making these frivolous complaints, let me know. 

one of the complaints is that they're letting the "big box" stores stay open. and, i mean, think it through.

how many thousands or tens of thousand of people go through your average walmart per day? do you think that's going up or down with everything else closed?

and, how many go to a small shop somewhere, or a pub or a restaurant?

what is promoting spread, here? 

does it make more sense to send everybody to the same couple of stores or does it make more sense to spread people out?

if they were serious, they'd close the big stores and leave the little ones open. right?

it's for show - it's political theatre. because people are scared, and need the nanny state to protect them. they have to 'do something'.

but, it's not acceptable - we must stand not with the business owners, but with the customers trying to exist. it's the right to enjoy a meal with your friends or family that is important here, not the bottom line of the restaurant owners.

listen - i understand that this is a scary, challenging time for people that are at risk of this virus. but, they need to take responsibility for their own risk factors - they need to stay out of bad situations, and they need to tell people that might harm them to stay the fuck away from them. it's on them; nobody will do it for them.

and, the state needs to concern itself with things that will make a substantive difference, not telling young & healthy people that they can't eat chicken wings together in a public place because it might spread to somebody at risk that hasn't taken the necessary precautions.

life's hard.

people die if they're dumb. that's a constant, not restricted to the current moment.

i'd rather hand out darwin awards.

good. this is long overdue and the kind of dissent we need right now.

i'm finding myself with strange allies recently, it is true. but, i don't fault myself for it. the spectrum is truly in flux.

i am still a communist. that hasn't changed. i'm just more disenfranchised than i used to be, and less willing to identify a lesser evil than i once was - because the establishment left has truly become indiscernible from the establishment right. 

it's really a return of class as a political identity marker, even as the establishment types reject it more and more. they can reject it all they want - they're just rejecting the simple truth right in front of their noses.

and, it's actually up to people like me to organize these folks. 

is it much different than it was 150 years ago? or 50 years ago? the left has always had this problem with the political orientation of workers being less than ideal. what's happened is that the bourgeoisie has managed to masquerade as a fake left by playing itself off against a fascist, aristocratic hard right, and that has confused a lot of people, at the supposed end of history.

but, history's still going, as far as i can tell. and, leftist organizers face the same challenges that they always did.

they are fundamentally correct to resist and the right thing to do is stand with them. these restrictions are neither necessary nor effective, they are political repression. 

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/adamson-bbq-toronto-indoor-dining-lockdown-1.5815715

they put an age restriction on this, which is just censorship.

i can understand why some people might not like this - and that's fine, i don't like them, either - but there's nothing age specific about it.

it's actually a very correct deconstruction of the mistakes people make about this song.

there's a post coming for the pasta bowl, but what about the seeds and peels of the items i'm eating now? 

we already talked about banana peels (which i decided were just too filling to eat) and capsicum seeds (which i still have a stash of in the fridge). i'm also leaning towards grinding up guava seeds. but, let's be more systematic in trying to figure out how to consume these items, if i'm going to at all. i'm wondering, for example, if baking avocado peels or seeds and adding it to the pasta bowl is a good idea - that way i could eat the avocado fruit for breakfast, and use the peel for lunch. that might even help keep costs down by removing something else. so, how can i be resourceful about this, in ensuring i'm getting maximum nutrition for minimal cost?

avocado

if you search for information about avocado pits, you'll see a lot of poorly written articles, arguing one thing or the other. they all want to tell a narrative about how they're "unsafe" or "harmless" or "healthy", but none of them provide much data to back up their claims.

it took quite a while for me to find this article:

https://pdfs.semanticscholar.org/3e21/cdcf5bef6f698852634628e6636903ad9bbb.pdf

i was hoping it might have some more vitamin e and maybe some b5 in it, it is after all a seed, but it really doesn't seem like it.

so, should we eat avocado seeds? are they "safe"? i'm going to have to argue that they're just not that nutritious - that all you're going to get out of a 20 g seed is a decent shot of vitamin c, which is just going to get destroyed if you try to cook it, which is likely necessary to get around the persin.

likewise, i can't find any useful data about avocado peels, although what i've learned is that you'd better cook them good if you want to think about eating them. so, for example, you could consider baking them, or perhaps frying them. but, i'm not seeing any good reason to, at this point. while it is true that they appear to be high in polyphenols, and that is what most of the research seems to be focused on, these are the types of antioxidants that we can't absorb. so, you'd have to crush it up and inject it, or it won't do anything at all. on top of that, frying or baking has the potential to destroy whatever might be useful.

