i don't work well under pressure. i day dream. i procrastinate.

i'm a shitty employee, and not ashamed about it.

i'm more interested in creating realities where people can create free of coercive influence than i am in contorting myself into some mental gymnastic that sees value in extorting people for profit...

...and i needed a nap.

that's what happens when i'm under pressure: i get sleepy.

it's consistent, actually. predictable. dead line tomorrow? big project due in the morning? i'm probably snoozing somewhere. and, i'm not going to pretend i really care when i wake up, either.

call me depressed, but i don't want your drugs. i want to abolish the conditions that you think spur productivity, because they don't - they just create unnecessary stress.

still no ruling.

i hope the judge doesn't think she's doing me a favour in stretching the ruling out, if she's going to give me 11 days at the end. i haven't done a thing to prepare to move. and, i'm not going to do so until i get the court order - because it's not the landlord that has the legal authority, here, it's the judge.

if she's stalling into november to give me until december 1st, i guess that's a net benefit. but, if she thinks she's just giving me extra days, she's misinterpreting my grasp of the scenario: i'm in this to win, outright.

i'm going to try to get back to filing, but i might fall back asleep. we'll see.

apologies to the guy with the order, but i'm kind of useless at the moment.

and, i'll remind you that if i win i will be immediately countersuing. if it's into november, that's another $670.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

btw, if you're curious: i would rather be hunted down and beaten by christians, impaled on a stick, roasted slowly and fed to homeless people than get a job working at amazon.

i'm entirely post-employment. i've been lucky enough to be able to live on disability, and, at this point, suicide seems far more logical than wasting my time at some stupid fucking job.

i won't do it. don't think i will.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

what goes on at the central banks of the world is not economics, it's political theatre - and applied psychology, when they realize it.

jameets singh must cut his beard.

RATES DON'T AFFECT JOBS OR INFLATION.

it's not puzzling: the price of oil is stuck.

so, what would a rate hike actually do? make money for investors. that is all.

https://beta.theglobeandmail.com/report-on-business/economy/threat-of-nafta-collapse-weak-inflation-put-bank-of-canada-on-hold/article36711722/?ref=http://www.theglobeandmail.com&

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

the president can't be firing senators, guys.

c'mon. snap the fuck out of it.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

does anybody still think this phoenix pay thing is an accident?

the union should start doing rolling shut downs. that'd get them moving.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i think i should take it as a good sign that i don't have the ruling in, yet.

i'm not talking about the mail; i can check the database in real time. she said tuesday or wednesday.

it's thursday afternoon; she's taking her time. i couldn't imagine why she would need to do that if she wasn't researching, and that only really make sense if she's dismissing, or at least sees an excellent reason to consider it.

there's another interpretation, though. the landlord decided to argue with the judge at the last minute about how she has "property rights" (she doesn't.), and tried to guilt her over her mom (i think she's full of shit.). that was stupid all around, and especially stupid in a case like this where the judge has reason to doubt  her - to risk that the judge might conclude the complainant was essentially trying to sucker her into a quick ruling is another thing she didn't have to do, but did. if the judge comes around to my side, she may interact with that memory very poorly. but, she also might just be trying to smack a little but of humility down. she'll do this at her leisure, miss fucking pleb.

but, i didn't quite get that from the judge. she was haughty, but empathetic. that's a good judge. and, it's probably just taking a long time due to a good judge doing some good judging.

or, i hope, anyways.

that migraine set me back more than 24 hours. but, i've finally got this done.

 ====

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inri013: written and demoed from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. sequenced on jan 6-7, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. released jan 7, 2016. finalized on july 29, 2016. symph001.

inri016: created in the summer of 1998. released as a standalone ep on nov 16, 2013. audio permanently closed on oct 12, 2016. release finalized on oct 27, 2016.

inri019: written and demoed from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in january, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. compiled on nov 13, 2016. sequenced on nov 22-24, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on nov 24, 2016. release finalized on nov 27, 2016. symph002.

inri029: recorded over 1997-1999. constructed in this form in june, 1999. published in november, 2013. aborted early version added as a hidden track on sept 13, 2017; release consequently finalized. symph003.

inri039: this was constructed over a little more than a month: from 7/7-8/20, 2000. it seems to have been recombined into one track around 2007 but has otherwise not been modified since it was completed. first released as an ep in jan 2014. release finalized as symph004 on oct 8, 2017.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri053: written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012.

originally created from 1996-2002. this compilation is dated to jan 25, 2002. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 26, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released January 25, 2002

j - guitars (electric, classical, acoustic), effects, ebow, bass, mandolin, synthesizers, electric piano, piano, organ, vocals, drum kit, drum programming, orchestral & other sequencing, flute, cool edit synthesis, sound raider, sampling, light-wave synthesis, generative synthesis, generative percussion, noise generators, sound design, loops, tapes, found sounds (washing machine), metronome, windows 95 sound recorder, treatments, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, coughs, a broken tape deck, a broken equalizer, composition, production

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include synthesizers, clavinet, kalimba, nylon guitar, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass guitar, piano, banjo, electronic drums, pc card, violin, cello, bamboo flute, flute, viola, soprano saxophone, tuba, trumpet, organ, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, synth pads, contrabass, tubular bells and music box. 

 

 https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/symphonic-works-volume-1

 

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

so, i've been saying for years that you can't rely on the united states government to do this.

the world needs to look elsewhere for leadership on this issue.

http://www.newsweek.com/trump-replace-birth-control-fertility-awareness-leaked-document-689840?utm_source=internal&utm_campaign=most_read&utm_medium=most_read3

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i'm sorry, but it's 2017, and if you're sticking needles in you and don't know what's going to happen, you can't be expecting anybody to bail you out.

i support suicide as a choice.

that's my view on the contemporary opium issue.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

do you know what i honestly have to conclude looking at the city council in windsor?

that, if you thought you were going to save money by downloading costs to city council, you were a complete fucking idiot.

...and that we need to talk about recentralizing the important services, like sewers and housing.

the people on this council are useless. but, it's the fact that they're being given too much money that's at the real root of the problem. higher levels of government need to take the money back and spend it more responsibly.

i was never a fan of off-loading, obviously. but, the council has proven that it's simply too inept to manage these kinds of funds. and, it's really up to the province to step in and take control.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

dumbest fucking thing i've ever heard.

why don't they build a pedestrian bridge, instead?

http://windsorstar.com/news/local-news/gondolas-over-the-detroit-river-windsor-mayor-dilkens-revives-cable-car-idea-for-amazon-hq2-bid

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

the christianization of europe comes down to us in various forms, much of it from indigenous sources. the imperial accounts of emperors and warrior-priests are generally of questionable value, as they were designed to uphold the rule of the court.

this took a very long time, with some areas of eastern europe not christianizing until the napoleonic period. so, the stories are diverse and unique.

one of the more well told stories is the genocide of the saxons, who lived near the border of germany and france, where it is thought that the catholic church (via charlemagne) killed upwards of 70% of the indigenous population for refusing to convert. those are numbers that rival the extermination of the american indigenous people, as a whole. ought there be any surprise when i tell you it was the same institution that was responsible?

other areas used economic coercion to convert people, by refusing them services or opportunities. others had their schools taken over - or, in some cases built - by monasteries. the sagas of northern europe are badly whitewashed, but they tell the story of a centuries long struggle between this foreign ideology of christianity and the nativist polytheism.

you can like chrisianity or not. but, stop pretending it's a european cultural treasure. it's not. it's an invading colonial force that destroyed entire cultures and civilizations.

today, the indigenous religions and cultures of europe are so thoroughly lost to history that they cannot even be speculatively reconstructed.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

no.

i need recovery from the migraine.

hopefully, it's just a nap.

i'm wasting days, but what can i do? this is medical. i had a headache for hours. i do feel better, but i'm drained, and i need sleep.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

you know, i'm not sure what i meant to say, there. i didn't think i was in aphasia, but that was some nonsense, alright.

i spent the morning cleaning. i had to stop to eat. still no response.

i want to get the temperature down in here and the air turned over so i can turn the heat on. it's not ideal, but it's the consequence of the air and the smoke - i either need the windows open or the heat on. i can't keep the windows closed with the heat off. not long term, anyways. it just gets awful in here. the windows will probably be open all night. and, it's going to be cold tonight. it's necessary.

i've got some typing done.  i want to get a lot more done....

jagmeet singh must cut is beard.

that was quick. i dunno.

i gotta clean down here. i suspect they're to get to me. the windows are open...

