Wednesday, July 1, 2026

i was able to get the rest of the shelving in place last night before i fell asleep. i need another day or two but i'm almost done. i also got through all of those 14 cds except ep7, so we're moving to cataloging the warner list tonight before i get back to work for tomorrow morning.

the next ten will be 

pelican - australasia
hot hot heat - future breeds
belle and sebastien - dog on wheels single
fuck buttons - street horrsing
gorecki - symphony of sorrowful songs
mike keneally - the universe will provide
ps i love you 2008 ep
radiohead - airbag / how am i driving?
radiohead - karma police digipack single
animal collective - feels
i'm an extreme example. the shift in policy from carbon taxes, which are an extremely progressive form of taxation, to upper class tax cuts, which is extremely regressive taxation, will not cost your average taxpayer over $30,000 in the long run. 

however, carney's analysis is not based on math or facts, it's based on flawed political perception. it's magical thinking.

the actual facts are that most people are going to be worse off as a result of this shift, albeit not by as much, and they should slowly figure it out over the next few months, as the right-wing propaganda wears off and individual budgets assert themselves. people are going to realize they have less money now than they did a year or two ago and realize it's because they took away the carbon rebates, without sufficiently replacing them (unless you're rich. then you get a big tax cut this year. but that's only going to be the case for a very small percentage of people. most people are going to come up short.).

it's not entirely clear what the political ramifications will be once people realize they're actually economically worse off after having the carbon tax cancelled than they were when the carbon tax was in place. the political class seems to be trying to blame the decrease in income caused by the reversal of the carbon tax on grocery stores, on trump or on the phony war in the persian gulf. the phony war may have some minimal effect on inflation, but it won't be a fraction of the income lost from the removal of the carbon rebate for the vast majority of canadians. canadians should just stop to do the math and realize that they're $200 short this july because the government took the rebate away. however, canadians have proven that they're pretty stupid and pretty bad at math, so they might fall for the deflections and the liberals might get away with what is in truth a pretty devastatingly bad policy for low to medium income canadians, at the benefit of the corporate sector and the rich.
there are two major ballot issues that my votes in upcoming political cycles will be based on:

1) i will not support any political party unless it is explicitly secular
2) i will not vote for any party unless it promises to bring back carbon taxes

unless you take not one but both of these positions, you're wasting your time with me. i won't vote for you.
always good to make time for the classics.


it would have been expensive for canadian industry, but highly beneficial for individual canadians, who bought the corporate propaganda like the uneducated lumberjack retards that we truly are.

i'm personally out hundreds of dollars a years due to the change from carbon taxes to upper class tax cuts that my income is too low to qualify for and that was set to rise to thousands of dollars a year. the difference is a net decrease in my personal wealth of upwards of $30,000 overall, which i would have profited off of by not using carbon as an energy source. that $30,000 would have ultimately been transferred to me from users of fossil fuels, mostly industry, and consumers that support dirty industry.

the long term effect of trump on the culture of the republican party appears to be the adoption of what republicans once called a "victim complex", when they criticized hillary clinton for it in the 90s. in fact, a stark and objective comparison between clinton and trump on the question of actual policy would be enlightening. americans thought they were avoiding a hillary presidency and they basically got 12 years of it (in truth, 20 years of it!) in disguise.

poor america. it always loses. aww. so sad. 

take pity on the wretched americans.

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

i spent the whole afternoon and evening cleaning the front of the house up, cleared out the next area to get in order and crashed late in the evening, and have been doing some loose ends over night. i have listened to most of the 14 cds i pulled out, and have pulled out ten more, for tomorrow or the next day:

80-90s warner/sire/elektra/atlantic for the historical lists:
ministry - psalm 69
cure - wish
tori amos - little earthquakes
mike oldfield - tubular bells III <---actually, cd is missing, and has been since 2017. it might be in a different case i haven't found yet.
ministry - land of rape and honey
jane's addiction - nothing's shocking

later time-warner reissue:
mbv - isn't anything (creation release)

others:
white stripes - elephant
i mother earth - earth, sky and everything in between
i mother earth - dig

those are the next ten for the lists.