so, i'd like to find a use for these extra avocado parts, but it seems like i'm going to have to just dump them in the woods. unfortunately...

guava

i've been putting the guava seeds (and the syrup they're housed in) in the freezer for about a month now, and i have a full margarine container of them, at this point. i was hoping to grind them up, but i'm again not seeing any reason to think that would be helpful. these seeds are very, very hard and the only research i've found is, again, about things like polyphenols and "essential oils". if there are any vitamins, i can't prove it - so i don't see the use in bothering.

what i think i should do is begin to dissolve this part of the fruit in a solution of water and then strain the seeds out to discard them. i can do this as i'm preparing the meal; i should be able to get a small, usable strainer the next time i go shopping.

again: if you have any links to studies exploring the nutritional content of the seeds, let me know. but, the fact that they're tiny and rock hard suggests to me that they'd be hard to study. i guess you'd have to dry them out and grind them up into a powder, but what seems to be done instead is press them into an oil - which just leaves things that aren't that useful.

banana

as analyzed previously, banana peels do seem to offer some benefits, but they're just too fattening. i couldn't get through the smoothie - it just filled me up. nor am i in need of vitamin e, anymore - i solved that. i'm also getting enough potassium, it seems. that said, doing another scouring run through google has brought up the issue of lutein, which appears to be of legitimate value (along with the other obscure carotenoids) and seems to be quite high in the peels, when they're still yellow. i'm going to guess you could probably even leach it out and drink it. that's a real possibility, even if i haven't decided on it yet.

strawberry

again - i wish i could find better data, not just poorly written websites that provide anecdotes and narratives. i would imagine that strawberry leaves are high in vitamin k and vitamin c, but i can't prove it. it could be a useful add to the pasta bowl, if not the fruit bowl.

and, with that, i think i can start clearing some things out of the freezer.

what should they do in france?

well, i'm actually more or less on board with shutting down the religious schools, and would support that done here, too. i've long supported the abolition of the catholic school system in ontario, and would support a total ban on all religion in schools. i would agree that this is a big part of the problem; there needs to be a stronger focus on secularizing children, and helping them evolve past the faith of their parents. get to 'em when they're young.

again: i'm a socialist. we're like that. "religious liberty" is a conservative idea. on the left, we think that religion is organized ignorance and that smashing through it is a necessity to move forward, as a society. the question is what the best way to do it is, and most of us realize that you need to be careful, because if you're too tyrannical about it, it just backfires. but, leftists have never supported ideas about the rights of individuals to worship in freedom - that has always been a right-wing idea. what the left has always concerned itself with is what approach to eliminating religion is going to work - we want to succeed in destroying religion, once and for all. and, we're not just saying that. we really do.

one is not free to worship; religion is organized slavery. one emancipates themselves from religion. so, "religious freedom" is orwellian doublethink. religion and freedom simply cannot co-exist.

so, i can at least get behind the things he's doing in the schools, to an extent. i haven't seen the details.

but, there seems to be a common theme regarding the violence in france - it's not coming from kids that are raised in france (whatever their origin, or whatever the religion of their parents), but rather from very recent immigrants. the issue in austria was different, and maybe an outlier......and it will be impossible to eliminate all religious violence, as well. let's set our bounds here - freedom of thought means the right to be retarded. so, you're going to have idiots and you can't prevent it...

but, case after case in france shows that the problem is that the immigration policies are simply too lax. they seem to let anybody in. and, some of the people that get there seem to undergo extreme culture shocks, and lash out in violence.

despite attempts to suggest otherwise, none of these attacks seem to be organized. rather, they seem to reflect the extreme levels of alienation experienced by muslim immigrants into a society that broadly doesn't care much for it's values. and, that's actually not that hard of a problem to solve.

1) they need better screening. if you ask people certain things, you may be surprised - and appalled - by what they tell you. maybe it's time to stop assuming people have universal values and are fundamentally good and ask them what they think about specific things, instead. and, maybe it's ok to judge them for it, if you don't like it.

2) they need better integration. not just social systems (which are no doubt drastically underfunded in the neo-liberal period), but social workers. people to call new immigrants and ask them how they're doing. places for them to meet, and people to help them fit in and explain how things are different in france than they are in the places they come from.