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

aura hit on wednesday, this week.

thursday last week.

friday the previous week.

it doesn't seem as bad. or, at least, not yet. it's just blurry. flashing lights. it's a mushroom trip without the buzz, basically.

guess i need to stop for a bit. fuck. i'm going to go right for the aspirin, this time...

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

yeah.

if you look at the polling across the board:

1) the liberals are down 2-3 points from a higher than expected result, but a result that was nonetheless around the historical average. the liberals usually get around 40% and are currently polling closer to 36%.

2) the conservatives are down 1-2 points from a lower than expected result that was also near historic lows. the conservatives usually get around 35% and are currently polling around 30%.

3) the ndp are down 2-3 points on what was a lower than expected result that was also near historic highs. the ndp usually polls around 15% and is currently polling around 17%.

4) the bloc quebecois, however, are are up 2-3% on historic lows. they usually poll around 10% or higher, and are currently polling at around 7% - but got under 5% in the last election.

5) the greens are also up 2-3% on what was an expected but disappointing result. they're currently polling around 7%, which is a historic high. they polled under 4% in the last two elections.

neither the bloc nor the greens are going to win the next election.

but, what's happening is that the ndp are completely botching their opportunity to take advantage of weakening liberal support on the left; rather, they are also bleeding support on their left.

the conservatives are probably just dying, and are otherwise just floating through space via inertia. how many of them die in the next two years probably determines if they fall under 30% or not.

if the bloc see a resurgence in quebec - and the niqab issue will not be the factor. quebeckers will not base their vote on this. - it could push the liberals into a minority, where they will need to rely on ndp or potentially green support, if they can finally pull it together a little.

but, the outcome of the next election does not seem in question: the liberals are quite obviously going to win.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

yesterday was a wash.

i had to verbally close the string of discs i just finalized for the vlog, and it took me all morning. then, i spent the afternoon bitching with the landlord, who tried to create a situation out of nonsense and force an entry into the apartment due to an emergency based on an email from 2015.

their only defence is an inability to read. as half true as that may be, i do not believe that this is the important factor, in context. they were just trying to manufacture a conflict.

i was previously providing them with the benefit of the doubt. i had to, in a deficit of evidence. but, they've proven that they're ridiculously dishonest - as i've proven that i'm brutally honest. i no longer believe a word they say. and, they no longer deserve the benefit of the doubt. this is going to have a large effect on how i behave. and, they may be in for a set of surprises, as my previously overly reasonable behaviour becomes that much less flexible and that much more intent on enforcing literal interpretations of the law.

everybody gets a chance with me. they blew theirs. and, i'm not nice to people that cross me or demonstrate themselves as dishonest. it's the trait i dislike the most in people, and the one i have the least patience for. the liars of the world can fucking choke.

i should get something or other done this morning. but if i don't get an update on my case, i'm going to have to start looking at contingency options.

here's the thing: i will obey a court order, because i need to protect my stuff, and because there's not any point of being dragged out by the sheriff. but, i'm still thinking i have a good chance of winning the case. so, i'm not going to pay for storage or get out until i know.

i hope the judge gets a response out soon, whatever it is. obviously, i want to stay here, until they leave....

(and, they told me over email that they are in fact selling for $500,000, which is kind of a joke - i'm not qualified to appraise, but the place is no doubt worth half that. i lived in a $500,000 house for a while as a late teen in a much hotter market, and this isn't it. am i going to have to wait for them to cut the price? for how fucking long?)

....but if i must go, please tell me asap - and give me as much time as possible to deal wtih it.

i wouldn't drag it out, either. if i'm told i have to be out by jan 1st, i'll try and leave by dec 1st. i want as much time as i can get. but that doesn't mean i'm here until the last day.

anyways.

i'm going to get a smoothie and get back to what i was doing, which was prepping the wave of stuff over 2002. 2001 is completely finished. if i can get 54 done today, i think i'm doing well. i need to ship 56, 58, 60, 62 and three more in the late 60s or low 70s. so, i'm getting to the end of this, here, too.

if i get until jan 1st or dec 1st, i'll have to finish the order first. if it's earlier than that, i don't know what i'm doing. and, if i don't get a response at all in the next 48 hours, i'm going to have to start to panic.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

this is disgusting.

what a fucking piece of shit this guy is.

http://www.independent.co.uk/voices/new-jersey-governor-chris-christie-child-marriage-religious-freedom-end-female-liberty-a7742196.html

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

this guy used to be an important behind the scenes guy in the liberal party.

i don't believe people have inalienable rights to religious expression at all - i think it's society's fundamental responsibility to ensure that religious beliefs are kept in line with more substantive civil liberties, and i think it was an error to include religious liberty in the charter because it creates this whole mess of contradictions that shouldn't be contemplated.

consider bountiful, for example. the idea that these people have some kind of right to wed children to old men is not something that the court should even be contemplating. that's not a defence that should be available to them. what's disgusting is that the law provides this as an out.

the constitution also provides an argument for practitioners of fgm and all other types of misogyny and i think this fact is lamentable. if i could take a magic marker to our laws, that "and religion" at the end of 2a would be the first thing i'd scratch out.

when these issues come up, and they are legitimate rather than contrived as per the previous examples, there is always something else underlying them. and, what's happening in quebec is no different. this should not be thought of as an issue of religion. rather, the state is targetting a gender and an ethnic group.

people do have the inalienable right to individual expression, so long as they're not fucking bothering anybody. and, wearing a goddamned scarf doesn't fucking bother anybody.

http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/warren-kinsella/i-am-disgusted-by-trudeaus-response-to-quebecs-racist-law_a_23250135/

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

suppose that a southern state passed a law saying that restaurant owners could deny services based on skin colour, and the president shrugged and said "states' rights!".

that's exactly what trudeau is doing with the niqab thing.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i actually think trudeau has made it clear that he's more of an advocate of decentralized power than he is of strong federalism - which is something that many of the people that voted for him may not have realized, given the views of his immediate liberal party predecessors, granted, but is well documented, including within some of his answers in the debates.

i remember cringing over this. in his answers, he sounded like a stereotypical conservative.

and, here we have it.

and, as usual, this guy is ass backwards - this is one of the things that is going to hurt trudeau, once people figure it out. the son of pierre embraces devolution? has the universe gone mad?

the ndp should be the favourite to win right now, but they got defeated by a hostile take over and won't be competitive; they'll lose seats.

it's going to be a "none of the above" type election. everybody will see their vote totals go down. and, everybody might even lose vote share, with the exception of some protest parties that take the difference.

https://beta.theglobeandmail.com/opinion/why-trudeau-has-incentive-to-go-easy-on-quebecs-controversial-niqab-law/article36710624/?ref=http://www.theglobeandmail.com&

hillary clinton is literally walking around admitting that she's trying to bring back the cold war.

how do we get this woman sent to the hague?