there's a litter of kittens sleeping outside my window and i've caught the mother cat checking me out, but the mother cat doesn't seem to be that concerned about me. if anything, it may have been asking for food from me, but it was completely silent in it's interactions. it's twice the size of the previous cat, but is the same colour. is it possible that the cat came back, with kittens? there's a certain eye blinky thing that cats do when they appreciate and trust you, and it's understandable that it was doing that after i pulled it out of a vent. i think this cat might have come back here anyways. i've met enough cats to know that intelligence is rare in cats, and normal in dogs, but it does exist. this was an unusually bright cat. i'll need to figure this out in the next few days.

i think the cat can sleep by my window if it wants, if it feels safe. it is a safe space to sleep, and it's lush, and green. it seems to run along in the morning. it may actually be an abyssinian breed; whatever it is, it's large and thin.

i took some pictures of the front space, which i'm calling the library, this morning:

this is walking out of the studio into the hall towards the door (the library), where i've installed all of the shelving:


you can see the three cd shelves and the big book shelf. the white shelf on the other wall is going to be moved out of there and replaced with a second black book shelf. there's going to be a stationary bicycle in front of it, beside the couch, or on the other side (i might put a small table there, instead).

this is my current reference library, which i need to catalog and rebuild (it should be twice that size).


i was skeptical about these cubes for books, but as you can see they're just about perfect for library-style reference or text books, which i have a lot of and have long needed something like this for. this is an overdue solution. that system of ten cubes was $30 and i bought three of them. three of six rows are QA comp/math textbooks, but there's a cube full of law books and a row of history books, along with the various other topics i've dabbled in (physics, chemistry, biology, psychology, philosophy, engineering, music, economics, politics, anthropology, etc). it's very incomplete but is not a bad start and it's nice to get it all out of the boxes after way too long.

this is the (previously) broken cd shelf:


i got that big cd shelf on kijiji for $5 in the last basement. it was the perfect size, so i decided that it didn't matter that it was falling apart and crumbling, i'd just glue and tape it together. i was able to hold it together through two moves, but the young person that helped me move last time tried to prove his strength by lifting it straight up, which was dumb, and it caved in. so, it's been sitting in pieces for months. it took some effort to put it back together with glue, tape and finishing nails, but the thing about this shelving unit is that the back is extremely sturdy, so it will stay upright so long as you can get it connected to the sides. the bottom is really cosmetic. this shelf is intentionally upside down because the legs make good cd bookends for the top row. that will be full of cds soon enough.

next to that is the small cd shelf:


when i found this on the curb, i had to rebuild it with liquid wood, and i cut the shelves out of an older shelving unit, but it's held ever since. i was using this for books in the last basement. it will have cds down here. that's an old box of warped cassettes and dvds i've never played. don't buy me dvds...i never watch things....

this is a picture of the window on the bottom front side of the apartment, which i fixed the screen on, cleaned up, sealed for holes, realigned and put the curtain in for. 


that's an old curtain i've had for a long time and a new heavy duty curtain rod with rod holders that are screwed into a blind holder device that was already screwed into the wall.  so i didn't have to make new holes for the curtains because i could just screw them into the things for the blinds. there's some push pins in the walls that exist to get the curtains away from the window to let the sun in (good during the winter). there are some blinds i found here in a box in the back.

this is the main cd shelf, which i ordered from walmart, with a few more cds on it, on the wall perpendicular to the wall i was previously discussing.


i still need to build customized shelves for this. the height is ideal. there will be a 4th cd shelf placed right beside this one, where i currently have boxes of cds sitting.

this is the little bit of wall beside the main cd shelf:


it currently has cds that are on their way to the shelf (about 75% of total, with the other 25% in the other room) and shelving on it's way into the garage to get cut. i will eventually put a 4th (1st) cd shelf where those boxes are. the four shelves together should hold me for quite a while, if i can stay here.

