so, after caving into various self-rationalizations over the first
half of september, i've been de-nicing the last few days and have every
intention to stick with it this time. i've said that for a long time.
but, i've got my income stable for the next five years, i'm no longer in
a hurry to do much of anything and i'm very much intent on getting over
this. i had a little heatstroke when i got back on tuesday night and
have been sleeping that off as well, but i think i'm alert enough now to
at least try and get the machine back up.
i turned it
off tuesday morning right before the script runs. i'm going to want to
make sure i can get the firewire drivers correctly working before i run
the script.
i didn't get my forms on tuesday. it turns
out that the psychiatrist has to fill them out, and i'll have to wait
until monday. nor does it seem as though the nurse practitioner is going
to carry through with my prescriptions. he claims he'll work as a go
between if i can find an endocrinologist, but he won't work with the guy
from london because he claims he's unprofessional, which i think is a
cop out - i think it's a religious thing, again. he said he put out a
referral, but i'm kind of sketchy on it. i'm not convinced it's even a
real person. but we'll find out. if i don't have an answer by monday,
i'm going to have to get in contact with the guy in london.
i
can't think of any reason why i should need to actually go to london
and physically speak with him. i'm just asking for a refill of something
i've been on for years and will be on for the rest of my life. it
should be a five minute conversation, and it's not really necessary.
and, if he insists on a blood test or something, i don't see any reason
why i can't just get the blood test here and have the results sent to
him.
the ideal remains trying to get the guy in windsor
to see me because then i can indulge whatever silliness he wants at
essentially no cost to me.
i'll find out these things in a few days.
and i think i should have the machine up in a few hours, even if i need to spend a few more days sleeping to finish the detox.