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

why don't we take their nuclear waste while we're at it?

the headline should read: britain tricks colony into accepting it's garbage.

we should send their trash back where it came from, and send them the bill.

https://www.theweathernetwork.com/news/articles/britain-to-transfer-ownership-of-hms-erebus-and-terror-to-canada/88151/

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

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inri043: written late 2000 & early 2001. the renders present here are all from either the early months of 2014, the second half of may, 2015 or the 11th/12th of october, 2017. minor instrumentation changes to facilitate a small wind section were implemented in late april, 2014. live guitars were layered into the final version over may 2014. four more mixes were added from may 19-26, 2015. five more mixes were added on oct 11/12, 2017. release finalized on oct 12, 2017.

inri044: written early 2001. drastically rearranged in june, 2014. rendered, arranged and performed over june and july, 2014. remixed and re-rendered several times over late may, 2015 and again over mid oct, 2017. this release cannot formally finalize at this time, but has been put into it's existing state as of oct 15, 2017.

inri045: recorded in the first part of 2001. sequenced as is in january, 2014.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri048: written in the summer of 2001. remembered over july, 2014. completed august-september, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 16, 2017.

inri049: written and recorded in the fall of 2001. compiled on sept 6, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 20-21, 2017.

inri050: written in the fall of 2001. rendered, remastered and remixed in late september and early october, 2014. the string mix was corrected for clicks on june 1, 2015, but unfortunately left accidentally inverted. this was corrected on oct 21, 2017. the lead track was re-rendered with the clickless string mix on oct 21, 2017. disc finalized on oct 21, 2017.

inri051: created in the fall of 2001. resequenced and rereleased on sept 7, 2014. disc finalized on oct 22, 2017.

inri052: tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017.

inri053: written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012.

originally created from 2001-2002, but mostly in 2001. this compilation is dated to jan 20, 2002. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 22, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released January 20, 2002

j - electric piano, drum & other programming, orchestral & other sequencing, classical & acoustic & electric guitars, ebow, digital & analog effects & treatments, electric bass, mandolin, organ, synthesizers, sound design, noise generators, cool edit synthesis, sampling, vocals, vocoders, digital wave editing, loops, equalization, production, composition.

sean - vocals, lyrics (inri048, inri049, inri053)
jon - guitar performance (inri048, inri049)

the various rendered electronic orchestras include acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, upright bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon guitar, guitar effects, banjo, harp, sitar, french horn, tuba, trumpet, trombone, brass ensemble, saxophone, soprano saxophone, orchestra hit, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, pizzicato strings, full string section, piano, synthesizers, synth pad, synthesizer effects, mellotron, organ, bamboo flute, clarinet, flute, piccolo, oboe, english horn, bassoon, voice, music box, tubular bells, bells, clavinet, kalimba, xylophone, glockenspiel, woodblock, vibraphone, marimba, taiko drums, detuned piano, pc card, drum kit, jazz drum kit, hand drums, melodic toms, orchestral drum kit, drum machines, hammered percussion, synthetic percussion and electronic drum kit. they also include choir. 

 

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/flac-dvd-disc-volume-4

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

republishing inri053

this came out of a two-person psychedelic folk project i was working in over late 2001 and into mid 2002. we had brainstormed the idea of a piece that slowly built itself up, like a wave, and that had sporadic pieces of poetry interspersed as it did so. of the two of us, i was the musician, and he was the poet; i generally produced the music by myself. however, my vision of the track proved to be much larger than his, to the point that the two ideas could not be effectively reconciled given the deficit of technology available to us (i simply couldn't find a way to get enough resources to condense the track to under ten minutes). that left me with this seventy minute ambient piece that has mostly stayed hidden in my closet over the last twelve years.

in 2014, i strongly contemplated reconstructing the short version out of existing material, but it would have required a rethink of the process that i felt would be invasive to the poet involved. the reality is that the music that i created was not well suited as accompaniment for the poem, and it should just be left at that. in oct of 2017, i added the poem to the disc, a capella, as an introduction to the track.

this is very much process music. it's built on 36 distinct loops of identical length (just under 57 seconds) that assemble the collage up on a loop by loop basis, hitting it's full point only in the 35th loop. the 36th loop does not fit into any of the patterns that define the first 35, but is nonetheless the climax of the piece. this is followed by a disassembling process that is precisely the reverse of the assembling process. together, this produces the effect of a long wave of sound washing over the listener.

aesthetically, it's likely clear that i had been listening to a lot of "kosmische" style synthesizer music of european origin. it's actually a key part of my musical style, so a bigger exploration of it's themes is not at all out of place. however, i generally prefer to take ideas from the genre and recontextualize them rather than delve into a full exploration. this is somewhat unique in my discography as being an album-length analog synthesizer work.

either as ambient or kosmische or process music, this is mostly meant as background music.

written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012. as always, please use headphones.

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2002, 2014, 2017). 

credits

released january 15, 2002

j - synthesizers, electric & acoustic guitars, electric bass guitar, digital wave editing, production, composition
sean - vocals, lyrics 

 

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

purchasing this release does not come with a download.

inri002: originally written and recorded over 1996-1997. sequenced and mildly modified in dec, 2013. released dec 11, 2013. finalized on july 3, 2016. lp000.

inri015: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced jan 6-10, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on aug 10, 2016. finalized on oct 10, 2016. lp001.

inri021: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1993-1999. initially constructed in this form in feb, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced over november and december, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. finalized on dec 15, 2016. lp002.

inri023: constructed over 1998. compiled and remastered in late 2013. the first two tracks were corrected to stereo in sept, 2014. the last two tracks were added for re-release as a remix lp in dec, 2016. finalized on dec 17, 2016. lp003.

inri024: initially written and recorded between 1996-1999 and remixed over the summer of 2015, with a lengthy pause due to malfunctioning electronics. final compilation date is jan 3, 2016. finalized dec 17, 2016. lp004.

inri025: this idea was developed in parallel to the inriclaimed project over the summer of 2015 and first compiled on nov 27, 2016. finalized on dec 17, 2016. lp005.

inri032: recorded sporadically, and without cohesive intent, over '98 and '99. originally compiled in the fall of '99. augmented and minimally altered in january, 2014. finalized as lp006 on sept 21, 2017. as always, please use headphones - but note that they are especially mandatory for this recording.

inri033: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in dec, 1999. slightly resequenced in jan, 2014. finalized on sept 19, 2017. lp007.

inri035: initially written and recorded between 1996-1999 and remixed between 2013-2015. initially released as part zero of a three volume set on may 21, 2015. split into it's own release on june 14, 2015. finalized as lp008 on sept 29, 2017.

inri041: recorded over the space of the year 2000. remixed substantially in 2004, 2006, 2010 and 2014. existing version constructed in jan, 2014. finalized as lp009 on oct 9, 2017.

inri042: this record was recorded over the years 1999 and 2000, but did not take this form until mid september, 2017. the first track list dates to sept 14, 2017. these tracks are technically outtakes, but did not become outtakes until the remastering process removed them from their respective recordings. finalized as lp010 on oct 9, 2017.

inri052: tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017.

originally created from 1996-2001. this compilation is dated to dec 16, 2001. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 23, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released December 16, 2001

j - guitars of all types (electric, acoustic, classical), ebow, effects, pick scrapes, mandolin, bass, bass synth, keyboards, organ, synthesizers, piano, drum & other programming, drum kits, orchestral & other sequencing, flute, sampling, vocals, vocal relics, mic noises, octavers, cool edit synthesis, windows 95 sound recorder, found sounds, strategies, soundraider, hammerhead, noise generators, noise reduction, sound design, light-wave synthesis, generative synthesis, granular synthesis, generative percussion, metronome, tapes, digital & analog effects processing, treatments, digital wave editing, loops, films, a broken tape deck, a broken equalizer, chance, coughs, text-to-speech synthesis, remixes, reconstructions, reinterpretations, composition, production

the star trek sample in 'gravity's rainbow' is from the episode "errand of mercy" (mar 23, 1967).

the various rendered electronic orchestras include acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon guitar, ukelele, sitar, trumpet, trombone, brass ensemble, orchestra hit, saxophone, violin, cello, viola, contrabass, pizzicato strings, string ensemble, synth pads, piano, synthesizers, synthesizer effects, mellotron, organ, bamboo flute, clarinet, flute, voice, music box, tubular bells, bells, tinkle bells, clavinet, kalimba, theremin, drum kit, hand drums, taiko drums, drum machines, gongs and electronic drums. 