this is the second of two small shelves i found on the curb near the previous basement:
 

i was not able to save this shelf the way i saved the other one, until this month. it's good, now; it just needs shelves. this unit, however, is not going in the library but is rather going in the studio and will hold various electronic devices not being immediately used. i will instead put a second cube shelf in this space to exand the reference library further, and probably put a stationary bicycle there as well. this location is good for the bike because of the placement of the stereo dead ahead, in front of the couch, so i can listen to music while exercising on the stationary bike. the only piece of exercise equipment i need or want is a bike, but i may put some effort into finding a good one.

this is a picture coming up on the front door.


i will prefer to use the side door to come in and out and use the garage internally and to take bikes in and out, so there will be little to no traffic in and out of here in the long run, but there is now until the side door gets fixed. i will not expect to worry about boots or shoes through here much. there will be a carpet on the other side of that door, and i may put one in here, too. it should be seen more as a hallway and less as an entrance. all of that area was aggressively caulked and sealed to plug holes and drafts..

i recently found this third small shelf on the curve, which is actually in good shape and just needed to be wiped down:


you can see the door on the side, one of my bicycles in the back (for now), the charging table in the cubby hole and the wired video doorbell system installed on the wall. i am using this new small shelf for now as temporary storage to hold items going in and out of the garage, but it may end up holding boxes of items intended to be used in the garage (bike tools, guitar tools).

this is the charging table:


i don't actually know what that table is supposed to be for. it might be a desk, it might be a changing table or it might have some unclear religious significance. it was here when i moved in. the bicycle will be moved behind the door soon, i just need to fix some things in the garage first. you can see the extension cord, with usb charging outlets, as well as some rechargeable batteries and a rechargeable power drill. coming in here soon will be usb a and c hubs connected to anything that charges (and isn't a bathroom item), from cell phones to cameras to vacuums. this area was also aggressively caulked and sealed for holes. there is enough space to put a chair in here, which is where i'll install the pc i bought as a video security system.

this is the new bottom of the door:


there is a 3 inch gap under the door which apparently leads into the insides of the house, allowing entry into the unit from in behind the wall, which i want to seek to avoid. this gap would be a source of cold air in the winter, bugs and potentially rodents, although i've seen no sign of them there. i stuffed the gap up as best as i could with plastic packaging, crazy glued cardboard over it, covered over it with packing tape and sealed over it with weather proofing. this may appear to be borderline stupid at first glance, but the weatherproofing should keep the barrier sealed so long as there isn't a parade of winter boots, and there shouldn't be. any entry through the front door should actually leave boots and shoes upstairs and off the rugs, but almost all entry should be through the side. i need to be cognizant of what this is, but so long as i'm careful about it, it should hold and should act as a temperature and pest barrier.

some upgrades to the door itself:


i installed the door stop, which is rated for 800 lbs, and half of the chain. the component on the door was actually already there, so i just screwed the other part into the frame.

what i'm doing today is installing the remaining shelving in a corner of the recording studio outside my bedroom and hopefully setting up the main stereo system in front of the couch. the only stereo i've had in here to this point is a small system in the kitchen intended for watching youtube and listening to standalone cds on. this was all cleaned up and caulked before i slept last night and left to dry for the morning.


my studio shelf (with cds and other media for studio use or from studio production) goes in the corner backing into the bedroom, a plastic organizer with cords in it goes on the far side of the outlet and that white bookshelf goes on the close side of it.

the studio shelf:


the cord organizer:


the white shelf, again:


while i'm at it, here is a picture of my couch, in front of the stereo system that is about to get set up. 


that clears out the bulk of the apartment and just leaves the studio and the side entrance.

i'm focusing on the large amount of shelving first because the majority of clutter i have had in here since i moved in is items that exist in boxes and will end up on shelves - cds, books, devices, effects, cords, computers, etc. when i get these last shelves in place, i'm going to pick a pile of boxes up off the ground and put them on the shelves. but i had to fix the walls before i could move the shelves into place, and i had to do various things in the bathroom and laundry before i could fix the walls in the main area. i think i have enough caulking to finish, now. i'm really almost done.

i didn't want the garage to be last, but it's going to be almost last, unfortunately. i do necessarily have to finish the garage before i can clean out the side entrance because that's where most of it is going, and now i have to wait for the weather to dry out first.

i have a lot of little things to buy in these areas - tables, shelves, etc. i'm far from done. i've pointed these things out. but i'm getting much closer to a space that is installed and functional to work in, rather than this mess of boxes and clutter waiting to get organized.

i just have a huge amount of belongings and i need a large space to organize it all effectively. this is actually almost ideal for what i need, but it required a tremendous amount of work to fix up properly. i am getting much closer, and the next update will be even better.