3) they need exit strategies to help people leave if they decide that it's too much, they don't like it and they want to go home.

but, they cannot waver.

and, i will continue to stand with the french republic, even as i criticize them for reacting poorly. we must not let the mistakes of a foolish leader undo solidarity for the system that birthed the modern world. the french will get through this - and we must stand with them, not with the enemy.

while i would actually support rather extreme action taken directly against religion in france, it's been clear from the start that this wasn't what macron intended to do.

this is frustrating. macron is saying many of the right things and identifying many of the right things that need to be done, but then when you look at what he's actually doing, he's just playing right into the hands of the muslims, christians and other fascists. 

it's almost enough to make you wonder if he's getting pay checks from the saudis, and if this is all a false flag to bring in islamic rule.

needless to say, i oppose virtually all of this.

https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2020/11/france-about-become-less-free/617195/

i mean, what if this was actually a serious health issue?

we'd be dying in the streets, because we closed the vaccine factories down in a fit of absolute stupidity and reckless corporate greed.

we will need to pry this kool-aid out of their cold, dead hands.

if ours don't end up cold and dead, first.

in fact, this is one of the laundry list issues i remember citing during alter-globalization protests in the 90s.

turns out we were right.

again.

but, why did it take six months to put the kool-aid down? and, did they even put the kool-aid down, or did they just hide it under the blanket, like the kool-aid addicts that they are?

if they don't learn from this, we're hopelessly screwed.

https://nationalpost.com/news/canada/trudeau-warns-covid-19-vaccine-will-come-later-to-canada-than-other-countries

openly defying these fascist laws in this way is the kind of leadership we need right now. let's hope it inspires others to disobey, as well, and leads to a mass movement against these restrictions.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/covid-19-coronavirus-ontario-november-24-numbers-update-1.5813941

lol.

this karen's not the brightest. she just made a complete ass out of herself, and it could be exactly what i needed to take a longshot money grab - this is a lot of money for me, if maybe not for her - from a hail mary to a calculated, carefully executed brady completion.

i'll need some good luck, still.

but, i'm almost there.

a few more entitled eruptions like that and the judge'll give me everything i want.

the karen wants an exception.

of course.

this is the first part.

it's actually the second part that this is really about, as the dressing is going to have around twenty ingredients. the pasta chart is going to be crowded, on it's own.

but, this is far more readable, and this will be far more useful in the long run:

		fruit bowl (12:00)															coffee
		guava raw cut 1-2 30 g	banana raw cut 1 118 g	straw berry raw cut 4-8 100 g	avocado raw cut 2 150 g	kiwi raw cut 1 69 g	van soy milk light 1.6 cups 400 ml	cherry ice cream 1 scoop 150 ml (82.5 g)	cherry yogurt 2 tbsp 50 g	nut yeast 1 tsp 3+ g	vector cereal 1/4 cup 15 g	all bran 3/4 cup 45 g	ground flax seed 1 tbsp 7 g	algal oil 1 tsp	sum	bounds	coffee 1 cup 350 ml	choc soy 50 ml	total
	raison d'etre	b5,8 c s	b5,7  b20 c mn	b5,9 c s mn	b3,5,7 b8,9,16 b20,c,e k1,f1,s k	b5,8 b20 c,e k1 s	a b3,4,5 b7,9,12 b16,20 d,f1,f2 ca	a b5,7 b12,13 b16,20 k2	a b5 b12 b20	b1,2 b3,4 b5,6 b7,9 b12 b16	a b5,7,9 b15,20 e	b3,5,7 b8,9,15 b16,20 e,f1 mg,p,k fe,cu,zn	b7 f2	f3 f4
	calories	20.4	105	32	240	42	96	168	17.5	11.25	59.2	125	37.4	-	953.75	<1000	0	32	985.75
	cost	.40	.15	.77	.96	.39	.99	.43	.19	.13	.14	.39	.04	-	$4.98	<$3.33??	.10	.12	$5.20
v i t a m i n l i k e c o m p o u n d s	a retinol (900 μg rae)	9.3 μg	3.54 μg	1 μg	10.5 μg	2.76 μg	16 %	9.6 %	3 %	0	~ 4.0909 %	0	0	-	35.5 r:32.5 c:3	30<r<100	0	r:2 %	37.5 r:34.5 c:3
	b1 thiamin (1.2 mg)	.0201 mg	.037 mg	.024 mg	.101 mg	.019 mg	12.8 %	0.033825 mg	3 %	155.625 %	~ 5.4545 %	75 %	.115 mg	-	281 u:29	>125	4 %	1.5 %	286.5
	b2 [g, j] riboflavin (1.3 mg)	.012 mg	.086 mg	.022 mg	.195 mg	.017 mg	40 %	.198 mg	5 %	144.375 %	~ 6.5454 %	12.5 %	.011 mg	-	250 u:41.5	>131	20.5 %	5 %	275.5%
	b3 niacin (16 mg)	.3252 mg	.785 mg	.386 mg	2.61 mg	.235 mg	16 %	.0957 mg	.059 mg	65.625 %	~ 9.8181 %	31.25 %	.216 mg	-	152 n:60.5 f:91.5	>125 f<200	4 %	2 %	158 n:64.5 f:93.5
	b4* adenine (75 mg)	?	1.416 mg	0.5 mg	15.9 mg	?	30.88 mg	1.9449375 mg	1.025 mg	49.38 mg	0.6 mg	1.8 mg	?	-	138	>100	?	5 %	143
	b5 pantothenic acid (5 mg)	.1353 mg	.394 mg	.125 mg	2.08 mg	.126 mg	24 %	0.479325 mg	.194 mg	2.25 %	~ 5.1818 %	10 %	.069 mg	-	113.5 u:72	>110	18 %	3 %	134.5
	b6 pyridoxine (1.7 mg)	.033 mg	.433 mg	.047 mg	.386 mg	.043 mg	9.6 %	.0396 mg	.029 mg	133.125 %	~ 6.8181 %	12.5 %	.033 mg	-	223 u:61	>118	0	1 %	224
	b7 [h] biotin (35 μg)	? μg	1.652 μg	0.8 μg	7.95 μg	.966 μg	15.6 μg	2.145 μg	1 μg	45 %	~ 23.3766 %	7.515 μg	2.52 μg	-	183 u:114.5	>171	0	5.5	188.5
	b8* inositol (1000 mg)	30 mg	0 mg	13 mg	69 mg	93.84 mg	27.552 mg	7.425 mg	8 mg	14.85 mg	.75 mg	123.3 mg	13.65 mg	-	40	>30	0	1	41
	b9 [m, b11, r] folic acid (400 μg dfe)	14.7 μg	23.6 μg	24 μg	122 μg	17.2 μg	n:9.6 f:0 %	4.125 μg	1 μg	35.625 %	~ 9.2727 %	12.5 %	6.09 μg	-	120 n:62.5 f:57.5	>100 f<133	1.75 %	1.25 %	123
	b12 [t] cobalamin (2.4 μg)	0	0	0	0	0	80 %	.6435 μg	7.5 %	187.5 %	0	0	0	-	301.5 n:34 f:267.5	>250 n>30	0	10 %	311.5 n:34 f:277.5
	b13* orotic acid (10 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	12.890625 mg	2.578125 mg	-	-	-	-	-	155	>100	-	-	155
	b14* taurine (100 mg)	0	0	0	0	0	0	1.5675 mg	1.65 mg	0	0	0	0	-	3.2	t:>120 --->	-	-	--->
	b15* betaine (550 mg)	0.03 mg	.118 mg	.2 mg	1.05 mg	.345 mg	3.2 mg	.9075 mg	.35 mg	0	25.5 mg	162 mg	.217 mg	-	35	>30	~ 0	~ 0	35
	b16* choline (550 mg)	2.28 mg	11.6 mg	5.7 mg	21.3 mg	5.38 mg	96 mg	21.45 mg	8 mg	12.3 mg	2.85 mg	22.05 mg	5.51 mg	-	39	>30	~ 1.68 %	~ 2.23 %	43
	b20* [I] l-carnitine (29 mg)	.06 mg	.236 mg	0 mg	1.95 mg	.138 mg	.24 mg	3.3 mg	2.0 mg	.072 mg	.225 mg	.675 mg	.0357 mg	-	30.5	30>s>35	0	0	30.5
	c ascorbate (90 mg)	68.4 mg	10.3 mg	58.8 mg	15 mg	64 mg	0	0	0	0	~ 6.8181 %	0	.042 mg	-	247 u:240.5	>234	0	0	247