 

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/lps-only-volume-1

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

purchasing this release comes with the immediate download of the release that you linked to it off of. be sure you make the right choice.

inri038: written and recorded, 1999-2001. track 3 was reconstructed out of existing sound in june, 2004. initially sequenced in jan, 2014. four new mixes (maximal mix (2017), electronics only mix (2015), single mix for lp010 (2017), full instrumental mix from deny everything (2014)) were added on oct 5, 2017; release subsequently closed.

inri043: written late 2000 & early 2001. the renders present here are all from either the early months of 2014, the second half of may, 2015 or the 11th/12th of october, 2017. minor instrumentation changes to facilitate a small wind section were implemented in late april, 2014. live guitars were layered into the final version over may 2014. four more mixes were added from may 19-26, 2015. five more mixes were added on oct 11/12, 2017. release finalized on oct 12, 2017.

inri044: written early 2001. drastically rearranged in june, 2014. rendered, arranged and performed over june and july, 2014. remixed and re-rendered several times over late may, 2015 and again over mid oct, 2017. this release cannot formally finalize at this time, but has been put into it's existing state as of oct 15, 2017.

inri045: recorded in the first part of 2001. sequenced as is in january, 2014.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri050: written in the fall of 2001. rendered, remastered and remixed in late september and early october, 2014. the string mix was corrected for clicks on june 1, 2015, but unfortunately left accidentally inverted. this was corrected on oct 21, 2017. the lead track was re-rendered with the clickless string mix on oct 21, 2017. disc finalized on oct 21, 2017.

inri052: tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017.

originally created from 1999-2001. this compilation is dated to dec 15, 2001. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 23, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released December 15, 2001

j - electric & acoustic & classical guitars, ebow, effects, bass, synthesizers, electric piano, organ, orchestral & other sequencing, drum & other programming, vocals, vocoders, sound design, sampling, digital effects & treatments, digital wave editing, loops, composition, production

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include piano, acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, upright bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, other guitar effects, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon string classical guitar, harp, sitar, banjo, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, pizzicato strings, mellotron, french horn, trumpet, trombone, tuba, soprano saxophone, generalized brass section, oboe, english horn, bassoon, synthesizers, synthesizer effects, synth pads, clarinet, flute, piccolo, bamboo flute, xylophone, glockenspiel, vibraphone, music box, clavinet, kalimba, detuned piano, woodblock, tubular bells, bells, orchestra hit, jazz drum kit, hand drums, melodic toms, orchestral drum kit, hammered percussion, marimba, taiko drum, synthetic percussion, drum machine, pc card and electronic drum kit. they also include choir. 

 

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-box-set

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i've just been hard at work, with little to really comment on.

there's supposed to be an inspection today. i pushed a curve ball in throwing a possible asbestos remediation at them. that would essentially condemn the building. they're late. curious.

i don't know what they're actually up to.

no word on the case yet.

i've got up to inri053 and aleph-11 done, except cover art for the last four releases: aleph-9 to aleph-11, and inri053. that's next, while i wait.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

the idea that there's not any difference between liberals and socialists has never been more absurd than it is today.

but, the realization that there's not any real substantive difference between contemporary liberals (who are what they used to call moderate conservatives) and contemporary conservatives (aka neo-liberals) should be more apparent than it's ever been.

the irony is that, with all the language shifts, classical conservatives have somehow ended up on the left.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

is fourth wave feminism actually a thing?

i don't see the fundamental differences between the third and the so-called fourth that existed between the third and second, and the second and first. the characteristics that the fourth wants to present as defining are just the same ideas that defined the third. this apparent dawn of a new wave of feminism is also happening a lot sooner than it did in the past.

it rather strikes me as a way for capital to profit off of generational politics. the previous waves occurred over several generations. what is being referred to as a fourth wave really doesn't strike me as any different than the mainstreaming of a third wave - it's the process of a third wave becoming the status quo.

technology does not generate new ideas, but rather reinforces existing ones. there's no evolution of thought here.

i would rather react negatively to the premise of generational politics and suggest that a long-lasting feminism should rather seek to abolish generational divisions as arbitrary constructs of capitalism that have no place in an egalitarian society. this is something that entered the public consciousness as a way to define a market for baby boomers. it's about selling clothes and soda to kids, it's not about social change. all ideas need  to evolve, but if you're trying to define a new feminism every twenty years to generate new markets, you've lost the plot - you're just buying into the divide and conquer of capitalist control and upholding the broader system of exploitation.

i think the deeper criticism of the idea is an observation that late capitalism has turned feminism into a product, and i guess you could write some essays about how feminism is being co-opted in the broader neo-liberal agenda. maybe that's what people mean when they take about "fourth waves". but, you should force them to be more specific, and resist the co-option of the language. there's no wave, here. there's just the continued encroachment of neo-liberalism.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

this is a full record of material documenting tracks written in 2001 that were in a more "serious" style and completed from 2001-2014.

the intent with the core of the material (1,3,6,7,8) was for it to be performed by live musicians one day. in early 2014, i came to the conclusion that this was not going to ever happen and was pleasantly surprised to learn that the technology had improved enough for a realistic presentation of the material using sequencers. these versions of (1,3,6) also include live guitars.

tracks 2 and 5 were salvaged from an aborted project meant to reinterpret classical guitar music as modern noise. the project was permanently aborted due to the loss of the sheet music that was necessary to finish it.

track 4 is an electric folk tune with heavy counterpoint that i was playing live as a party trick at the time.

the ordering is roughly chronological, based on the date the track took the form it exists in. tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017. this is my fifth official record; as always, please use headphones.

credits

released December 1, 2001

j - electric piano, programming, classical & acoustic & electric guitars, ebow, digital & analog effects & treatments, organ, synthesizers, sound design, sampling, vocals, digital wave editing, loops, production, composition.

the various rendered electronic orchestras include acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon guitar, trumpet, trombone, brass ensemble, orchestra hit, violin, cello, viola, contrabass, piano, synthesizers, mellotron, organ, bamboo flute, clarinet, flute, voice, music box, bells, clavinet, kalimba, drum kit, hand drums, drum machines and electronic drums.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard

finalizing inri051

i don't have an exact date for these files, so i'm picking november 11th. as others were, i was concerned about the president abolishing the magna carta after 9/11 and congress doing little more than helping him do it. however, this was meant to be a more encompassing project that combined harsh noise with political sampling that was pushing an anarchist agenda. the name of the project (ftaa) was chosen as a pun - it could either be the free trade agreement of the americas or about fueling true anarchy in the americas. i ended up dropping the sampling aspect and just focusing on the noise for the project's completion (which is the ftaa release in mid 2004: jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa ), so i'm going to upload these two pilot tracks (with the sampling in tact) as an introductory single and place them in this more topical chronological space.