Monday, June 29, 2026

i'm happy that we're getting some warmer weather here. the last few weeks have been too cold for me for this time of year. there's a really lush green that's taken hold here in the summer the last few seasons, due to a combination of the rain, heat and humidity. the vegetation looks so vibrant. it's very pleasant weather.
the book and cd cataloging is something i want to do but not at the expense of weeks of lost time.

let me get back to work a little, first.

i have enough cds to listen to as i sort through the rest of the things to do and can catalog them after.
it took a long time to get those debussy pieces entered, partly because i stopped to also add cover tracks and remasters to the chronology.

the two updated links are here:


it should be clear where i'm going with this now after 40 additions, and the next thing to do should be to finish updating the list of lists and start cataloguing the books, but  have to put it down for a few days. i've been sitting here for too long, now. i need to get back to cleaning in the front and putting everything away again, and i need to get some more paneling up. i can get back to that after.

 should actually get the basic shape of this space in place finally within a day or two.
trump's approach towards the illegitimate nazi dictatorship in control of syria is instructive as to how he's going to actually approach iran. trump is not on the side of democracy, he's on the side of fascism. it makes the situation really worse than appeasement. he's worse than chamberlain; it's a nightmare scenario where an american nazi like henry ford was president on the eve of wwII. trump is not the stupid kind of working class nazi that waves flags and chants slogans and marches downtown and gets beat up by the pigs; trump is the kind of business class nazi that is all about cartelization and class hierarchy. the real winners in a fascist state are not the aryan race but the banking class.

so, i don't want to drop the front against fascism in syria. the islamic supremacist syrian nazis need to be fought everywhere they're found. they can be given no quarter. they must be eradicated by the civilized forces of the free world, as dark of a period as we may find ourselves in. nobody is coming to save us, we have to do it ourselves.

however, i may tentatively support the idea - and i think i'm talking to marco rubio here, as unpredictable an outcome as that might have been a few years ago. - of tying american aid to syria to coordination with israel in fighting hezbollah. stated crudely, i would support telling the syrians that they're going to get cut off if they don't work with israel to eliminate hezbollah. also tied to these aid packages would need to be a requirement that syria absorb lebanon's unwanted shia refugee population, which the indigenous christians in lebanon have grown fed up with and want gone, and which are actually almost entirely syrian in origin. the syrians may want to ship them to the east and that might be good for everybody. these kinds of population transfers are unheard of in europe but are normal in this area and have been since the assyrians. shipping the shias in lebanon, who are not indigenous but almost solely refugees, to the east of syria or west of iraq would transfer them somewhere where they have a like-minded culture and get them out of the hair of the indigenous christians and jews of the western mediterranean.

hezbollah pretends that it is protecting an indigenous population in the region, but this is absurd, much like absurd claims that palestinians are indigenous. what we call palestinians are about 70% converted hebrews and about 30% colonizing arabs that invaded not in the 7th century but in the modern era. both lebanon and palestine were 90%+ christian from the byzantine period until the 1700s, and lebanon retained that identity until the 20th century. the islamic colonization of lebanon and genocide of the christians there is barely a generation old; it's concurrent, it's ongoing. living people could and should be held accountable for these crimes against humanity. both hamas and hezbollah are at the front of foreign-financed shia colonizing movements, with the purposeful intent to change the demographics of the region from christian and jewish to shia and arab. this process has it's roots in the armenian genocide, which in truth is ongoing. that's what you're supporting when you wave these flags and attend these marches - the current incarnation of the evolution of the armenian genocide. uneducated fake leftists that simply don't understand what they're supporting should be embarrassed by their ignorance and malleability as useful idiots, but you have to educate them before they can understand their fallacies. 