	d calciferol (15 μg)	0	0	0	0	0	d2: 72 %	d3: .165 μg	d3: 7.5 %	0	d3: ~ 1.6363 %	0	0	-	82 u:1.1 d2:72 d3:10	>40	0	d2: 9 %	91 d2:81 d3:10
	e alpha- tocopherol (15 mg)	.219 mg	.118 mg	.29 mg	3.1 mg	1.01 mg	.24 mg	.2475 mg	0 mg	0 mg	~ 9.8181 %	.5355 mg	0.022 mg	-	48 n:38.5	>40 n>30	0	0	48 n:38.5
	f1* linoleic acid (17 g)	.0864 g	.0543 g	.09 g	2.511 g	.17 g	2.24 g	.226875 g	0	0	~ .32727 g	.837 g	.414	-	6.95684772727 g 40.9%	>30	0	.4 g 2.35%	7.35684772727 g 43.25%
	f2* alpha linolenic acid (1.6 g)	.0336 g	.0319 g	.065 g	.167 g	.029 g	.32 g	.144375 g	0	0	~ .05454 g	.0639 g	1.597 g	-	2.50632045454 g 156.67 %	>30	0	.06 g 3.75%	2.56632045454 g 160.42%
	f3* eicosa pentaenoic acid (0.375 g)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	+	30+	-	-	-	-
	f4* docosa hexaenoic acid (0.250 g)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	+	30+	-	-	-	-
	f1:(f2+f3+f4) ratio	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	2.775	-	-	-	2.867
	k1 phyllo quinone  (120 μg)	.78 μg	.59 μg	2.2 μg	31.5 μg	27.8 μg	11.712 μg	.2475 μg	.1 μg	0	.136 μg	2.34 μg	.301 μg	-	65	30<s<67	0	1	66
	k2 mena quinone  (180 μg)	0	0	0	0	0	0	~ 55.85 μg	~ 0 μg	0	0	0	0	0	31	30<s<67	0	0	31
	k1+k2	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	96	90<s<110	0	0	96
	s* salicylic acid (10 mg)	.606 mg	0	1.36 mg	.9 mg	.2208 mg	0	0.085 mg	.0425 mg	.024 mg	0	0	0	0	32	>30	17.5 %	0	49.5
e l e m e n t s	f fluorine (4000 μg)	-	2.6 μg	4.4 μg	10.5 μg	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-		17.5 μg 0.44 %	-	-	-	-
	na sodium (1500 mg)	.6 mg	1.18 mg	1 mg	10.5 mg	2.07 mg	48 mg	54 mg	27.5 mg	5.625 mg	~ 56.2 mg	237.5 mg	2.1 mg	-	446 29.75%	-	-	-	-
	mg magnesium (420 mg)	6.6 mg	31.9 mg	13 mg	43.5 mg	11.7 mg	32 %	-	-	.9 %	~ 5.45 %	62.5 %	27.4 mg	-	133	-	-	-	-
	p phosphorus (1250 mg)	12 mg	26 mg	24 mg	78 mg	23.5 mg	16 %	-	4 %	3 %	~ 3.55 %	37.5 %	44.9 mg	-	80.5	-	-	-	-
	s sulfur (?)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	cl chlorine (2.3 g)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	.3 %	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	k potassium (3400 mg)	125.1 mg	422 mg	153 mg	728 mg	215 mg	368 mg	-	90 mg	~ 64.13 mg	~ 43.1 mg	475 mg	56.9 mg	-	2740.23 80.6%	-	-	-	-
	ca calcium (1300 mg)	5.4 mg	5.9 mg	16 mg	18 mg	23.5 mg	48 %	4.8 %	5 %	0	~ .818 %	5 %	17.8 mg	-	70	-	-	-	-
	cr chromium (.035 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	mn manganese (2.3 mg)	.045 mg	.319 mg	.386 mg	.213 mg	.068 mg	-	-	-	.9 %	~ .3 mg	-	.174 mg	-	53	-	-	-	-
	fe iron (18 mg)	.078 mg	.307 mg	.41 mg	.825 mg	.214 mg	16 %	-	0	.1875 mg	~ 8.45 %	43.75 %	.401 mg	-	81.5	-	-	-	-
	cu copper (.9 mg)	.069 mg	.092 mg	.048 mg	.285 mg	.09 mg	-	-	-	1.2 %	~ .136 mg	.468 mg	.085 mg	-	143	-	-	-	-
	zn zinc (11 mg)	.069 mg	.177 mg	.14 mg	.96 mg	.097 mg	16 %	-	-	3.75 %	~ 13.6 %	31.25 %	.304 mg	-	80.5	-	-	-	-
	se selenium (55 μg)	.18 μg	1.18 μg	.4 μg	.6 μg	.138 μg	-	-	-	6 %	-	4.23 μg	1.78 μg	-	21.5	-	-	-	-
	mo molybdenum (.045 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	16.05 %	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	i iodine (.15 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	~ 15.8 %	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-

i will continue to post them all together, but this is a quick update for now.