in hindsight, i think there's something profound about juxtaposing the fair trade movement with the 9/11 attacks as, looking back, it really sucked the life out of the movement.

created in the fall of 2001. resequenced and rereleased on sept 7, 2014. disc finalized on oct 22, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

these tracks appear without samples on my seventh record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2014, 2017). 

credits

released November 11, 2001

j - noise generators, cool edit, sequencers, guitars (electric, nylon, acoustic), mandolin, effects & processing, digital wave editing, sampling, production

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

this was a piece i wrote up in the fall of 2001. i can't remember exactly what the root of it was, but it had something to do with a voice-leading assignment for what was the equivalent of a course in music theory 101. the root of the piece may consequently come from what was presented to me. i can't recall exactly - but i believe the assignment was to build the different voices up.

my negative relationship with music theory is stated throughout this page and was well established well before the end of 2001. i had an interest in the music theory course for the purposes of deconstructing the theory - in the context of writing, specifically, and not performing. i actually have one of those classic stories - i failed this course. it is actually the _only_ course i have _ever_ legitimately received an _F_ in. hey, if einstein can fail math, i can fail music theory.

the story actually revolves around sight-reading aspect of the course, and specifically it's vocal content. there were three aspects of the course (theory, vocal sight-reading and african drumming which i'm thinking was meant to be a rhythmic component but was really just a ridiculous waste of time). i really wish they would have let me sight read on a guitar, or even a piano, because i'm just simply not a talented singer; i've never had aspirations to become one, and i had a lot of problems controlling my vocals. even with that being said, the reality is that i had a very low level of _interest_ in this. i probably could have passed the course if i spent less time on abstract algebra and more time singing in the mirror, but i just couldn't be bothered...

i really disapprove of the way the course was designed. i was interested in learning about music theory, and needed the course as a pre-req for more advanced courses, which i never ended up taking. i still don't fully understand why i had to pass a singing exam to take further composition courses. the best answer i got was that the school didn't want graduates who couldn't pass a singing exam, but i was at no point enrolled in a b. music so it's a pretty weak response.

anyways, this was a voice-leading assignment that i perverted into something mildly atonal and then built up into something else. you can hear it if you listen, except that it's all "wrong". i'd have to sit down and analyse it to come to a more detailed exposition on it's "wrongness", and i'm not going to, but it's not hard to hear how "wrong" it is, either.

i was clearly listening to a lot of glass at the time, but this goes beyond his medievalism. i'm using so many "wrong" notes that it's ultimately just chromatic - although there's no tone rows or anything that's formally serialist about it. it's not meant to abolish the structure so much as it's meant to just flaunt the rules. that gives it an almost satanic feel, in the context of a vocal piece using "forbidden" intervals.

but, looking back, i think that what the piece really explores is existential anguish. i was in the second year of a math degree (after switching from physics after switching from software engineering) and really had little idea where i was going with it. i was considering switching into music and probably would have had i not failed the singing exam. the thing is i actually knew i was going to fail the course at that point, and was just feeling lost as a result of it. i ended up in math as this sort of default choice, vaguely thinking i might end up teaching somewhere but not having any real interest in it...

so much choice, so few options. i suppose that this is how i expressed what i was feeling about this reality at the time.

i can't remember the exact way this happened, but i believe the piece was initially written for voice (as a voice-leading assignment) and then expanded into further voices and then converted into a composition for nine instruments. i believe the primary reason i converted it from a vocal piece is that i ended up writing well outside a realistic vocal range, but i've kept the electronic choir parts as they are because i'm not really restricted to reality in this way. i've picked halloween as the date, but that's symbolic - it was around then, anyway. it would have been around december that it was put aside, because i don't remember working on it after i moved.

i've included the midi files of the original composition, if you'd like to mess with it on your own.

written in the fall of 2001. rendered, remastered and remixed in late september and early october, 2014. the string mix was corrected for clicks on june 1, 2015, but unfortunately left accidentally inverted. this was corrected on oct 21, 2017. the lead track was re-rendered with the clickless string mix on oct 21, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the album version of the track (track 1) appears on my fifth record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2014, 2015, 2017). 

credits

released October 31, 2001

j - programming, effects, mixing, production, composition.

the various rendered electronic orchestras include voice, piano, bells, synthesizer, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, electric bass and guitar.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard

of course, the moment we change the calendar, jesus will show up like a vampire in a puff of smoke:

surprise! 

you, you're over there....you're over here...you just stay put. where are you going? i'm separating you. stay where you are. well, no, you'll just have to wait your turn.

and, we'll all have to look at our feet, like we're in shoegaze bands, as we mutter to ourselves, "oh, shit. shouldda listened to neils.".

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

so, when are we going to change the calendar?

i'm sick of dating things relative to jesus' birth date, which everybody knows is wrong, anyways. it's beyond trivial, at this point. it's offensive.

i've seen people float the idea of the moon landing as the new year zero, but i actually don't think that solves anything - two thousand years from now, nobody is going to believe that happened, either. it's at least the right idea.

we like enlightened jews, so why not pick einstein's birthday? sorry noam, but there's really no comparison in terms of importance. i think there's something more fundamentally meaningful about this, as well, as it's going to be einstein's theory that leads us into the universe. we don't even really completely understand it yet. we're going to need a relativistic nicea before we can even get there - and don't bullshit me with copenhagen, that's just a bunch of hand waving.

we, the pre-eminent german scientists, hereby declare that we cannot figure this shit out. therefore, nobody in the future of the history of the universe will ever figure this shit out. let it be written.

i don't think there's any question that we'll still be grappling with relativity in a thousand years. it'll be another 500 before we can even clearly articulate it. so, there's a potential for relevance deep into the future.

another thousand years from now, jesus is probably going to end up confused with gandhi and recast as a space alien sent here to save us from ourselves. we need to get this shit out of the calendar, before it's too late.

einstein was born on march 14th, so why don't we start the year at the spring equinox? that makes more sense anyways, right? we can have new years day & st. paddy's day a week apart, as we start a new year on the same schedule as the trees.

we can still have the winter solstice, but it shouldn't be the start of the year, it should be the last, darkest quadrant.

that would make it the year 138. or 139? i dunno, roll a die...

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

republishing inri049

rabit is wolf arose accidentally from the cynicide project (inri048), but produced far more material in the end. what happened was sean and i showed up to a few jam sessions and the guitarist (jon - it was his band) didn't, so we started writing some material without him...

initially, the intent was to include rather than exclude jon but he quickly developed a disinterest due to a variety of obvious if never fully articulated reasons. i was playing guitar parts on the demos, which he couldn't deal with. we were doing joy division songs, which were outside of his sphere of interest. we were writing without him, which made him feel unimportant. we were talking about songs without drums, which he wasn't interested in at all. etc. however, he did record a guitar part (that i wrote) that was never replaced.

upon release in 2014, this was a collection of demos from the first month of rabit is wolf, which included multiple versions of the title track and a joy division cover. in the end, none of this would be released in the form it's in here (which was only available for download), but it created a cohesive (if short) introduction to what followed that was self-contained in a historical context. stated differently, this was the first (post-punk) incarnation of rabit is wolf.

in oct of 2017, this release was expanded to act as a comprehensive exploration of this track and made available for physical purchase. seven further versions were added: three from 2002, three from 2014/2015 and one from 2010. disc finalized on oct 21, 2017.

i don't analyse sean's lyrics, but the subject matter is clearly that of contemplating suicide - i believe from the perspective of an imagined character.

written and recorded in the fall of 2001. compiled on sept 6, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 20-21, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the album version of the track (track 11) appears on the rabit is wolf demo:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2002, 2010, 2014, 2015, 2017). 