hezbollah is not protecting an indigenous population, they are unwanted invaders that the nominally democratic state has condemned and that are aggressively colonizing the region with the explicit intent of chasing out the indigenous christian groups.

shipping out the shia refugees to iraq would have the profound effect of pulling support for hezbollah out from underneath it. hezbollah requires constant immigration, in fact almost entirely from syria, in order to maintain it's support level. trump might not fully understand it, but he is actually hitting on something profound, here.

there was a lot of easily deconstructed propaganda about assad in western media. i'm not going to get into that here because he's gone and the russians have bailed entirely, but one of the points pushed by the west was that assad was an empty proxy for iran. there was little to no truth to that. in fact, assad was a secularist at the opposite end of the muslim political spectrum to the irgc and the iranians hated him, but they had to tolerate him because syria and iran were both russian allies. they had to go to the same meetings and get the same memos. there was some moderate to trivial coordination when the russians demanded it, but no active collaboration. they were more like bitter enemies forced to get along by moscow. syria was hardly an iranian proxy. in fact, assad would still be there, if he was one.

however, the basic issue brought up in western media of syria acting as a transit point between lebanon and iran hasn't changed and still needs to be addressed. this should be tied to western funding.

the demands on syria to maintain us funding, short of being dismantled and overthrown, should consequently be the following

1) take your shia refugees back from lebanon. all of them. do what you will with them.
2) coordinate with lebanon and israel in building a common front to just get hezbollah the fuck out of there and figure it out after
3) that includes preventing the desert from acting as a caravan transit medium
4) respect lebanon's sovereignty as a christian state and israel's sovereignty as a jewish state.

those should be seen as necessary but not sufficient conditions to tolerate the syrian government, which still must be expected to hold elections immediately. but you have to work with shitheads in the darkness of war. this is no time for moral purity. a pragmatic syria policy should be welcomed, if it's actually pragmatic and actually advances western goals.

Sunday, June 28, 2026

144.2.

i skipped meals at 146, 145. i actually need to stay on that a bit better. but the acne is peeling off, so it's working.

if my salad only gets me back up to 147ish, i could be into the soup in the next day or so, and then i'm looking at pulling things out of the fridge.
i posted the updated discogs link this morning that gets me up to 40 releases to start.

i've added a link to the pdf on my blogger list at the top, and cut it into a framey table. so i have the four lists now:


they're all at the top of the three blogger pages in a little framey table.

i only got three updated. i still need to update the debussy. but  need to eat. i'm pushing towards 153 and was supposed to eat at 156.

that means i might a little more this week to catch back up because i'm not skipping. today's meal is 156. the next is 155. the next is 154. if i eat more this week, it's because i need it.

i wanted to wait until i got done before i ate but i have to stop. the acne has also been absolutely brutal, but i expected that, it's a part of the process. i need to wash up first and then make a salad.

that means i'm shifting to catch up salads and canned soup the next few days and putting a grocery run off. i need to focus more on clearing out my fridge before i make another big run.

so, it's time to stop to eat. i am going to add the debussy after, and then get these extra lists into the list of lists before i get to the books.
donald trump wants peace in iran because he wants to do business in iran. 

the iranians don't want to do business with donald trump.

i don't even give a fuck. i want to tear the government down. i'm not interested in business, i'm interested in revolution. but what i've been trying to explain, and which i suspect people are starting to understand better, is that you can't do business with these people until you overthrow them.

you can do your business while i focus on my democracy, whatever, i don't really care. the problem is you don't actually like democracy, and backtracked, but that was fucking stupid. you're not getting anywhere with these idiots.
so here's the new link i'll be using.

use this instead of the direct link i posted before, i'll update that directly as i go:

if i open it in google drive directly and zoom in to 200%, it opens links in new tabs natively without having to hit ctrl or anything.

the above link is what it's supposed to look like. look what at the shit discogs serves you instead and then won't let you post on the forum to provide useful suggestions to fix, it's a fucking mess:

i added four my cds off of my shelf tonight:

- sonic youth - sister (sst)
- swans - omniscience (sky) 
- debussy - la mer / nocturnes (phillips)
- holst - planets / ralph vaughn williams - fantasias (rca)

that gets me up to 40 releases to start, and i've got a few to listen to.

