good morning!

this morning brings me to a full week of not buying cigarettes, which i'll admit is the easy part. i've specifically been lax on myself this week in giving in to most urges and it has worked in gradually bringing me down to a few a day. i had two yesterday. i'm going to wait another week before i try and force a serious cold turkey on myself.

i've mentioned i've been through the beginning stages repeatedly and tend to go back to smoking on account of spending a night drinking (indicating that quitting smoking would be an easy thing for me to do if i just quit drinking for a few months, which is ironic because i've never felt remotely addicted to alcohol), and the annoying part that tends to get to me is the lethargy that sets in the first few days. i think that that is lifting....

i've never been a solo drinker, so i think this change of scenery is going to help get me off nicotine....

why not try e-cigs, you ask?

bah. that strikes me as really contrived, like as though you'd see somebody with hair extensions eating daiya cheese and smoking an e-cig while they play second life kind of thing. it might work on some level, but i wouldn't want anybody to see me!

i know i can quit; really, the ease of doing so is probably why i keep going back. "yeah, i've barely been smoking for three weeks, but it doesn't really matter if i smoke my face off tonight because i can quit again in a few days" sort of thing. and this has largely been true, even. i've never really taken addiction seriously, although i've learned that there is such a thing as physical addiction and refraining from substances can produce physical effects.

i'm for reals this time, though.