credits

released October 15, 2001

j - electric bass guitar, electric & acoustic guitars, analog & digital effects & processing, synthesizers, score writing, writing, production
sean - vocals, lyrics, writing

jon - some extra guitar performance (6-8, 10-11, 13) 

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

an enlightened way to approach a kid like that is to force her to write an essay on islamic imperialism, the muslim slave trade and arabic colonialism, and ask her to reflect on how what she's learned makes her feel about her co-operation in canadian colonialism, as a muslim.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

does she think she's not participating in colonialism, because she's not white? as though arabs don't have a history of colonialism and slavery that is as bad or worse than white colonialism? or as though the vast majority of cultural arabs, including this one according to my eyes, aren't white in the first place?

the reality is that she might very well know absolutely nothing about the history of islam, it's complicity in african slavery, it's history of conquest or it's violent colonial past - because she's a white canadian with a tenuous connection to her own roots who has been force fed a poorly generalized pseudo-academic theory that at best applies very narrowly to the descendants of african slaves in the southern united states.

if she's discriminating, it's on the basis of religion. that's the only reason this person thinks she's not as involved in white canadian colonialism as any other white eurasian immigrant - which is exactly what she is, and exactly what she's caught up in.

she's a hypocrite.

that said, she should not face academic penalties. she needs an education, not a punishment.

i don't know how she got that position. if she was voted in, due process will make her face her peers - although i might suggest that she should be pressured to resign. and, if she was appointed, she should be fired for misconduct.

but, that's not an academic penalty. nobody should feel comfortable about universities policing expression, regardless of their views on what she said.

https://beta.theglobeandmail.com/news/national/dalhousie-student-faces-disciplinary-action-for-concerning-facebook-post/article36674220/ 
 
jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

nobody expects the spanish inquisition.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

so, what am i doing now?

well, i spent the morning looking through listings and - minus the blurry thinking on the possibility of renting office space - there's still nothing on the market that looks preferable to this place.

there's nothing happening in detroit that i want to go to this weekend. and, the temperature just collapsed, out of nowhere - it was supposed to be warm today. the chelsea wolfe show on sunday is sold out (that club never sells out. weird.). boris on wednesday is possible.

i think i'm going to spend the weekend closing records and reevaluate things on monday.

i don't know the outcome of the court case, but it seems like i'm going to be putting things in storage for a while, if i lost.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard. 

i'm starting to think these are being advertised as price per square foot.

none of the ads say that anywhere. but it has to be the truth of it.

so, my $12/month would be more like $850/month in a usable room, and then this doesn't work.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard. 

what i'm worried about is...

can i get disability if i "own a business"?

looks like it should be ok, so long as i don't make more than $200 profit/month, which i never have.

well, i don't have great options. i should look into this.

http://www.mcss.gov.on.ca/en/mcss/programs/social/odsp/income_support/odsp_business.aspx 

jagmeet singh must cut his beard. 

this city is full of abandoned office space, and it costs nearly nothing.

i could legally set up a recording studio and move all of my gear in, then sleep on the couch. i'll just say i'm up all night recording. even if they cut me off the rent portion of disability, i could conceivably end up with more money, so long as i'm paying less than the difference over $480 - which is currently about $200. at $12/month, i could handle $150 worth of electrical & internet without losing money - and it would no doubt be fast, too.

if i can find an office with a shower....

i should ask my worker about this.

https://www.point2homes.com/CA/Commercial-For-Rent/ON/Windsor/City-Centre/100-OUELLETTE/44834295.html

jagmeet singh must cut his beard. 

that was a brawl.

n12s are probably the hardest thing a tenant can fight - there's a certain concept of entitlement underlying them that has to be overturned by a demonstration of bad faith, an appeal to rigour in the burden of proof and a little bit of good luck in compassion from the judge on s. 83 grounds. that was my argument. and, i made it as well as i could.

if i lost, i put up a helluva scrap. and, i have to think that if she was going to throw me out, she would have done it on the spot.

but, i got a little bit of extra luck: this landlord is legitimately daft. she didn't want to listen to her counsel, and she gave me a dozen openings when she didn't need to. some of it was necessitated by a need to bullshit one way or the other: for example, the excuse they gave about moving mom in had to do with her having lifelong epilepsy, but there was a unit open upstairs in july, so what they really had to do was manufacture an event between july 1 and august 30th, but they instead pretended they planned this all along, which let me question why they didn't move mom into the open unit. the counsel was cringing. i noticed. the judge noticed. i also caught her in an open lie and think i managed to convince the judge of it, which was so key - and totally unneeded on her behalf. again: she clearly didn't understand what was going on around her, and it got her into some messes that might end up being the difference.

but, as mentioned, i had a difficult task in front of me, and i can only hope i pulled it off.

the judge will type up a decision some time next week and mail it out the week after that. if i'm out, i'll get at least 11 days. but, she's obligated to consider extending this due to my situation, which is legitimately pretty dire.

i think this is accurate: we went the distance. and, the judge will need to rule on a tko. it's either going to come down to her entitlements overpowering everything, or the judge is going to flat out call bullshit.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

oct 18-19 vlog, where i go to court to fight a frivolous eviction attempt by an aggressive, malicious, dishonest landlord.

i have a recording of this, but i can't upload it, as it's against the law to distribute court recordings in public.

so, i wanted to stay up all day so i could sleep tonight, but that didn't actually happen: the headache came back in this morning, and i ended up sleeping all day.

it's not friday. but, there's a stench in here. i'm going to have to get some activated charcoal right after i win the case. i've been waiting, as i didn't want to buy it if i have to leave, but it's clear at this point that it will be necessary.

i'm going to eat. i may go back to sleep.

it's not likely that i'll get anything at all done before i get back from court.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i've said enough about this: i don't like religion, but i don't support the fashion police.

i'm less concerned about "religious freedom", which i think is an oxymoron, and more concerned about the question as to whether something like this is actually effective. this bill ignores history, and the fact that attempts to suppress religion always lead to religion coming back stronger. if we wish to stamp out religion once and for all, we need to take more enlightened tactics than this. we're better off finding ways to increase integration through gentle coercion. that's what actually works.

what i want to see is muslim women coming together at feminist rallies and burning their niqabs in a show of defiance against muslim patriarchy. i want to see sikh men feel like it's time to move forwards and let go of the past, and cut their beards off and leave their daggers at home. we need gentler tactics in order to accomplish this.

these laws will have them double down, and grow more insular at a time when it is more important than ever to open their social groupings and religious meetings up to outside ideas and secular influences.

i would be more likely to argue in favour of individual expression than religious freedom. but, as it is, individual expression is the more correct argument anyway, because the religion doesn't actually mandate this. this isn't a ban on religious symbols, it's a ban on a fashion decision that is ubiquitous in a specific religion. that's a very different thing, and that much more contemptible: there are excuses for cracking down on religion because it is inherently oppressive, but there are no excuses for restricting individual expression.

i've pointed out before that, despite questionable polling, quebeckers have proven at the ballot box that they don't actually support these laws. the pq has completely exited the left, at this point. let's hope that quebec solidaire takes advantage of this and cleans up.

http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/montreal/quebec-niqab-burka-bill-62-1.4360121

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i was not a fan of the tragically hip - i found them to be excessively pretentious and excruciatingly boring - and i'm not going to pretend that i was.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

Since this is the Landlord’s application, the Landlord bears the burden of proving, on a balance of probabilities that her son genuinely intends to move into the premises.  The Landlord failed to prove on a balance of probabilities that it is more likely than not that her son does genuinely intend to move into the premises.  Since the Landlord failed to meet the burden of proof, the Landlord’s application must be dismissed.