i'll take them in chunks of five at a time, moving forward.
i set up some more custom fields on the discogs site, and i'm realizing that the idiots made it so you can't post links to anybody except yourself. what's the point of that?

when i went to ask a question or request a feature, the spam feature was so overwhelming that i couldn't post anything at all. i guess i need to post in retard twitter speak. full sentences is just spamming people nowadays.

we've become so useless and fucking stupid...

so, what i'm going to do is keep doing what i'm doing, which will create a jumbled link of unreadable shit on the site, and tell them to fucking fix it if they don't like it. then, i'm going to print the front page and post a link to the pdf, instead.

just make sure you zoom in a little and then open links in new tabs.


Saturday, June 27, 2026

i stopped to sleep yesterday afternoon, woke up in the evening and wanted to get through a few things before i stopped to eat and clean. it's taken me all night to update and consolidate the first 36 releases at the two sites, together, in the different ways.

so, here is the discogs site, which will come up soon as one of the sites on the side, along with the koala oversight committee, deathtokoalas and this politics-oriented blog:

it's important to note that i'm using discogs to be as specific as i can be about exact release information. so, for example, stone flower is listed as 1990, because it was remastered in 1990. my cd that i own is from 1990. but, the lp was first released in 1970 and it's listed as a 1970 release elsewhere. the discogs site is not a straight mirror, it contains precise release data for my exact cd collection.

most people will want to click on the album covers only toggle on the top right, but if you click the lists you'll see the detailed notes i've been preparing. so far, according to discogs, the total value of the 36 cds i've documented is $970 cdn. some of them are only worth $10-15 and some of them are worth around $150, to somebody, apparently. the cds are picked randomly out of my collection. i have at least 500 cds here. if that is a representative sample, my cd collection might be worth as much as $15,000. 

there are not a lot of items that were expensive for me to buy, and these aren't for sale. it's just that i have collected decades worth of obscure releases, and it's added up. many of the cds that i bought new for the normal price of a cd have gone out of print, but the fact that so many of them are notable and retain audiences means the prices have gone up.

the most valuable items in the list, both worth over $100 cdn, are a 1984 cd pressing of talking heads' remain in light (that i bought at a garage sale for nothing) and the out of print nine inch nails cd i special ordered in jan, 2002 directly from trent reznor, called still, halo 17b. they're not for sale. there's several more selling for over $50 cdn and a bunch selling for more than $30. it just adds up, because it's a collection full of obscure releases, all of which somebody somewhere would pay a lot for.

there is another link there to "lists". this contains lists to record labels on discogs.

i have three sites i've updated at the deathtokoalas blog:

those three lists hyperlink to each other.

i have already fallen back to 147.0, which is good news. i will likely eat my last salad tomorrow morning and order some things soon. i need to stop to clean myself, as planned, which is overdue.

i also need to finish updating the following list before i put this down and build a skeleton for the books, and then get back to what i was doing in the front:

Friday, June 26, 2026

i got something to eat yesterday and it just pushed right out again. i never got over 152, which means i'm losing weight and keeping it off.

i have been gathering cd list information all night and i'm getting there. another day or two tops.

i set up a discogs site, which will mirror the list on this page and locally, for a few reasons:

1) i want to find precise pressings for each item
2) i will want to buy stuff and it's likely the best way
3) i could sell my own records via discogs, and might reach more people than through bandcamp

i'm going to be redesigning how i sell cds by using postgrid as a print option. it's the first cost-effective option i've ever seen. 

so the discogs site is here and i'll put it up on the side soon:

Thursday, June 25, 2026

cutting off funding was idiotic. it's going to embolden iran to launch more attacks and result in people losing their lives in the persian gulf.

somebody needs to drag chuck schumer out of the senate by his ear and put him in a home.
the problems are

1) the president is a retard
2) the united nations is more useless than the league of nations ever was

but with every sequential fascist behaviour, the iranians seal their own fate and cement their own death warrant.

i would still call on the icc to try khamenei for war crimes, posthumously.