this is very reassuring to read from the most likely adjudicator on the case.

https://www.canlii.org/en/on/onltb/doc/2017/2017canlii60235/2017canlii60235.html?searchUrlHash=AAAAAQANbjEyIGFmZmlkYXZpdAAAAAAB&resultIndex=5

...considering that there's still no affidavit. i'll call one more time tonight, i guess before i crash.  it looks like i'm going to get to cross-examine, as they're going to do it in real-time. i'm hoping it's the mom as that's going to be fun to rip apart. "you're going to pay your ex-husband rent?". but, something i didn't think was viable was the idea that it could be the guy upstairs - the father. that struck me as absurd on it's face, but there are cases where parents take over basement units for themselves, albeit not separate ones like this. see, here's the thing: he has threatened me with eviction repeatedly. hey, he ran his mouth off and has to deal with it - but it's his attitude that's the problem in the first place.

i'm confident, but i can't get cocky. and, if it goes to trial, which i am not convinced it will, then this is far from over, one way or the other. i think this guy is going to get overwhelmed by the stack of paper i give him, freak out and fold.

and, that would be smart.

if he's smart, he'll know when to fold.

i was up early in the evening, did the shopping i needed to do for the rest of the month (minus peppers, which were bad, and eggs, which i forgot), dotted the rest of the is i needed for the case (mostly burning the disc, and making sure i have extra emails on usb if i need to print on the spot) and then got distracted at canlii.

i read dozens of cases through and there's a common theme: n12s are hard to beat, unless the landlord fucks up in leaving behind evidence, and this one has done quite a bit of that. i have eight documented threats of eviction - that is the kind of thing that helps. something else that helps is evidence demonstrating that the landlord is irritated or angry about being forced to do repairs, which is actually what one of my n5s was: she cluelessly filed an n5 requesting i be evicted for asking her to landlord, which is exactly what i need to prove to the court. the large amount of conflict is the other thing i need to demonstrate. i also have examples of her behaving in bad faith. i even have evidence suggesting she wants to sell (two fire inspections and an appraisal in the same week). nobody wants this, but i couldn't ask for a better situation, if i have to have it. the few cases that i was able to find that seem similar led to a dismissal.

even so, if i somehow lose, the outcome is usually an extension. i can also claim hardship, given that i live on odsp. that's usually good for a few months, and by then the building might be sold, which should give me time to appeal.

i need to push myself to stay awake until late in the afternoon so i'm up fresh on thursday morning. i think i've got together everything i can get together. so, i should get some work done over the next few hours.

i'm not going to ship before thursday. it will be soon, though. 48 will be printed tonight, at least.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i'm glad i gave myself a few days, but that didn't take as long as i feared it would.

i have a mountain of evidence to sort through, designed to question whether they're acting in good faith, which i think they clearly aren't.

i'm expecting the judge to throw the case out, if the paralegal even lets it get there.

this was a ploy cooked up to generate a settlement. there's no chance i'm going to sign on to this: the choices are that they can walk away and avoid a counter-suit, or they can go through with it and suffer the consequences.

they are not intelligent people, and i do not expect them to make a smart choice.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i didn't realize it at the time, but that principle had thatcher hair.

it was your typical mindless anti-science, pro-conformity conservatism that had her tell me to go sit down and be quiet and wait my turn. the test scores were clear enough, but the data was no match for her wisdom.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

iq scores.

i've done well on these my whole life. i was identified as gifted as a kid and recommended to be skipped forward grades, although the principal stepped in and decided against it. in hindsight, the principal was a moron: she claimed that my behavioural problems suggested i should not be skipped, when any behavioural expert would have immediately realized i was acting out because i was bored. i obviously needed more stimulation, and she specifically stepped in to deny it. she was a very stupid woman and made a clearly wrong choice.

i wrote an iq test for the government of canada about ten years ago, and scored in the 99th percentile. when i showed up to the interview, the guy thought it was a typo - and i was unable to convince him that it wasn't. he'd done hundreds of interviews and never seen a score that high.

the self-identified genius, trump, vs. tyrannicalasaurus rex? i actual don't think trump does particularly poorly on an iq test. clinton was a rhodes scholar, and trump is not that, but he's not legitimately stupid like bush was, either. his iq likely comes in around average, to perhaps a tad above average. the fact that he's teetotal actually probably helps him a little, here - but he really is a reflection of your average fox watching blue collar stiff, and his iq scores will no doubt reflect this. if he wasn't born into money, he'd have been an assembly line worker somewhere. and he fucking well knows it.

what is likely to be more surprising is to learn that t. rex actually uses his sharp, pointy teeth to eat fruit - that he's about average intelligence, too.

verdict: statistically interchangeable.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

republishing inri048

this track represents somewhat of a refocus, but it never found itself to fruition in the way it was meant to.

over the summer of 2001, a friend of a friend decided he wanted to start a band and asked me to play bass. now, we didn't really have a lot in common besides both being musicians. i was spiralling out into obscure independent music, and he was into all the mainstream rock bands. 2001 was the point where grunge was losing it's last bit of mainstream potential, and giving way to nu metal and various watered down, corporatized offshoots of hardcore. so, i was sitting around listening to tortoise and writing jazz compositions and he was sitting around listening to limp bizkit and writing mtv/radio rock. how could this legitimately work?

there was a small amount of overlap, centred mostly around tool. it so happened to be that tool had just released a new record, we were both listening to it and neither of us really had anybody else to talk to about it. so, something formed out of that.

now, when you're an isolated twenty year old that's never been lucky enough to meet another musician you can start a band with, you take what you can get. it seemed implausible that it was going anywhere, but wasn't that the case for every other band that ever went anywhere when they first started off? i don't think either of us thought we were natural creative partners, but we had a set of common goals and if we could put aside our differences...

see, the thing is i knew that the only way anything was going to happen is if i sat down and recorded a bunch of stuff. but, i also knew that this is a guy that defines himself in terms of his oversized ego and that the whole purpose of it from his perspective was to give himself a way to explore it. that's not the worst trait to have if you want to start a band, either. my overwhelmingly shy introversion hasn't exactly got me filling stadiums, has it? nor is it ever going to, and i realized it even at that stage. so, a natural role would be for me to play the producer (along with the bass guitar) while he throws some stuff at me. if that meant i'd be doing 90% of the actual recording, that would be ok, but i realized i had to let him provide the actual song structures or he'd storm off and pout about it.

so, i waited for him to provide some material. and waited. eventually it became clear that he didn't actually have any serious songs. we did a few demos, but he could barely play what he was trying to demo and the tracks were not of a gigging quality level.

in the mean time, he'd recruited a guitarist. he kept saying he was talking to a drummer (no drummer ever appeared), and he also recruited another friend of a friend as a singer. so, we had what seemed like a full band, if you include the imaginary drummer. what i saw was an opportunity. if he wasn't going to write some songs, i guess i'd have to...

the other guitarist almost immediately dropped out, and the whole project really fell apart rather quickly when the guy that initiated the whole thing stopped showing up to practice. it was several weeks in a row that only the singer and i showed up. i had a few songs i had written, so we started working on those instead and that became rabit is wolf. predictably, there was much pouting.

that leaves this particular song in an isolated limbo. when it was reworked for rabit is wolf (inri057), it took on the epic and experimental nature i was exploring at the time and lost the crux of itself as a stadium rock song. i feel something valuable was lost in this process, if for no other reason that this is so dramatically different than anything else i was doing at the time.

thankfully, i still have the original drum files, and i remember how to play the guitar part, so it's simply a process of recreating it. the raw mix sounds exactly as the track did in 2001. the complete mix takes it to it's final conclusion.

a number of literal remixes were added on oct 16, 2017, including the electronics only mix for the ry30 disc, from dec 27, 2015.

the ep also includes some files from 2001 that are attached to the initial cynicide project.

written in the summer of 2001. remembered over july, 2014. completed august-september, 2014. released sept 24, 2014. expanded, finalized and re-released on oct 16, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

credits

released september 16, 2001

j - electric guitars, analog & digital effects & processing, electric bass guitar, synthesizers, orchestral & other sequencing, drum programming, digital wave editing, sampling, loops, equalization, vocals (8), production

the rendered electronic orchestra includes tuba, saxophone, flute, clarinet, orchestra hit, piano, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and various full string sections.

sean - vocals (track 9)

jon - acoustic guitar (track 9)

 

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

i have eight items left to ship on that huge order.

i was hoping to ship at least two before i had to stop for the court process, which is on thursday morning. in order to do that, i'd have to at least get done 48 and 56.

i'm just about to close 48. i'm not going to be able to look at 56 at all.

the date is on thursday. of course i'm stressed out about it, but all logic suggests that i have a very strong case in front of me.

i don't know how long it's going to take for me to prepare. i don't plan on taking any video, but i'm going to have to print some pictures of things like dead cockroaches. looking at what's between 48 and 56, 55 is the only substantial hurdle. the important thing is that i get the numbers right...

i might be able to ship this week, still.

if not, i'll still have until the 31st here - and probably until dec 1st, worst case.

again: i can't imagine a judge ruling against me, given the circumstances. if i was the judge in this case, i'd demand extreme documentation. as far as i can tell, they haven't submitted an affidavit, and i might even be lucky enough to get to cross-examine it in real-time if they leave it to a verbal statement on the day of. but, let's suppose the reason they give is medical. given the circumstances, if i were the judge i'd demand a doctor's certificate to back up the statement. this is a landlord that has already attempted to evict me three times without cause - it is an extraordinary claim for them to claim their parents need the unit, all of a sudden, so they need extraordinary proof.

i'm dealing with a paralegal, here. but, i think they've already fucked the situation up so badly that the case is virtually impossible. if they claim it's medical, for example...how? this place is not near a hospital, it has insects and the air quality is terrible. how do you get a medical claim out of that?

the place should probably be declared uninhabitable, and i'll take a scorched earth policy if i need to...

...but i'm kind of relying on the ability of the judge to smell bullshit. and, it stinks. badly.

further, if i get the expected judicial response, it opens them up to damages. even if i lose, and they list the unit, as of course they will, they're still opening themselves up to months of damages. i'm going to have to reiterate to them, as i already have, that they're better off walking away from the trial. virtually any other choice is going to cost them a small fortune. and, if i end up evicted for chasing cats off the property, you can be certain that i'll make them pay dearly for it.

i'm going to close 48 and get something to eat. then, i'm on pause until further notice. i apologize to the guy that bought this stuff, but this is a really dire scenario - i don't have another option, and could very well end up living in a storage bin for months.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

republishing inri047

to understand this piece, it's necessary to go back to 1998.

i was working out primitive sequencer parts for the first inri demo and it just sort of crossed my mind that there was really nothing stopping me from composing symphonies except for a lot of music theory. well, if i could write electronic music without training, why couldn't i write symphonies without training? i mean, the score writing program exists in front of me. it was just a question of experimenting with it. i could do it myself...

...but i actually already had a pretty hefty disdain for music theory by the age of 17. i'd managed to come across a music history textbook that traced the deconstruction of western theory from beethoven through to schoenberg and this, combined with my experiences as a guitarist, was enough to prevent me from taking it seriously. the perception i had was of modern composers viewing music theory sort of like how biologists viewed creationism. i use that analogy fairly frequently. it just didn't strike me as relevant.

now, i've softened a bit over time to a view that music theory is best understood in terms of the underlying physics. this renders the theory useless, but upholds the basic relationships between tones as physical, mathematical realities. the thing is the next step of abstraction is understanding that these mathematical objects can be arranged and analyzed in any arbitrary way, and the conventional theory really *is* a fallacy akin to creationism. so, i still hold to the general thesis. this is actually the first serious example of me putting that disdain for the idea that music should have a theory into real action. i remain adamantly of the view that art is not a realm where theories should exist or be viewed with anything other than scorn. theories are rigid, formal things; art is informal, chaotic.

so, it's 1998. i have a scorewriter and a very basic soundcard and i want to bullshit a symphony out of it. i did this by composing a single brief melody by randomly mashing notes into a scorewriter. i then took that melody and pasted it over top of itself at differing speeds (64th, 32nd, 16th, 8th, quarter, half, whole notes). i then took that, cut it off near the end of the half notes and pasted it over itself, backwards.

that might sound like it's going to sound awful, but it actually sounds quite lovely. one could analyze it quite easily, but it's creation is beyond the realm of any rules of construction.

which is where art belongs.

...excepting the algorithm i used, of course. i suppose it's more reich than schoenberg, but kind of more xenakis than either.

the initial version ended up subsumed underneath a messy noise collage that i created independently and have lost the source material for. that messy noise collage was eliminated from the track for the 1999 version, which was reconstructed by reproducing the algorithm. these are tracks 19 and 20 on this systematic exploration of the theme.

in 2001, i ran the midi file through my soundblaster live!, which as primitive as it is, has a much nicer wavetable in it than the primitive soundcard i used in 1998 and 1999 (i don't remember what it was). this is track 21. i also slowed it down by about 20 bpm and allowed the full file to "intersect", which let it breathe more; this is track 22. i've previously not done anything with this mix other than append it to some mix cds. the guitars on the soundblaster are notoriously bad, so there wasn't a lot to do with it....

why? well, i was writing a lot with scorewriters at the time and was just experimenting with the old file, really. but i was also finishing up what would be the only year i would spend in the math-physics department, and thought it sounded like i would imagine intersecting particles *should* sound like. i was generally interested in finding ways to combine science with music then - an interest that is present in older tracks as well and that has stuck with me. i may explore these themes further in time. one of the ideas i really wanted to accomplish was a physical modelling of the universe, to actually simulate the music of the spheres, as pythagoras imagined it. i think i underestimated the complexity of such a task....

of course, i never expected the music of the spheres to be tonal. and i wouldn't expect the sound of particles intersecting to be musical, either. but, we can take some artistic license. if intersecting particles are to make a sound, it OUGHT to be something like this!

now, the place to work out the actual intersection is rather arbitrary. i had initially cut off the entire section of pure whole notes, back in '98. what i wanted to do in '01 was create a sequence where it's cut off incrementally, creating shorter and shorter pieces. i didn't actually do that then, but i did do it in july of 2014.

as for the piece, i haven't changed it much or the 2014 reconstruction. i've doubled the guitar with a pizzicato string section, and put it through a better guitar synthesizer (and amp simulator, and effects). the sound fonts are otherwise identical, just updated mildly to a better synthesizer.

a string orchestra mix was added at the end of may, 2015. a new album mix for my first record was created at the beginning of jan, 2016, but not added until october of 2017, along with the failed 2013 remaster and solitary forwards and backwards versions built on the 2016 mix. the release was also split into two discs at this point.

i've included the midi files of the original composition, if you'd like to mess with it on your own.

written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the 2014 version appears on my fifth record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

the 2016 version appears on the final remaster of my first record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-3

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1998, 1999, 2001, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017). 

credits

released June 18, 2001

j - programming, digital effects & treatments, digital wave editing, composition.

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include piano, electric guitar, orchestra hit, synth pads, pizzicato strings, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and pc card. 

 

 

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.